prod greentop
cover art: saw

lyrics:

Don’t tell me a joke cause I’m not laughing
Tell what the fuck you thought would happen
Try to lie to my face it’s gon’ be tragic 
I’ve been cutting for days I need a bandage
Snake me leave you hanging like a hammock 
Putting clamps on your chest I feel like Bandit
I can’t relax I’ve been going fucking manic

Green tips Imma turn you into fodder
Imma kill everybody on your roster
I wake up every morning fucking bothered
My life is fucked I can’t take this shit much longer 
Green tips Imma turn you into fodder
Imma kill everybody on your roster
I wake up every morning fucking bothered
My life is fucked I can’t take this shit much longer 

I wake up and hurt myself
I can’t be alone right now
Try my best to hide my frown
Every song I cry for help

New day I can’t wait to fall apart
New nails how bout you rip out my heart
Give me a second while I chop off both my arms
I’m just a loser no I’m not a fucking star
All my life I knew I’d never make it far
I see you laughing from afar
Oh well I guess I’m not up to par

Green tips Imma turn you into fodder
Imma kill everybody on your roster
I wake up every morning fucking bothered
My life is fucked I can’t take this shit much longer 
Green tips Imma turn you into fodder
Imma kill everybody on your roster
I wake up every morning fucking bothered
My life is fucked I can’t take this shit much longer

roster (greentop)

prod winter

lyrics: 

[gleam]
Quit tryna bite me I don’t even like me
Put the razor to my wrist it’s so exciting
Sick and tired of your words I’m sick of fighting
Pull apart all of my flaws I’m sick of crying
Don’t feel like trying It’s time to go
Everyone I touch turns to a ghost
You’re just a siren I shoulda known
You’re so beautiful you left me in the snow

[spiral]
don’t look at me 
don’t talk to me
i hate every word that u speak
ya i’m such a creep
don’t u even think ab going to sleep 
i’ll be in ur dreams
cuz i’m you and ur me
everything in between
i’m in everything that you see
i’m in the air that you breathe
in everything that you see i’m the air that you breathe

[gleam]
Quit tryna bite me I don’t even like me
Put the razor to my wrist it’s so exciting
Sick and tired of your words I’m sick of fighting
Pull apart all of my flaws I’m sick of crying
Don’t feel like trying It’s time to go
Everyone I touch turns to a ghost
You’re just a siren I shoulda known
You’re so beautiful you left me in the snow

[spiral]
i don’t wanna get close
i lose everybody that i know
i’m better off i’m better off alone
could you tell me something that i don’t know
ya cut me off
let me go
get in my head
take my soul
take take take until there’s nothing more
leave me in the cold
leave me 
leave me in the cold
leave me in the cold
leave me in the cold

siren w/ spiral (winter)

with coven https://soundcloud.com/untildeathparts
cover art: https://pin.it/5u1QLV6gC

[coven]
Might go drown up in the deep end ima swim off of the coast
Ima geek all fuckin weekend baby lets go make a toast
Bitch im fine and vegan baby u can see all of my bones
Baby im king c-o-v-e-n baby go put me in my throne
Get my dick out yo fuckin throat
He on my dick he on his knees beggin for a load
Watching my IG tryna see my moves ina chokehold
And its so fuckin sad boy you a fuckin bozo

[gleam]
You wanna hang but I won’t go
I spend all my time looking at my phone 
I hate my life don't wanna be alone 
But anything is better than you coming for my throat 
You broke my heart 
I know it's all my fault
Let's kiss in the dark
So you can't see my scars

[coven]
Yea baby would you tell me
What would it take
To come and get me
Out the mud
And i look like i just got sent from above
Crawlin around dont stop on me baby im a bug
Obsessed with you obssesed with me oh yeah that no good
Can we go into the woods and make some love

[gleam]
Geeking off the addy I'm a nerd
Everything you say I pretend it doesn't hurt
But it's hurts 
Late night
In my bed thinking why you couldn't fight
For me
For me
I don't know how to cope so I just bleed
For you 
For you

[coven]
Might go drown up in the deep end ima swim off of the coast
Ima geek all fuckin weekend baby lets go make a toast
Bitch im fine and vegan baby u can see all of my bones
Baby im king c-o-v-e-n baby go put me in my throne
Get my dick out yo fuckin throat
He on my dick he on his knees beggin for a load
Watching my IG tryna see my moves ina chokehold
And its so fuckin sad boy you a fuckin bozo

deep end w/ coven (axry) #2sickkk

prod winter

lyrics 

In the haunted theater I feel like Coraline
I've been going blind sewing buttons on my eyes
Crush my heart or rip out my spine
i'm a ghost in a shell I dont feel alive

Can you take me away
Can you take me away

One more word out your mouth I'm letting heads roll
You should worry bout' yourself cause you aint' special
I'm putting chrome on my body like its shrapnel
Said she's hanging out with me cause you're an asshole
Bullets piercing through your skin like a septum
Tried to count me out the race but I kept up

