I sincerely feel that I am dying slow
Drink myself into oblivion I coast
Out of this instance let me float
Manifest my own existence
Just to prove it’s not a hoax
But proof is only to myself so what’s this fight worth? 
Let me know
So would it be okay if I admit that I’m afraid?
Never more than now, this was never how 
I pictured I would seal my fate
Haven’t slept a solid night in ages
Haven’t felt no motivation
Haven’t found a way to channel all my pain

Except to scribble all these lines for time and time again
It never ends
It bleeds out of my heart and filters through the pen
Tell me how you think it’s gunna end
I’ll write the story for the fans
They gon romanticize the death until they meet it hand to hand
I still aint got no money
Still ain’t got nobody here to touch my body
Still tryna get a grip but my hands are bloody
If it’s lonely at the top then I’m gon stay down at the bottom
Let them underestimate, I lie in wait, and then I got em 

Im gon live it up, but I ain’t living right
I give you pain I give you pleasure ima a cenobite
Know I’m all around you even though we know it’s been a while
Tell me your desires, i prioritize, push all my shit aside
I know that
Everything bout everything pits us against each other
It’s so hard to keep a friend when y’all both struggling for structure
Light at the end of the tunnel, so close I reach out and touch it
The grass is always greener except when there’s no color to judge it

I said fuck it, my end is coming
No running end of discussion
I’m functioning under pressure
Becoming what I was scared of
Been treating myself as lesser
Both victim and the aggressor
They can’t hurt me if I never leave this place
And nowadays
They tried to tell me talk to god
But I think I’m beyond his patience 
When they demonstrate the hate
I give violence for compensation
I’m quiet but I’m impatient
Don’t guard your plate ima take it
Be lying if ain’t say 
I’m fed up wit the fakes

Yeah I’m getting drunk tonight
Yeah I’m all alone
Ain’t nobody love me ain’t nobody picking up my calls 
And that’s alright
All I need is just some 40s and a bong
Couple feet pics to my phone
Not defeated, if I’m breathing then I’m home
I fall asleep and then I’m gone
If you pleading then you’re wrong
If you hear this know I mean all that I bleed into these poems
Demons creeping in my dreams, I’ve seen the omens now I know
All my time is running out so I sincerely feel that I am dying slow

Slow

America The Beautiful (Prod. by Waste)

Ready, Set?

This Is Horus

The Black Box Power

Why Do I Feel

Pascal, This Is For You

Cycles

Cognition ft. GHOSTEMANE

TooManyTimesYouDidNotDeliver ft. babyloot

Horus:

Just came home all the sudden 
I mix the drink the wit the bud
And I get this party jumping 
I just mean the one in my stomach 

I got no one I can trust in 
Except the woman I cum in 
And now the circle I run in 
Is dissipating to fuck it 

I got no time for no hoes
I know for a fact 
All the time and money spent 
Ain't worth the view from the back 

And all the sudden everybody wanna be my tag partner 
Lemme tell you motherfuckers yall don't wanna get me started 

I don't need your support 
I do not need the likes 
I do not need the listens 
They do not cure all the nights 

I go without a wink of sleep 
No energy 
Unnecessary 
To try and show you motherfuckers that the strength is beneath 

But see I got a few things that one day I wish to achieve 
And no amount of baseless art is gunna hinder my feet 
From stepping over the bounds and crossing lines and showing you each 
I will step on your fucking face should you stand underneath me 

Sit alone in this bed 
Jack and coke on my breath 
In a random city 
I can't remember off my head 
Right now but fuck it 

I just lost the feeling in my brain 
Gon light this joint 
And let the thrill of hallucination entertain 
I see no point 
In chasing after everything that I disdain 

But yet I sprint right towards it 
Full speed 
No concern of my surroundings 
Deep inside that is a lie 
No matter how I might be sounding 

Really I am stuck in the way of caution 
Heart in Apprehension 
Fear of what I do not understand 
Is causing tension 

wastemane: 

