big thanks to paddy (@clovehitch) for advice on arrangement and mixing

If it's not for love then what the hell are we doing now?
Going out just to drink it up and letting it go to waistdown?
Is it too hard just to say
You don't even wanna look at my face
And you're drenched and drowned in make up,
bled your makeup now.

I can't quite read your face, Mona Lisa, Mona Lisa, Mona
Please communicate, I'm waiting for you to say 
something that will end all the pain.

I'm not a psychopath blowing up your phone for fun.
Could you listen to my song cuz I think you're the one.
Your dad is one lunatic if he wants me to stop
cuz I'm stealing love with you and I'm still in love with you.

If it's not for love then what the hell are we doing now?
Going out just to drink it up and letting it go to waistdown?
Is it too hard just to stay in love
You don't even wanna look at my face
And you're drenched and drowned in make up,
bled your makeup now.

If you want to get to know me a little bit better, then you should try

telling if it's too late, I know it could just wait
telling if it's too late, I know it could just wait

try

Rosa Lisa

oh friend you fell again
and im trying to keep distant
youre calling for an ear i know
how you cry and how you mope

about how he doesnt love you
and i can but you dont want me to

oh friend

this song is not finished

observer is comprised of taur and Little Faith and dylazy and Oncill and hidden contact and clovehitch and charlie zacks and aso and mossgarden and evangeline and fyoum and jacob travels and an_isopod and close-knit and friends


produced by evangeline, clovehitch, close-knit, charlie zacks, jacob travels, hidden contact, taur
mixed by close-knit, dylazy, and clovehitch

TRAVELS:
I don't mind your way
 
DYLAZY:
Feel the rush as I fall and I decay
Ego death I'll go and learn to stay
 
FYOUM:
Yeah, what you up to dude
I could have swear I saw you
But you don't want to talk
Nevertheless I'm cool with you
Not hanging around now that you are so far away
Nobody else nowhere to go and I'm way too close
And I don't know why all these people change and these people fake
And these people claim what was

Once mine and I'm not even joking
My free time ain't for free when you smoking
Goodbye don't forget that I don't care
About you cause your smile makes me broken
 
CHARLIE ZACKS:
I looked into your eyes
And I knew that you would wreck my night, wreck my night
I saw ten thousands reasons
To trust my gut to trust my fight or flight, fight or flight

But you told me that you liked my smile
So I fell in love with your last name
Every look you gave me
It meant so much more to me than you think
 
TRAVELS:
When I'm alone the self is a mirror
Water crystal but I need it clearer

When I get home we can figure it out
When I get home we can figure it out
When I get home we can figure it out
When I get home we can figure it out
 
GALA:
I don't mind your way now
You wouldn't fall and stay down
Felt the rush decay out
Spilled my guts and I left them out 
To clear your doubts and I'm shouting
 
GANG VOCALS:
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY

TAUR: 
I don't mind your way now, 
trust me now, 
through the rise and fall you are yours not the all I've escapen all control

observer - IDMYW

thank you to the awesome @patchymate for the cover art and help with arrangement and mixing! 

she'd go and take it, don’t reciprocate
end up feeling less sweet, opened wide
I’m dead in conversations, going to places i shouldn’t stay
real or on the line

feeling out of touch,
I can’t sense a numb feeling
state the obvious when I lose track of meaning
you keep on reading my mind when I don’t want you to
when I write about, write about, you
shit, go and take it, don’t reciprocate
even if it’s for the worse, I think I’ll be just fine

(patchymate)
don’t!
stop breaking your back for me
it isn’t worth the pain and the sense of a tragedy
it wasn’t no

don’t!
stop taking the edge out of everything i like
don’t!
keep me from friends ain’t like nothing that you had
don’t take it out on me, i’m your beauty queen
and i want everything you have
i want everything you have

still wanna show the do-si-do
show off the branches when the grow
and i want everything you have
i want everything you have
i wanna build an enterprise
co-divide and start to multiply and multiply and multiply and multiply

take it out of me to see the rest
lied about who lies with me in bed
fornicating on with someone else
and all my friends are getting used to it
all my friends are the best
believe me, to be the name i wasn’t then
it could have killed me in an instant
it could have got to my soul

and i love being all orderly
but it ain’t for me
i march to my own form
don’t you see?
i told you babe, it was an omen
and my friends are gonna love it when i cry

and you won’t
but you don’t have to believe me again

me/you feat. patchymate

TLC No Scrubs instrumental Remake

i know?

