produced by heylog

lyrics:
still oblivious to what u like
took my head cut away for life
hoping you'll see, maybe notice the time
ur wasting, face it, i wanna make u mine
still oblivious to what u like
took my head cut away for life
hoping you'll see, maybe notice the time
ur wasting, face it, i wanna make u mine

fiending for love, don't know if i'll get it
my heart is growing numb, i can never feel it
and if u are the one, doubt i would know it
cause i'm too dumb to know what ur feelin
REMEMBER WHEN YOU SAID YOU WOULD LIKE TO SEE ME
WERE YOU JUST SAYING THAT CAUSE I TOOK IT HONESTLY
NO POINT IN FEELING BAD I'M JUST HAPPY YOU COULD SEE
HOW HARD I'M BOUTTA CRASH AND YOU SAY YOU'RE HERE FOR ME

still healing to be whole
don't know what's inside
guess i could explore
the sun sets west as i pedal on my bike
the rain falls best in a vertical line
still fallin inna hole
let's see what i find
cus i need somethin more
the sun sets west if the horizons behind
the rain falls best in a vertical line

fiending for love
don't know if i'll get
my heart is growing numb
i can never feel it
n if you are the one
doubt i would know it
cause i'm too dumb
to know what ur feelin
remember when u said u would like to see me
were u just saying that cause i took it honestly
no point in feeling bad im just happy u could see
how hard i'm boutta crash

THE THUNDER IS APPROACHING FROM MY HOME TO YOU
CAUSE EVERYTIME I DROVE BACK THE SKY WAS NEVER BLUE
AND THAT HAD TO MEAN SOMETHING BABE
CAUSE IT HAPPENED EVERYTIME I LEFT YOUR PLACE
NOW EVERYTIME IT RAINS I ALWAYS THINK OF YOU
CAUSE WE COULD BE KISSING, DANCING UNDER THE MOON
NOW I WONDER IF YOU THINK THE SAME THINGS
I DOUBT IT, PROBABLY JUST ME
SO KILL ME NOW CAUSE I KNOW I'M LOSING YOU
IT'S SO HARD TO BREATH IF WE'LL NEVER UNDO
I STILL LOVE YOU WITH EVERYTHING
IT'S BEEN A WHILE LAYING EYES ON YOUR FACE
I'M WRITING THESE SONGS N BABY THEY'RE ALL FOR YOU
HOPING THAT YOU SEE AND COME IN TO PURSUE
SO BABY TELL ME WE'RE OK
IS THIS LIFE? CAUSE I'M HOPING IT'S A PHASE

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oblivious

produced by heylog

lyrics:
stop
(what)
where did we go wrong
like.. it hasn't even been long
i always search for u
but hell, i don't have a clue
i might've made you a song
but
does that even have a cost?
no
well baby it's all that i've got
hoping that we could just stop
listen here u need to know
come closer this is unknown
our love is what i'd die for
i don't bluff so let's explore
(ok)
i love you and no one else
i left u so i'll take the guilt
please don't move and just sit still
please don't go it's me i'll kill

i trusted you, i guess rn ur dead to me
i look at you and every time i grit my teeth
she said we're friends but na ur not friends w me
and i swear u would never get along w me
look
u were the only friend i ever had
but i still have all these cuts along my back
thought i'd never forgive you
never thought you'd be an issue
and i put every bit of my trust in her
now i have a hard time trusting anyone
forget you, i wanna be alone
i hate you, thought you were my bro

i love you

produced by heylog

lyrics:
so how long has it been since i saw you
it was right after summer when i was leaving ur place
and i knew right then and there i won't be okay
wipe the tears from our eyes, everything will be okay
do u believe in love cause i'm having a hard time
believing myself, let's drink to that and raise my
cup and make a toast to us lonely people
at least we know we'll forever be peaceful and so i been
counting months it's almost eleven
since we've talked and showed u affection
i'll never have anyone to connect with
like we had or the feeling of commit
maybe this time i'll go up to heaven
getting weaker by the day, pain just pressing
thinking what to do with my life, it's depressing
thinking i'll always be alone, i expect it

on my arm, you look with dissapointment
i knew it was wrong, trust me won't do it again
u made me feel alive, i thank u for that
now i got a heart that has no light in it

eleven

produced by heylog

lyrics:
i just woke up and i'm not even tired
it's 7 in the morning but i ain't set my timer
u said u fell asleep but i think ur a liar
it's a shame that ur the only one that i admire
is it too much for u to shoot a text
cause it'd probably just take a sec
right now i take it slow with baby steps
but i think that u just want me in my bed
and that's fine
yea it's okay
but i lie
but you'd do the same
and i wonder why even stay?
when ur just killing time and worsening my pain

do you think our friend's would hold support for us
i don't know whether this is lust or love
thinking about your lips in between mine
i'd treat u better than these stupid guys
so if we were together i would give support for you
and not just a little i would give a ton
so maybe u should keep it in mind
i'd treat you better than any other guy

the violent sounds that keep me up at night
leaves my neck in sweat causing my pillow to fight
but i lay back down, praying for sleep
their words are profound, they're never nice to me no
so is it too much for u to shoot a text
i swear it'd probably just take a sec
rn i take you slow with baby steps
but i swear that u just want me in my bed
procrastinating whether if i should go to sleep
cause i don't wanna see you in another dream
oh i hate it
it feels so real
i could touch it
and keep u sealed