I'm a runaway I might join the circus
Corset tightest setting you look perfect
I put bells on my hat because I earned it
I get everything I want cause I deserve it

Can you take me away
Can you take me away

Talking down spill your brains out on the concrete
Just rip my heart out my chest I'm like a zombie
You see everything I do and then you copy
You see everything I do and take it off me
Let's join the circus I feel like a vagabond
I feel worthless you treat me like a fucking pawn

circus (winter)

prod seizure @hyacinth3

lyrics:

i dnt think u understand me so y dnt u js go
always bringing up the past i think u shld let it go
u cnt see me im taking all ur lies to the bone
im not used 2 havin friends i can do it on my own
i can do it on my own
if u get 2 talking shit then we get ur head 2 roll
n ik that u aint sick cus the sick is in my bros
n u nvr let me in cus u left me in the snow

open up n u use that shit against me
its not my fault cus i thought that u were friendly
js 1 look i can tell ur filled w envy
stop tryna call cnt u tell that u upset me
cant u tell that u upset me
i do it all 4 u cant u accept me
n the rain is falling down n its heavy

what if i could end it all its so tempting
i could end it all its so tempting
what if i could end it all its so tempting
i could end it all its so tempting
what if i could end it all its so tempting

sometimes i wish that youd say sorry
i feel like Coven im so klumzy
im so clumsy so clumsy so clumsy so clumsy so cl-cl-clumsy

u could spit my heart on the ground like its nothing
come n cut me up bby help me 2 feel something
im sawing off my arms in the corner of the function
i cnt deal w emotion bby tell me whats my problem
i do everything i can n i still can nvr solve them
how come i can nvr smile my expression always solemn 
u shld say it while u can ill become 1 of the fallen
lets make a deal ill go all in
all in
im going all in
get the fuck back ik that ur rotten
i like spending time alone in my coffin
its OK ik ur stalling
n ur always on my mind i cant help when im alone
n it sucks cause im always alone

Theજ⁀➴End (seizure)

prod levithareal
ft:
coven- https://m.soundcloud.com/untildeathparts
mourn- https://soundcloud.com/m0urn

lyrics:

[coven]
I keep on fuckin up
Damn i think i cut too deep im bleedin out
Can we watch a snuff movie while we fuck
I told that bitch welcome to the freakshow

[gleam]
You could see me at the freakshow BPN tuxedo
Spend a big bag cuz my pockets filled with green ho
I love being emo ur gf look at me bro
put me on the shelf just to find out u were evil
You could see me at the freakshow BPN tuxedo
Spend a big bag cuz my pockets filled with green ho
I love being emo ur gf look at me bro
put me on the shelf just to find out that i need u

[coven]
Haha welcome to the circus
Damn i got dirty i needa swallow detergent
Every morning i wake up i feel so worthless
Everyday i wonder if i make myself feel like this on purpose

[mourn]
Yea welcome to the freakshow
I live my life illegal
I know that i wont see home
2sick back to back to back
Yea we up 3-0
Yea 3-0
I don’t do free shows
You can catch free smoke 
Get poked like a needle
Im fly like im rio
Yea my bag like a beetle 
In the bay we can meet up

[coven]
Meet up
I’m steady lookin
Think you’re On my level boy you’re just a fuckin rookie
Tryna get in my pants your just a groupie
Im on one too many pills i don’t know what to say 

[gleam]
You could see me at the freakshow BPN tuxedo
Spend a big bag cuz my pockets filled with green ho
I love being emo ur gf look at me bro
put me on the shelf just to find out u were evil
You could see me at the freakshow BPN tuxedo
Spend a big bag cuz my pockets filled with green ho
I love being emo ur gf look at me bro
put me on the shelf just to find out that i need u

freakshow w/ friends (levi)

prod @lb66
mastered by @emptyroom 

lyrics:

sticks and stones may break my bones but
i left my limbs exposed

sticks and stones may break my bones but
i left my limbs exposed
rip me up and watch me fall while
i watch the curtains close

i do this on my own

i already took all the blame can you leave me alone?

i do this on my own

“i don’t love you anymore”

stop lying baby tell me that you hate me
like a puppet pull the strings and then display me
i’m not feeling like myself but can you blame me?
only lost my footing once but then you shame me

sticks and stones may break my bones but
i left my limbs exposed
rip me up and watch me fall while
i watch the curtains close

i do this on my own

i already took all the blame can you leave me alone?

i watch the curtains close 

all my life i’ve been feeling like i'm useless
you ripped my heart out and baby you abused it
all this time i thought i'd be shot by cupid
when your colors really showed i looked so stupid

sticks and stones may break my bones but
i left my limbs exposed
rip me up and watch me fall while
i watch the curtains close

i do this on my own

i already took all the blame can you leave me alone?