link in description, i
live in a fairy tale,
find an archetype, i will do it right
to the world i left behind
i'll be jester right, i'll be just alright

live in a fairy tale,
still i snap back just to pay respect back
to the world i left behind
i'll be just alright, i want your surrender

this could be the last you hear from me,
till i fail, till i fail, till I fail
i'll be okay
can you count on that?
as i'm trying to breathe in the cold
i'll be okay
can you count that?

i was falling back on the match
i was falling back undetached

wallow in your room, seeking someone
i know you so
so well, well

live in a fairy tale,
find an archetype, i will do it right
to the world i left behind
i'll be jester right, i'll be just alright

live in a fairy tale,
still i step back just to pay respect back
to the world i left behind
i'll be just alright, i want your surrender

jesterr

i miss every moment now i better make it count
i miss every moment now i better make it count

breathing out the testimony of what life is like without
all the social interaction and it really has me howling

apologize 
to the stranger on the camera
cant see his eyes
but he is crying showing his private parts
crying from lack of love
i know how much that hurts
so brother go put on a shirt,
let's go get your life together

you miss every moment now you better make it count
you miss every moment now you better make it count
and i miss 
every moment 
and i better make it count

i am accountable

cover art by @9nasu
piano by @alexanderpanos
violin by jessie morgan @ https://www.fiverr.com/jessiem279
additional vocals by @oyeme-thomas
additional texture by @tevinmichaelr
spoken word performed by @tevinmichaelr
spoken word written by @50landing

big thanks to everyone that helped me on this one

lyrics:

whether you’re here or not, i’d still be dancing

whether you’re here or not, i’d still be dancing

you don’t be the judge of my post when i go post on my volition
don’t have to tell me what’s broke cuz i’m the one who broke it to fit my vision 

i don’t care to fix it
seems like a waste of time to me
i don’t mind if you don’t listen
your attention isn’t guaranteed

that’s the thief, thief of joy
who you running from
we deleted masterpieces when you've killed the fun
with comparisons
i wanna go have fun, i want to, i want to
so i’ve decided that

whether you’re here or not, i’d still be dancing
whether you're here or not, oh whether you're

it seeps into my room, cus i wanna be strong
but i wait for you at the door, locked from the inside
distance grows the delay of time, 
a warning sign to my world and all i have

so we stand around these wood framed walls
a forest where i stood tall
from here you can almost see it,
the stars upon the ceiling illuminate me
the scars that are still healing, you can never catch me
after all, your eyes try to paint a picture that you've waited for this whole time
you said i need help but you won't help me help myself
you didn't feel what i felt

dancing

i keep clipping my tail on the curb
i keep spilling out onto the arrow
waiting until it don't hurt
yet my body's giving out all the errors

i'm holding together just fine
but it's hard to see things in straight lines
i'm trying to laugh about it, laugh aloud
i'm trying to laugh about it, level out

oooo, ooo

from under my green cat cap (meow), thinking about death
thinking about what i leave behind for my family
good lace on my left, and my dearest treble clef
i will give it up to you with my hands still trembling

hold me, tell me that things will be fine
anything to anchor me to real life
and we can laugh about it, laugh aloud
means we can laugh about it, laugh aloud

oooo, ooo
tell me that things will
tell me that
(meow)

laugh aloud

this is a @dream_diary song
pls listen to dream diary :]

dream diary - heart locket (piano cover)

with @9nasu
i used the fly in the wind
i used to sing with all of my friends
but suddenly i descend

you don't wanna see this
when i don't feel like breathing
and when i close my eyes
i can barely catch sleep
i can barely feel

i won't waste your time
i won't be online
i’m trying to make it right
i'll still be home

i know it will be just fine
know i can't go, no i can't forget you
i know it will be just fine
know i can't go, no i can't just run away

i used the fly in the wind
i used to sing with all of my friends

i'll make it alright
find me home, i know it will be just fine
know i can't go, no i can't forget you
i know it will be just fine
know i can't go