don't tell her i'll be gone
either way she wouldnt know
i just took off
I'll see you when i play a show
mom and dad have moved
thought for sure they wouldn't go
let me stay with you, you are my second home
i wanted you to see
i wanted you to know
i'd tell you to my friend's just so i could boast
but you don't understand
that i am not a man
i do this for my brother
and i do this for my fans
fake talk, this a face off, i ain't scared of you
bite down, rip my tongue off and the blood run through
show up i got teeth marks and my peck turned blue
the suns down, imma head out yeah it was nice to see you
i gotta keep my cool yeah just wait wait wait wait
you gotta calm down log but i'm addicted to the pain
LOVE WHEN YOU LIE
LOVE WHEN YOU SPEAK
LOVE WHEN YOU CRY
AND LOVE WHEN YOU BREATHE
POSTED OUTSIDE, WAR IS COMPLETE
I FOUGHT FOR MY LIFE
IT GOT DEADLY
BLOOD ON MY FACE, STOP HOLDING ME
DODGING A MACE
BUT I DON'T RETREAT
i need to lay down thank god i'm alive
i knocked your man's down, i think he might die
lost our loved one's
bring peace to us all
cowards they run
and snakes in the wall
pray for em all

snakes in the wall

produced by heylog

lyrics:
am i alive? guess we'll know if i breathe
i killed them all i can live in peace
i lost a lot, praying for enemies
avoiding evil that i might bring
i'll fight till death if it keeps u safe
i'll kill them all just to make sure ur okay
they charge at me, hold my ground, be brave
i lost my mind and there's nothing that remains

(one, two, three, go)

i just wrote you a letter
i wish u the best
yea i been doin better
and that's a big step
u got what u asked for
a life with no us
but u come back for more
and it's never enough
i just sent a letter
all the way from home
i'll miss u forever
why'd u have to go
i'm caught up in the center
baby i could die
it has been a pleasure
i'll meet u in the sky
this is it yea can't let down my guard
i never talk man, don't put me in charge
i cut her off should've done that from the start
leaving marks
i don't love me
why do i continue? swim in agony
we were so close until u stabbed me
i cut u off too cause u were bad for me
don't come back to me no

i'm so nervous right now i'm tweaking, why can i not speak
i fidget, it's so obvious i have anxiety
u sat there and did nothing while u saw me slowly bleed
i wiped it from my skin now there's scars for eternity
am i okay? guess we'll know if i breathe
check for my pulse to make sure it beats
i lost a lot, it's too much for me to see
i talk to god, praying for my enemies

the war II

produced by heylog

lyrics:
i wait patient for karma
butterflies and larva
pain in my sternum
poking me in my heart oh
floating i've risen
fall apart, rebuild it
emptiness, refill it
but i'm out of liquid
i made it far
low on juice, recharge
going through some photos, i feel pain in my heart
(god)
love me or not, do something
don't tease or play w my feelings
wait here in the cold
anger, unfold

you
oh
you
oh
you
oh
oh
you
baby hold me
enough is not enough
i need something
when i fall out of love

listen here u need to know
come closer, this is unknown
our love is what i'd die for
i don't bluff so let's explore
(ok)
i love u and no one else
i left u so i'll take the guilt
please don't move and just sit still
don't let go it's me i'll kill

can't stop coughing
bruising my chest
i make mistakes, keep losing my head
avoiding talk, don't wanna see friends
afraid of toxics i can feel it
you said u was my boy
but i hear the fake in your voice
(so fake)
"WHY DO I NEVER HEAR FROM YOU OR SEE YOU
WHY DO I NEVER KNOW WHAT YOU BEEN UP TO"
I DON'T FEEL LIKE CONVERSATING
I BOTTLE UP, GIVE IT TIME TILL I BREAK IT
DROWNING AND DROWNING MY SENSE
HOW AM I BLESSED WHEN YOU SAW WHAT I DID
LET OUT MY EMOTION UPSTAIRS IN MY CRIB
PROCRASTINATING AGAIN AND AGAIN

'the war III' produced by heylog

lyrics:
resting my eyes wonder if this is a dream
barely get by, drips of blood stain through my fleece
stumbled across some stones near the creek
stopping i pause and hear the angels sing
gasping breaths of air, vision narrow and it's blurred
stop telling me to calm down that only makes it worse
sharpen i got claws now, cutting through my shirt
this is not the end just know soon i will return
watching people die, i cannot look or see
covering my eyes, i hear the distant screams
plugging both my ears but the sound bleeds
crying more tears than it is raining
throw it all away could tell u didn't care
is that all u got? love when it ain't fair
move me out and crop the picture, never there
people love to talk but never wanna square

tell me what u want baby tell me what u need
going through it all everything is out of reach
engaging in a fight everyone is scared of me
but they will never know deep down i'm only weak
please just hear me out can u promise me one thing
i can never win if u promise you'll never leave
baby i'm alone, does life have any means?
falling through the cracks and slipping right through the seams
stepping on the gas
quarter of a tank
i gotta ways to go but i know i have the strength
not in crowds or packs
2 if even that
i fight all by myself, capable of what i have

