wintry synth-pop

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'in medias res'

introooo

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the news dropped, and i’m blocked from the inside.
sitting in pitch black just waiting for myself to cry-
why does it feel too easy putting on a smile?
it ain’t like the movies - no sad music, just pure silence now.

it’s like i split in two and they see one of me!
how selfish i am to share the load...
gone too soon, an utmost tragedy.
it’s better if nobody knows, i’ll deal the fatal blow.
don’t let them see or i’ll weep the whole world over,
cos maybe then they’ll let me fucking breathe.

i need to see what’s wrong with me.
my hearts slow, but i’m breathing too fast
the world’s in the wrong place, feeling no type of way
can't help but keep losing my trust, and i’ll leave myself in the dust
yeah, we’ll put it all down to fate - surely i’ll see better days...

call myself an actor, they say it’s nothing to cry about.
now i seem way more mild-mannered, the smile is lost but not yet found.
it’s like i skip two steps then go back three, normal emotions aren’t my thing, you see :(
anything i’d do to get out! get me out!
it’s a fucking ghost town, the busiest around...
these thoughts that run past meeee, can’t help but let them keep me down.
 
it’s like i split in two and they see one of me!
how selfish i am to share the load...
gone too soon, an utmost tragedy.
it’s better if nobody knows, i’ll deal the fatal blow.
don’t let them see or i’ll weep the whole world over,
cos maybe then they’ll let me FUCKING BREATHE AHHHH-

dwell in the silence and it's crippling
dwell in the silence and it's crippling
dwell in the silence and it's crippling

i need to see what’s wrong with me.
my hearts slow, but i’m breathing too fast
the world’s in the wrong place, feeling no type of way
can't help but keep losing my trust, and i’ll leave myself in the dust
yeah, we’ll put it all down to fate - surely i’ll see better days...

written a while ago, but it hits harder now.

limina

silence

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-First song i made with my own guitar playing

Godspeed

prod. me
ft. @t1gerstar

out on all platforms: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/anem0s/empty-nesters-feat-tigerstar

thank u to tigerstar for hopping on this! u are the best :D

lyrics:
(me)
could you tell me
what it is that im missing
i been waiting by
so long for a mission
what's my problem
are you checkin my condition
tell me whats wrong with a little ambition

i been feeling washed up
whats the rush
i been fighting demons
and i never keep in touch
i been talking to my thoughts tryna think the right stuff
but its never not enough
life's always gettin tough

thought i'd never see the change but i'm movin away
empty nesters back home know i got a lot to say
but i'm stuck in my head
blocking out all my problems started thinkin
i was better off stayin in bed

and if the world behaved
i'd be better off now
than i was yesterday
its okay to take a break if you need to
dont shy away from the people who believe you

so im watching where i step
and ill keep on pushin
and the secrets that i kept
now i know i really shouldnt
so ill take another breath
i was too focused on my footing
it took all that i had not to fall right into it

picture this im never sitting til i stop
kept my eyes on the clock
countin seconds til i caught
a glimpse of what im seeking i could never miss the top
if i never make it i can't bear to take the drop

(tigerstar)
thought i'd never see the change but i'm movin away
i took a little bit too much of what i really can take
getting too attached to the buzz i feel when im awake
its only when i sleep enough i can get up to make (something of myself)

you gotta be trying to turn around
you can't be so ready to be turned down
why are you wanting to rush things to happen now?
i don't really mind if they're making me wait

it's really not as serious as they make it out to be
closer to home than a different agency
know i can sound just a little too passionate

i wonder if i'll live up to all you expect from me
letting them down amplifies the pressure
but i won't let you down however you measure that