Ayo I jump into the Chevy
Got a heavy load of dope up on me
Looking like a zombie
Bloody, roaming, looking for a fix
This is what I do
I whip the Chevy in the back roads
Puffin’ on tobacco while I’m rolling up a zip
I got the dope
Yeah, I got the plug
Yeah, I caught a body
Rolled it up inside a rug
Put em in the trunk
Drive the Chevy off a cliff
Bottom of a ditch
Swerving, hurting with the clique
Swerving with the back seat filled
about last week
Rappers keep burning, bitch, please don’t ever ask me
Eyes rolling back into my skull, yuh
I’ve been feeling empty
Yo I’m feeling slumped
Nah, bitch, don’t even tempt me
Rolling up the best
We burn it to a crisp, yuh
Money took a hold of him
It turned him to a bitch
Focused on the payroll
Laying up the K yo
Playing grand piano while I’m counting up my peso
Gone, feeling like the last man standing
Last man walking, last man stranded
Back stabbing wastemane, last name branded
First name soul taker
Middle name rancid
Ripping up the underground, serve it to the fans
Get it, serve it to the middle man
Took it and he ran with it
Scam living, fans bitching
Homie where the money at?
I don’t take no fan pictures
Show me where the honey’s at

BACKLASH ft. wastemane

See now 
I see a little silhouette of a man 
Drowning in his in shame 
Blood all on his hands 
Now he feel no pain 
He done grown obsessed 
With the void welling in his brain 
Now his own momma gunna see that he's insane 

Now momma 
Just killed a man 
Looked up in the mirror at that ugly motherfucker 
Told him I don't wanna see your fucking face again 

He grabbed me by the throat 
Wouldn't stop until I choke 
Grabbed a knife from my pocket 
And he put it through my soul 
That was it 
It was over 
Then I slipped into a coma 
And that crazy motherfuckers had control since that moment 

Now I see it clearer 
Now I'm searching purgatory 
Tryna find another mirror 
Just so I could say I'm sorry 

Now I feel no pain 
Now I've grown obsessed 
With the void welling in my brain 
Now my mommas gunna know that I'm insane 

License is suspended I got nowhere to go 
I got no job so I'm hoping that the music will blow 
I'm tryna jump off balconies into the people below 
Start a pit catch a face kick in my own show 

I'm fucking lost 
I don’t fucking know how else I can cope 
My heart pumping out my chest 
Pressure making me choke 

I am my own worst foe 
Don't believe in a soul 
Not even mine 
Now I know what it's like to be low 

Now I see it clearer 
Now I'm searching purgatory 
Tryna find another mirror 
Just so I could say I'm sorry 

Now I feel no pain 
Now I've grown obsessed 
With the void welling in my brain 
Now my mommas gunna know that I'm insane

LOST

PURGATORY

This is the end for you and me my friend 
This is this is the time that we fight them 
This is where we tear out the pages to rewrite them 
This is when the history books go on fire 

Who do you think you are today? 
Close your eyes let the demons come out to play 
Fuck the law we just wanna see blood today 
And we spilling yours if you get in the way 

I see the future inside my dreams 
I hear the voices even in my sleep 
They think I'm trying to seem like I'm deep 
But really I'm just hoping one of you will help me 

Lemme see your hands if you wish for the end now
Lemme hear you scream if you walk with your head down 
Lemme see your eyes if you're lost like me 
Maybe they show the answers i need 

I just wanna be anybody but myself 
I just wanna kill everybody and myself 
I can't help the image you think i fit 
So why don't i practice embodying it? 

I am a killer 
I am a lover 
I am a devil 
This is a cover 

Maybe my time is already up 
Dripping from my neck 
But believe my head is up 

I see the future inside my dreams 
I hear the voices even in my sleep 
They think I'm trying to seem like I'm deep 
But really I'm just hoping one of you will help me 

Lemme see your hands if you wish for the end now
Lemme hear you scream if you walk with your head down 
Lemme see your eyes if you're lost like me 
Maybe they show the answers i need

I fought my own reflection 
And he slit my throat 
In pursuit of perfection 
I 

Which side has parished? 
Everytime i aim the gun they both say it's apparent 

Flip a coin to decide the victor
And the loser has to bend to the will of the winner 

Wash the blood off you before dinner 
Say grace to the god of the sinners

I see the future inside my dreams 
I hear the voices even in my sleep 
They think I'm trying to seem like I'm deep 
But really I'm just hoping one of you will help me 

Lemme see your hands if you wish for the end now
Lemme hear you scream if you walk with your head down 
Lemme see your eyes if you're lost like me 
Maybe they show the answers i need

ANSWER

restinsleep: 