go in pissed off risking my life
stranded, panic tracking the time
dangerous hatred, kill and divide
this is not what i had implied
bleeding out, mission abort
loose ties, cutting the cords
stable, carry support
no i don't care if this all distorts
contradicting yourself, you make no sense
i try to get me to talk but i'm so dense
shoot my thoughts at the floor and think again
my depression is war, a chain of events
u made a mistake of losing this
now i feel unworthy of so many things
i continue to grow, thanks to a screen
and continue to fly feeling free

trusting my gut
made the right choice
when is it time to stop feeling destroyed
bottom of the ocean
fell into a void
i kinda like it here no sign of any noise
fighting for my life
this is the war III
letting go of souls
who were so close to me
aching won't stop
my heart from leaving
charging with no hope
but i have to believe

believe
believe
believe oh, i need to believe

the war III

featuring @user-411557229
produced by heylog

lyrics:
(heylog)
the veins in my skin pop out when i'm warm
i handle a blade and point to my arm
oh she'd be upset if i put it through
i'll put it away but only for u
well this time u won, you proud of yourself
i put us down, no need to be held
i've suffered too long in my mental state
i'm harming myself, does it look like i'm okay
i said u were right
and i'm sorry just know i'm not bright
or the smartest, keep beating my eyes
till they're blue and to where i can't see
now they're swollen, i'm blind in my view
and now everyday feel like i lose
but i'm trying to cope without u
and it's hard oh baby it's hard
so wish me ur luck and ur regards

it drips from my forearm to my shirt
watching the blood fall is the worst
ignore all of your calls cus i've learned
i made it a full year without her
I LISTEN TO NONSENSE ON A BASIS
IT'S ALL IN MY HEAD AND IT'S MY FAVORITE
I KEPT THEM AROUND FOR ENTERTAINMENT
I CHOOSE TO STAY PRIVATE AND FACELESS
DON'T TEXT ME
DON'T CALL ME
I'VE WITNESS AUTOPSY
DON'T COME HOME
I WON'T BE HERE
I LEFT SO IT'S SINCERE
a lots on my mind
like my future and maybe a wife
and i wonder if music's my prize
it's the only thing going for me
been a week since i've gone outside
i'm pathetic it sums up my life
forgot her and god it's about time
and something that i can't help but think
if ur disappointed in me

(residential)
tell me what you find
deep inside her eyes
cause she used to be kind
until she lost her mind

blade in the basement
i'm high but i'm anxious
snapping back the hat when i am next in the rotation
thought i found myself, but i'm in dissociation
love being alone, but i don't fuck with isolation

quarter ounce
pack it up and take me out
you said i’d be better now
but all i got are pills around

where the fuck you’ve been at
you left your nail marks on my back
now i'm going too fast
but i can't help but think about the past
i just smoked what was left in the bag
and i really don't mind if i crash

pathetic ft. residential

'goodbye' produced by heylog

lyrics:
almost 5am, i find it harder to sleep
i crack the window and i hear every animal sing
with a wind blowing soft, rustling through the leaves
admire nature as it comes alive from winter to spring
the flowers grow so tall that they start to bloom
and i just took a couple out cus i picked them for u
hoping one day you'll travel here to see what's new
cus this bouquet is gonna die if u don't visit me soon
and i
have a difficult time
spending days
when ur on my mind
wish this
would just go away
cus i'm trying to push u away
why
do i feel lonely
knowing i
hurt to see
an outcast
no one wants to be
and giggled at
n always being teased

can someone give a valid reason on why i shouldn't die
in disbelief that i will never see a point in life
i'm on and off of feeling bad and for a second i'm fine
it's so messed up and i don't think that i will ever resign
i'm so bipolar and i don't want u to see me like this
cus i guarantee i'll scare u if i speak from my chest
i didn't mean for u to leave when u saw that on my wrist
and i'm so sorry for putting u through all of this 
so why
do u keep playing w me
is it cause
u get lonely
in the night
and think of us
well it's fine
cus i think of us too
why
do i feel like this
well nevermind
cus u don't care about this
and if i die
will u grieve
and will cry
and will u miss me

CAN SOMEONE GIVE A VALID REASON ON WHY I SHOULDN'T DIE
CAUSE YOU MAKE ME WANNA KILL MYSELF OR GO GRAB THE KNIFE
I'M AT THE AGE WHERE I CAN NEVER SEE A POINT IN LIFE
IN DISBELIEF OF EVERYTHING THAT I'M JUST WASTING MY TIME
I'M SO BIPOLAR AND I DON'T WANT YOU TO SEE ME LIKE THIS
CAUSE I GUARANTEE I'LL SCARE YOU IF I SPEAK FROM MY CHEST
I'M AT THE BOTTOM OF THE OCEAN WITH ALL OF MY REGRETS
THERE'S MANY THINGS I WISH WERE GONE OR WISH I COULD RESET
I STEP INTO THE LIGHT AND DID THIS WITHOUT A GROUP
AND SO YOU NOTICING ME NOW WHEN I'M STEADY ON THE MOVE
AND YOU JUST THINK IT'S ALL OKAY TO HIT ME UP OUT OF THE BLUE
I'M NOT YOUR FRIEND OR TYPE OF BENEFIT TO SATISFY YOU
SO PLEASE GIVE A VALID REASON THAT YOU WANT ME DEAD
IS IT SAFE TO EVEN KNOW THAT THIS JUST MIGHT BE A TEST
FOR YOU TO TRICK ME INTO THINKING I'M NOTHING BUT A MESS
DELETE YOUR IMAGE THAT I LONGED FOR AND NOT SEEN AGAIN

if i can't love
will i end up
alone and forgot
or spend it w someone
i can't fall in love
my hearts dead
probably numb
i miss u my dear
it feels like it's been years

no way home
i was never close
the path ends here
don't know where to go
stone cold lies
i knew i was right
so farewell
cus this is goodbye

goodbye

produced by heylog

lyrics:
her eyes frown upon me looking at the mess
marks are on my shoulder blade and right below my neck
oh she can't stand the look i give her back
please don't be afraid
it was just a little scratch

it was just a little scratch..

