Grind

gone

Thinking bout the past

produced by xy1va

“i hate the man that i’ve become” hopefully i’ll have better luck as a girl

i bet you would, wouldn't you? (with imar)

what we had wasnt real


my life is such a nightmare, i can’t even fucking breathe
you said that you’d be right there, now you’re haunting all my dreams
scratches on my back from all the demons that i feed

blood stains on my bedsheets, tears mixed with the ink
love notes turn to death threats, sent out in a blink
you smile like you mean it, but your eyes just scream “leave”
baby you’re a bad trip, and i’m too high to see

you broke me in a voicemail, laughing while i cried
i still keep the message, it helps me feel alive
burned your face into my skull, like i needed a reminder
you fucked my head up worse than all my pills and all my lighters


my life is such a nightmare, i can’t even fucking breathe
you said that you’d be right there, now you’re haunting all my dreams
scratches on my back from all the demons that i feed
i don’t wanna die tonight, but i don’t wanna be me

my life is such a nightmare

prod. racky

i wanna be a part of you
i know you wanna leave me behind
im tired of waiting
for you to save me
nothing seems to be working
make me feel so worthless

you wanna see the best of me
but when its time
youll see me die
lift the weight off your chest
cus there wont be nothing left
for you to worry about anymore

oh oh what a waste of time
oh oh im feeding into your lies
oh oh oh 
i dont see the point of being here
cus you made it so fucking clear

waste of time

casual love song for someone who doesnt exist :D [all plats]

Refrigerator

Little Secrets

produced by caspers pishogue 
mixed by spawncamped
cover art by nosir

@spawncamped
only time will tell
if you even care
i know you don't but i pretend
i'll take these memories back
waiting for the day you text back
i don't think i even deserve my ex back
just put an end to my ways
and my twisted games
i'm the one to blame
and its not okay
@samcatcher
(and i hear you inside my head)
(laying in my bed but not getting rest)
(doctors on the phone saying i'm depressed)
(i just wanna get this off my chest)
kill me if you want, i'd rather die in your arms
i'm swerving and shit, i think i might crash the car
don't know where i'm going, but i'm tryna go far
watch you leave the house while i'm hiding in the dark
feeling stuck in my ways, i think i might blow my brains
i know i said i would change, but i'm just too fucking lame
feeling stuck in my ways, i think i might blow my brains
i know i said i would change, but i'm just too fucking lame

stuck in my ways (with spawncamped)

lyrics:
you were everything i wanted 
now you're nothing
but a ache in my head 
i don't know where to begin
cut into my skin 
when i have my visions of you
my heart it aches in my chest
you're just so hard to forget 

we had everything we wanted
now we're nothing
but a thing of the past 
oh god i hope you're my last 
and now you've gone and mangled 
yourself in my heart n my mind 
even if i really tried 
you're just so hard to forget.

ache in my head

an original song. from my album [Everything Is Shit].

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[LYRICS]

"bits and pieces make up this body. this world's so empty. and i feel like i'm drowning. my head breaks surface and i feel nothing."

i wake up staring
at the same old bed sheets
reverse necktie
yeah-
i still feel empty...
EVERYTHING IS GREY
IN MY DREAMS OF SILENT SCREAMS
i'll sleep face-down
so if i die in my sleep
i fall face-first
into flames that scorch me
EVERYTHING'S A FUCKING MESS
and i swear-
THIS IS MY BEST
what's wrong?
are you really waiting for
someone to surround you again?
pray against the pillow case
bite your tongue and hide your face
sleep and forget everything...

"the water flows into my mouth and down my throat."

i take comfort
in that we're both empty
stain my eyes red
fuck-
THIS JUST KILLS ME...
everything i preach-
IS BLEACH I DRINK, THEN SPEAK
what's wrong?
were you really expecting to find:
someone you often dream?
bite your nails and pick your skin
wait for them to grow again
some things never will...
what's more:
i feel i'm being led on again...
feel too much:
feel empty.
out into the water now...
don't throw up-
just keep it down

i...
only ever watch my dreams...

I'M DRINKING OCEANS
i'm still swimming...
I'M DRINKING OCEANS
i'm still swimming...
I'M DRINKING OCEANS
i'm still swimming...
I'M DRINKING OCEANS
i'm still-
empty...

the cutting room floor

This is my album Belief. I think it's one of the better grunge albums ever out there. What do you think?

Infinite Ways

Lost In This World Without God

2nd album. This must be one of the better grunge albums ever out there. What do you think?

Wasted

Car Song

i just wanted you and no one else
and you know ive been going thru hell
i try to come back i always fell
try to text back, but it always fail
i just wanted you and thats that
you never wanted me back
now im feeling so sad
you had my back, youll never have it back now
i feel so bitter and
i am so severed and
you arent getting better
and neither am i
i feel so bitter and
i am so severed and
you arent getting better
we never will

@rockstar-jr-277471798 (luvnoirr)
like why do i have to be insecure
my head is always in a blur
when i think im just never sure
now im just slurring all my words
you leech onto me like a curse
(?) always getting worst
i feel washed up like (?)
i always thought i was ur first
im crying out to u
u hate me, i hate me too
lately i been confused
idk what imma do
i dont exist to u
and yk that shit is true 
i hate your fucking (?)
like why you gotta be so damn rude?

bitter

lyrics 

If there was a choice
To be scraping by-y
On my own time
I'd be stranded on i-isles, been walking for miles
As it seems by the sea
I'm afraid it'll stick permanently
If I don't move and I can't see
I choose the latter, choose the latter
If I can fall and I can't breathe
I chute the latter, chute the latter
If I can move and I can't speak
I choose the latter, choose the latter
Why can't I afford my dream?
I choose the latter, choose the latter
If there was a voice
I can hear it all night, 'ight
Get it out now
Just hope for the best, best and hope for nuance
And she sings by the sea
It's a shame, crying shame permanently
If I don't move and I can't see
I choose the latter, choose the latter
If I can fall and I can't breathe
I chute the latter, chute the latter
When it all points at me
I choose the latter, choose the latter
Why spend the night alone when we can lose tomorrow?

(original song by Finn Wolfhard go check it out)

Choose the latter (cover)

Hostal Handshake is a stoner doom / hard desert rock band from Athens, Greece, active since 2001. Following early promos and their debut album Hellish (2007, Secret Port Records), they return with Stone Oracle—their long-awaited sophomore full-length, set for release in January 2026. After 18 years, the riffs are heavier, the fuzz deeper, and the desert winds louder.