I can't remember when 
I started to forget things
I don't like thinkin' about the past 
with all the pain it brings
This wound still stings
This wound still stings
Forever, fresh cut in my memory 
10 years gone by, it don't mean shit 
Where's my apology? Still haven't gotten it
over 10 years gone by, since the last time 
I wanted to hug my mother

Horus: 

I thought I could beat this 
I thought I could take it far 
But I cannot never escape 
What I am inside my heart 

Oh why me? 
Why must I feel so out of place 
Why can't I just keep up the race 
I swear I want to bleed 

Out all the sins that I've committed way way back when I was weak 
But who says strength is anymore than just the simple disbelief 
That you can knock me down from standing up on my own feet 

I drag my heels across the street 
With my pain upon my sleeve 
Show the ranking I've achieved 
Though my fight is incomplete 

They'll never understand these words I speak 
The ground is getting steep 
Catch me

restinsleep: 

I don't like thinkin' about the past 
And all the bullshit that it brings
This wound still stings 
This wound still stings
Forever, fresh cut in my memory
10 years gone by, and it don't mean shit 
Where's my apology? Still haven't gotten it
This wound still stings 
This wound still stings

STING Ft. restinsleep

Where do I go? 
What do I say? 
How do I convince myself 
That I will ever find my place? 
Time and time again 
I've fallen flat upon my fucking face 
And it seems that I 
Can't find my fucking niche in anything 
I want to end my fucking life 
I say it time and time again
But if I were to just die 
How would they speak about my name 
How could I stay alive 
Running around lost inside this place? 
Oh I am lost inside this place 
Oh I have lost the fucking race 
And when you look at me you see it 
Painted on my fucking face 
These are not words to get you moved 
I swear these words are not for you 
I wrote this down so I could fucking scream 
Alone inside my room 
Nobody did this shit to me 
No family or a friend 
I want to end my fucking life 
I say it time and time again 

I do not understand 
The ramifications 
Of your smile 
When you pierce into my soul 
With that gaze it drives me wild 
Maybe I'm lost 
Maybe I'm found 
Maybe I just enjoy adventure 
But at what cost? 
I'm feeling down 
So lemme write to you this letter 
Or its a poem 
Or its a sound 
Where is my home? 
Not in this town 
Not in this skin 
Soaking in sin 
And if I drown 
If I give in 
Will you be by my side 
Or will that be it? 
Let me explain 
Let go of pain 
Where is my home? 
Am I not sane? 
Not in this house 
Not in my brain

HOLE

I live in hell Drowning in the night 
I slam the hammer on the steel of the black knights 
They will never let me stop, I cannot put up a fight 
Thank you to my father this is how I must live and die 
And my son and wife starve every day and night 
How I wish that I could just send them to the sky
Fucking black knights only wanna take life 
Or so I thought til that one day they showed light
Til now I thought they didn't care if I was dead 
Gold pouch heavy as my goddamn head 
He played for a second then he threw in my chest 
"get your son a side dish he could have with that bread"
I cried 
harder than the day my father died 
Harder than the time when knights took me outside 
Made me sit down face my father with his neck tied 
Black hearted Knight kicked chair made my dad fly 
Or so it looked that way where I was sitting 
Until the very moment when his feet stopped kicking 
I couldn't hear a sound just my heart strings splitting 
Every day after that it turned to me hitting 
On the steel 
Black hearted Knight paying for meal 
If only I knew it was all the devil's deal 
I would've given back that pouch he gave me 
But I swear that I can see my sons ribs can you blame me? 

My wife losses hope in me im sad 
But I heard of a festival in Novigrad 
I didn't tell her of the pouch of gold that I had 
I just wanted to show my son that he can love his dad 
Oh they hate me 
How they hate me 
They know that I am the reason they can never leave 
This is velen where the bodies hang dead as the leaves 
And the trees stand creaking loudly in the breeze 
"oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck don't look"
What I said as we traveled on foot 
And we made it just outside of no man's land 
To a cliff with a beach clean water and the sand 
Oh god, the beauty nearly did my heart in 
We could see ships sailing the horizon 

My son will not be bound 

Tears pour from all our eyes 
As we watch as a Griffin takes flight in the skies 
And at that moment I felt so odd 
Euphoria act as my one and only god 

My son will not be bound 
It was then that I heard that sound

NO MAN'S LAND

Chapter 1 - The Good Faith

Lately I have not been myself 
Or maybe I have 
Really I don't know who myself is 