u make me nervous
sending chills from head to toe
i could feel ur fingertips 
dig into my bones
i'm not scared at all
you can have me by my throat
her iris weakens thee
the brown just got a hold of me

a hold of me..

you look cold so i'll keep u warm
keep u warm
walking through the snow and i see ur door
see ur door
u look so pretty waiting there for me
there for me
sparks are round ur eyes when u stare at me
stare at me

stare at me
stare at me..

iris

produced by heylog

lyrics:
don't u ever talk about me or ur gonna get yourself hurt
i wake up and i'm winning, how does second feel when i'm first
my life might be lame but at least that i'm not lamer
i gotta get goin and i hope to see u never

i'm getting closer and closer
and closer
it's over
cause ima steer off if i keep losing composure
YOU'RE GETTING CLOSER AND CLOSER
AND CLOSER
IT'S OVER IT'S OVER
if u ever talk about me boy ur gonna get ur ego hurt
how does second feel when i'm consistently just placing first
maybe you'll reflect from your mistakes just how i have learned
we are not the same cause u are opposite of down to earth

i have fun, i don't need a beer
u talk and it goes out my ear
my hair smells like tobacco smoke
puff cigars, the bands maduro
she's wasted while i'm cookin heat
(damn son)
i can't talk i'm making a beat
can't text, i'm sweating down my chin
pump iron, bumping 2hollis

now don't you ever talk about me or ur gonna get urself hurt
wake up and i'm winning, how does second feel when i'm first
my life might be lame but at least that i'm not lamer
i gotta get going and i hope to see u never

maduro

produced by heylog

lyrics:
when i burn in fire
you gave a hand
i'll try not to let go
she understands
nothing is more beautiful
than your demand
i thank u for being
so delicate

i'll decide ur demeanor to me
no ambition it was never easy
on the highway he finally came clean
how the hell could you do that to me
i thought u were my bestfriend
cus i know that they don't cut ur back
text and i won't answer, get on read
don't play w my emotions i'm so delicate
so delicate

when i burn in fire 
u gave a hand
but i might just let go
and she understands
nothing is more beautiful
than your demand
i hope i treated you
better than him

walking outside notice autumnal leaves
yellow and red and a few orangish trees
the air is fresh when i'm jogging thru this subdivision
my legs hurt.. take breath heavily
run by three deer on my right
they look at me like i'm threatening their life
the parents are guarding their fawn
sometimes i wish family could be us

autumn

produced by heylog

lyrics:
we went through a lot of ups and downs
yet you still stayed close to my side
we often dug straight to the ground
you don't know what i look like now
just a number in my phone
i'll love you the most
march is a horrible month
why's it always cold
spent the end to cry
i miss you every night
don't call me when you see this
i'll hit decline
i don't look the same
as i used to
is this a bad thing
log, i don't know you
i don't look the same
like before
and i don't recognize myself
anymore

2 weeks 'till i go home
can't wait to see you, oh
october is when you go
now things are coming to
an end

she'll only love me if i just love myself
but baby with you i felt things i don't feel
i couldn't imagine to feel someone else
the thought of it always gets me overwhelmed
i hate separating from people i love
but i go forever without anyone
i will go for days and not say any words
you won't hear from me cause i sit back and lurk
closing the drapes to block out any light
the things that i do i would never advise
it's so bad for me and hm, i wonder why
growing more acne and i'm not surprised
don't look at me, please don't look at my face
the way that you stare makes me humiliate
i swear i get uglier
i don't look the same
you won't recognize me by how much i've changed
changed

update failed

produced by heylog 

lyrics:
I LIKE TO THINK ABOUT YOU WHEN I REST
I LIKE TO THINK WE'LL BE TOGETHER AGAIN
SHE DON'T WANT ME TO LEAVE
NOW SHE'S BEGGING HER DAD FOR ME TO STAY
I THINK ABOUT IT WHEN WE MET
BUT ALL THESE MEMORIES ARE DEAD
I FEEL IT SLOWLY DISSIPATE
I DON'T KNOW IF IT'S TIME TO WALK AWAY
notice how it falls in deeper
deeper
oh, it goes deeper
know that i can't be ur healer
healer
healer
ur healer
EVERYTHING'S ABOUT YOU AND THE REST
BUT I GOT TO GO WITHOUT YOU CAUSE IT'S BEST
I LIKE TO THINK WE'LL CROSS PATHS SOMEWHERE ELSE
I HATE THAT THESE THOUGHTS ARE WHERE I DWELL

notice how i fall in deeper
deeper
oh, i go deeper
baby, i can't be ur healer
healer
healer
ur healer

𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘪𝘵, 𝘪'𝘮 𝘶𝘱𝘴𝘦𝘵
𝘪𝘵'𝘴 𝘸𝘢𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘥, 𝘴𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘴
𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘦 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘨𝘳𝘰𝘸𝘯
𝘪 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘢 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘮𝘢𝘤𝘩 𝘢𝘤𝘩𝘦 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘪𝘵 𝘢𝘭𝘭

i don't say enough prayer
or kneel beside the bed
i ask on some nights
to see you again
i didn't find anything
or see any signs
unless they were right in front of me this whole time
i hate that all of my friends
live so far away
it's very lonely
and it's so cliche
i like thinking of you
i do it a lot
why give attention to something that's forever gone?