when i don't feel like breathing
and when i close my eyes
i can barely catch sleep
i can barely feel

i won't waste your time
i won't be online
i’m trying to make it right
i'll still be on

i'll still be alright
i know it will be just fine
know i can't go, no i can't forget you
i know it will be just fine
no i can't go

mourning dove with nasu

thank you @tevinmichaelr for support and help :>


you have got it figured out
what’s this transformation about 
i wish i knew what you knew
i wish i do what you do
maybe casual and in passing
but i reckon i’m just wasting too much time

and now, would i make you my boo thing
and you’re asking me why like you’re clueless
cuz i got feelings and the truth is
i want you to be mine
so stop playing around with me
my hearts breaking can’t you see
all the love you want, i’d give it to you
but when it’s my turn, you’re acting brand new 

what can i do, if i’m not the one
do you rather want me on the road, if i’m not the one

think i could be your boyfriend
the one who’s too afraid to sing
cuz i see you often 
trying to do the same thing, as me
waiting for you to ask me
the part that i could have played
that i could have played 

and now, would i make you my boo thing
and you’re asking me why like you’re clueless
cuz i got feelings and the truth is
i want you to be mine
so stop playing around with me
my hearts breaking can’t you see
all the love you want, i’d give it to you
but when it’s my turn, you’re acting brand new 

i can do better, be better

not the one

may14

my friend @tevinmichaelr on the intro voice clip
samples yvette young https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V3jLRPCYOUE

talking is no use
cus i still think about you
and i can't stop while moving
move then when i think about it

drink away the mood
our friends just la lune
and every time i sleep, i keep dreaming
a dream about us

baby, would you even notice,
if i tried to show you,
all my love tonight (4x)

baby, would you even notice,
if i tried to show you,
a dream about us

a dream about us

mastered by @tevinmichaelr
+ ambience + voice memo at the end

suspending in my talk, something i’m not telling ya
suspicious in my walk, have your eyes caught, not telling ya

cuz i want to show you just what it is that i see
you’re like a collage of pages from my favorite magazine when we talk it feels like paper cuts inside my chest that make it hard to breathe
cuz you’re the one that’s written in my diary that you wish you could read

as if i know how to write, i do but my lips love to lie
can you repeat after me, if you won’t then i’m blinded seeing sides

just don’t understand how someone can come into your life and everything could seem like, oh obviously it’s going in this direction and all of the sudden, it just

diary

searching for it like a lighthouse with the lights on
tell me if it’s too late to be waiting for my escape

lighthouse

credit to julian for taking the photo and helping me with revising lyrics

find me online
and i’ll drop on the act
why would i lie
just to leave you behind
oh i’m in your walls
like a voice in your mind
i’m asking you if you’re doing alright

you hear me calling all of the time
how can’t you hear me after all of this time?
and never in the places i try
if you wanna speak then, why would you hide?

so caught up in some bad news
and i don’t know what to do
don’t know how to be near, get closer to you
caught up in some bad news
and i don’t know what to do

how do i reach back to you?
back to you
oh why you?
back to you, you

back to you

i want to go underwater
i want to see all the fish
i want to go meet a mermaid
just to see if they exist

but i don’t know how to swim
maybe i should just go home
eh, i’m happy with just watching
but i’m sad that you have to swim alone

i want to see the big whales
all the sharp teethed eels
swimming along the crust
among plastic bottles and cigarette butts

but i don’t know how to swim
maybe i should just go home
though i’d be happy to be watching
but i’m sad that you have to swim alone

all the fish

taking time to rearrange myself
puzzle pieces for picking up my health
oh when all is lost,
i can see the bare bones of my bad bad bad bad
it’s gonna take a while

i'll be patient
i’ll be patient this time
and you know what it appears like
when you've wasted all this time
it’s gonna take a while

it’s gotta take a while this time
wanna stitch up my whole life
take a walk inside
i just wanna change up my whole life

takewhile

pull over to decide it
frozen over go and ignite it
you’re colder cuz i’m spineless
and mind your soul, ha how you leave me fighting

