'i'm sorry' produced by heylog

lyrics:
every other june is never hot it's just as cold
staying in my house all day my skin could probably mold
closing both my drapes and sit in silence while i scroll
loving u is hard when i don't love me as a whole
mom notices whenever i'm down i point my chin
she ask, "is something wrong?" but everytime i always fib
people my age are married when i feel like a kid
i write all apologies to people on a list
so i'm sorry for mistakes i've made i need to watch my tone
i'm sorry letting people down u didn't have to go
i'm sorry for responding late just tired of my phone
and i'm sorry for never smiling but can't u see i'm broke
i am out of luck when nothing goes the way i want
i wanted ur opinion u didn't have to be so blunt
telling u my secrets but u were so wrong to trust
everything is hitting now not separate, all at once
and it hurts so much
in the dirt eating mud
let me say it really sucks
i'm so close to giving up
and i really hate it here
this pain is severe
i'm so close from disapearing
yet again another year

there's a reason why i hide my face and my identity
people are so curious if i'm young or if i'm 23
searching for the info and my god it just upsets me
please just let it go i have a life and i'm not telling
show me some respect, there's a point that i'm unknown
maybe i dislike my face or maybe i just don't
music is my second life and my first is personal
finding out the truth u come to realize it just hurts to know

i'm sorry for mistakes i've made, i need to watch my tone
i'm always letting people down and everytime they go
i'm sorry i'm on dnd just tired of my phone
and i'm sorry i don't smile, is it clear to u i'm broke
i am out of luck when nothing goes the way i want
i play out all scenarios but they're too go to trust
dodging my own hatred but i always fail to duck
every problems hitting me like a million bombs
and it hurts so much
in the dirt, eating mud
let me say it really sucks
i'm so close to giving up
and i really hate it here
this pain is severe
i'm this close from disappearing
i survive another year

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i'm sorry

'collide' produced by heylog

lyrics:
removing pieces of flesh
ur gonna leave me i bet
i don't stand a single chance
when u don't even lend me a hand
i'm hurting but i'm fine
i'm burning, still alive
i watch all my emotions collide
put me to a test
anchored, need to rest
but right now i can't and it's
because i'm so stressed on my last and final breath
sad just like usual, oh boy i'm such a mess
i don't fit in, something just doesn't click
worry u won't hurt my feelings i'll just lay in bed

I AM LOST FOR WORDS I'M AFRAID OF GETTING CURVED
do u think u feel me well enough to know my hurt
I AM LOST FOR WORTH HONESTLY THIS COULD BE WORSE
all the things i've done tell me what do i deserve
I AM SO DEPRESSED IS IT A LITTLE OBVIOUS
searching for a light but it seems all the powers dead
I FEEL MY DESCENT WEIGHT ME DOWN AND SLOWLY PRESS
barely ever happy always find it hard to get

i am so depressed
nothing new i guess
sum up everything and i'm hanging by a thread	
constantly regret
flip a switch and just reset
wish it was that easy, repeat it all again

collide

'mike' produced by heylog

lyrics:
on this road alone dead bush rolling by
seeing stars shooting around but it's not even night
i can't even keep my legs under me even if i tried
voices say to rest my feet but it's all just a lie
man this struggle never ends even if i want it to
i barely can pretend cause it's not me or what i wanna do
and i'm not afraid of death but it's something i would never choose
and i wish that i knew less cause i'm tryna see the right of you
lurking in the shadows oh man i feel alive
i don't think that i am seeable, i might burn from the light
and i'm tired fighting battles with me, myself and i
cause i don't got any strategies or tactics in this mind
i keep putting people first but i need to be more selfish
and i need to know my worth cause right now i'm really helpless
and u said that you'd be here for me and i said, "k i doubt that"
next time don't promise anything if ur not gonna stick to it

i don't feel like playing games
i'm so mad that i could punch something
but i learned how to refrain
u said you've changed for the good
but honestly it feels the same
u said you've changed for the good
but honestly you feel the same
yeah u feel the same
i bottle it up keep it inside no out
let loose of all of me when ur not around

i guess u didn't even understand a word i said
i don't think that u deserve me, i think u deserve the best
i can barely by, sink into the deepest depths
in my mental, in my mind it's all coming to an end
sinking to the bottom yeah i get it, but what's up?
trying to stay positive but it's not working out
you know you'll never hurt me, i'm already numb
even if u tried, wish the best of luck
lurking in the shadows oh man i feel alive
i don't think that i am seeable, i might burn from the light
and i'm tired fighting battles with me, myself and i
cause i don't got any strategies or tactics in this mind
i keep putting people first but i need to be more selfish
and i need to know my worth cause right now i'm really helpless
and u said that you'd be here for me and i said, "k i doubt that"
next time don't promise anything if ur not gonna stick to it

mike

I'm tired of this

I'm tired of this (feat. Rezlaine)

skinny

Hogtied Whore

This song will only be available on my soundcloud and is not being monetized.