I LIKE TO THINK ABOUT YOU WHEN I REST
I LIKE TO THINK WE'LL BE TOGETHER AGAIN
SHE DON'T WANT ME TO LEAVE
NOW SHE'S BEGGING HER DAD FOR ME TO STAY
I THINK ABOUT IT WHEN WE MET
BUT ALL THESE MEMORIES ARE DEAD
I FEEL IT SLOWLY DISSIPATE
I DON'T KNOW IF IT'S TIME TO WALK AWAY

healer

produced by heylog

lyrics:
let me show you how to act right
if you listened it would define
just the type of person u are
it doesn't matter what you go by
cause you'll always be the same person
and you'll always be one of the worst friends
you always were the one to go
when i thought i could count on u the most

lesson learned, don't hold your grudge
even if it could lose someone
hate to know the truth be told
now everything is overthrown

do u wonder where u come from?
picturing at what you've really done
does it affect the way you see your arch?
do they look at you less than what you are?
cause you've always been the same person
and you've always fought the urge to sin
& goodluck tryna get me back
at 2am it kills you bad

no, you messed with the wrong person
yeah you messed with the wrong
you messed it up on purpose
yeah you messed it up
hopefully lesson learned 
i hope a lesson here was learned
i did what i had to do man
and in all honesty 
you're hurting

continue

produced by heylog

lyrics:
SOMETHING ABOUT YOUR FACE AND SOMETHING ABOUT YOUR LIES
IT'S GIVING ME THIS HATE THAT I CANNOT SUBSIDE
DON'T EXPECT ME TO SAY ANYTHING TO YOU
WE'RE THROUGH
SOMETHING ABOUT YOUR FACE AND SOMETHING ABOUT YOUR LIES
IT'S GIVING ME THIS HATE THAT I CANNOT SUBSIDE
DON'T EXPECT ME TO SAY ANYTHING TO YOU
WE'RE THROUGH
YOU'RE SO DISRESPECTFUL TOWARD ME IN RETURN
YOU ACTUALLY EXPECTED I WOULD COME TO TERMS
AFTER YOU TURNED YOUR BACK
DID YOU CARE I WAS HURT
I'M HURT
I WON'T EVER TAKE OR SEE YOU SERIOUS
YOU HAVEN'T SEEN ME LATELY NOW YOU'RE CURIOUS
LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE I WANT NO ONE AT ALL
I'M ALL I GOT
look at me when ur afraid
everything u see is grey
I THOUGHT I COULD TAKE
WHAT YOU PUT ON ME, IT GAVE
AN UNDERSTANDING OF WHO I WAS THEN AND WHAT I AM NOW
CAUSE I WAS SO STUPID BACK THEN, NOW I'M CONSTANTLY RAISING A BROW

something about your face and something about your eyes
that fumes me everyday and charges up inside
oh you built up this hate and beef i have with you
we're through

afraid

produced by heylog

lyrics:
can't u ever be nice
you don't have to think twice
in the moment each time that i run away
in the end it's your fault
really gave you my all
u don't have to be a problem toward me anyway

there's much more to life than going out
spend saturday night dead on the ground
𝘱𝘢𝘴𝘴𝘦𝘥 𝘰𝘶𝘵
I HIGHLY DOUBT YOUR FATHER'S EVEN PROUD
JUST ANOTHER WHORE FOLLOWING THE CROWD
broken glass, the bottles enticing
she told me her sign is a pisces
𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵?
do i look like someone who even cares
𝘯𝘰 𝘨𝘰𝘥
you and i would never pair
already off on the wrong path
ur such an idiot, hope you know that
i used to find you cute but now ur trash
you can change but na you can't change ur past
text me, on your end it's open
but you don't know it
you don't know i ghosted
for once, take accountability
always excuses, please
you are disgust to me
there’s much more to life than blacking out
spend almost every weekend on the ground
i smell the alcohol stench in ur mouth
there ain’t a single to be proud of

can't u ever be nice
you don't have to think twice
in the moment each time that i run away
in the end it's your fault
really gave you my all
u don't have to be a problem toward me anyway
𝘳𝘶𝘯 𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘺
𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘺 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘮𝘦
𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘨𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘦

trash

guitars done by @prodjpjp
rest produced by heylog

lyrics:
starving now, it gets pretty bad
you saw it all get split in half
about every bridge has been collapsed
old friends of mine slowly detached
i think it's all my fault
questioning if i'm wrong
how do i make it stop
can't rest at all

