credit to https://twitter.com/sh1nd3 for the cover art

fucked up
my life
and theres no going back

burning
all my time
and i feel so trapped

everyone hates me
feel like im going crazy
i feel stupid i fucked up theres not much else that i can do

i just dont want to feel this way
its getting worse everyday
these feelings i just cant contain 
i think that i am going insane

i feel so dejected
im always rejected
i cant do anything
i just wanna scream
i feel so embarrassed
all my life so careless
gone downhill since 18
i just wanna scream

fucked up
my chances
and now theres no one left for me 

i just want
to end it
then i can finally be free

my friends and family think there is no saving me
nowhere left for me to go be better off six feet below

i just want to redeem myself
but cant admit that i need help
from everything that ive been through
i just dont know what to do

i feel so dejected
im always rejected
i cant do anything
i just wanna scream
i feel so embarrassed
all my life so careless
gone downhill since 18
i just wanna scream

dejected

Low IQ

i can see you got a lot on your mind
but you're still in my brain
18 years was long enough
to be going on this way
when i taped my windows shut
i knew i'd gone insane
but i let things get so bad
it all made so much sense to me
you made things so bad too
should i express it all for you?

19 years passed by quick
there's alot inside my brain
this might've been long enough
it hurts to go on this way
when i taped my windows shut
could you tell i was insane?
you let things get so bad
that makes so much sense to me
cuz you made it so easy to
express it all for you


20 years have passed in a flash
do you even remember
the little boy i used to be
mom do you remember me?
when i taped my windows shut
it wasn't much to me
things hurt so bad all the time
and that makes so much sense to me
it's gonna be so easy to
express it all for you


express it all for you

Collab with @popkill2

Don't wanna go outside cuz I live in an echo chamber
Decay day after day 'til death comes that's the savior
I'm rotten to the core past all my rancid layers
Yeah I'm a bastard just like Vlad the Impaler

I'm a piece of shit, I don't wanna hear it
Don't want sympathy, just let me fuckin be
I don't want your time, so please don't yearn for mine
So I'll stay in my room, as I sing this tune

Bitch go get out my face I'm really not in the mood
Used to want to kill myself but I got too much to do
Rockin with the hoodlum boys don't got no time for you
Might be a piece of shit but I'm better off without you

Cuz I'm a piece of shit, I don't wanna hear it
Don't want sympathy, just let me fuckin be
I don't want your time, so please don't yearn for mine
So I'll stay in my room, as I sing this tune

P.O.S (Feat. PopKill)

crustsox cover song

lyrics:
im freaking out
coz i got a lotta shit to think about
and i dont know which of it that i should count
coz theres so much
my body hurts and my brain is fucked

im out
out of reasons to care
my mind is everywhere
ive got 20 missed assignments
i havent made a new song in like 5 months

i really need
need some peace
need release
i really need
need a hug, need a kiss
need someone to fucking suck my dick

im out
im out of luck
cuz my brain is full of stuff
stuff which never gets done
cuz i find it fucking dumb
im up til 6 am
staring at my phone, im alone again
ive got no friends, ive got no future
so i spend all day on the computer

i really need
need some peace
need release
i really need
need a hug, need a kiss
need someone to fucking suck my dick

brainsoup (cover)

Im down on my luck
I think I’ve had enough
Im gonna grab a gun
And shoot Donald trump

Not a liberal, just stuck in a hole
The only way out is a magazine full

(Chorus)
I was aiming for his head
I was aiming for his head
I was aiming for his head
I just wanted him dead

I missed my shot
I think I hear the cops 
Im lying on a lot
With a rock on my knot

Not a democrat, just armed and sad
She left me for a republican

Im down on my luck
I think I’ve had enough
Im gonna grab a gun
And shoot Donald trump

Not a liberal, just stuck in a hole
The only way out is a magazine full

(Chorus)
I was aiming for his head
I was aiming for his head
I was aiming for his head
I just wanted him dead

i shot donald trump at the july 13th pennsylvania rally

I Dont Speak To Whores (Gezebelle Gaburgably)

HAD TO KILL THE OLD ME FOR A CHANCE AT SURVIVAL
Original Release Date: May 1st, 2025

Woke up in the ashes feeling like a ghost
Torn between my demons, yeah, they held me close
I used to be a shadow trying to play a role
But now I'm burning bridges just to save my soul
They told me who to be, had me locked inside
Fed me all their lies, but I cut those ties
They try to tell me that I'm wrong in my mind
Took a blade to the past, left it all behind

Left my past in the rear-view, I ain't going back
Wear my fate with my own hands, never fade to black
This the oath to the old me, but I ain't feeling sad
If they doubt me now, I'm the last to laugh
This is not the end no, this will never be over
Made it out the fire, but my heart grew colder
This is my revival, suicide gone viral
Had to kill the old me for a chance at survival
Had to kill the old me for a chance at survival

They said I'd never make it, said I'd never rise
Told me stay the same, obey and comply
They try to call me strange, like my brain just isn't right
But I've been going against the grain like my whole damn life
I'm finally moving on, now the old me's dead
I gotta be myself until my last breath
The demons in my head try to haunt me down
I just do my best, try to shut them out

Left my past in the rear-view, I ain't going back
Wear my fate with my own hands, never fade to black
This the oath to the old me, but I ain't feeling sad
If they doubt me now, I'm the last to laugh
This is not the end no, this will never be over
Made it out the fire, but my heart grew colder
This is my revival, suicide gone viral
Had to kill the old me for a chance at survival
Had to kill the old me for a chance at survival

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Fighting The Devil

Revival

Josh A - Revival

The new punkrock sensation 'The Sahara Postcards' with a brand new rogue nugget. 


Fokking fogget u

school shooter - Cry For Help

i have anger issues
and i am anxious all the time
wish that somebody told me 
that everything is gonna be fine

i dont recognize my
face when im staring in the mirror
dont know what the hell is happening
my hearts constantly full of fear

its so
i dont know
i dont know

energy drinks to stay awake
but then i cannot sleep at night
and then i toss and turn and my
minds always putting up a fight

i have anger issues
and getting help is what i need
but instead of going to therapy
i punch my wall until i bleed

its so
i dont know
i dont know

anger issues

Hiiii my name is pivo i am a brazillian guy who make musics about mental problems and i like nirvana😎😎😎
i like to use soundclound like a socialmedia or something like this, so i post covers and demos here 😜

I Dont Speak To Whores (Gezebelle Gaburgably)

Home Made Humans

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