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@kairo6k
@mitsooya
@blxty

https://open.spotify.com/track/437O0RBtvtzqE4U5OtPv7Z?si=e641fde85d4f4777

apathy prod lilac & mental

https://open.spotify.com/track/2osiAqYqbnUp9oyXeXlvjk

performed, written, & produced by me @mental

lyrics:

broke my heart like 1000 times
been in so much pain dont even realize
i dont even think that this is real lifee
tryna find the courage will u be mine?

say whats up,
heavy hearted thats enough
i depend on hollow love
feel the weight and like a bug,
im crushed (x7)

i feel like im dying everyday
i dont wanna lie girl, im feeling scared
its not rly like me 2 be awake
every single night, when ur walking away
tell me everything that u want me to say
cause i could never say every word on my brain
i put my back in this art and my soul in ur heart
and u still wouldnt even do the same...
think i gtg :/

like a bug

performed, written, & produced by me @mental

lyrics:

dont know how to live without ur touch
got me feeling like ive never been enough
i was helpless but i still thought i was lucky
i gave up thinking about giving up
doesnt matter even if i try my hardest
it wont ever be the way that it was
and i made my circle smaller than ur heart is
idc im prepared to collapse

every time i think, its a burden to me... keep my mind in silence
i miss every night when we talked bout nothing we still laughed and smiled
but i guess that ur onto the next thing i just dont wanna be alive
and i thought u were never gonna lie but u said u were never gonna let me cry

it was a waste of time when i crumpled up into pieces
fake smile hope they believe it
i know they rly hate me so im bleeding
heart broken crying and screaming
hole in my chest idk how im breathing
new pain but its not for a reason
new day and another ones leaving
idk how to cope with these feelings

homesick

album soon @blxty @goyxrd

lyrics:

[mental]
tell me if its all a lie
or if its really love
i dont really mind
cuz u fit me like a glove
i was off all of my medicine
and moving like a slug
u said u wish u were dead again
like baby wtf :/ (x2)

like what the hell
love me and ill treat u well
double c up on my belt
double c stand for chanel
mix the cc with the bb
gg u just took an L :p
n they see me
up on repeat
i can tell that im going up
i can tell that im blowing up
see my face and u throwing up
prolly cuz im showing off this bag
cant flex u dont got no swag
i rly think that i want her
tell me if u love me
if not then im a goner

[blxty]
i been livin life on pause
hit me up like whats the cost
u work 9-5 im making these rackies jus to talk
idk whats going on
me n mental going strong
oh oh ohh
They said watch out for the snakes when they an opp themselves
matter fact i think they should off themselves
i jus wanna see u girl i dont wanna see u gone
tell me if u like this song <3

wtf -_- feat blxty prod goyxrd

everything by me @mental

new day but same pain
i know some things never change
look @ this place
see the smile on my face
it gets erased
all the things that shouldve stayed
all got replaced
thats why i dont trust when u say those words
thats why i dont love cause my heart just burns
running out of luck yea i might be cursed
nothing ever felt like itd make this worse
but u seemed so sure

thats why i dont feel the damage
thats why every time i look my heart stops
thats why every time we kiss my heart breaks
in the back of my mind im still pissed off
tell me what i did, did i kiss wrong?
i dont wanna sing if its this song
ive never felt one day this off (x2)

and it felt like u were right
i forgot the way to sleep
so i thought bout u all night
and i thought at least u tried
but i figured out u lied
im just resting in the sky

erased

produced by mental

[mental]
tell me i’m fine
cause i don’t know if i’m still alive
told myself that i would follow my dreams
‘cause i don’t think that they would care if i died
i told them it’s getting harder to try
there’s no point i feel like this all the time
i can’t see through all the tears that i cry
but i don’t care, i’ll just pretend it’s a smile

so i’m letting it go
until one day we’re close again, i guess
and i’m still so alone
i hope this is the worst that it ever will get
so i’m letting it go
until one day we’re close again, i guess
cause you ripped a hole into my chest
but i’ll still love you with everything left