(s/o foxtails)

sticks & stones (lb66)

prod @prodarisu

lyrics:

turn to a ghost just to haunt you
hide your face so i can’t find you
crush my heart i despise you
i can’t be myself when i’m around you

leave me in the snow
i can’t feel at all
it don’t make sense but i cut just to feel whole
just a doll you control all of my bones
i let you sever all my limbs and eat my soul

i’m a jester treat me like a joke
i’m a jester let me play the role
bow my head when you’re sitting at the throne
cut me up you can turn me to a ghost 
woah woah
i’m a jester treat me like a joke
i’m a jester let me play the role
i’ll bow my head when you’re sitting at the throne 


i’ve been crying for hours i can’t let go
you’re on my mind so i never feel alone
throw me down then you cut into the bone
pick me up then you hang me from a rope
i wanna leave but you chained me by the throat 

because of you i hate myself
because of you i cry for help
i’m paralyzed every time you come around
i’ve been working on myself turn it to nothing
you’re in my brain and you carve it like a pumpkin
rip my heart out and then i watch you crush it
i’m feeling sick but i’m never feeling nauseous 


locked out of my heart
keep the key tucked i don’t wanna start
you always argue like you wanna fall apart
before you come around i cover up my scars
my heart 
is scarred
from you

woah woah

don’t know how to act baby when you come around
i see your smile i can turn it to a frown
always try my best but i don’t fit in the crowd
bells on my hat always making me stand out

i’m a jester treat me like a joke
i’m a jester let me play the role
bow my head when you’re sitting at the throne
cut me up you can turn me to a ghost 
woah woah
i’m a jester treat me like a joke
i’m a jester let me play the role
i’ll bow my head when you’re sitting at the throne

jester (arisu)

prod @y4ndere

lyrics:

show you my heart then you rip my knight of cups
don’t twist the knife baby i might turn to dust 
i lock my heart away i don’t know who to trust 
i threw the key in the river let it rust
i rip my arms off my body let it gush
you’ve been right here since forever what’s the rush?
i see you clinging to the past like give it up
just seal the coffin i ain’t ever waking up 

i see the trail split i don’t know where to go
just take my hand we can fix it on the road
i’m staying quiet it’s the only thing i know
still feel your lips we was kissing in the snow
we was kissing in the snow
drop dead at your feet baby just another ghost
sink your teeth in my neck like i’m just another host
you still don’t understand why i hate myself the most

where i go
you’re there
take your dress off i can’t help but stare
it’s too much vanity you’re living in the mirror
play me like a fool i’ve been living at the fair
pull me in the courtyard we could cause a scandal
heart made out of glass but you disregard i’m fragile
keep it to yourself there’s a lot that i can’t handle
thought you were the one then i watch you siege the castle

this a love-note to myself
looking back on everything i felt
try not to worry life is always filled with wealth
i know it’s hard but try to love yourself
this a love-note to myself
looking back on everything i felt
try not to worry life is always filled with wealth
i know it’s hard but try to love yourself 

i see the trail split i don’t know where to go
just take my hand we can fix it on the road
i’m staying quiet it’s the only thing i know
still feel your lips we was kissing in the snow
we was kissing in the snow
drop dead at your feet baby just another ghost
sink your teeth in my neck like i’m just another host
you still don’t understand why i hate myself the most
i see the trail split i don’t know where to go
just take my hand we can fix it on the road
i’m staying quiet it’s the only thing i know
still feel your lips we was kissing in the snow
we was kissing in the snow
drop dead at your feet baby just another ghost
sink your teeth in my neck like i’m just another host
you still don’t understand why i hate myself the most

show you my heart then you rip my knight of cups
don’t twist the knife baby i might turn to dust 
i lock my heart away i don’t know who to trust 
i threw the key in the river let it rust

knight of cups (yandere)

garden bench [intro]

w coven @untildeathparts
prod arisu @prodarisu

lyrics:

[coven]
the curtains closed
i cant feel my toes
10mg i take em both
why she staring at my post
baby u do the most
i might up my dose
i might-i might up my dose
for u im crazy
lets see if she gon play me
im tired u dont phase me
bitch stop acting like a baby
gauze me then tape me
im waiting for death to take me
baby come sedate me
on the bed im nodding laying

[gleam]
the curtains closed, the lights r off, but ur still acting
i can see right thru, ur heart is made of plastic
u know my feelings bby i should try to mask it
u cut me off, im bleeding out, i need a bandage
the curtains closed, the lights r off, but ur still acting
i can see right thru, ur heart is made of plastic
u know my feelings bby i should try to mask it
u cut me off, im bleeding out, i need a bandage

[coven]
i need a bandaid
u can kill me but can i plz see the next day
u see right thru me like youve been watching thru an xray
bitch im a zombie ive been walking around so headless
i cant feel my emotions
lets go up my dosage
she message me thru postage
they see what im doing clone it
she keep yelling at me i told her to tone it
down
i keep looking there its where i belong to the ground