i fall to the wayside
when i need to remind
myself of what we used to do

now i miss calls on a facetime
cuz you wanted some space right
i know what it is i do 
i know what it is i do

spineless

help with finding flows and melodies and arraging from tev and @theenigma_xo thank u bros
thanks to my sister for helping me with writing lyrics

play it off, play it off
always keeping me waiting
baby make it make sense
facing, to the pavement
then you go
every time i come around
every time i come around
you go, you go, you go

and i can't keep on
running to you
when i see myself in you
all on your face are ghosts
my skin and bones all go
under your teeth and bury me
there's nothing left for us

too drunk to shut my mouth
so cold is all i felt
just to remind myself
i should free up my mind
too drunk to shut my mouth
so cold is all i felt
just to remind myself
i should free up my mind

just tear me all apart
save something that you could adore
take the feeling off my heart
cuz i don't wanna hurt anymore

too drunk to shut my mouth
so cold is all i felt
just to remind myself
i should free up my mind
too drunk to shut my mouth
so cold is all i felt
just to remind myself
i should free up my mind

just tear me all apart
save something that you could adore
take the feeling off my heart
cuz i don't wanna hurt anymore

you go

spoken voice performed by tev

hey, this isn’t what friends look like 
to me, to me, to me
when we’re laughing and we’re driving on the i9 with our smiles wide
what do you see, what do you see, what do you see
then we’re holding each other tangled up in arms
what are we, what are we, what are we
and you know my heart, and it’s easy 
why i bleed, why i bleed, why i bleed

i should be keeping away from what might hurt me,
but i just like the way you turn me on
i hate all the times we were separated
but this time you just want me gone

friends look like

you think that it's too much to be shared
you feel like there's just nobody that cares 
i know yes i know
you'd reach out from hell but you're feeling scared 
that people leave your life cuz life isn’t fair 
but i won't no i won't

and it hurts for me to see you 
feel this way, feel this way

see this beating heart of mine 
give you love and take your crying 
can't explain but i will try 
lift your eyes to a gift of light

(mumbling) 
you think that it's too much to be shared
you feel like there's just nobody that cares 
i know yes i know
you'd reach out from hell but you're feeling scared 
that people leave your life cuz life is not fair 
but i won't no i won't

and it hurts for me to see you :,(

see you feel

surprised why i would

i didn't mean to follow
just wondering what you were up to
are we friends?
fell sick ever since i moved

i mean, it's, you're the only that can fix me up
cuz you're the one that's breaking off 
that's why you'll fix me

my mean-it's hollow
do i wanna keep on going through
this again, i'm a bitch, selfish solitude

don't look at me as if i'm not even there
don't look at me as if face to face to face

face to face

I couldn’t have made it
a couple of days
Early look, am i 
strong under my shame
I’d like to 
hold on 
to my mind 
in the night to dawn

Couldn’t find a name, 
well he better know soon 
Go a mighty way, 
I bet ‘em all a new night, 
all my 
O2, 
eight nights 
and a numb knife 

Assistance, 
my 
new 
wire in mind
i fell in, seduced
i forgot God to choose who
and maybe it’s the mood
i’d give it up to truth

night to dawn

(don't know what to do
thought i’d been some bad news
don't know what to do 
if i got close to you)

he's tries his best
he's sensitive
he's one of my friends
he likes to ease the tension

he's deep into debt
lately he's been so stressed
that the world's a mess
but he gives me attention

i said hear me out
i get what he's all about
i get the appeal
he's so TECH (no, real)

and i am not one to doubt
what comes out of my mouth
struck from head to heel
he's so TECH (no, real)