[blxty]
and i don’t think i could ever hurt you
love or not baby this is not a virtue
and back to my normal life that i revert to
i revert to, to someone that can hurt you

every second i’m a bother
i think i should just go cut you off
why do i even bother
i know you don’t even care at all
situations kinda crazy
bang my head straight through the wall
so i should probably just let it go

[mental]
so i’m letting it go
until one day we’re close again, i guess
and i’m still so alone
i hope this is the worst that it ever will get
so i’m letting it go
until one day we’re close again, i guess
cause you ripped a hole into my chest
but i’ll still love you with everything left

letting go +blxty

produced by taylor morgan & jolst

[mental]
i think that i messed up bad this time
i don’t wanna say what’s on my mind
even if i tried it won’t go right
i told her i hate the thought of silence
afraid of life
but i’m forced to embrace that side
yeah it hurts like you break my spine
watch it fade into black i’m fine

can you pick me up?
tell me lies again
i think i’m giving up
i’ll be there in a bit
i’m good with what i’ve got
i know it’ll never stop
you put the pain inside my brain so i just let it rot
but that’s okay it’s just some feelings that i get a lot
you make me have the worst thoughts that i’ve ever thought
and you knew the whole time that it’s never gone
it don’t mean i’m better off

[blxty]
i got scars
i can’t hide anymore
i messed up
calling you mi amor
and i’m done all your comments make me so sick
how much more can i cry until you notice me, me
why can't you see, see
you’re all i need, ne- ugh
so come to me so i can feel complete

ur fault +blxty

performed, written, & produced by me @mental

lyrics:
like i said myself i tried
cause it hurts when ur by my side
i feel broken all the time
u make me forget that its not even life 
when im in ur presence
i start getting nervous
i dont think u get it
dont think i deserve it
if we sat in silence
would u think im perfect
im barely surviving
wish i knew my purpose

tell me that im worth it please
ill love you eternally
now its me versus me
everything is hurting me
burn me like the third degree
ill just go and burn myself
when i tried it
nothing made me happy
i went to the violence
i thought it was better
tell me if u like me
ill accept ur answer
or should i pretend like i never even met her

perfect

performed, written, & produced by me @mental

I think you're my most beautiful secret.

There's a hole where my heart is. I mean, where my heart was. Been there since it started, it's gotta be karma. And I know that I could never love myself, from the trauma. Even if they try to comfort me I know I'm the problem. Tell me why.

I broke my own heart again and fixed it by myself. And I stopped it but it starts again, I'm never feeling well. Can you send me down to hell please? Cause I'm scared I'm not healthy. Don't know how to make it feel alright. I told you a thousand times but you can't get it through your brain. Told you that I hate you but you went up and you got away. I wish you would ago away. I don't want to see your face. I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOUR FACE. ANYWHERE. NOT YOUR NAME EITHER

Tell Me Why

tell me whyy

performed, written, & produced by me @mental

lyrics:

tell me why it feels
like they don't know my name
cant put my finger on
the look thats on your face
ill wait until i know
its creeping through my skin again
i wish that i could go

its all that i can think about
its getting harder to breathe
im breaking my heart just to feel
theres nothing u ever could save
i cry and i watch it decay
the colors all fade into gray
i saw something farther away
u brought it all back with your face
ill wait til we're back in our place

i just miss u til i cant breathe
never needed u so badly
im so anxious can you catch me
ill keep acting like i cant see
i dont wanna cry but i did
and i didnt wanna lie but i did
ur the one thing i wont try to forget
i dont ever wanna leave u again
close my eyes i see your face inside my head

tell me why it feels
like everybody hates me
and i cant stop complaining
ill freeze and the winter can break me

finally home

@pyu
@frendishawty408

baby can u hold me close
lately ive felt so alone, i went comatose
and i withdraw when im without u, not a overdose
i feel safe when im around u, im just going slow
all my life i never wanted more
all my love, ill give until im sore
body aching, laying on the floor
told myself i wouldnt give up any more

but i could never quit it
people change i get it
but youre never different
id never forget it
first time that i felt you
i healed in an instant
now i hate the distance
living with this sickness
scared of being distant
scared of not forgetting
scared of being different
scared that im forgetting