[gleam]
my heart is frozen baby told me u could melt it
i let you stab me and u made sure that i felt it
lock my heart away im better off without it
baby please just pull the plug my brain is crowded
baby all this time u fooled me as an actress
u made me walk across the rope i had no practice
i said my heart was made of glass and the you cracked it
all this time u built me up and then collapsed it

u said youd give the best for me
i let you chew my heart
and spit it at my feet

the curtains closed, the lights r off, but ur still acting
i can see right thru, ur heart is made of plastic
u know my feelings bby i should try to mask it
u cut me off, im bleeding out, i need a bandagethe curtains closed, the lights r off, but ur still acting
i can see right thru, ur heart is made of plastic
u know my feelings bby i should try to mask it
u cut me off, im bleeding out, i need a bandage

plastic w/ coven (arisu)

prod: @lilac @winter

lyrics:

baby i feel like im worthless
swear i try my best but you treat me like im vermin
lets run away lets join the circus
find me bleeding out patch me up and make it perfect

everytime we talk you make my head hurt
ive been thinking bout the times we were together
rain is falling know you like the shitty weather
ask me when im coming back i think its never
im not ever coming back
cut it off left the memories in the past
shattered limbs like my bodys made of glass
put this smile on my face like its a mask

baby theres so many things i couldn't ask you
at the party spill my guts out in the bathroom
i let you slip out of my fingers thought i had you
its too much drama baby i could never handle
baby i could never handle
i need you stuck on top my body like a tattoo
like is that too much to ask you

you let me shatter like im porcelain
so much going on i can tell im not important
let me give up let me forfeit
i cant bare to see you disappear this shit is horrid

i wake up and my sheets stained red
blowing up my phone i should've kept it in my head
you spent all this time tryna get me in your bed
i spent all this time crying wishing i was dead
you left me hanging by a thread
dont got anyone to talk to dont got any friends
and i wish i could've stopped you what could i have said
shattered porcelain in my hands

think my wrists are falling off
feel like throwing up everytime i try to talk
where the fuck did i got wrong
standing on the edge can you please just push me off
i cant tell whats going on
let you cut me open but you never stitch me up
handing me the blame but you know its not my fault

porcelain (lilac + winter)

prod @lilac

lyrics:

It's a beautiful day, I'm in the basement
Taking drugs, I've been feeling like a patient
Talk down, roll your head onto the pavement
Rip my heart out, Imma' Let you break it
Baby Imma' let you break it
Wake up everyday and I hate it
Cut it up and replace it
Napalm in my hands Imma' face it

One touch and we're in love now
2k fake $brett then it fall back down
Face paint tryna' hide my frown
Stun locked, you won't hear a sound

See the light like a flashbang
Whole life in the dark like a bad dream
I-I-In my veins like a vaccine
You don't have to try, you can have me

You locked me out, was it worth it?
Just let me curl up and die, I feel worthless
Ripped my arms off my body, it was perfect
I'm just a doll on your shelf, I deserve it
Left your dress stained red, need detergent
It's dragged out too far, close the curtains
Stitch me up baby, promise that it's urgent
Crushed up in my drink, is it working?

One touch and we're in love now
In the sky like a star then it fall back down
Face paint tryna' hide my frown
Stun locked, you won't hear a sound
Step back tryna' steal my crown
Live fast till' you hit the ground

See the light like a flashbang
Whole life in the dark like a bad dream
I-I-In my veins like a vaccine
You don't have to try, you can have me
See the light like a flashbang
Whole life in the dark like a bad dream
Y-You're in my veins like a vaccine
You don't have to try, you can have me

flashbang ＊*✩•̩̩͙  (lilac)

prod @shrinex

lyrics:
cut me off this isnt working
n u treat me like a burden
all this suffering wasnt worth it
all these scars they look perfect

leave me in the background leave me in the cold
i cut so deep baby u can see the bones
n u could rip my heart out bury me in snow
u dont get it baby i think u should go

metal to my flesh i let my veins rip
put a knife in my mouth i need a facelift
blood pooling on my tongue think u should taste it
feel like im running out of time i aint gon make it

and u was faking
u dont feel like me
i look in the mirror i fucking hate what i see
i wanna fall apart u see me ripping at the seams
cant even make music baby i just wanna scream
i wanna give up baby i just wanna leave
rotting in the field turn my organs into trees
my blood is in the roots and my soul is in the leaves
im not a fucking artist im just venting on a beat

patched up but i got blood on my jeans
this aint lexapro baby this is ketamine
cancel all my plans just to stare into a screen
waste away my life with adderall and mp3s

because of me i hate myself
only way to cope is to romanticize my health
u treat it as a trend but baby im not doing well
u treat it as a trend but baby this a cry for help

and u was faking
u dont feel like me
i look in the mirror i fucking hate what i see
i wanna fall apart u see me ripping at the seams
cant even make music baby i just wanna scream
i wanna give up baby i just wanna leave
rotting in the field turn my organs into trees
my blood is in the roots and my soul is in the leaves
im not a fucking artist im just venting on a beat

like a puppet u control my feet
u could pull the strings walk me right into the street
i feel like throwing up everytime i try to speak
i wanna disappear every time u look at me
n im so paranoid baby i cant even sleep
i fucking hate my life why u tryna copy me
n ive been feeling sick baby i cant even eat
im nothing anyway throw my body in the creek

inspired by bliss

pretend (shrinemaiden)

prod https://soundcloud.com/shrinex

Lyrics:
Put me in your pocket and we could run away
I feel so stuck every time you look at me
Turned to stone baby I cant look away
It wont get better, every day's a rainy day