cover of 'isolation' by sleepwater (produced by speedlmt)
love you🌲

isolation cover (sleepwater)

prod. ang3lcry & babyslike

my lyrics and @imjolue :p

yea yea
im in my zone
im so in my fucking zone
feel alone when im lonely
idrc ima smoke 3
gotta get high when im lonely
feeling like im dead inside
honestly i might suicide
they dgaf oh why? :'(
i been feeling low
too low
way too low
filling up my lungs
till im in my zone
rockstar she a rockstar lover
la to japan we bumpin in the hummer
not enough digits in my phone 
need your #
tired of this life
tired of this weather
know you are too
baby you can have my sweater

feeling with my hand in your dress
You were crying but you told me yes
Every lie that you say i cry
I still want you but im drowing in a lie
Late nights red lips on my chest
Heartbreak dressed up like a gift
You said hurt me so I did
Now you’re gone but the ghost still lives

im lonely

held my heart for ransome
she said oh hey handsome <3
she my only fandom
yea she love me cause im random
with her love im getting hands on
on her soul is what i stand on
back me up get it
roll a blunt ykno we hit it
back it up ykno i get it
we on the bed right
ykno how to shine light
into my life

cupid w a fuckin acog
he aim down sight
if we ever fucking break up
baby would we make up??
i hope that we make up!
she my dream dont wake up...
she my dream dont wake up!
im in a coma
god i miss the smell of
your aroma
skin that i touch
and the words that i told ya
this cant get no worse
if i die shes in my hearse
i dont wanna leave you hurt!
baby i give you my word
if you die im in the dirt
baby ill be right beside you
ill be right beside you
forever on my mind too!

held my heart for ransom (junoru + decago)

prod. @heyZom

(over and over)
(im feeling lonely a loner)
(idk what to do)
(im feeling lost w/o you)

i wanna make this right
can we continue what we had?
girl you were my light
the only light i had
all these girls 
in my life are not compatible
i move on still sad still sad oooh
im sitting in my room
theres blood up on my wrist
i miss when we would call
now facetimes dont exist

the day you left me
i cant breathe
my chest is feeling heavy
i cant take this anymore
im fucking ready
please euthanize yk ill be steady
gave my all to your heart
glad you let me
you did the same
baby it was fucking deadly
cause in the end it was a trap
that you lead me too
i still love you too.

i wanna make this right (prod. zom)

produced by heylog

lyrics:
tread light, proceed with caution
months passed, i missed the pollen
carry weight that slowly turns to rust
and i'm thinking "what could've been done?"
wonder what's in the deep end
jump off, i swim for a reason
this the worst place i could ever go
and i sleep like "what could i have known"
residue
slip if i'm not using chalk
dirty wounds keep burning from the salt
come with me only if you're not opposed
i'm paranoid
is there something i should know

what is there to know (7x)
WHAT IS THERE TO KNOW (2x)

keep thinking i'm being stalked
i'm convinced i'm being watched
if that's true, i hope it's not
can't believe the time is up

shh

you're too late
that was the best i've felt
i'm so sorry i couldn't contain myself
i say things some would probably hate me for
just know i'm not here when you're at the door
i left a note
did you bother to look
someone had to plant their foot
just understand 
if i see another bird
come toward me, i'm pulling up the dirt

i got the remote
i'm now under control
toggle emote
and hit the swish like free throw
i'm not too bright
it's interesting what i know though
i pinched a nerve
but that snake had to go
man down
that's an elim
look bro, you gotta see this
feels like playin reload
the whole damn lobby on my penis
i'm starting to feel bad
you suck at making decisions
cast out, then reel back
maybe there's something i'm missing
i got no time, put it all way past me
i'm out of the loop, couldn't care what is happening
europe flight, got to finish up packing
lord these cathedral faces are dazzling
no time for none of that
it's day here while you're sleepin
i got a flight to catch
PROVIDE THE FOOD AND FEED EM
I CAN'T LET ANYONE STARVE
PISS OFF IF YOU ARE A LARP
NOTHING BUT DIRT TO ME NOW
AND THAT'S COMING FROM THE HEART

dirt

https://linktr.ee/heyzom

I make alot of experimental music here

im lonely

heyzom

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