I can not think of the words that I wanna say 
Everything is jumbled in my head all fucking day 
I fear I am slipping off the edge theres no other way 
I say that I wanna fucking die cuz I can't escape 
I am stuck inside my own mind I am never safe 
I am stuck tryna get high numb my fucking brain 
I am stuck wishing I could change for the better days 
I am stuck wishing I could run away from everything 
Maybe I did all this shit to myself 
And maybe it's me who put me in this hell 
And maybe escape just isn't the answer 
Maybe that's why I'm not doing to well 
Maybe it's time that I live in the pain 
But maybe it's time I should cut out my brain 
Maybe it's good that I'm going insane 
I've always preferred to see life as a game 

And I think it's gunna be a long long time 
Til touchdown brings me round again to find 
I'm not the man they think I am at home oh no 
rocketman

Running around thinking there is no way out 
Lemme see your hands if you wanna blow your brains out 
Take your heart rip it out throw it on the fucking ground 
Stomp stomp now there's nothing holding us down 
Oh no 
I am tryna stay stone cold 
Sober but I can't or my head will explode 
Tell me what the secret is what's the cheat code? 
No, matter what hand is dealt I must fold 
Im, tryna find it inside me to keep going 
I'm fighting war inside me it keeps showing 
I got a mind of my own with a mind of its own and a mind of its own 
I always fear that I don't have all the strength that it takes to control 
What if I make you feel all of the pain that I feel when I’m sitting alone 
In actuality none of this matters because in my soul I've been dead all along 

Lately I have not been myself 
Or maybe I have 
Really I don't know who myself is

And I think it's gunna be a long long time 
Until it doesn't hurt to look into my own eyes 
I have never believed that I belong in this world oh no 
rocketman

rocketman

DOOM 
SLAYER 

Demons all around me 
I'm possessed and its astounding 
All this power that I feel 
I'm never going back to counseling 
Outside of my concious boundaries 
All the viruses surrounding 
Every living breathing thing is just as dead as when they found me 

They told me this is the end of the road 
But the end only comes when I've given up hope 
They told me that I was destined to be something greater but I ended up all alone 
The voices they put in my head never shut the fuck up now I cannot decide where to go 
I'm nothing more than a slave to the system they made to keep people like me from the growth  


[GHOSTEMANE]
Death 
By 
Machine

Watching the singularity get closer and closer 
to reality is enlightening 

We
Stand 
No 
chance 

Bowing down to artificial intelligence hell will get frozen before we get smarter 
and

Quit progression before it’s too late 
But fuck the earth let it burn 
Let it burn at the stake 
Hit the reset on mankind don’t repeat the mistakes 
One day when I die I’ll be understood but just in case 

I 
Don’t 
Care
For 
The 
Now

WITHIN

doomslayer Ft. GHOSTEMANE

I will never go back to a day job
Working like a slave to get my pay up 
No you can move me with manipulation 
No I create what's in my heart so pay up 

I, cannot stand working I can't even hold a job 
Plus my license is suspended once again so I can't drive 
I got stopped the other day by some faggot ass cops 
Fucking pigs done hit me hard wit 7 tickets with no cause 

Now I got nowhere to go and no money to spend 
I just started a job but now I have to quit 
I just remembered I got kids all the world that say I am the shit 
I just remember I got half a zip 
Stuffed in a bag its time to get lit 
Feeling my pockets I got no more chips 
Leading me to have no more confidence 

Oh, I think the only option that I got left is music 
I done finally found a way to create so why not use it 
I've been walking around with my head down for too long 
Made myself a promise bout this life and made it to a song

I been working all damn week with no sleep 
I been dragging myself up outta bed, no time to eat 
I been falling asleep driving my car down the street 
I zoned out, almost hit a fucking wall in front of me 
My bank account is empty 
And so is my self esteem 
My gas tank is on E 
And so is my sanity 
But no one's touching my beats 
And no one's touching my words 
Ima rise up from defeat 
Bitch so fuck what you heard

chanterlude

I see only death in the future of he who stands before me
I am him who brings peace and fear to every heart of every man across this desert
I am him the one that sees into the twisting roads of what may and may not be 
I am he who bends reality

All I see enrages, all I feel isolation
All I hear is lies, and all I feel is jaded 
All I smell is the bodies, all I feel is we made it 
All taste is blood