Talking tough, you won't do nothing
He'd be mangled, body carved just like a pumpkin
Show your cards, I think you're bluffing
Walk me right into the street cuz' I'm a puppet
I'm a puppet
Seam ripper at my stitching are you done yet?
If I disappear, would that make you upset?
I'm just an after thought baby where my love at?

Swept under the rug or the doormat
I feel out of place what's the format?
I put chrome on my belt you can't afford that
See your fangs when you smile I adore that

You can come and go like it's clockwork
Cat scratch on my wrist, let's add another
Studded belt to my face, I need to suffer
I'm on a mission baby keep it undercover

New world just like Alice in-
It's a wonderland, I need more medicine
Heart attacks when I'm stepping in
This an all black suit, feel like the president

Key in my back, watch me wind up
I'm a clockwork toy, think my time's up
We're moving shady, you can't find us
You count me out but this tower I'mma climb up

Talking tough, you won't do nothing
He'd be mangled, body carved just like a pumpkin
Show your cards, I think you're bluffing
Walk me right into the street cuz' I'm a puppet
I'm a puppet
Seam ripper at my stitching are you done yet?
If I disappear, would that make you upset?
I'm just an after thought baby where my love at?

What's so funny? Ain't no laughter
Talk down, light you up like jack-o'-lanterns
Bullets at your feet make you a dancer
Already talking to the dead like necromancers
Your lame aesthetic spread like cancer
Put the barrel in your mouth, I'm getting answers
Icepick through my eye, now my head hurts
Put a gamble on my life cuz' nothing matters

wonderland (shrinemaiden)

prod https://soundcloud.com/shrinex
ft: https://on.soundcloud.com/ZxCRkcdQ3As1HS1X7

lyrics:

"Everything in the world is an experimental test subject, of course that include myself as well"

[gleam]
We sit in silence as you're looking at my arms
Stitch us together, I do want to fall apart
Cut and sew, turn my body into art
Watching us explode like two colliding stars

I think we're perfect
I'd do anything for you and it'd be worth it
You're in my heart like a surgeon
Patching up the scars like it's urgent

[coven]
Feel like I'm at a disadvantage 
Baby come cover me up with bandage
Baby you stole my heart just like a fuckin' bandit
Hurt me
Left me damaged
Oh my god
When I'm with you I'm full of life
Makin' me nervous might throw up
I'm a burden not enough
My stomachs hurtin I feel rough
She gon' fly to me just like a dove
I really don't accept your love
Your love, your love

What's the fuckin' word?
Stop tryna' play these games with me I promise it wont work
Tell me that you'll marry me and we’ll end up in the dirt
We’ll end up in a hearse 
We’ll end up below the earth 
Together
Lets go change the weather
Makin me feel better 
These drugs make me feel deader 
How can I regret her when I already forget her
Could you come and skin me and use me as leather?

[gleam]
It might be best for me to go
Stepping out the house in all designer clothes
But you're my everything, I want that to be known
I'd throw it all away to kiss you in the snow
I'd throw it all away to interlock our bones
I'd throw it all away to get you out those clothes
Every time you look at me my heart is froze
For you I'd pick out every thorn on every rose

[coven]
Baby you're so
I'm so damn vulnerable 
When I'm with you I'm out of control
But not enough
Cut me with your blade and keep it dull
Cut me in the face and lay me out
I think I lost my mind 
Fuck me for the last time
Touch me for all the times I've died
In your arms
When I'm with you I wont harm

cut & sew w/ coven (shrinemaiden)

prod @winter

lyrics:

"I'd rather not doctor, my wonderland is shattered. it's- dead to me"

Feel my chest tighten up like a corset
I thought you would help me, you only want to torment
Put me in the background, I'm not that important
I reach my hand out, I'm stuck inside a torrent
My life's so boring, I'm sinking to a new low
I've been tryna save myself, can't be a hero
My life needs substance, I'm clinging onto sorrow
This is my shit, you just like to borrow
I try my hardest everyday to see tomorrow

I wear these scars around my wrist like it's a bracelet
Welcome to my world, we could let decay hit
I live my life like I'm a puppet, I just fake it
-and then display it

I live my life in black and white, like your stockings
You can hide the key, hurry up, think someone's watching
I was in the photograph, then I saw you crop me
Is anybody listening? Why am I still talking?