one call was all i needed
right now, i feel completed
2019 is over
been four years and got lower
though, for me it stood out
bleed to just hear one sound
i'd die to hear that noise
the calmness of your voice
i knew how it'd turn out
soon you'd be leaving town
and i couldn't bare that thought
was hard to move on
32 degrees, lungs get colder by the second
been through hell and out
it's like there's some type of obsession
wondering the choice you made if you've ever regret it
if you gotta say something why don't you come confess it
everytime you mention how, i need to find me
don't know what ur tryna say
don't know what u mean
i think ur just saying words
you're just saying things
even you confuse yourself
you don't know what to think
the reason why i live is to hope for a day
to finally see guidance leading ur way
wonder how to start, wonder where i go
all of it requires leaving my home
been through a bit and so much has gone
you don't gotta be sorry if i went through a lot
i can see us starting a family
i think it's the only thing that'll help me

starving now, it gets pretty bad
you saw it all get split in half
about every bridge has been collapsed
old friends of mine slowly detached
i think it's all my fault
questioning if i'm wrong
how do i make it stop
can't rest at all
heart's pounding strong
been up for hours
the sun's almost up
like how do i do it
she say, "where you been"
no where
just haven't checked my phone to use it
it's all gone down in carnage
debris in my lungs
wake up, feel like garbage
and get my yeti cup
i'm obsessed, pop a can of caffeine
even 300mg can barely do a thing to me

carnage

'paranoid' produced by heylog

lyrics:
we go and hike in the woods
what a perfect place to be
all my troubles behind
no sign of reality
i could live here and build
a shelter out of trees
say goodbye to the world
no electricity
the way the sun hits the water
i swear i see god himself
i feel shame, i feel hurt
it's like i'm somebody else
i try to hide but it's not
gonna help or save me
cover up all the shame
like adam and eve

i intimidate her
i think she's scared of me
cause your biggest fear is that i'll leave
and then you'll carry on
like nothing happened
and then you'll think about me one night and leech in
why don't you try me
i'm always hiding
i'm like a needle in a haystack, u won't find me
my teeth, i'm grinding
feel like i'm flying
i told you once, i'll say again you'll never find me

hanging out down by the creek
couple deer following me
if i stop to look at them they just stand there as if they freeze
why haven't they ran away?
figured they wouldn't have stayed
hear some branches crack behind now i'm paranoid of this place
look to my left and my right
check my shoulder one more time
maybe i'm a schizophrenic, i be fearing for my life
you hear that, you hear the tones?
i'm convinced i'm not alone
maybe i'll go deeper in the forest to find out if i'm pyscho

we go and hike in the woods
what a perfect place to be
all my troubles behind
no sign of reality
i could live here and build
a shelter out of trees
say goodbye to the world
no electricity
the way the sun hits the water
i swear i see god himself
i feel shame, i feel hurt
it's like i'm somebody else
i try to hide but it's not
gonna help or save me
cover up all the shame
like adam and eve

paranoid

'blinded by the sun' produced by heylog

lyrics:
you are every place i'm at, everywhere i look
what was it i said that made you this shook
i'm just telling the truth and you knew i would
don't interrupt me while i'm tryna cook
this is life
please don't cry
you're in tears
and you're worried i'm to fear
what was it i said that made you this way
everything we had now is down the drain
oh and god i don't feel the need to explain
when family asks about you i feel the pain
feel the pain

this ain't what i expected
i'm learning to accept it
it figures when i move on
you come back with aggression
who do you think u are
to appear whenever you want
do you think that's how this works
the situations now worse

𝘧𝘪𝘳𝘦?

𝘩𝘦𝘭𝘭𝘰?

𝘱𝘳𝘦𝘵𝘵𝘺 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵?
𝘱𝘳𝘦𝘵𝘵𝘺 𝘧𝘺𝘦𝘦 𝘦𝘦 𝘦 𝘦 𝘦𝘦𝘦𝘦𝘦 𝘦 𝘦 𝘦 𝘦  𝘦𝘦 𝘦 𝘦

why'd you make it worse than it had to be
only if u knew how i felt right then
when i see your name i barely can breathe
might as well just consider me a wretch

i hope i fall asleep and never wake
i always see u there and it feels safe
oh no please body don't u dare wake up
i'm in heaven and blinded by the sun

blinded by the sun

'12 gauge' produced by heylog

lyrics:
moving swift, moving clean
all my thrift big on me
and i look goofy when i see
order double in xl
when my body lean as hell
and it's all because i'm well
maybe i should get clothes
that i fit for my size
there are barely i own
jacket got holes in it
but ima still throw it on
cause i don't care if it's ripped
you'll never know
you'll never know
where she had went and where'd she go
i wanna leave
i wanna leave
i wonder what is stopping me
she loves borrowing my wardrobe
said i smell good, so you wear all of my clothes
and they come back smelling like her
next thing u know she has my whole attire

i'll wait 
till u make ur mind up
she wants 
everything i wear cause
all of 
it is oversized
the sleeves are 
well below her thighs
don't take 
every single thing i own
cause i'll 
need it back before u go
and she 
wonders why i said that
i'm not 
confident that this'll last

you ever think about where i been?
you ever think about who we was
cause i do
but i just pretend i don't care about us
she's always apologetic to me
but when did u ever do anything
cause i don't
i hope u will never forget about home

and she always tried on my clothes
i pretend and fake it all
what u don't know
oh, you don't know
keeping secrets way too long
and i cannot continue this
i'm struggling to exist
and u don't know
oh, you don't know
thoughts begin to overflow
you would ask for an extra large to wear
but i only have double x in there
oh but she'll wear anything that i give
so next time i'll come over with ur cares

shutting me down, wake up from rem
i had a dream of us both laying in bed
but when i woke up i thought that it was real
i tried to go back to sleep to get a feel
of what it was like again to see your eyes
i knew it was impossible if i tried
now i'm just laying here, eyelids open
i stare into darkness tryna see objects
the only thing i see is my closet ahead
the same one that bears a certain turtle neck
the same closet thats got my 'retta encaged
the same closet thats got my locked up 12 gauge
and here are these nights i spend alone
turn off the lights, open window
jump into bed, plug in my phone
when i still got 90% left to go
and i fall asleep, but before i do
i sit in silence for an hour or two
these vivid thoughts get into view
and this what it sound like when i dream of you