I have not been taking care of myself
I’m too fucked up for my own good
I should turn my, life around
I have never found it fun to be cautious

I can see the fear in your eyes
I can smell the sweat on your neck
I can feel the pulse beneath your skin
I only wish to taste your blood

When the bombs were falling, all I recall is running

When the bombs were falling, I watched my world crumbling

Falling

Today I took a walk to horizon
Jumped right in and to my surprise it
Filled my eyes with needles and dryness 
I have found that I just despise this

How I wish that I had a friend oh
How I wish that I had a friend
How I wish I could make amends oh
How I wish I could make amends

I have seen the end I have
The end came quick and I turned to scav

I lost my life somewhere in the sand
I lost my sanity once again

A king of all’s a king of nothing 
King of nothing slave of the ash

Build my throne upon my whims
Oh how I wish I could have a friend



I brought me here against my will
I brought me here against my will
I lived i died i stole and i killed
I do not feel that i can feel 

Sun on salt it sends me the chills 
My feet walk on into the abyss
Sun on salt it makes me wanna kill
Oh Life deteriorated to this 

Now I force my hand so hard
My heart fights back it fights to the death
Now I force my self to go
My soul dies on I feel nothing left 

Grass is always greener
But what if you never saw grass again?
The salt keeps pieces of me
As I walk on it tears my flesh

Salt

Today I heard the news 
It seems the world has gone and crumbled

I thought that I was lost before 
But now I’m feeling humbled

In the fortunes and the tarot
And from the soothsayers lips

It’s chronicled for oh so many years
A day like this

And for enigmatic reasoning
Escaping me right now 

I see hope inside my future
Shine through the mushroom cloud

All I’ve ever done is fight myself 
I wander purgatory still

I cut my own throat
Many lifetimes ago it never healed 

Today they came and told me
I’m going away for some time

There’s bidding to me done
I think it’s funny but it’s not mine

They said That I may not come back
It may just be my time to die

Behold my very eyes
It was the world that fell but not I

And here I walk upon the earth
My twisted dreams have ruined

And here I stand upon the death
And now I breathe it fluid

And here I fight with destiny
And win but I am clueless

And here I find my time to rise
The world is mine to rule it




I have lived so many lifetimes or at least that is how it feels
And I’ve only voices in my head to shake the images in the fields 

And my heels have grown rough and my resolve has only dwindled
I wanted it all to end so bad but I never that i would live through

Any soul that I have met I’ve had to kill or retreat back
The blood mixes with the sand leaving my hands permanently black

Now the remnants of a former self they scream inside my mind
Rocketman told me I would be okay and peace I will soon find



Oh rocketman oh rocketman you’ve preached so much yet
I see nothing but the death


I SWEAR I MIGHT BE DYING
BUT I SWEAR I FEEL ALIVE
IF YOU THINK IVE LOST MY MIND
I SWEAR YOU MIGHT BE RIGHT

Burn

DOOM 
SLAYER 

Demons all around me 
I'm possessed and its astounding 
All this power that I feel 
I'm never going back to counseling 
Outside of my concious boundaries 
All the viruses surrounding 
Every living breathing thing is just as dead as when they found me 

They told me this is the end of the road 
But the end only comes when I've given up hope 
They told me that I was destined to be something greater but I ended up all alone 
The voices they put in my head never shut the fuck up now I cannot decide where to go 
I'm nothing more than a slave to the system they made to keep people like me from the growth  


[GHOSTEMANE]
Death 
By 
Machine

Watching the singularity get closer and closer 
to reality is enlightening 

We
Stand 
No 
chance 

Bowing down to artificial intelligence hell will get frozen before we get smarter 
and

Quit progression before it’s too late 
But fuck the earth let it burn 
Let it burn at the stake 
Hit the reset on mankind don’t repeat the mistakes 
One day when I die I’ll be understood but just in case 

I 
Don’t 
Care
For 
The 
Now


[theOGM]
Jump out the coffin she wet 
No matter where I go she gon be vexed 
Money & bitches a leave’em possessed 
Nobody eats till I’m dressed 

I don’t even like takin photos for press 
Shoot? gotta show proof like a vest 
east to the west ima vet 
Str8 off the bridge with the vette
Can’t keep my boot off ya neck 