I wear these scars around my wrist like it's a bracelet
Welcome to my world, we could let decay hit
I live my life like I'm a puppet, I just fake it
You rip my heart out my chest, and then display it
Every gear inside my body keeps on breaking
I feel like I'm clockwork, wind me up and play it
Why can't I surround myself in something else than hatred?
Why does life keep trying me? Don't think I can take it

[my life] madness returns (winter)

prod @lilac

lyrics:
when i can’t smile i just fake it
this is my life if i want it i can take it
if its a promise i wont break it
got a lot of problems in my life but i wont face it
why do i surround myself in hatred?
why cant i just drown everything out? i cant take it
one good shot will leave u brainless
metal in my mouth baby i’m not talking braces

what’s it matter if the worlds just gonna end?
ghost in a shell feel like im already dead
maybe i just need a friend
u can play ur role baby we can play pretend
what’s it matter if the worlds just gonna end?
ghost in a shell feel like im already dead
maybe i just need a friend
u can play ur role baby we can play pretend

u always ask me what i’m hiding
razor to my skin it’s exciting
i keep on failing sick of trying
tell me it gets better baby i know that ur lying
wind me up to entertain u
talk of better days but we treat it like a fable
sew ur lips cause im unstable
stitch a pair of wings to ur back ur an angel

when i can’t smile i just fake it
this is my life if i want it i can take it
if its a promise i wont break it
got a lot of problems in my life but i wont face it
why do i surround myself in hatred?
why cant i just drown everything out? i cant take it
one good shot will leave u brainless
metal in my mouth baby i’m not talking braces

if it’s over let it go and
come tomorrow it will seem
so yesterday so yesterday 
i’m just a bird that’s already flown away
laugh it off let it go and
when u wake up it will seem
so yesterday so yesterday 
haven’t u hear that i’m gonna be okay?

smile (lilac)

prod @m2monroe and https://soundcloud.com/https://on.soundcloud.com/WKBZ5RhB9ZXGjQKF7

lyrics:
Baby look me in my eyes
Wanna see you glow in the starlight
Everything is black, everything is white
I feel like a failure, can't keep up with life
Someone's in my head telling me to roll the dice
Body made of glass, so I can't put up a fight
Put my body in the bag, we gon' reach the other side
Told you I was fine, all I ever do is lie

You sit back and wait for it to fall apart
You destroy me perfectly, it feels like art
Open up my chest and try to fix my heart
You just pull the strings and you control my arms
Withered heart, but it beats for you
Fall apart like I'm missing a screw
Patch me up like you always do
Best hand, but I always lose

You explain in ways that I don't understand
Let you feel my heartbeat while you hold my hand
Tryna' hold my breath, but I don't think I can

Baby look me in my eyes
Wanna see you glow in the starlight
Everything is black, everything is white
I feel like a failure, can't keep up with life
Someone's in my head telling me to roll the dice
Body made of glass, so I can't put up a fight
Put my body in the bag, we gon' reach the other side
Told you I was fine, all I ever do is lie

New life, new face, I hate me
Everything has been backwards lately
New stripes on my skin, I'm shaking
Staying home, missing plans, cause I'm flakey
That message sounded like you're pissed off
I feel like a burden so I kick rocks
You just see my mental as a hitbox
I missed my potion so I quick dropped

i can't keep up (kyoa+monroe)

prod @winter

lyrics:

i cant see how life should go
severed ties so im on my own
like cuts striped up ur arms
life always leaves a scar
it gets hard when u leave
avoiding the monsters constantly
im at the alter on my knees
but no ones saving me
lets go spiraling again
im worthless whens it gonna end
wake up all i do is frown
i hate it i cant get around
my issues leave me here to drown
im nothing always feeling down

life (winter)

prod @hemovibe

all plats

lyrics:

[gleam]
Struck in the head, I'm bleeding out
I don’t even know how to feel about you now
I put sharp things in my skin when I'm down
My life's a fucking joke so they treat me like a clown
They said they don’t like me, their heads are on the ground
Red stains on my jeans, baby these ain’t coming out
You're asking me for help baby I just make you frown
I'm a fucking burden, you don’t want me around

[tigerlily]
And down we go, all alone
Don't need a stylist, up the mileage
Stay there, unless you say I don't care
Lets go move on be fair, I don't wanna leave, leave you in tears
Grip my hand so you know I'm near
In your hands is the heart you tear
Got bloodstained clothes, and your sense still bare

[gleam]
You’ve been moving backwards
Baby won’t u tell me what you're after?
I wish life was moving faster
Feeling sick in the head, tell me what's the matter
Tell me what’s the matter, when I'm feeling down, I just hear your laughter
Baby tell me what’s the matter, body made of glass, feeling like I'm shattered
I'm shattered into pieces 
You never picked me up, baby I'm not what you needed
You keep me like a secret, your words are engraved in my brain, did you mean it?
Did u mean it?
Baby did u mean it?

shattered w/ tama (tama)

prod @lilac

lyrics:

I get the feeling that you're bored of me
I'm feeling sick, like I caught a disease
Maybe its nothing, maybe it's all on me
But something feels off, I mean like obviously

