This was originally supposed to be a music video, but my computer couldn't render out the particle effects very well. Managed one clip that is synced to the guitar solo. Alt Grunge music project I recorded and produced for a friends college film back in 2022. I'm still happy with the final result. Might return to this sound eventually since it's a bit nostalgic for me. Recorded and Produced in Ableton Live 7 at the time.

LYRICS:
[Verse 1]

push me away, sorry for the things I said
use me, like everybody else
hate me, I wish it was more, than myself

[Chorus] (just riff)

[Verse 2]
love to hate the way you make me feel
put you're hands all over me in anger again
please describe the things do to you
what does it make you want to do to me
bruised and battered, it doesn't fucking matter
I just wanna feel something

[Chorus] (one time)
I'm lashing out at myself
let me drag you into my hell
baby do you love me to?
until you realize, that all I do is consume

Guitar Solo

[Ending] 
push me away, sorry for things I said

Lashing Out

This has been sitting on my computer for awhile as I mulled over whether or not I was happy with the current mix of this track. Ultimately I think it's time to move on from it, and quit being stun-locked on whether or not it's completely perfect to my ears.

I would like to try and find a way to tighten up the bass lines a bit (maybe less ambience behind it), and try and have the chorus build up and release hit in a more satisfying way. The build feels right(ish), but the release feels undersold in my ears.

Eli