Nobody moves , who gonna save ya 
They rather front page ya 
Ready for doom , cover the fader 
Lookin like slayer 
I could load guns or
I could make money on pimpin , I’m sick of the shit that u sellin 
put two in ya melon 
call it rebellion at dinner wit Ellen 
Concealed w/a weapon 
So many blessings , so many efforts 
too many question the past & the present 
Nobody knows , no one objects at the wedding 
Lucky at 7 , deceased at 11
You cannot move me , 
You cannot use me 
I don’t fucc groupies 
Put you in a movie 
Directed by Kubrick 
I’m close to the edge , bout to make history licking my fingers while having epiphany 
blow in proximity multiply outta mind 
Multiply outta my mind 
Said it I meant it , my windows are tinted 
This shit is cemented u buried alive 
Look at my eyes 

[Eaddy]
Doom crude rude insue 
Slayer no prayer meet ya maker 

On top of the graveyard, 6 feet deep on my enemies, woods with death on a dark night, I’m livid on a cold night...

No peace, I sink teeth shark kill flesh meat, rollin deep rolling deep, squad like a muthafucka, I see you starring at me we don’t take kindly to beef run it muthafucka 

On sight never online turn the lights then call me 9 times...

doomslayer pt. 2 (ft. Dana Dentata, GHOSTEMANE, Ho99o9, KALE YOURSELF & Mark Bronzino)

Don’t put shit beneath
I will kill you in your sleep
I will stab you in your back
I will take that which you eat

I have spent a million motherfucking years underneath
And now I’m rising up rising up choke on ashes I breathe

And now I'm ripping and tearing through tryna find me the remedy
Took a dive in the mirror to find the person I wanna be
Came up scratching for oxygen drowning down in uncertainty
Fucking suffering apologizes through our teeth for the courtesy

I got, a long list of shit to do with my seconds
But I still waste them just sitting there tryna account for my blessings
I have befriended my mistakes and just abandoned my lessons
I gave up hope but only when I saw the heavens forget me

And now I’m lost...
Running through a world that don’t want me
And every step I have taken, has come back peeking to haunt me
And now I’m off..
Floating through the galaxy hungry 
I have been holding on holding
If i could just learn to love me

I am pathetic it seems
I’m prosthetic at the seams
I fall apart when the blood
Becomes the focus of dreams

I am obsessed with the way out
Fleeing the scene
I move among you in a silence
I may never be seen

Blood Camo

Live and die between the guided lines of god
And now you’ve died and god has lied
So how do you survive?
Time is slipping by
This is life, ending at one minute at a fucking time
Stuck in mind, struggle, cry, hate, keep it all inside

Ashes in my throat 
Every passing day
Choking every breath away 
Burning in my eyes live another day

Ducking where the reaper plays
Nothings safe
Underneath the broken city
I have found a place to lay

This is not a war this a card swipe
Fill the bank
Everyone i love is gone
How the fuck did I escape?

Hatred comes in different shapes
Only when I show my ugly face
So I’m dipping in the blood
Cover up my every trace

Blood Camo

(Hook)
I’m walking down my soul
Searching for something to hold
They don’t know
You don’t gotta corpse to be alone



Burn it all kill it all
No sweat
While I’m using that flame
Sparking up a cigarette

You dead I’m dead
Who next?
Fuck a check
Only here to be collecting your heads

I remember ducking feds
No respect
Working for a check
Now It’s all gone all gone
Tell me, what’s left?

Sand in my shoes
A disease in my head
Can’t get a clue
Don’t know what to expect

You eying my riches
The shit I collect
I’m a scavenger 
Move ‘fore I open your neck

You swinging them fists
And I’m laughing to death
Ima pull out some shit
That’ll show me your flesh

Ima walking tornado
Destroying the path
This wasteland is mine
Disagree and you’re dead

You wanting my spot
Well you misunderstand
You cannot kill
What you will never catch


(Hook)


Too far gone in the back seat
Sitting on a trash heap
Ask me
If I give a fuck about you

Ida seen a million motherfuckers
All clones all sheep
And they look like you

Ida seen a whole world fall
Right in front of my eyes
Tell me how can I be scared 
Of some shit that you do?