I think you're all just too late
You grab my hand, lets run away
Close my lips, I have nothing to say
Close my eyes, I can't look at your face

You're tryna' play me like a fool
You must think I'm stupid, I can see right through
Hanging in the background, you gave me the noose
Falling from the building, you let me on the roof

I just feel so paranoid
The little details make so much noise
I can't get my mind off it, like I'm stuck in the void
I guess I'll look past it, I'll keep playing the toy

You think I'm stoic, but I'm just overthinking
Wearing a mask so you don't think that I'm listening
I keep checking again and again, did I miss it?
Tell me I'm tripping
I'm going insane, tell me something ain't different
I'm throwing my life down the drain just to fit in
Why did I stop reaching out to my bros? God I miss them

There's a voice in my head saying I need to suffer
I'm so afraid, I'm hiding under the covers
Internal calamity, like I'm from another
My brain is so crowded, I can't help but feel flustered

It's like you don't know how to hide
I still noticed, even closing my eyes
When it all comes out I hope you don't act surprised
I think it was obvious I've given you signs

calamity (lilac)

ft @jugglyfer
prod @lilac

lyrics:

[gleam]
melt off my skin like snow
we're ornate w jewels n gold
locked away like misanthropes
I cant handle on my own
u try 2 say I move backwards
girl I'm js looking 4 answers
strings make me ur dancer
ur striped tights enamored

eyes sewn shut like Coraline
I cant see that ur mine
ur sharp tongue carve more lies
clock strikes one need more time
life feels good by ur side
I get lost in ur eyes
2 full hearts I poured mine

[blue]
yea, tell me whats the deal
on the way out
cus im good on my own
i can find my way now
so i talk less
and i do more now
i dont wana talk anymore
if u keep on talkin ima kick u out the door
i dont wana talk anymore
u should talk less and do more
on the outside looking in
what you see in life isnt always what it is
you gotta face it
and make it what is
u wana turn ur life around
stop chasing
u wana turn ur life around
on the outside you can find a way out
look into your eyes
tell ur self a lie
only way u know its true
is if u ever try

[gleam]
melt off my skin like snow
we're ornate w jewels n gold
locked away like misanthropes
I cant handle on my own
u try 2 say I move backwards
girl I'm js looking 4 answers
strings make me ur dancer
ur striped tights enamored

eyes sewn shut like Coraline
I cant see that ur mine
ur sharp tongue carve more lies
clock strikes one need more time
life feels good by ur side
I get lost in ur eyes
2 full hearts I poured mine

misanthrope w/ blue (lilac)

prod @lilac

lyrics:

in the fog i can’t see where i’m going
i’ll follow you baby even if it’s pouring
told em “catch up” we flew off in foreigns
a lucky life but i think that it’s boring
i don’t need money when i’m rotting in my bed
i burnt all my bridges just to get a little rest
wake up everyday just to go right back to bed
can’t you tell i’m exhausted?
everyday i do nothing 
so i go back to sleep to end the suffering 
frozen in time my bodys frosted
can’t you tell i’m exhausted?

guided by the blind
broken clocks won’t tell the time
out of sight it’s out of mind
all the times you crossed the line

love me love me
i know this is wonderland but things are getting ugly
bloody bloody
this is do or die baby i hope you can trust me
trust me i wanna get off it
severed arms i can’t stop it
sit in my room and watch the clock tick
can’t you tell i’m exhausted?
walking on stilts as we blossom
why did you make me your monster?
rotting heart in a coffin
can’t you tell i’m exhausted?

exhausted (lilac)

prod @wannakillyourselfwithme

lyrics:

Rip it all apart
Tear me down just to restart
Why can't I just do my part?
I won't make it very far
If you don't wind my clockwork heart
I know sloth is a sin but I'm so tired
I need to take medicine just to feel wired
Don't want to do anything just want to lie here
Just want to lay in the grass think I could die here

We could burn that bridge when we get there
I always try my best but I can't get there
I still remember how we met that winter
I still remember what you said in that whisper
I think I feel like myself when it's cold
What's the point of being rich when you're alone?
Lie in the grass and I look up at the crows
A new trail leaving footprints in the snow
Will you follow me?
Will you walk with me?

"Have you heard of the finger maidens?
Offering guidance and aid to the tarnished
But you I am afraid are maidenless"

Rip it all apart
Tear me down just to restart
Why can't I just do my part?
I won't make it very far
If you don't wind my clockwork heart
I know sloth is a sin but I'm so tired
I need to take medicine just to feel wired
Don't want to do anything just want to lie here
Just want to lay in the grass think I could die here

I tried to tell you you should stay away
You tried to tell me I've been MIA
Why can't you see I'm tryna stay that way?
Why can't you see I'll turn your colors into gray
No matter what you always stay with me
When I fall down you always lay with me
Reach out your hand and catch the falling leaves
Look at the sky and feel the autumn breeze

maiden (locket)

prod @1akura

lyrics:

I watched you turn back the clock, we're moving backwards
You watch me fumble the lock, don't know the password
If I lost all my money would I still matter?
I see the end of the tunnel but what comes after?

