A vulnerable and rage-fueled pop anthem for the modern day feminist. 

In 2018 I broke up with the pill. It was a 9 year relationship. Following that decision to leave hormonal birth control behind, I faced a cascade of issues that forced me to take a deeper look at my health and my life. 

There’s a lot of information I wish my doctors had shared with me when it came to the pill and my overall health: 

That it wasn’t regulating my cycle, it was shutting it down. That it could cause nutrient deficiencies and that’s likely why I was often sick. That my liver and gut health could be disrupted. That ovulation (which I missed out on for almost a decade) supports brain health. That it can affect future fertility outcomes. That it can alter the type of person you are attracted to. That it can increase your likelihood for depression and even certain cancers. That my naturally cycling body can only get pregnant approximately 6 days of the cycle. And so. much. more. 
[For further information and resources please check out the work of: Dr. Jolene Brighten, Nicole Jardim, Lisa Hendrickson-Jack and Dr. Sarah E. Hill]

During the busiest time of my life, the pill afforded me a ton of freedom via pain free periods and zero pregnancies. For this I am truly grateful. That said, it did come at a cost. Underneath the bandaid of the birth control pill, my health issues were not being addressed and they were worsening. 

I want to be clear: I am not anti pill. I am pro informed consent.

This song is for anyone who has ever felt dismissed, disrespected or even betrayed by their health care provider (or perhaps rather the patriarchal healthcare system that got us here in the first place). It’s for any woman who has experienced reproductive health related pain that has been ignored or normalized. 

On the other side of it all now, my hope for everyone - especially women and all menstruating people - is to experience the magic of body literacy and the power of taking healing into your own hands.

Produced and mixed by Tiger Darrow
Additional production & engineering by Anthony Farina
Mastered by Wil Farr
Album art by Natalia Thomas

Lyrics:

Nobody told me
All the ways I would change before I was done with you
I don't want this
I just want to go back to where I started from
13 on the bathroom floor screaming
That house on the bend where life came crashing in

Nobody told me
Nobody told me

I'm tired of all my complaining
But I can't count all the ways I've been undone
They don't understand it
The way we carry pain around with us
And I thank you for the years I felt ok
But we were doing a masquerade 
And I'd like to get to know myself without you there

Nobody told me
(There is truth in every season, it could be the way you dreamed it)
Nobody told me
(Body talking for a reason, listen and the moon will lead you) 
Nobody told me
(There is truth in every season, it could be the way you dreamed it)
Nobody told me
(Body talking for a reason, listen and the moon will lead you) 

Well I swear I'll find the remedy
To get back to myself
And I'll try to light the way a bit
For her, if nothing else

Nobody told me
Did anybody tell you?
Cus nobody told me
I guess I'll figure it out for myself

Nobody told me
(there is truth in every season, it could be the way you dreamed it)
Nobody told me
(body talking for a reason, listen and the moon will lead you) 
Nobody told me
(There is truth in every season, it could be the way you dreamed it)
Nobody told me
(Body talking for a reason, listen and the moon will lead you) 

Nobody told me
(There is truth in every season, it could be the way you dreamed it)
Nobody told me
(Body talking for a reason, listen and the moon will lead you) 
Nobody told me
(There is truth in every season, it could be the way you dreamed it)
Nobody told me
(Body talking for a reason, listen and the moon will lead you)

Nobody Told Me

"Montage" is the lead single off of Hillary Capps' upcoming EP, from the quiet of the underworld.