Ida seen the hoe in your eyes
Right before you died
Now your blood done stained my shoes

Only know cold
I can feel it in my bones 
No heart no fear 
No love

I can only try to find home
While I’m wandering alone
Dysengage from myself
No trust

I can only hate this world
Cuz it killed my soul
Fucked up 
But I find no drugs

I cannot escape this hole
That I feel when I roam
Or the blood that stains
My gloves


(Hook)


I swelled my hate
I swelled my hate
I watched my health
Break down each day
I feel that pain
I know that game
But I know my name
But I know my name

dysengage

Too Far Gone

My peace
My peace
Forced tranquility
This is
How I
Let my people breathe

I take 
This desert
I make
It green

I do
What I
Want with history


I am
Your god
I am emperor

I see
I see all
I see all

There is no beginning
There is no end
I am only sinning 
In the name of man

I have sacrificed 
All that I am
All of these years
Look down at my hands

They live in their fear
They call me the worm
They could never know
What I have endured

They know all the songs
They read all the books
I only allow
So much to be learned 

What is love when it dies
So many times you no longer hurt
I wish they could see through my eyes
At the sacrifices for this to work

What is trust when it lies
And times challenge loyal words
And the sands from the skies
Are only finite in their worth

I can hear the voices
I somehow know them all
This is not my knowledge
It’s my memory I call

Golden Path endures
Though I won’t return
And everyone opposed
Shall get exactly what they earn

Worm

If the fear is no longer there
Then we have nothing holding us
Now we’re stuck between our passion
And the path they’ve set for us

I have seen it all before
And I have left it in the dust
Companionship's impossible
When we’re all missing trust

I got patience next to zero
We have have nothing to discuss
I am caught up the moment
I am moving how i must 

The insanity is rampant
Lately I live in the lust
I embody what I must 
And then I use it as a crutch



Tell me everything will be okay
I need your guidance
In my time of darkness
Fear has blocked the road I wish to take

All the stories you have heard
About me everything is fake
Or at least I tell that to myself
To run away from fate



Lie of the beholder 
I am sick to my stomach
I know I’m only growing older
I can feel myself plummet

I have dreams at my fingertips
I know that it’s coming
But will I hold on long enough
I need to stop fucking running

I’ve seen so much in such a flash
So easy so miss something
But now I’m never going back
I’m too goddamn hungry 

I knew I’d find you waiting for me
If you kill me unlucky
You bring the emperor to life
You will see repercussions

We’ve got our backs against the wall 
And your ego is gushing 
I don’t need you to understand 
For me to feel like I’ve done it 

I been dragging through the sand
So they don’t feel the thumping
I think I’ll listen to the voices 
Maybe they know something

Here I stand with my gun
But it’s empty I’m bluffing
Running in circles you're distracted
And to you thats alarming

We had time when we were young
Now we’re constantly hunting 
They have set us in a trap
We are meant to be nothing



Tell me everything will be okay
I need your guidance
In my time of darkness
Fear has blocked the road I wish to take

All the stories you have heard
About me everything is fake
Or at least I tell that to myself
To run away from fate

I have seen inside my head
Now I don’t go near that place
I am tryna see
But there is too much blood upon my face

This is pointless
And I promise it will end in our disgrace
March along the broken path
It is time to test our faith

If you hear me
Then i hear your very heart beat at its pace
If you see me
Then you know you’re not alone inside this place

I will fight for me and you
To show our efforts do not waste
See you on the other side
If we manage to escape

The Lingering Habit

I just spent my last money on a pack of cigarettes 
I’m gunna smoke all 20 then I’ll put myself to rest
Everything is all funny til you laugh yourself to death
It’s said a storm is coming I think this will be our test

Do we flop?
Or do we just dissolve into the clock?
Tell me what motivates you
To get ahead of the flock

Survival doesn’t find you
If you miss it you fucked
We all running from the same thing
Tryna keep up

I run in circles just to show
I’m everywhere at once
But y’all are catching up 
And I have left myself in the dust

Hoping I open the right
Door but the motion I’m stuck in 
Keeps me from sleeping at night
Look inside, I see nothing

Demons peaking through my eyes
Scoping for someone to bludgeon
This what happens when you lead a life
With none to trust in

I am not a violent man
But don’t tempt my hand
You must understand
This is where I stand
Cultivated from the sand

I have no control over the hatred in my land
Dysengage because the pain is something I can not withstand




Now I find my self in limbo
Searching for all the secrets
I’m stuck in purgatory 
But something lies underneath it

