POETRY/ saying goodbye is never easy especially towards an ex that you still love despite the pass and breakup , yesterday creeps on you like a memorial that comes constantly always there reminding you but at some point you have to let yesterday go or it will kill you. So You find it in your heart to expect , forgive but never forget and wish them the best in there new ventures. As for you , you’re free from hurt or one step closer .

YESTERDAY

I OWE ALLOT OF YOU GUYS AN EXPLANATION WHO HAS WATCH ME BLOSSOM, MAKE MISTAKES AND GROW ALL THRU LENS, OVER THE YRS AS A BEAUTY- GURU @THEHOLLYWOODEXPERIENCE , DOING LIVES ON FB , SPEAKING MY MIND , STORY-TELLING(THE DRAMA/TEA) , YOUTUBE TUTORIALS, VLOGS, HOW TO AND POETRY AND MY LOVE FOR MUSIC I LIKE TO THINK IM AN ARTIST, THANKS TO THE LOVE N SUPPORT YOUVE. GUYS HAVE SHIWN AND PUSHED ME PASS MY LIMITS ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE.  
THIS HEARTFELT STORY TWAS A STRUGGLE WITHIN MY OWN MIND, I WANTED TO FORGET  BUT IT LITERALLY PLAYS BACK WHETHER ITS NIGHTS OR IN SIMPLE REMINDERS. 
AS FOOLISH , LL ALWAYS LOVE HIM UNDERSTANDING THAT IT TAKES TWO AND APPARENTLY IM NOT THE ONE HE RUNS TOO , PLEASE UNDERSTAND THIS IS JUST PARTS OF OUR STORY W’EVE HAD GOOD TIMES TOO! I KNOW ITS A DEBATE WHEN IT COMES TO ABUSE , AND IT IS IMPORTANT THAT IT SHOULDN’T BE IN ANY HEALTHY , GROWING RELATIONSHIP SO IT MUST STOP! TOO ADD WE HAD ALLOT TO WRK THRU. 
I ACKNOWLEDGE MY OWN BLAME , LIFE IS CHOICES, I DIDN’T MAKE THE RIGHT ONE .
 I CHOICE HIM THRU OUR BS, HOPING FOR NEW OUTCOME TO GO. AGAINST THE GRAIN OF THE IMPOSSIBLE CHANGE WITHIN DOMESTIC RELATIONSHIPS. 
 I THOUGHT ONEDAY WE’D HELP OTHERS GET PASS THAT POINT OF DOOM AND NO RETURN , PEOPLE CAN CHANGE, IF THEY APPLY THEM SELVES AND THERE ACTIONS WILL DICTATE THOSE WANTS,  LOVE IS BLIND , SO OFTEN REMIND YOURSELF WANTS , WORTH IN ORDER A DECISION. 
COUNSELING , REPLACING FIGHTS WITH DATE NIGHTS,
 INDEED WE GREW AS A COUPLE EVEN, I MORE INDIVIDUAL  THINGS WERE GETTING BETTER, BUT RIGHT BEFORE OUR MOVE TO ARIZONA HE BAILED A DAY BEFORE OUR FLIGHT ROAD TO A NEW START. HE MOVED, IT LEFT ME. QUITE, CONFUSED N STILL PACKED WITH HARSH MEMORIES GOOD AND BAD. 
NOW LOVE LEAVES ME SCARED , I DNT WANT THIS TO BECOME MY STORY IM TOUCHING 33.
HOW WILL I KNOW BASICALLY, THATS A CHANCE WE TAKE .
DNT THINK I WNT IT, CURRENTLY MY STATE OF MIND. 
 I WROTE TO THOSE THAT MIGHT BE GOING THRU THE SAME  ABUSE , PHYSICAL , MENTAL & VERBAL ITS ALL WRONG IN WHAT WE CALL, CONSIDER LOVE TODAY IS UNEXCITABLE .
STOP!!! FALSIFYING LOVE , MISLABELING , PRACTICING WHAT ITS NOT , TEACHING THOSE WATCHING ,  LISTENING, USING IT SO LOSLY BECAUSE HALF OF US NEVER REALLY HAD IT TO GIVE IT BACK TO SOMEONE ELSE RATHER GIVE IT WITHIN OURSELF. 
SO MY OVERALL OBJECTIVE WAS TO SPEAK OUT, IT WAS A MUCH NEEDED REMINDER FOR ME AND IT HELPED ME REMAIN FOCUS ON MY WORTH , AN. IMPORTANT PURPOSE MOST BATTLE BEHIND CLOSE DOORS. IN ALL RESPECT , HUMBLY I  HOPE. TO MOTIVATE, INSPIRE , POSSIBLY EVEN SAVE SOMEONE LISTENING. IT. WAS MUSIC AND OTHER AMZING ARTIST TODAY THAT SPOKE TO ME AND STILL EVERYDAY.
THE BAD MEMORIES THAT  REPLAYED IN MY MIND, I HAD TO APPLY IT TO SOMETHING MY FIRST LOVE WAS WRITING…SO  WITH A PURPOSE , HERES A TRUE-STORY THAT  EXPLAINS MY DISTANCE FROM SOCIAL MEDIA, PRIMARILY RE-FOCUSING SELF WORTH, LOVE , AND VALUES. IM GROWING EVERYDAY AND I WALK , TALK DIFF. JUDGED THAT DOESN’T BOTHER ME CAUSE ONLY HE KNOWS . “GOD” FIND THIS  RELATABLE  SHOW LOVE RP, COMMENT,  SHARE. TAG  #HOLLYWOODTHEPOET 

