snow

Prod.(largebeatz)

Song dedicated to Olin's brother Jared. Rest in peace man.. 

(L Y R I C S)
Ay yuh, momma Ima a fuck up, uh
momma Ima fuck up, ay
momma Ima fuck up 
Done all you want, I can't think for my damn self

Ay yuh, momma Ima a fuck up, uh
momma Ima fuck up, ay
momma Ima fuck up 
Done all you want, I can't think for my damn self

Self hate goes long a way
We have kids go to school that they shoot up in broad day
Wake up Fake up Shut up your own brain
When you can't find pills to medicate the pain yuh

Ay ay a fuck up since day one
Bottled aggression leads into to depression creates a lonely son 
filled up with sin, alive with a twin who will ride with me till the day comes
But momma always said that I can't be the one to fuck up, so

High standards, with
Learned manners
All Propaganda.
Unanswered with
Thoughts Scattered and
Left plastered

Picture this, a twin brother, in an open casket
Who sees himself, with ripped skin all from a busted hatchet
The crowd stares, hoping for a sad reaction
But blanks stares, thinking how could this fucking happen?

Showed up, in black suit, someone elses grave
Same feeling except with my own fucking name

Thoughts surface, we all play the same game
We live life, with some questions thatll drive us insane
But fuck bliss, I'll hold onto this pain till the very end
rest in peace to our father, we'll have our revenge

Ay yuh, momma Ima a fuck up, uh
momma Ima fuck up, ay
momma Ima fuck up 
Done all you want, I can't think for my damn self

Ay yuh, momma Ima a fuck up, uh
momma Ima fuck up, uh
momma Ima fuck up 
Done all you want, I can't think for my damn self

Im a Fuck Up

Prod.(CapsCtrl)
Artwork by Kodone.

Was sipping wine 5/20/2020, thoughts and emotions began to stir up when I heard this beat dropped by CapsCtrl. Sometimes memories, good and bad, feel like they'll always be ingrained in my thoughts for the rest of my life. But as time goes on I HOPE the feelings stirred from certain memories fade away. Pt. 2 coming soon...

(L Y R I C S)
One last goodbye
I'll miss my flight
I'm not alright
But these thoughts will die.

One last goodbye
I'll miss my flight
I'm not alright
But these thoughts will die.

Pretty girl got nothing going on
Control over my head when I was her pawn
We used to fuck until night turned to dawn
Will you truly miss me, now that I'm gone....

Lies spawn from promise
Promise spawned from lies
Promised she'd love me till the day that she dies

But she gave him skull
Left no where to go
Who is the victim when I'm on my own

Blindness caused violence
Violence caused blindness
cuts down my wrist while my heart beat bleeds silent

Pain leads to numbness
Numbness is pain
Who's there to help you when you lose faith

Ay.. Kept my heart filled like a double cup
Had me flying so high that I started throwing up
I'm gonna miss these flights, we're all out of love..
I'm gonna miss your high, i'm all out of love..

One last goodbye
I'll miss my flight
I'm not alright
But these thoughts will die.

One last goodbye
I'll miss my flight
I'm not alright
But these thoughts will die.

Will you truly miss me, Pt. 1

Prod.(Rizi)
Artwork by Kodone.

SHOUTS OUT TO MY GORILLA GRIP GIRLS, YOU THE REAL ONES

Gorilla Grip Coochie

Prod. (GC)
Artwork by Kodone.

(L Y R I C S)
early mornin, wake up
look at pillow make up
thoughts of you i shake up
always wanna break up
no more time to fake up
it's time to get my plate up
you always brought me down...
now it's time to turn myself around..

AY YUH
NEVER THE ONE FOR ME uh
always came to drain me of my sanity
i'm hoping one day you can live so happily
shout out to my day ones keep me living humbily

Always been a pety case and looking for a rebound
I've been thinking different mental state i feel so free now
freestyle with the homies at a skatepark that's my home now
i might pull up say some savage shit and be like ay
Ima blow up like some hubba bubba uh
then ima fuck yo bitch without a rubba uh uh
shout out to my homie bill who came up with these savage feels
who would cook me up some dinner when the boi just had no dollar bills

Hungover

This song is dedicated to my old friend Isaiah Renouf who died from cardiac arrest after being stabbed in the chest.. rest in peace man and I hope the best for you and your family.. I have his family's gofundme link below for anyone willing to donate and support the Renouf family with burying their son.

https://www.gofundme.com/f/please-help-us-lay-my-baby-brother-to-rest?utm_source=facebook&utm_medium=social&utm_campaign=p_cf%20share-flow-1&fbclid=IwAR16j-yOkcZFUgCymHmjpcoFeCaew6HVf3IG32bfCa-FfOT70XAOQ78r1KM

Produced and mixed by me.

(L Y R I C S)
what a time to be alive
take my heart and find your purpose
Found myself and realized
Life's too short to scratch the surface

what a time to be alive
take my heart and find your purpose
Found myself and realized
Life's too short to scratch the surface

realize
where's my friend
discontent
see again?

I'm steady walking to my car that I can see in eye sight.
thinking about, all the different changes that I've made in my life.
broken hearted, left unguarded, never fit in since 13 
Feel restarted, getting started expecting nothing could hurt me... but..

Began to see himself as an apple who's not too far from the tree, uh
At age 23, Nothing is free, even the air with the force of a knee.
Putting in time, got a new job, working about 50 hours a week 
His momma cries, heart starts to throb, knowing he would never reach his peek.

what a time to be alive
take my heart and find your purpose
Found myself and realized
Life's too short to scratch the surface

what a time to be alive
take my heart and find your purpose
Found myself and realized
Life's too short to scratch the surface
 
No one, should have to lay their life down in their parents hands 
Life without your perfect smile in the picture is so fucking bland
Hearts of friends and family are cut open, thoughts that agonize 
because of you, these haunting thoughts and feelings help me realize that

Life's too short and fragile just for you to fucking battle
mad depression fuck recession did i forget to mention, that we're all
living a life that's timed, unplug the hate in your mind
open the doors, ask for the answers, seek and you shall find.

Lost Friend

Prod. (Philanthrope)

What is the meaning of C est la vie?

It means 'such is life' or 'that's life'. When things don't go according to plan, some people complain non-stop; 
while others accept the fact that disappointments are a part of life and get on with it. 
The expression 'c'est la vie' is mostly used to downplay your sense of disappointment.

(L Y R I C S)

Feelings start to surface and i don't know what to do now
thinking bout my future with no one inside a new town 
yuh 
I'll stay surrounded by my problems that i play down but 
i gotta remember that it's okay, it's okayy yuh..

Change is happening
make new friends and laugh again
Making them is common sense but keeping them is battling like..
like a depression...
after my self correction
remembered the name, forgot all the pain, 
leap into another dimension uh

such is such is life yuh
such is such is life yuh

HIKARI

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