When A Child Is Born

Skinny Lungs

Coronavirus sucks. We’ve lost people and jobs, we’re stuck away from loved ones, we’re wondering how on earth we’re going to survive. It wasn’t how we wanted school or university or even our careers to end.

As it stands, while I’m writing this, I am in a different country to so many of my loved ones, a cancelled (and irresponsible) flight away from my boyfriend. My parents are both super high risk, so I wouldn’t go there even if I could. I’ve lost my job due to lack of business in the hospitality industry.

It’s all scary. It’s all up in the air. I felt like people who didn’t understand kept making decisions that I had no control over. I was waiting for the shutdown, while feeling like I'd already shutdown.

So classic, overdramatic me wrote this quarantine song!

We're all trying to do our bit, but it's okay to be stressed out and to fall apart sometimes! It's so, so tough but you're not alone in your doubts and fears, I can promise you that.

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SHUTDOWN

Honey, it’s a real mad world out there
Honey, there’s a thunderstorm in my head
People are running wild, losing their alibis
Trying to pull at all the little dying threads
Honey it’s a blood bath, rest your head

Darling, I’m so scared to be alone
Staring out the window like a ghost
Don’t you know I’m sinking ships, praying I’m not losing it
Waiting for a flight to take me home
Cos how can I change everything I’ve ever known?

Maybe they’ll just leave us here
Maybe we’ll drown in our fears
Maybe we’re just waiting for the shutdown
Maybe we’ll be on our own
Maybe we’re better off alone
Maybe we’re just waiting for the cut, now

Honey, there’s a feeling walking through the streets
A cold and empty fear waiting underneath the sheets
People are untouchable, ignorance is loveable
Trying to guess the game before it’s done
Watching from the moon as we drown out the sun

Don’t you tell me that it’s not so bad
Don’t you tell me that it’s not so mad
You’re not screaming from the bottom of the ocean
You’re just waiting at the tip of the commotion
Don’t you tell me that it’s not going to hurt
I don’t need to hear your lies invert
You’re not screaming from the bottom of your lungs
You’re not standing in the middle undone
You’re not standing in the middle undone

Hannah Allaway