12 gauge

'empty roads, she's beautiful' produced by heylog

lyrics:
you see me, walk out the door
ice, freezing n storms
pray i make it home
late a.m n roads
you see me
moving along
and this is where i belong
no she don't want me home
late on empty roads

highway, empty roads
pass through constructed zones
heading straight at storms
and she's so beautiful

these dark empty roads
are filled with traffic cones
they always took so long
a patient drive back home

on empty roads
empty roads

empty roads, she's beautiful

'running shoes' produced by heylog

lyrics:
ima run away until i'm weak
ima come back fighting for my peace
hiding out, i hide inside the weeds
you won't hear from me for a few weeks
the things you say never make any sense
gotta stop the mind to second guess
ignoring my gut, it's for the best
battling to get up out of bed

ima find my way back home
streetlights barely lit
and the colors aren't even the same
some are powerless
6: 30 a mile, used to be better than this
why am i getting this tired
no i cannot call it quits
seems like you think that everything was gonna be okay
what i need is me to tell me i'll be okay
look at the ground
look at my feet as my shoes tear
the soles are falling apart
order up a new pair

𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘰𝘳𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘪𝘴 𝘰𝘯 𝘪𝘵𝘴 𝘸𝘢𝘺
𝘴𝘶𝘤𝘤𝘦𝘴𝘴𝘧𝘶𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘢𝘳𝘳𝘪𝘷𝘦𝘥

get in the zone
need to be alone to focus
not any hoe you see me ever approaching
not worth my time
feel my mind boot and decoding
gather any info whether i should keep or close it
you see me
walk out the door
ice, freezing n storms
pray i make it home
late a.m. n roads
hallucinate, seeing two
punching at the air
squinting at black and grey
when the night is there
the smell of fall provides warmth
fingers in my hair
think too deep and it could end at there
think i'm fine, i'm just in too deep
go outside to run hoping the stress leaves me
i'm painting what i see
you couldn't predict at what i might bring

running shoes

'into the wind' produced by heylog

lyrics:
on my last little bit of breath
will i make it to the final stretch
but the wind has something for me instead
bones break and every single muscle group
feels torn apart, skin is turning blue
and i cannot comprehend on what hurts
seems like i did a little bit too much
pushing my limits way too far above
way too far above
the wind before winter is like getting punched
and i ain't got any spit left under my tongue
under my tongue
the wind blows on a tuesday
do you think we'll make it, what do you say
i've been away from home now for a few days
and it got to living like i'm in a new age
standing in the wind, i know it's cold out
2 somethin the morning, it's a ghost town
conscious telling me i should probably go now
cause as soon as the wind stops there ain't no sound

this ain't nothing light and nothing small or subtle breeze
just shows how much force the wind can put resist on me
run i'm almost there, i'm so so close, aheads the fin
head down, forward movement, running straight into the wind
into the wind, into the wind

into the wind

'gravel' produced by heylog

(instrumental)

gravel

produced by heylog

lyrics:
baby i am goin
goin goin
i'm goin
know it know it know it
just know it
goin goin goin
i'm goin
know it know it know it
just know it
(2x)

i no longer am vacant
thank the lord i made it out alive
i was never complacent
but i heard i was sticking in your mind
even if that wasn't true
ain't nobody stoppin you
split my brain in half, in two
i hate that i gotta leave you

baby i am goin
goin goin
i'm goin
know it know it know it
just know it
goin goin goin
i'm goin
know it know it know it
just know it
(2x)

bullseye

produced by heylog

lyrics:
when my body's lying in place
every memory of you now awakes
the road was stable, now it's rough
cause i'm starting to let u back up
i'm fine
at least i tried
bright light
your piece of mind
i am okay
you wanna see what i'm made of
i'm not the same
you wanna see what i'm capable of
i start to feel like nothing
why does everything slip through my hands
people think i'm sad but bitch i'm not
it just looks like i am
can't go out 
i look like i got eczema all down my face
every time i sweat it starts to sting
even with tallow paste
flare up, then get better, do it all over again
red around the center, i'm not tryna screw with it
you don't even wanna know what it's like being me
every second always stressed and always worrying
i rest your soul by my side
cause i know i'll sleep just fine
i barely see anyone
if it's just you i don't mind
i'm upstairs makin some sounds
na this mixed never too loud
want this shit piercing my ears
until it rings so severe
until it

flare

over distorted waste of time
prod heylog

lyrics:
you feel the pain?
what you trying
what you sayin?
bitch say my name
go on, do it
say it loud
let them know we're not the