Written by Hillary Capps and Anthony Farina. 
Produced and mixed by Tiger Darrow 
Mastered by Tess Greenham at Clearlight Mastering

Lyrics:

I’ve been waiting for the tiger lilies to bloom 
I’ve been staring at a sliver of a daylight moon 
Like every day it seems another year’s gone by 
I watch them grow and disappear 

If angels are real just tell me where to fly
Do they get stuck in the same motions just like you and I? 
They can’t pull me out
It’s only me with every doubt 
In all the ways
I could write this story 

I watch it like a movie
Time wraps around me slowly 
Feel it like a heartbeat
Director’s cut, just write me a montage scene

Not what I pictured but it’s clear 
Just let it happen you can’t script it out of fear 
That simple magic weaves a thread day to day
Like the M train humming me to sleep
A half mile away 

If angels are real just tell me where to fly
Do they get stuck in the same motions just like you and I? 
They can’t pull me out
It’s only me with every doubt 
In all the ways
I could write this story 

I watch it like a movie
Time wraps around me slowly 
Feel it like a heartbeat
Director’s cut, just write me a montage scene

Director’s cut, just write me a montage scene

A sliver of the moon 
A sliver of wood
A sliver of hope
A dragonfly wing

We heard the silver train turn on the tracks
The sound of a soft whistle 
We watched the train go by 

We walked home in the wind
Past the old church
An outline in the last bit of light 
And I told you the story about the dragonflies 

We fell asleep in your bed
I left the window cracked open 
To hear the whistle 

I watch it like a movie
Time it wraps around me slowly 
Feel it like a heartbeat
Director’s cut, just write me a montage scene

We watched the train go by

Director’s cut, just write me a montage scene

Watched it go by 
Watched it go by 
Fleeting slivers of people’s lives
In passing

Montage

Edges is a song from Hillary Capps' forthcoming EP, from the quiet of the underworld. 

Written by Hillary Capps
Produced by Tiger Darrow
Mastered by Tess Greenham at Clearlight Mastering Studios

Edges

Reeds is a song from Hillary Capps' forthcoming EP, from the quiet of the underworld. 

Written by Hillary Capps
Produced by Tiger Darrow
Mastered by Tess Greenham at Clearlight Mastering Studios

Reeds

Smokescreen is the second single from Hillary Capps' forthcoming EP, the quiet of the underworld.

Written by Hillary Capps
Produced by Tiger Darrow
Mastered by Tess Greenham at Clearlight Mastering Studios

Lyrics:
If you ask I’ll say I’m fine
Tell you the things that I’m doing right
When you stare I will shine
Show you the things that you like 

I don’t remember when I forgot to sing
But I can’t forget now who we wanted to be

Who designed this smokescreen?
What if I fall, what if you see?
I wanna feel like 19
At the heart of how to be free

A golden ocean starts to fade 
And I’m pulled under
Like a venus retrograde 
But from the quiet of the underworld 
I know how to find the bright spots 

I don’t remember when I forgot to sing
Wasn’t it yesterday we were 17? 

Who designed this smokescreen?
What if I fall, what if you see?
I wanna feel like 19
At the heart of how to be free
How to believe 

Maybe if you ask me
Next time I’ll tell you I’m scared we won’t see
Every corner of the world
And all that we dreamed 

Who designed this smokescreen?
What if I fall, what if you see?
I wanna feel like 19
At the heart of how to be free
How to believe 
How to be free
How to believe 

If you ask I’ll say I’m fine
I’m fine
I’m fine

Smokescreen

In celebration of Women’s History Month, singer-songwriter Hillary Capps is set to release her latest single, “She,” on March 28. The track was created by an all-female team.

Produced by the acclaimed Tiger Darrow, “She” is an anthem of resilience and freedom. The alternative pop song embraces duality – balancing strength and vulnerability – while paying tribute to motherly love, sisterhood, and friendship.

Capps originally wrote “She” in 2019, following the rise of the #MeToo movement. Recently rediscovering it in her voice memos this past January, she was struck by how deeply relevant the song remains today. Inspired by the shifting political landscape and the return of the Trump administration, she felt compelled to bring the song to life.

“She” is also currently available as a live video that was submitted as part of the 2025 Tiny Desk Contest.

“Since the election and inauguration, I have felt a strong desire to surround myself with like-minded women and reconnect with my community,” says Capps. “It’s easy to feel powerless witnessing the changes initiated by this new administration, but hey, I can always make art. So that’s what we did here.”

“She” was made possible with the generous support of Capps’ Patreon community, who continue to champion her artistic journey. The single will be available on all major streaming platforms on March 28.

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