Lay in the flowers and watch the birds fly
Maybe one day I'll look down through a birds eye
Maybe I could spread my wings in a new life
Maybe I could fly around through a blue sky

I don't feel nothing, my body's so cold
If you won't say something I think you should go
I wish life was faster, everything feels so slow
I'll just sit with my head down drawing lines in the snow

Hit me where it hurts (hit me where it hurts)
Hit me where it hurts I know
I'm gonna make it work (I'm gonna make it work)
I'm gonna make it work I hope

I don't feel nothing, my body's so cold
If you won't say something I think you should go
I wish life was faster, everything feels so slow
I'll just sit with my head down drawing lines in the snow

hit where it hurts (akura)

prod @uchu45 @lilac

lyrics:
ur wasting time 
while plague creeps thru the night
i keep on losing mind 
u dont want me by ur side
stitched n sewn we're intertwined 
frozen under snow n ice
when i look in ur eyes
i see why im alive

live like quarantine
plz dont get close 2 me
when i walk thru the street
i leave poison at my feet
i break of so discreet
somehow they still follow me
i decay everything thats around me
i jst wanna lie in bed n sleep soundly

i cant look forward to
cs its unbearable
u leave me torn in 2
unrecognizable
dont ask what i would do
youll end up miserable
i live my life in bad luck
whys life so terrible?

throw me on the street like im garbage
toxins in the air lets get it started
i dont need my heart so i discard it
one wrong move its time to carve it
u cant afford it? y dont u jst card it?
when i post sum i want u to heart it
when my lights go out want u to harvest

live like quarantine
plz dont get close 2 me
when i walk thru the street
i leave poison at my feet
i break of so discreet
somehow they still follow me
i decay everything thats around me
i jst wanna lie in bed n sleep soundly

poison (uchu+lilac)

w @1akura prod @lilac

lyrics

[gleam]
all my life i couldn't take it
u dont kno how much i hate it
i wish i was nothing
u wish u were famous
heavy heart of stone
bby i could nvr break it
im so cold u feel like summer
hold me close wish i was warmer
i keep falling down bby u keep moving forward
keep me in a locket tell me im important

bby can u pls just hold me close
i feel like im slipping bby dont let go
cut me up u can wear my skin n bones
im rlly glad ur back i was so alone
can u pls just hold me close
i feel like im slipping bby dont let go
cut me up u can wear my skin n bones
im rlly glad ur back i was so alone

[akura]
help me up
help me out
knocked down was i not enough?

tell me how 
tell me how
i gave my all but u never showed out

this was all 4 us and uu broke itt
leave it in the dust, leave it frozen
n my words are stuck yea im choking
u said u loved me but u never show it

now ur words kill me slowly
said u cared well then show me
in my dreams u were holding me
now i cant ever fall asleep
im in lockdown
heart barely beating thats just how it goes now
tell me the reason why u wont ever come around me
the blood is dripping while im watching u leave

this was all 4 us and uu broke itt
leave it in the dust, leave it frozen
n my words are stuck yea im choking
u said u loved me but u never show it

[gleam]
bby can u pls just hold me close
i feel like im slipping bby dont let go
cut me up u can wear my skin n bones
im rlly glad ur back i was so alone
can u pls just hold me close
i feel like im slipping bby dont let go
cut me up u can wear my skin n bones
im rlly glad ur back i was so alone

skin w/ akura (lilac)

prod @lilac

lyrics:
bby wont u tell me where ur going?
walking thru the streets while its pouring
i need a thrill bby everything is boring
im itching for that feeling but its gone
i think u shld stay away
theres a toxin in my veins that isn't safe
theres a sickness in my bones let me decay
bodies dropping all around me like the plague hit
bby come n kiss me im contagious
put a mask on my face cs i cant face it
im throwing money down the drain dont wanna save it
dont wanna be here anymore so i js fake it
im stacking stripes on my wrist like its a bracelet
everything abt my life js feels so makeshift
feel like theres stitches on my lips so i dont say shit
im living lavish everyday but i still hate it

ive been feeling shady i stay in the dark
all the patchwork on my body fell apart
the screws n gears r always loose inside my heart
i need the heat but the kiln wont ever start
i need a dream but my wonderland is shattered
crushed up into dust it doesn't matter
its dragged out i wish life was moving faster
click the camera to my head n watch it splatter

i think my life is js a bunch of metaphors
cs the plague js keeps on walking thru my door
n the waves js keep on crashing on my shores
n my bodys always shattered on the floor
dont think i can keep up anymore
ive been feeling sick bby ive been feeling torn
think i need a wish bby ive been feeling scorned
think i need some medicine i think u need a gasmask
im moving forward but im stuck inside a flashback
my life is great so i dont know what im sad at
its a sickness bby we moving in hazmats
im a sickness in this world i wanna fix that

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