Name: BBA by hollyc
Duration: 57 s
Description: "instrumental songs i dont know what to do with" pt 2. from November 2021 - December 2023. will show songs i actually did something with sometime soon <3

slipped inside your dreams 
to find myself there, somewhere 
unzipped at the seams 
all that you refuse share 

you, in your teens,
thoughts that i long to read
feelings you guard 
bathing in light
and far
my figure in sight 

past a sea of shame 
you stood with a watchful eye 
did you place the blame? 
was the fault all yours or mine? 

you, as you are now 
hiding inside your mind 
crying out loud
for a savior 
and i move,
thinking it’s me, 

when i saw my semblance turn 
i felt my heart burn,
wanting to scream, “this isn’t me!” 

wish i never dared 
to find myself standing there 
to look through your eyes
to see me in your mind 

you, your cataract 
warping me front to back 
you didn’t see 
the real me there 
and I know 
you never will.

Eye of the Beholder

lovely vocals by ethel cain
instrumental by me
<3

Ptolemaea - Ethel Cain (sadie.mp3 acoustic remix)

Trauma Bonding

you always told me you loved me
but you never learned what real love is
and you couldn't find your dear key
to keep me caged, you snipped my wings

a good bird lets her beak be clipped
but I always bite the hands that seize me
I would not stay there, freedom stripped
singing your songs in hope you’d release me

you always told me you loved me
but you don't understand your own words
your numb ears couldn’t hear my plea
what’s life worth if it’s on your terms

a good bird lets her nails be trimmed
but I always fight cause I’m so fed up
I won’t give in until you’re skinned
I won’t sit pretty and play step-up

Songwriting: Kestrel Eve
Vocals: Kestrel Eve
Bass and Guitar: Crow (my husband)
Production: Crow (my husband) & Kestrel Eve

Caged Bird

If you act nice, I think I could like that
But I'm aching for a stronger touch
Someone who likes to go so fast
Do you think that I could be enough?

I'm your s-s-suicide sweetheart
Eating all your candy
Would it be so hard
To bend me over the leather seat? (you love me)

Why don't you take me for a ride on the wild side
Muddy tires on your dirtbike
Do you feel like driving?
I'd let you ride it right through me

And if the going gets tough and you feel like stopping
We can, baby
Red and blue on the horizon
And they're never catching up

(Why don't you, why don't you, why don't you)

Lift me up, baby, from the ceiling
You wanna feel all the things I'm feeling
I'm so high on marijuana
Bout a year ago, I thought I was a goner

But you saved me, you're so crazy
I like the way the wind feels, baby
If you love me, why don't you take me
Why don't you, why don't you, why don't you

Why don't you take me for a ride on the wild side
Muddy tires on your dirtbike
Do you feel like driving?
I'd let you ride it right through me (oh, baby)

If the going gets tough and you feel like stopping
We can, baby
Red and blue on the horizon
They're never catching up

I whisper to myself
When you're missing from my bed
Touch myself to fall asleep
Hallucinating the revving of your engine

Placing my hand on my own neck
Squeezing 'til I feel you with me
Dreaming of slut sex
Will you be my next?

(Why don't you, why don't you, why don't you)

Why don't you take me for a ride on the wild side
Muddy tires on your dirtbike
Do you feel like driving?
I'd let you ride it right through me

If the going gets tough and you feel like stopping
We can, baby
Red and blue on the horizon
And they're never catching up

Leather

dancing while the world burns

falling back to earth

"instrumental songs i dont know what to do with" pt 2. from November 2021 - December 2023. will show songs i actually did something with sometime soon <3

BBA

hollyc

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