TECH (no, real)
TECH? no...
Real, real, real, real

TECH (no, real)

does this matter at all
like a fading end, all my life i'll wait for you
if you're seeking change, i'll find the switch and turn it off
give you all my heart, and i don't know how to go

and i go into private to go into hiding
feeling deprived of yourself by my side
losing you feels just like suicide
and i die everyday thinking about you

i learned from my mistakes, i promise that
now it's too late to bring you back
i wish that we had one more chance
cuz it's so hard to say goodbye

matter at all

give away what i
was keeping from you all along
inside to hide
when i was feeling far from you

you can take it all
away if you wish to
wish to, wish to
i will take the fall
and pain cuz i miss you 
miss you, miss you

if i’m just not enough
for peace within your touch
then i won’t try to keep you in, my love
and even if you hate
me til the end of days
i’m doing everything i can to change

even after

you're just out of reach
standing in the snow
i call out to you
but you don't wanna go
i wanna hold you close
protect you from the cold
when we're together feels like intertwining

one body one image
i don't want to go mess it up
still waiting on your message
if you say it, then i'm listening

if i can't hold on to you
if i can't hold on to you

one image

(づ ᴗ _ ᴗ) づ ♡
𝓐𝓵𝓵 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓽𝓲𝓶𝓮 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓵𝓪𝓲𝓭 𝓸𝓷 𝓶𝔂 𝓼𝓱𝓸𝓾𝓵𝓭𝓮𝓻
𝓘𝓽 𝓳𝓾𝓼𝓽 𝔀𝓸𝓷’𝓽 𝓯𝓪𝓭𝓮 𝓸𝓾𝓽 𝓸𝓯 𝓼𝓲𝓰𝓱𝓽
𝓘 𝓼𝓽𝓪𝔂 𝓾𝓹 𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓴𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓪𝓵𝓵 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝓘 𝓽𝓸𝓵𝓭 𝔂𝓸𝓾
𝓒𝓾𝔃 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓶𝓪𝓭𝓮 𝓶𝓮 𝓯𝓮𝓮𝓵 𝓼𝓸 𝓻𝓲𝓰𝓱𝓽

𝓢𝓱𝓸𝓾𝓵𝓭'𝓿𝓮 𝓶𝓮𝓽 𝔂𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝓹𝓪𝓬𝓮 𝓵𝓪𝓽𝓮 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓲 𝓼𝓮𝓮
𝓐𝓵𝓵 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓰𝓼 𝓘 𝓭𝓲𝓭𝓷’𝓽 𝓼𝓱𝓸𝔀 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓘'𝓭 𝓴𝓮𝓮𝓹 𝓽𝓱𝓮
𝓟𝓻𝓸𝓶𝓲𝓼𝓮𝓼 𝓽𝓸 𝓹𝓮𝓻𝓯𝓮𝓬𝓽, 𝓲'𝓵𝓵 𝓵𝓮𝓪𝓭
𝓑𝓮𝓽𝓽𝓮𝓻 𝓼𝓮𝓬𝓸𝓷𝓭 𝓽𝓲𝓶𝓮 𝓪𝓻𝓸𝓾𝓷𝓭 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓲 𝓫𝓮𝓵𝓲𝓮𝓿𝓮

𝓘’𝓿𝓮 𝓫𝓮𝓮𝓷 𝓭𝓸𝓷𝓮 𝓼𝓲𝓷𝓷𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓼𝓲𝓷𝓬𝓮 𝔀𝓱𝓮𝓷 𝔂𝓸𝓾’𝓿𝓮 𝓰𝓸𝓷𝓮
𝓘’𝓶 𝓼𝓾𝓻𝓮 𝓬𝓪𝓽𝓬𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓾𝓹, 𝓽𝓱𝓻𝓸𝓾𝓰𝓱 𝔀𝓮 𝓴𝓷𝓸𝔀 𝓘𝓽 𝔀𝓪𝓼 𝓵𝓸𝓿𝓮
𝓑𝓾𝓽 𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓴 𝓲𝓽 𝓫𝓮𝓽𝓽𝓮𝓻 𝓽𝓸 𝓼𝓮𝓽𝓽𝓵𝓮 𝓱𝓲𝓼𝓽𝓸𝓻𝔂
𝓘 𝓴𝓷𝓸𝔀, 𝓴𝓷𝓸𝔀

𝓒𝓸𝓾𝓵𝓭 𝓫𝓻𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝔂𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝓽𝓾𝓻𝓷𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓽𝓸 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓼𝓲𝓭𝓮, 𝓲𝓼 𝓲𝓽 𝓾𝓹
𝓒𝓵𝓾𝓽𝓬𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓾𝓹 𝓹𝓵𝓪𝓬𝓮𝓼 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓘𝓶 𝓽𝓻𝔂𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓯𝓸𝓻 𝓾𝓼
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