no reason just to fight you
there's no reason just to lie, too
baby, what do you want from me?
in the end, it didn't matter
to you
guess that's how ts go
baby, why'd ya leave tho
issey miyake, my fit tho
she still wanna rock on my 2 chains
baby girl, why you two faced
kicking me, like um Liu Kang
treating me like i'm no one
baby,  yeah you on 1
please can you love me, for me
cause i'm on my knees :/
don't even matter, fr
baby ily, fr
ts feel like a drill
hand on my heart, n I kill
im in dis bih right w mental
she all on my mind, n my mental

affection ft frendi prod meta

performed & written by me @mental
produced by @lilac @winter

lyrics:

i keep on thinking im better off dead
wake up to sleep hanging on by a thread
i cant exist without you in my bed
said every word that i shouldnt have said
heartbreak and anger my only two friends
if i died, what would you do then?
i don't know how long i can pretend
it's not enough just to feel this regret

can't trust cause they lie every single time
fake love feels so cold like the wintertime
and i tried, it don't matter i can't get it right
heart in my hands offered to the sky

never been the best at letting go
tell me things i don't wanna know
take my heart made my heart froze
that's the way that my heart goes
you're the place that my heart needs
i'm just tryna say sorry
i'm just tryna say i want it
if you love me i got it

yeah i got it
hate myself being honest
if you love me then stop it
stop it
if you love me i'll make it right
i don't really wanna say goodbye
take my heart then i'll take my life
take my heart then i'll take my life

#Nightcore

Spotify

cant trust :( prod lilac & winter

performed, written, and produced by me @mental

i dont know what ima dream about 2nite
i dont rly wanna leave without a fight
and i rly cant believe that thats my life
every single time i breathe im boutta die
i cant ever even see the reason why
ur even in love with me, but thats alright
ill just hold onto belief until i die
and then i cry and say goodbye

know u wanna leave me
stay up cuz im bleeding
it dont matter what im feeling
but its nothing, im eating

Love me, hate me, wannakill me

I h8 me so badd wanna end it

im so mad @ me im so mad @ me

im mad @ me

ily @twikipedia
first beat prod delta
second beat prod me

i told myself i'm fine i'm not
i thought that you would've forgot me
sometimes i think that i should rot
if i tried would you even stop me
i thought that you would feel some type of way
i can't tell if you even like me
i'm anxious i want it to go away
i'm paranoid nobody's got me
with you i feel safe
still wanna run away
you can't be replaced
it won't be the same

i used to wanna give up
i had nobody to trust
i lied still wanna give up
i can't feel nothing but lust
nobody gets how i love
i'm sick of falling in love
i'm sick of feeling this shit
sometimes i wanna exist
sometimes i wish i was dust
i hate that everyone lies
i don't know who to believe
wish i was a ghost
i try to say how i'm feeling
i try but nothing comes out i think i might choke
lost me inside of your soul
i should go choke, you're happy when i'm at my low
no one likes seeing that shit ill go and suffer in silence so nobody knows
sorry you'll never be sorry
i can't feel my body
i wish i could not breathe
am i dead prolly
i miss every time you called me
i know that it's not me

paranoid prod twikipedia & mental

@violetxx9 <3

i never thought it would end like this
i never thought it would end at all
ill try to come to terms with it again
i never thought we would cry like this
i never thought we would cry at all
ill try to come to terms with it again

i fucked my life up
wasted time and empty smiles
i know things cant be the same
but thats alright though
thats alright though
i fucked my life up
wasted time and empty smiles
i know i cant turn the time back
ill still try though
ill still try though

you said you loved me do you though?
burning heart in the freezing cold
lovesick, you're the antidote
homesick everywhere i go
without you i don't have a home
theres a hole in my soul
you don't call anymore
passed out on the floor
its the same thing everyday
heart hurts, heavy weight
cant feel, not anything
i need another chance

need another chance
fell into your eyes it was just a glance
you can keep my heart i don't want it back
i heard every word but didn't understand
i still try to come to terms with what you said
whats a soulmate but my other half?
whats a soulmate but the one i lack?
if i heard you calling id be running back

don't touch me there it hurts
don't touch me there it hurts

i miss u prod violet & mental

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