There’s lessons to be learned
And advice to be heeded
It’s way too late to turn back
It’s either take it or leave it

We had plans for something greater
Now I don’t see the reason 
Accept defeat heart on my sleeve
Better luck next season 

Tell me the reason
For the ideology that you preaching
The world has ended 
Now it’s ours nothing left but to seize it

Relapse

My time is running out 
It’s getting hard to see
The air is poison 
Inhale it and it’s like needles I breathe 

I’ve survived everything 
You’ve thrown in front of me
And now you run because
I’m taking what you think i cannot see

The end is coming
And it’s right beneath our feet
But let’s keep drilling 
So apocalypse may show its face to greet

I think I’m ready 
For my demons to release
I have walked so fucking far
And I have nothing left to see 



I think it’s time
That we explore inside your brain
I can pick it or just bash it
But to me it’s all the same 

We heard the voices
They have called and we have came
Despite the promises 
To never fall into this again

You challenge empathy
In silence with your pain
You hold it closely to your heart
In hopes I’m playing your game

I dysengage 
Then I disperse to find my place
Among the scavengers
That live upon this land of disgrace

Introspect

Dysengage
I am screaming at the walls
So fucking loud it chips the paint
Dysengage 
I have heard the angels call
Yet I have sat and let it ring 
Dysengage
I once thought I bore a message
And it’s something I should sing
Dysengage
Then I learned they want me dead
And they will just take everything


So here we are as history repeats itself again
And I’m convinced it’s just our past and our future playing tag
The snake is biting for its tail while we are raking for the scraps
But in the end we only live within the bindings of or acts

You do the math
I only wish that I would have just taken the chances I had
We could be everything we ever dreamed
We just don’t know we can pave our own path

Then it went fast
Suddenly all that I knew hit the ground in a flash
Now I’m a scav
Nothing to do so I build what I can from the ash




I got 20 seconds left to live
And nothing left to lose
So as far as I’m concerned 
You got 20 seconds too

We got business to address
And it is serious
I have felt the wrath
Of my own treatment I’m delirious

When you die, they either forget
Or your immortalized 
Treat you like a god 
Because you gave them an experience

Can you live a life
Where you reject your own existence to survive?
When you carry out a message
You don’t get to be alive

Dysengage I am dying
I am running out of time
Dysengage everything you see
Will soon be mine


My own worst enemy
I’m open to discussing
Everything inside heart
That sits and makes me feel disgusting

This is something of an up and coming
Rushing to the finish line
Nothing left to offer
Dump me in the reaches of your mind

Hand and hand we march and follow all the signs
You may venture off but I implore you never leave my sight

You will be the death of me and that will be my rise to life
Dysengage the only choice I have in this if I am to survive

Dysengage ft. restinsleep

Too Groovy EP

Eyes Closed [Horus]

Rancid [Cela X Horus]

Alienated [Horus X Cela X ARYEH]

Faster Than My Bullet [Cela X ARYEH]

Thank You DMX [Cela X Horus]

Too Groovy [Horus X ARYEH X Cela]

She scream look at you you’re acting like your father 
I don’t know him
There was a time that we were under his control
And then he died now he’s a ghost
And he still tries crush my soul

I only hope
Dev somewhere tryna kill him for me cold
Is that too cold?

I’ve, lost something that stops me from this road
Passing go
Collect $200 spend it on some mold just to float 

My, brain deformed to something I don’t own
It belongs inside the tunnels that’s forever where it roam 
I’m, home 


In the tunnels, that’s forever where I roam
I’m home


The deck that I been drawing from is garbage
I, play a hand of carnage 
I’m disheveled and unkempt but still she wanna be in bondage
Under my command regardless
I oblige because she flawless
If we die at least we martyrs 
Fuck it it’s progress

This is the last straw, hopeless until we are gone
Tell me I’m wrong
Tell me there’s something for me to hold on 
Tell me the purpose of making these songs
They been missing the point since I told em I’m Lost
Now I do everything to scrape up the resolve 

If I am so special then why do I feel like I’m falling apart?
Why do I run from my thoughts?
If you got the answers I’m waiting to hear your response
Tell me the code, show me the road
No I will never grow old
Did this to myself now I reap what I sew 
We fighting a war that will end only when we are cold
I’m taking my demons and holding them close
Back to the tunnels I’m home, back to the tunnels I’m home

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