P.S. ID LOVE TO HEAR YALL THOUGHTS , LITTLE DO U KNOW I READ THEM & BELIEVE IT! ALLOT SAID PLAYS IN MY MIND, I NEVER FORGET THOSE IMPACTS. THEY GOT BE PASS TODAY, TOMORROW YOUR WORDS WERE THAT A GET ME UP, KEEP  GOING, IT MAKES ME REALIZE IM SO BLESSED TO HAVE YOU ALL LISTENING PUT ME IN GOOD LIGHT, EVEN AT MY MOST RACHET , EMBRACING MOMENTS BUT THATS THE PAST. TO THINK THE UP-MOST OF ME WITHIN MY OWN INSECURITIES N SITUATIONS LIKE MY STORY TO FULE AND HELP COST THEM… “WHAT WAS IT ABOUT ME” OFTEN IVE QUESTIONED AND I STILL CRY, I HATE IT BUT TRUE SHIT. 
BUT ITS THE NUMBER OF REMINDERS THAT OUTWEIGHS WITH TRUTH, SO TAOST TO YOU LISTENING, SUPPORTERS , THOSE ABOUT TALENT AND GROWTH AMONGST OTHERS  XOXO ITS YOUR LOVE THAT DRIVES ME SO I CANT FAIL, I MANIFEST AND I SPEAK OVER MY LIFE.  AND I WILL GET PASS THIS , I’LL BE THE FIRST TO SAY IVE FELL BUT I HAVEN’T FAILED IM STILL IN THIS RACE.

TRUE STORIES BY @HOLLYWOODTHEPOET

IT PLAYS BACK

A N T I C I P A T I O N BY HTP

Welcome to episode 1 one of my #poem called #ALOVESTORY 
QUICK BREAK DWN; I decided to break this extremely long piece of art Into series giving you 5 mins of my pain at a time. 

YOU MIGHT CRY SO PREPARE, MAKE SURE YOU'RE RELAXED & LISTENING WITH YOUR HEART FOR IM LITERALLY BOUT TO HAND YOU MINE. AS SAD AS THIS MIGHT SEEM, ITS REALITY FOR ME, THINGS IM DEALING WITH ACKNOWLEDGING & COMING OUT OF. Advocating others struggling in any areas like mine, Let's come out together & motivated because I know how bad it hurts but I wish to be that voice for so many lost souls. I've found my purpose, I found meaning, importantly self. Telling you that nothing I can say that subsides that pain NOTHING but I hope EMPHASIZE YOUR WORTH IN ALL I DO,  LEADING BY EXAMPLE. suicide isn’t the answer, we can do this together. AMEN


HUGE CREDIT GOES TO JAZ KARIS,  THIS IS NOT MY BEAT I DO NOT OWN THE RIGHTS!!! 
let me start by saying, I haven't written in yrs. Poetry & Music has always been my outlet for many things. I'd like to personally credit  @JazKarisVEVO For this bomb ass sprit lifting interlude (ITS HER BEAT GUYS AMAZING ARTIST) on her album and I played it a million times. All love & this beat wow no words speechless my pain spoke & your album let along made me cry cause it bought back so many raw emotions, it also spoke loudly in this trying time of finding myself & glue back pieces of my heart. I honestly feel like you saved my life because this interlude kept me so grounded, busy & productive. Your soulful voice, this album (Into the wilderness- ep)   showed me just what I'm capable of & I even surprised myself thanks would never be enough, Gratitude. TAG HER PLEASE.

MY POWER FOUR ENGAGEMENTS GO!
TAG ANY ARTIST YOU HEARD IN MY METAPHORS. TEST YOUR LISTENING SKILLS. 
FAV LINE?
WHAT DID YOU GAIN?
ADVICE?

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Love story ep1 (Trauma head on)

A poet’s prospective; Sharing my world trough Spoken words, Music & Art. I intend to collaborate/feature extraordinary talented Artist/Friends along this journey to success. fully being myself with slight adjustments(Growth). Please be as transparent adding questions, constructive criticism, concerns & Opinions. I’d be honored to have an active audience being that its risky & challenging touching the topics at hand & ahead being our world isn’t as open minded. BUT WE ARE ENTITLED THE 1STS AMENDMENT/FREEDOM OF SPEECH to which are no laws. Let's speak freely & respect all personal opinions.  You all have played a major role in my growth & I hope to Inspire, Advocate, Educate, Uplift & Empower those listening publicly & silently. Don’t construe, distort or perceive my messages, note these are my own personal experiences shining light on the topics that’s hard to publicly talk on & accept. I intend to upkeep a positive mindset for its EASY to jump out of character into ignorance &  being adults in all accuracy its sad but its common that it’s norm we all fall short of everything other then raw kindness. But we're perfectly imperfect & hopefully evolving into becoming better individuals motivated by our own thoughts, mindset & habits. To add I've learned & applied this accurate known key-fact to support self growth. Environmental change, crowds kept, places even steps back from an unhealthy home,  leading to some of our unfortunate mishaps. 
WE ARE products of our environment & sometimes unconsciously. Acknowledge it  & work towards  changing it. HARD?! EXTREMELY being that our brain is already taught & programed, accepting that nothing is wrong nor required changing or adjusting. Change doesn’t always mean that somethings wrong , change is growth, evolving, learning & being able to adapt in anything that’s growing. 
I hope to keep you all inquisitively engaged as we learn & empower each other more so shine light in those dark areas of our lives. In a world with so many opinions may we adhere to our own individually becoming the change we wish to see.
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HOLLYWOOD THE POET