lyrics: 
when all we see is difference between us
will we ever stop this endless war? 
could we see past the fear 
hold each other still 
could we try and understand the other a little more? 

or will the bombs explode? 
dust settle cold 
and still on these broken homes 
cold and still 

if you can't look into my eyes 
'cause all you see is blue, red, black, white 
fight or flight 
fear of each other 
can we ever learn to trust one another? 

or will the bombs explode? 
dust settle cold 
and still on these broken homes 
cold and still 

the thing is we've been here before 
all it ever did was start an endless war 
of guilt, death, indoctrination steps, 
learning and unlearning 
and just trying to pay of debt 
of murder of nations 
entire populations 
of races, of lives 
shattered a thousand times for what? 
can we just stop? 


or will the bombs explode? 
dust settle cold 
and still on these broken homes 
cold and still 

(backing vocals)
round and round and round we go 
round and round and round we go 
until we stop 
until we say no 
round and round and round and round

Bombs

lyrics:

I put my life on hold for you
Refused to stop giving
To something that stopped me from living
And it's my own fault
I know
But right now I'm angry I'm letting it show

I poured my soul into cups that got thrown
Pieces swept off the floor
My bleeding fingers ignored
My brain says "try again"

Here I am trying
I guess I'm built to get up
To get up when I'm dying
Send me a sign
I don't know if I can
Keep on putting my heart
My heart on the line
Send me a sign

You said that I'm getting old
Refusing to turn into the thing
That I laughed at at 17
It's so naive to think that dreams expire
Like after 35 I lose my right to try

I'm not your spectacle
A stupid sideshow
Look at me refusing to grow up
To be real
To give up
To get old

Here I am trying
I guess I'm built to get up
To get up when I'm dying
Send me a sign
I don't know if I can
Keep on putting my heart
My heart on the line
Send me a sign

If I stretch my voice
Higher
Louder
Scream it out from the rooftops
Will someone, somewhere hear me?

Here I am trying
I guess I'm built to get up
To get up when I'm dying
Send me a sign
I don't know if I can
Keep on putting my heart
My heart on the line
Send me a sign

written by Highland Kites 
lyrics/guitar/keys/vocals by Marissa Lamar
drums/pad by Neil Briggs  
bass/lead guitar/slide by Nigel Briggs 
mixed and mastered by Shaun Oppedisano

Still Trying

We Both Know It

Lyrics: 

While I was trying to find myself
You were pretending I was something else
Dragging me through the mud again
You know I was just trying to help

What it is that I don't see
When I hold onto those who hate me?
Who are so deeply unhappy
They take it out on everyone else

I'm trying to stop trying to save the world
I'm trying to stop trying to be the girl
Who holds the weight of everyone and everything while my own ship sinks

What it is about me
That makes you feel so angry?
I want to to know why you feel the need
To slowly sink in your teeth

If you could stop projecting yourself on me
Maybe we could both live in peace
I know you're not a friend to me
I see the guns
Please stop pretending

I'm trying to stop trying to save the world
I'm trying to stop trying to be the girl
Who holds the weight of everyone and everything while my own ship sinks

I'm trying to stop trying to save the world
I'm trying to stop trying to be the girl
I won't hold the weight of everyone and everything
I won't let this ship sink

This Ship

When You Were Mine

Human Nature

Standing on the corner,
the air was heavy with rain.
Blasting The Cure through my headphones,
it's Friday and I'm in love again.

I start to wish the rain would melt me and the clouds would pick me up again.
I'd become part of something beautiful,
but I've always been a bit insane.

I want to run.
Head for the train.
To feel the heat as I pick up the pace.
I'm so afraid, of never-ending patterns and ways.
I want to melt this skin as I run from this place.

How did we get here is all I see what I look at your face,
and the ghosts in my head, they scream that something's going to end,
I pray from something beautiful in it's place.

And all I can say,
is something has changed.
And all I can say,
is I'm not the same.

Standing on the corner,
the air is heavy with rain.
Saying goodbye to the monsters you saved me from again.

And now I'm home.

Produced by Raymond Richards at Red Rockets Glare Studios

Now I'm Home

"This War Inside" is from Highland Kites forthcoming EP, Let Me Run, out July 22nd

Lyrics:

Running back towards the light
I was lost in my mind
locked in a cage of my own design.

I could stop this war inside if only I could pick a side,
as darkness wages its war tonight,
I'll run towards the light.

In my glass house I lie,
now you can see me cry
as I embrace the beast inside.

Chorus

Everything's alright,
I'll find myself tonight,
I needed darkness to see the light,
I'll find myself tonight.

Chorus

Produced by Raymond Richards
Songwriter/Keys/Vocals: Marissa Lamar
Drums: Neil Briggs
Guitar/Bass: Raymond Richards


This War Inside

Lyrics: 

I'd do anything to get out of this place, 
I can't escape the feeling of being used. 
I close my eyes to look at your face as if I'll find something that screams the truth, 
but I'm humiliated. 

