The Island Of Stability

Lyrics and Vocals by Dessa
Produced by Lazerbeak and Andy Thompson
Drum loop by JT Bates

LYRICS
You see shapes inside the paintings 
but all I see is black
at a chapel here in Houston 
where we’re standing back to back 
Questions here are useless
nothing answers back 
But I can’t stop my mind from trying 
all it wants to know is why 
 
Other people’s prayers
hanging in the air 
between you and me and everything 
we’ve kept unsaid so carefully
I don’t want to care so much
for someone I can barely see
But I can’t stop my body pining  
all it wants to do is try 
 
Me without a hill to die on 
You without a ring to kiss 
With nightfall comes that fool Orion
who never swings so can’t be missed
 
A machine with no sense is just a wheel to spin
For all we try to invent we wind up here again 

Me without a hill to die on 
guess I’ll have to heal from this 
Pool cue and a pair of pythons
make my own caduceus 
 
We seem to be ending 
before we begin 
It’s like losing the feeling 
in a phantom limb  




We choose which fools 
to suffer
And they choose 
to suffer us

We lose all use of  
color
Just water 
on the brush

But you and me 
we could be
cadmium 
cadmium red 
cadmium 
cadmium red

Bury the Lede

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Off My Meds is Jacob Bellens’ new solo album and will be released in October 2023 on hfn music.

Off My Meds took shape over two turbulent years in Jacob’s life. Several major life events happened back to back in a very short time, and it ended up breaking him down to a point of total exhaustion. The energy needed to uphold the outer self we all need to function was no longer there, and his inner actual beliefs and values began to show themselves one by one, which was not pretty to look at. Change was inevitable, simply because the price of not changing would be much higher in the long term.

As a result, he experienced a reconnection to an inner world that had been buried and locked away since his late childhood. A period of extreme emotional highs and lows, but also blossoming creativity ensued - equally thrilling, productive, exuberant and nerve wrecking. The result is Off My Meds - an album like no other in his previous repertoire. It is a summary of the death of an intellectually constructed version of himself, originally created for selfprotection, that no longer served a purpose. And the following rebirth of a new and more emotionally authentic version that was difficult, but necessary.

The album is a pop-poem about accepting the premise of the life given to you. It is an ode to the perils of modern existence and our birthgiven right to love, laugh and cry, whatever hand we may have been dealt to begin with. Lyrically it is centered around self care and the courage to love someone and be loved in return. About taking responsibility for everything in your life instead of using your life history as an excuse for not living, no matter how tragic or unique your situation might be or seem to yourself. 

Musically it draws upon an eclectic mix of influences and genres, while still maintaining a distinct underlying red thread throughout the album. It is a melancholic funk hybrid with a positive DNA, and though it sounds like pop music in the best sense of the word, it doesn’t quite look and feel like pop music. It is rather a collection of sounds and feelings put into words that are deeply personal - but personal for all. 

”I made the album while doubting everything in my life.” says Jacob. “My ability to function in society, my perception of who I was at the time, my worth as an artist and as a father and caregiver. I took up painting, wrote poems and began making more physical and intuitive music than I had been doing earlier. Learning who you really are can be an extremely hard pill to swallow and to me, the choice appears binary, almost Matrix-like; If you choose to see all the shameful and horrible sides of your personality for what they are, you can’t go back. But, if you do that instead of keep running from yourself, a new life awaits you on the other side. During the two years that passed, I wrote the songs that became Off My Meds, and it feels like the last pages in the first chapter of my life as a recording artist. With room for something new to follow, it is a body of work that is all about transition, but most of all about gratitude for being able to reclaim a life I thought was gone forever.”

Off My Meds

Nothing Comes Easy

Jacob Bellens - Nothing Comes Easy [CLIP]

Jacuzzi

Jacuzzi (feat. TheNightAftr)

I call her senorita [why?]
She looking like she coming straight from fuckn Puerto Rico 
She fucking with a winner [nigga that's me ]
Tryna get my money over bitches on repeat 
Slayer he did told me that these bitches Ain't shit 
But I didn't listen I went out my wayyy she look like a target, but bitches regardless 
And  she look like a damn spaghetti 
The Thighs are pathetic 
Get on your knees turn religious 
pray to god before you suck on my candy
The rules are pretty
she damn submissive  
Imma hit like no other nigga did it 
Boy I ain't got no limit
I'm fucking with her friend zone put your game on 
Kush ...cologne best believe that I'm the hottest in the room 
She riding on my dick like a witch on a broom 
[Regardless]




Toxic_Feminine_Instincts[prod.by vishnu]

Ugh Again (feat. treehouse)

Lyrics:
No one
Seems to
Know how
This road
Got paved
Yet we
Just seem to keep on going

I'm running with wet feet
Leaving imprints on the concrete
My sister she follows
Reluctantly
Why don't we
Take a moment and just stop moving 
Maybe we don't have to go
maybe it's not our destiny

Wet Feet

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The Island Of Stability

HHBTM Records

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