(me)
thought i'd never see the change but i'm movin away
empty nesters back home know i got a lot to say
but i'm stuck in my head
blocking out all my problems started thinkin
i was better off stayin in bed

and if the world behaved
i'd be better off now
than i was yesterday
its okay to take a break if you need to
dont shy away from the people who believe you

empty nesters ft. tigerstar

shoutout @rawwbguitar for the extra guitar solo :3
https://www.twitch.tv/rawwbguitar 

look at the mess
you made for all to see
i know that its hard
to pull yourself together
just dont blame it on me
just dont blame it on me
just dont blame it on me
dont blame it on me

you never seem to look
me in my face
dont think you know 
what you did
but i dont know
if im alright
decisions were made
on my behalf
thats great 
think she's winning a ribbon
for all the lost time
shouldve listened to everybody
to cut ties
seems like all you wanted
was somebody to hold
and if i havent made it obvious
i wont let you go
you wont give me a reason to feel alive
ill let her leave me alone

just dont blame it on me
just dont blame it on me
just dont blame it on me
dont blame it on me

STEMS

blame game (ft. oldcollin)

OUT NOW EVERYWHERE: https://ffm.to/smartypuffs

prod: @iamtokimi / @yueechiba
vocalists: @iamtokimi @reefuh @seanpitaro @ashsocozy

FOR NIZTOPIA X PHARAOH CONTEST
Sounds Used:
corkscrew (melody)
chode bass
feverdream clap
sellout perc loop
stacks clap
fossil 808

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smartypuffs

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produced by roku
written by me
mix and master by me

thanks for sticking with me

///
drop dead
when i said
i'll be back though :)
spending all my days at a microphone
tell em it's all broke, like your old folk
don't lie
said you wna die
give me some time
i'm hurt all over
i'll make it right
in need of a clover
but there's none here to find
is it all a little too much?
my love,
you shouldn't have broke my trust

but who am i?
jus another average skinny guy
go live your life
i can't say i understand it think my brain is fried
oh you're not tht broken
infatuation
in love with the idea of no moderation
5 pints 'fore you lay down
my dear,
rough past make you wanna leave town

heart race like a hundred miles
my fate has been sewn a while
upset when they read the file
disgust, how is it so vile?

jus let it down softly
how could you done harm me?
faceless
sorry
scarred up
hardly
was it all at my fault?
tough luck
i'm done speaking to a wall

drop dead
when i said
i'll be back though
spending all my days at a microphone
tell em it's all broke, like your old folk
don't lie
said you wna die
give me some time
i'm hurt all over
i'll make it right
in need of a clover
but there's none here to find
is it all a little too much?
my love,
you shouldn't have broke my trust

repeat

trust

CHALK (Prod. bugs)

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scruff - vanilla 🌿(sai ~ drama trial)

produced by @typhoondll + me

lyrics:

[long ass intro with hella vocal chops for no reason]

u try to bring me along somewhere i wont go
u think ur calling my bluff but bitch i wont fold
got hyperflexed knees bending so low
my head is scraping the ceiling pray i wont grow

im losing feeling in my legs sitting waiting
got so much pressure on my head to keep it vacant
i run in place, keep posting my face make it famous
just so i can go replace it put a glaive where my brain is

i said im happiest for you that you lucked out
somehow only way i show it is i run out
smoke my lungs out 
try to hold back tears they send a flood now
every day's the same gotta wait another one down

counting all the time i lost watch the clock as it ticks by
all i got spending every drop i wont miss mine 
all i saw, u took my bar hit it six times
its gonna be all ur fucking fault when that shit dies

remember please, you dont own our memories, no
you shared with me and at best u had a lease on it
all i see bitches stare at me, keep watching
cant make me bleed, wont prick my finger on cheap comments

im sick of fake compliments im begging be honest
i hate the way the friendly faces are the least common
alone time for my whole life making me chronic
dont need a feature im the only one i see on it

i said im happiest for you that you lucked out
somehow only way i show it is i run out
smoke my lungs out 
try to hold back tears they send a flood now
every day's the same gotta wait another one down

counting all the time i lost watch the clock as it ticks by
all i got spending every drop i wont miss mine 
all i saw, u took my bar hit it six times
its gonna be all ur fucking fault when that shit dies

lucked out (p. typhoon + leyton)

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UR MY BRUH (murgine)

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