"Self Reparations: Segment 1"
This project is more of an audio documentary of times I was at my lowest and truly doubted I'd make it out my depression. I'm thankful regardless how dark of a place I found myself in, my analytical trait was at it's 'peak' despite the pressures of life. I lost quite an amount of friends because of the struggle I've had to open up. Nonetheless, I managed to make it out through compensation of what I deprived myself of; love ('self-love' to be exact)
Thank you for those who stuck around though I wouldn't let you closer thus I pitied myself for what I let myself become.. I'm fixing.
I'm here now. Enjoy!

[Credits]
Mixed, Produced and Written by: Rae. The. Poet
IG: official_rathepoet_za

Self Reparations: Segment 1

"Shift"
Written, produced and engineered by:
Rae. The. Poet | IG:  @official_raethepoet_za

Lyrics

[Pre-Chorus]
I still search for me inside of you
Hopin' that I find me too
Scared to let you go cause I might lose
But I'ma have to see it through
Cause that's the only way that I can tell
That what we have is really somethin' true
It's been a minute since a nigga fell
But somehow this feels like somethin' new

[Chorus]
Cause you got me changin'
Replacing the old habits lately
Facin' my fears and then breakin'
These walls that I built all around me so I can be safe
(Yes)
(I can be safe, but I doubt it) 


[Verse]
I think if I could replace what you've broken or lost 
The thoughts in my head, and these feelings I caught 
It wouldn't make a difference
It wouldn't make a difference
Even if I could go back to the past, I'm a lost soul
I know I'm not even close but I'm God so
That's prolly why I'm distant
I just be tryna fix Him
I needed time to confess, to myself that
This cannot work if I'm holdin' me back and I guess
You're the one then
Cause I see nobody else, you're all I have
And if I, would define that
You'd prolly say I need anti-depressants
I find it difficult to manifest this
Vision I had in mind, she got me terrified
I cannot move man I'm paralyzed, but I'm active
Darling if love is a drug, I'm an addict
Just give me double dose, give me affection
Fallin' for you is like one my fettishes
You hit my phone, I'ma answer it
You're exactly what a bad bitch is
Gorgeous, flawless
I think she might be a Goddess (she) 
She, she got my vision distorted
Light body, I'm in love with her Aura too
She like a diamond stone, spirit quartz
Got my Chakras in order
You might just be what I'm missing, I'm honest

[Pre-Chorus]
I still search for me inside of you
Hopin' that I find me too
Scared to let you go cause I might lose
But I'ma have to see it through
Cause that's the only way that I can tell
That what we have is really somethin' true
It's been a minute since a nigga fell
But somehow this feels like somethin' new

[Chorus]
Cause you got me changin'
Replacing the old habits lately
Facin' my fears and then breakin'
These walls that I built all around me so I can be safe
(I can be safe, but I doubt it)