lyrics

save me
u cant
did i even want that
i cant
u were like all that
i had
i just let it slip out
my hands 
just another setback
i know 
can i take a break now
i wont
can u let me breath now
u wont
i can hardly see thru
eyes closed

thrown around
and im torn apart
i get tracked down
in the dark
i get bludgeoned 
u know something 
guess it wasnt in the cards

is it time
idk
every night 
im going home
every lie
u know i know
in my life
i never take it slow

save me
u cant
did i even want that
i cant
u were like all that
i had
i just let it slip out
my hands 
just another setback
i know 
can i take a break now
i wont
can u let me breath now
u wont
i can hardly see thru
eyes closed

i slip thru the cracks. (hollowprpl)

lyrics:

[bedroom noise:]

i stumble down the stairs
i grip the railng it sends splinters thru my hands
as the panels shift the mildew creeps its way into the air 
all i do is think about ur body and i stare
att the bones beneath the remnants of the flesh u used to wear
and ur not breathing. i dont notice
and ur bones r rearranged to fit a shape thats locked in place
as the spire calls my name i twist and writhe until i change
until the mirror splits and now i do not recognize my face 

uh, i do not recognize this place
fluid leaks from puncture wounds, its pouring out my  brain
i let my flesh
become a costume
for the souls that will replace me
the bodies left adorn the concrete floors inside this basement

i do not think abt u lately
something in the walls is tryna change me
i hear u caling down the halls
i cannot speak to u at all

[melmige:]
	
why u looking at me that way is something wrong
now that u mention it my body cold and my hands are numb
throat is closing up think im losing all my oxygen
pieces fragment falling off in sequence to the setting sun
bile rises up when i try open up and say what’s wrong
fighting for control i think i never had and never could
im scared not one for cynicism
but it’s looking bad and not any different
than how it’s been since it was in winter
heat change nothing don’t feel the difference 
i’m mumbling i’m stumbling all through these empty streets
i’m wondering bout where ive been compared to where i’ll be
my body rotting stomach rumbling i haven’t ate in weeks
not worth the trouble don’t deserve the proper care i probably need

so why you looking at me that way am i too far gone
i feel like time freezes and then i blink and the years i lost fly by
body rusting stuck in place gather dust over my eyes
don’t think i am someone my family recognize
every word tears at my throat and every step bones break
i feel trapped under my skin as i claw at my face
im writhing

a remembrance of the spire

a remembrance of the spire (feat. melmige) [prod. TXMID]

lovely
guess i'll turn back to the one we knew
just company, keep holding back, never nothing new
focus, hit up a flow, mix my shitty music
you'll notice when sinking low underneath the floor
hopefully just a ghost u can still ignore
oh it's lovely, guess i'll become who i was before

none the music been made to blow
even half it wasn't relatable
but i steady cook
spearheader shit
fuck u talkn bout, go getter
i was made to push
loud autobot, team outroll 
baby girl u could smell the bush
homies smokin on cedar wood
really hope ts isn't laced kush
and really hope that i make it too
or else every dream ending up wasted

grinding till morning ember evanesce night sky
light this red trickling my eyes
likened dead, preyed upon life

so tell me why do u hide 
getting cold in my soul only frozen outside
like the snow finna reach inside my bones when i die
couldn't help me anyway so
i jus sit inside and fix to fucking lay low
i jus had 2 count my money get ur pesos up
boy u a pussy pos n i aint say that much
even on my worst days beat u in tha best way

lovely
guess i'll turn back to the one we knew
just company, keep holding back, never nothing new
focus, hit up a flow, mix my shitty music
you'll notice when sinking low underneath the floor
hopefully just a ghost u can still ignore
oh it's lovely, guess i'll become who i was before

lovely (ARVM)

lyrics ⬇️


figurative language



im lonely as often as you’re in my head
thoughts been depleting my every last breath
and i know
last year was cold 
reminds of every time i never told you so

said that i couldnt love you like the other ones in my past
you also told me if you dropped me you would never want me back
did that for a month
now its been minute
used me as crutch
til you left cuz you were livid

cut ties with ur enemies cuz ur trippin i could not
then ill be with my homies til im dead and ima rot
maybe everything you said to me was way wrose than you thought 
way too heavy like an anvil please oh lord just wish me gone

wish me gone
ima leave the same second you push me off
you made dive me off that cliff and i hit the bottom i hit the rocks

wheres the applause
 i thought you wanted me out of the universe up me in the stars
somehow it always feel dark
wish i could tell you that i could restart
but i can’t 
every night you talk to me i feel like you want me to feel like i’m an ant
step over me like the part in the pavement 
i feel like you want me rant


i ran out on everything you tried to fix cuz i couldnt pick up ur hand
watch me go down the list as everything i want just wont go to plan
i roll in the rubble and sticks i know that they can’t understand 
if you gave me one more wish then i would wish that i was them

i cant play pretend
cant go through all this again i know ill get revenge
eventually ill explain to everyone what i did
what i did

you scraped away that memory on skin with 
broken glad
tempted to exempt myself from everything i had

dont remind me of that addiction 
everytime i was there in an instant

now atleast where im at im reminded I exist 
sorry that its killing me i wish that we could live

pushing me and honestly i hate when you persist
but i been here ever forever so i cant even resist
i wish that every night you went out when u been drinking outta line wit all ur friends

switch up the top i don’t wanna slip
im off the bottle i wish i had bliss
i was out fully far in the abyss
if we departed id turn to a man and realize that everything you did was

switch the topic (everest)