You're a vampire, a parasite feeding on my obvious pain. 
Lurking in corners, deep in the night, 
you ripped out my heart, you left me stranded in chains, 
and now I'm humiliated. 

Did you know when you came into my life I was weak, 
already poisoned by shame? 
As the day it turned slowly to night, 
I realized I'm just a pawn in your game. 
You left me humiliated. 

This is how you live, 
so I say goodbye. 
I'll leave you here like this, 
drowning in lies, 
and humiliated, 
alone and humiliated.

Let Me Run 

Humiliated

It's always late at night when these thoughts they seem to culminate. 
They almost make sense in my dream like state 
The words are so loud, they're so loud in my brain.
They scream if I loved you less I'd be okay.

But you knew it 
All I'd ever done is forgive your flaws 
You knew it
That I can't help myself at all 
Not at all

I finally realize that's it ok to break 
I finally realize that it's ok to not feel hate 
I finally realize I'm not weak for always forgiving
That I'm not weak

As I walk away I curse the whole universe 
For not splitting love is perfect halves so we're equally hurt 
I curse myself for heavy thinking, 
Feeling all this pain, 
It's like a thousand bricks, 
A thousand bricks deep seated in my brain

I know who I am and it's okay 
I'll love you as I walk away, I'll know you are and I pray you'll find that person someday.

I'm not weak

Credits: 
Vocals/Guitar: Marissa Lamar 
Drums/Percussion: Neil Briggs 
Lead Guitar: Raymond Richards/Alex Edwards 
Bass: Raymond Richards 
Recorded at Willowcrest Studios & B-Side Studios 
Produced and mixed by Raymond Richards
Mastered by Little Red Book Mastering

I'm Not Weak

Lyrics: 

Remember when we were inseparable, so indestructible? 
Remember when the words we said were like gold? 
The ocean is where we lived we stood in the waves until the sun set 
and sleepily drove home

The thing about two halves is there’s always light dark
I’m not afraid to admit that you were the sun
The thing about two halves is there’s always light and dark
I’m ashamed to admit that I swallowed you up 

I’m a silly little monster 
the inside of my mind’s like Tim Burton and Dr. Suess on the loose 
I love how you laughed about it 
You told me I was something else I’d change the world 
I’d make something of myself 

But the thing about this head is I’ve spent too much time in it 
Trying to turn on the lights
Trying to win a fight with myself 
I’ve spent all these years trying to fix it
Would you believe me love if I said I was better now?

The thing about two halves is there’s always light dark
I’m not afraid to admit that you were the sun
The thing about two halves is there’s always light and dark
I’m ashamed to admit that I swallowed you up  


Written by Highland Kites 
Produced by Highland Kites and Nick Bolluck
Mixed by Nick Bullock 
Mastered by Little Red Book Mastering 
Vocals & Guitar: Marissa Lamar  
Synth/Organ: Marissa Lamar & Nick Bolluck
Drums/drum pad/bass pedals: Neil Briggs 
Additional guitars & Bass: Nick Bullock

Two Halves

Lyrics: 

How did it take so long to know where it all went wrong? 
It unfolded so slowly 
You said my greatest strength is my biggest flaw 
how deeply I love everyone 
just toughen up is what you told me 

You sweetly 
broke my hopeful heart 
and held up 
the pieces like some modern art 
why did I cling to you so fully? 

In retrospect I should have left with the fire gone 
but embers burn out slowly 
you said my greatest strength is my biggest flaw 
how deeply I love everyone 
will be the death of me 

The moment I believed you 
I lost myself completely 

It's been a long road back to me

Written & Produced by Highland Kites 
Lyrics/Vocals/Guitar: Marissa Lamar 
Drums: Neil Briggs 
Additional guitars and bass: Nicholas Bullock 
Mixed by Nicholas Bullock

Long Road

Highland Kites started as Los Angeles native Marissa Lamar's solo project, and was a way for her to deal with the aftermath of her beating a severe case of neurologic Lyme Disease, losing much of her earlier life in the process. Music was a way to deal with not  just the pain, but to help her heal and find a new purpose. 

Having never played or sung she started learning piano in 2014 at 26 and within 6 months played her first show. What started as just something to help her mind heal and give her an artistic outlet became an obsession and something she fell deeply  in love with. 

She shortly after met drummer, Neil Briggs through a mutual friend. Their musical styles were very different but the contrast created a sound that they both resonated with. 

They have since released 4 EPs, a full length album and a few singles, done 6 tours and over 100 shows. 

They're music has been described as "Hope Sandoval fronting Radiohead". They have a love for adding texture to songs, and creating dreamy landscapes around brutally honest and direct lyrics. 

They recently decided to leave Los Angeles and move to Nashville, TN. 

They released their latest EP "Better Off" in June 2019 via MGM Distribution. The two music videos they made (with Space Dream productions) off the EP have been making rounds in the festival circuit with multiple nominations and awards so far. 

They just finished 3 songs in the studio and will be releasing the first one (Two Halves) in Sept 2019.

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