same
we're not the same

i'm on my own
all i do is move in silence
i don't need to talk
i advance while bein quiet
so
in my head nothing but violence
pray to God he'll bring me peace
and show me lightness yeah

pray God for my peace
pray for enemies

i wanna be dead
so i can hear the angels cry
why am i seeing red
shut up, now is not the time
help me to relax
cause right now i could kill someone
i got a list of rats
and i do not need a gun
i wanna be dead
so God's standing before my eyes
i'm sorry for my sins
i can't control myself sometimes
me? could not forgive
the list of people i would kill
why think like this
the fight to keep my mental still

i feel awake
why you cryin
why you shakin
those follows fake?
WE'RE NOT THE-
heard you barking like a bitch
make them sit
we're not the

same
we're not the same

prod by heylog

lyrics:
there's just something about driving away from your house
you cried in my arms cause i gotta go now
when you touch my skin, i go numb cause of it
your hand on my face, narrow waist on my hips
i don't know why i'm like this
i'm not open minded
i'm filled up with hate
but you keep me sane
she looks up and listens
and she likes submitting
i got you, it's fine
i'll give us a life

there's just something about walking out of your house
you stood at the stairs, i know you'll miss me now
your nails touch my skin, i go numb cause of it
your lips on my mouth and your waist on my hips
god this feelings amazing
the smell of your fragrance
lingers in my room
it makes me miss you
the ripples and dents
you won't bleed again
i got you, it's fine
i'll give you a life

mouth

produced by heylog

lyrics:
tread light, proceed with caution
months passed, i missed the pollen
carry weight that slowly turns to rust
and i'm thinking "what could've been done?"
wonder what's in the deep end
jump off, i swim for a reason
this the worst place i could ever go
and i sleep like "what could i have known"
residue
slip if i'm not using chalk
dirty wounds keep burning from the salt
come with me only if you're not opposed
i'm paranoid
is there something i should know

what is there to know (7x)
WHAT IS THERE TO KNOW (2x)

keep thinking i'm being stalked
i'm convinced i'm being watched
if that's true, i hope it's not
can't believe the time is up

shh

you're too late
that was the best i've felt
i'm so sorry i couldn't contain myself
i say things some would probably hate me for
just know i'm not here when you're at the door
i left a note
did you bother to look
someone had to plant their foot
just understand 
if i see another bird
come toward me, i'm pulling up the dirt

i got the remote
i'm now under control
toggle emote
and hit the swish like free throw
i'm not too bright
it's interesting what i know though
i pinched a nerve
but that snake had to go
man down
that's an elim
look bro, you gotta see this
feels like playin reload
the whole damn lobby on my penis
i'm starting to feel bad
you suck at making decisions
cast out, then reel back
maybe there's something i'm missing
i got no time, put it all way past me
i'm out of the loop, couldn't care what is happening
europe flight, got to finish up packing
lord these cathedral faces are dazzling
no time for none of that
it's day here while you're sleepin
i got a flight to catch
PROVIDE THE FOOD AND FEED EM
I CAN'T LET ANYONE STARVE
PISS OFF IF YOU ARE A LARP
NOTHING BUT DIRT TO ME NOW
AND THAT'S COMING FROM THE HEART

dirt

featuring @sewerperson
produced by heylog

lyrics:
(heylog)
killing all the memories cant get them out my head
do u think you'll remember me what a great way to end
now she's giving me goosebumps, up and down my skin
i don't wanna hurt u, but we were getting tense
i despise u cus i really tried my best
but was there something wrong with anything i did
this fire burns
it's burning out my chest
my hairs developing curls
she run it with her nails

i left her a note but i kept it secret in my head
guess you'll never know what i had wrote or what i said
let me clear the air i don't consider you a friend
oh how we were toxic it was to our benefit
if u truly love her go and say it to her face
but he never will he only spoke it thru the pain
his scars present a symbol she will carry with attain
and she looks at him with disgust and hatred and with vain
she let him slip by but who's the one that holds the blame
she dont care cus she got guys who provide all the needs she craves
cus he could never satisfy her so he solved it on a blade
she acted like she cared but it was nothing but a fake

i don't know how to act right i guess
and u should prolly leave don't want a witness
calling down to the 2 friends i have
but they ain't never here i crave ur love bad
so i don't know how to act right i guess
and u should prolly leave don't want a witness
calling down to the 2 friends i have
but they ain't never here i crave ur love bad
SO I DON'T KNOW HOW TO ACT RIGHT I GUESS
AND SHE'S MINDLESS TALKING BACK WITH HER EX
BUT HE NEVER LOVED HER, ONLY LOVED THE SEX
I GIVE UP I'M SO DONE WITH THIS

(sewerperson)
thru the wind i smell the blood
it tastes to me like broken heart
i know i feel though my body cold
and hungry reaching out for more
peaceful i could sleep peaceful finally
breaks in the trees in my bed pines needle my heart
im still deep in the rows all despite the fresh start and its killing me
im just not myself for the time being
promise u baby i’ve changed i swear
bodies in the garden behind my stairs
i just woke up with em laying right there
crush crush crush all these bugs in my hair
guess i came back from the dead for a moment
i cannot speak with my mouth sewn shut
broke open
welcome to the end you’ve chosen

kill all the memories can’t get them out my head
do u think you’ll remember me what a great way to end
even if I was what they said 
would you still love me then

heylog

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