[clip from tron]

lyrics

you're still within range
i draw up the mud from this cup filled with pain
you can hide underneath my top when it rains
do you wish these thoughts would stop?
kiss of death turned me to a monster

i was knee deep in the dirt when a rose fell
i was out my body pushing concrete in a cursed hell
can we dance it off
signs on the screen make us worse off

party 'till the morning, till that face off
i left all my pain out in the pavement oh
you might think i'm crazy but i make it work
if you not with my bodies we gon' make it hurt

listen, i rub both my eyes and create friction
mission, i just double down when i go missing
fuck it, all of my designs yeah i crushed them
from my wish list, all that force on my back like a piston

if you didn't see a hollow body then i think you missed it
yeah it's still my crew but it's not where i'm drifting
i know where i'm from, where i came, where i'm living 
i just pack it up and throw it in the vision

i draw up the mud from this cup filled with pain
you can hide underneath my top when it rains
do you wish these thoughts would stop?
kiss of death turned me to a monster

i was knee deep in the dirt when a rose fell
i was out my body pushing concrete in a cursed hell
can we dance it off
signs on the screen make us worse off

wasn't sure if i should let you go
but i didn't want to see you drown
you built me up like a mound
we were both lost but now we're found

last night felt slow then you called
completely forgot i was in a snowstorm
minus a negative and you will move forward
all i need's a body with a whole heart

i don't know who that is but i'll post up
maybe i just make my move
i kept all this pain strapped 
but now it's just paint I use

i draw up the mud from this cup filled with pain
you can hide underneath my top when it rains
do you wish these thoughts would stop?
kiss of death turned me to a monster

i was knee deep in the dirt when a rose fell
i was out my body pushing concrete in a cursed hell
can we dance it off
signs on the screen make us worse off

the perfect system- snowstorm

the perfect system- snowstorm (irby x cxrter)

P. nomansland 

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Lyrics~

(Swamp) 

My lifes in a spiral 
And I just can’t seem to catch a break
When I tried this shit the passive way 
they hit me at a faster pace 
It was a massacre up there on that caligo hill
Sends A shiver down your serabelem, signal the chills 

Ok yeah I’m back up on attack, there’s just no foldin us 
Grab that ammo load it up 
It’s gettin kinda quiet on this California western front 
Give it all you can until you can’t and hope the war is almost done 
Shell shocked, you’ve had enough 

There you go, you’re telling yourself that never again 
Will you put you’re life on the edge for something that somebody said 
The battle goes on in your head 
And shurly you’ll face a certain death 
But I guess you love that shit because you never left 

(Enyu)

Loaded chambers caught in a deadlock
choke on me like a tight knot
rewinding all of my future plans
hailing down on me till my heart stop
yeah, but i’m still in it
guess i’m twisted
drawn to where i fucking bled
need some god to grant my wishes
rather than be fucking dead

i scrape my wounds when its dark
a shiver down my extremities
and while the whole world fell apart
i stand upfront with serenity
and when I turn around
the time has come for confession
to learn a beautiful lesson
i’m heading outbound
to fend off my imperfections

(Swamp)

Hopefully when the dust settles I’ll be alright 
All intact and alive 
The only loss being time 
Trying to figure out another way to save myself 
From the war in my head, it’s been a living hell

never ending spiral w/ enyu

whtvr u wnt

from a year ago <3

Its a total different picture,  
ur not here inside the photo frames  
I can really not forget you,  
what we had was real but it felt so fake 
and I don’t really wanna listen,  
to the bad things that u have to say 
I know got some bad habits  
I promise one day they will go away  x2

I love to lose my head,
I smoke up cuz im sad again 
and I know it will pick me up for time,  
it comes crashing down, I do it all again 
im just rolling up till the sunrise
and you know that im dead u can see it in my eyes

I cannot manage,  
oh shits fucked up,
Damn that’s tragic  
put me in the past tense 
they too busy laughing, 
I been building what I have for years, 
I don’t know if it’ll take me anywhere ill see 
right past the ocean I feel the breeze 
im way past emotions, I think I feel free

photo frames [everest]

prod. @ffiftyzeros

lyrics
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and all my vices, they so lovely
they keep me inside this house
to where i make excuses subtly yeah
we’re inching towards my self destruction
i don’t have a lot of friends
so socially i do not function yeah

and all my days are spent recovering
i put spells upon myself and read my cards just like a coven
i don’t know what’s come of me
but it’s apparent that this chapter isn’t what it’s supposed to be
drown myself inside a bottle
but i never learned to swim so these controls are hard to toggle
and the outcome dances on the edge of death
so the world i’ve built around myself surrounds my final breath

and these breaths fall sacred given time
i’ve got chains around my ankles and these clocks inside my eyes
i don’t think i’m doing fine
all these tracers in my vision but they never show the signs
ripping moss off of my skin
and i eat the heads of the worms that slither silently within
my blood is poisoned full of sin
guess the mud in my abode is throwing punches towards my chin
crawling out of my own flesh
imma torch off all my ignorance and eat upon the rest
serotonin in his vest
whatchu buying whatchu selling said the merchant on my quest

and we hate the way we feel inside
so we hide away until we die
and think of it as time well spent
the fear of burdening a friend

IF YOU CAN HEAR ME, GET ME OUTTA HERE! (PROD. FIFTYZEROS)

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