The boys from room 718
Not much
But a representation of my inclination to the promiscuous
Chemicals swirling tempestuous
A snapshot of my youthful ignorance
A pretty petty song and dance
Ugh please

And upon dwelling
with my head in the lilting clouds
Ah, he hits just the right frequency
And it feels good
Feels good
Feels good

There is a longing in me
For what is not within me
For the other piece
To wrap myself around it
and refuse to release
Let it tear me up inside
It's eating me up inside
I won't fight

Communism is not a practical system of governance
And saying so in that tone won't make it true
It's physically and psychologically impossible
To do as we think and think as we do

Let it tear me up inside
It's eating me up inside
Let it tear me up inside
It's eating me up inside
I won't fight

Boys From Room718

Darling, I love you
But I only love you
as much as you love yourself.
Perhaps I could love you of my own accord
if my heart weren't made of glass

I've seen everything, every moment
But I've never left this room
I swallow everything you offer
And reflect what's in your eyes

Breathing
Please keep breathing, young girl
Your time will come, 
but there's much to be done, young girl

Each morning
Though I do not wake
I watch you paint your angel face
You frown in disgust and I say nothing. 
You frown in disgust and I say nothing.

My existence: a series of moment
Flashes of light and dark
I stare at your speckled walls
I think they're part of my heart

Breathing
Please keep breathing, young girl
Your time will come, 
but there's much to be done, young girl

I tell you the truth, but you're looking for more
You need not a mirror
but a window or a door
Then perhaps you could find yourself
Don't listen to anyone else

Breathing
Please keep breathing, young girl
Your time will come, 
but there's much to be done, young girl

Please don't drown in the Lake of Narcissus.


Lake Of Narcissus

Fairweather girl
Finds friends wherever she goes
And when she finds them, she up and goes
Loving who ever sits beside her
And anyone besides
Not regretting a moment
Going with the ways of the tides
And god she loves that in and out
That sink and rise
That ebb and flow
That chase the prize

Cause the fairweather girl's got a hole to fill
The fairweather girl's got time to kill
And though it may be distasteful
And somewhat disgraceful
One night, you'll love her too

She falls in love at night
With whoever comes her way
And spends not a minute lonely
Not a minute of the day

Cause the fairweather girl's got a hole to fill
The fairweather girl's got time to kill
And though it may be distasteful
And somewhat disgraceful
One day, you'll love her too
Because god, is her heart open
God, is her heart open
God, her heart is open
God, her heart is open

Fairweather Girl

Many thanks to the birth-giver for helping me blow out my vocal chords 

House Of The Rising Sun

Something In The Way

Atlas never knew a weight so heavy as your life on mine.

Atlas

Not my song. Check out the original by Nicole Dollanger! 

baby, you have to pay in this way or another 
in this life or the next 
for as long as we’ve known each other 
you’ve been playing this game with death 

one day you will be tried 
on the execution line 
he’ll strap you in & you will fry 
like fireworks on the 4th of July 

baby, you have to pay in this way or another 
whether you can cry or not 
oh, how sad to face the judgement 
unprepared to meet your god 

he will wear a rubber coat 
shoot lightning through the vital veins 
they think that you emit the light 
but you only take it in 

the man in uniform will come 
and he will stick it in the arm 
you’ll scream out for your father 
and in darkness i pray you 
never find him again 
(everybody fries in texas)

Executioner

What is this insanity or stupidity 
Who is to blame for this pleasant emptiness,
This perpetual unfulfilled?
And if you fill me, will it leave me?
If you fill me, will it leave me?
Desired layers like translucent onions in my dreams
Slicing them open on the bare earth
Maybe it's the weather
Maybe I'm just groggy
Maybe I just need to wake up
I only woke up this way

I have a strange relationship with the sea
I love to drown
To feel the pressure all around me
Asphyxiating the thoughtflow 
To my lungs and to my brain
sweet and spongy
You sink your teeth into
I try to be careful to keep my arms and legs about me
To notice when the uncharted waters surround me with strange sensations
But I'm not so good at keeping
wits about me
When the current pulls me under
That's the end

Kurrent

Not my song. Go listen to the original by Grizzly Bear!

Deep blue sea darlin
On a deep blue sea
Deep blue sea darlin
On a deep blue sea

And it was mamma that got
Drowned in out in that deep blue sea

Dig his grave darlin with a
Silver spade
Dig his grave darlin with a
Silver spade

And it was brother that got
Drowned in out in that deep blue sea

Drop him down darlin
With a golden chain
Drop him down darlin
With a golden chain

And it was daddy that got
Drowned in out in that deep blue sea

Deep Blue Sea

I'm tired of trying 
I'm tired of fighting
So go ahead and eat me Grisly Bear
I won't resist anymore
I won't make a fist anymore
Grisly Bear
This fight isn't fair

Eat out my heart, Grisly Bear
Your grisly habit well,
I don't care
It's a tough part of me but
I don't care
Eat out my heart Grisly Bear

We used to walk together
Down the track
Eyes on the horizon
There's no going back
I used to ride on your back

Your fur was soft and you smelled of foreign lands
You'd talk real sweet and you'd hold my hand
But papa bear, those days are no more

Grisly Bear, you're a stubborn man
I like to count my blessings when I can

Oh, Grisly Bear, we can't talk anymore
I am deafened by your roar
And Grisly Bear, my whole body's sore
Trying not to slam the door
And I'm in the wrong and I'm always wrong
And I am still paying for my mistakes

Eat out my heart, Grisly Bear
Your grisly habit well,
I don't care
It's a tough part of me but
I don't care
Eat out my heart Grisly Bear

Grisly Bear

Bittersweet and lovely girl.
You took my heart and gave me the world.
My mama said that I'm a fool to try and fix you.
I know that's not the aim but I always wanted to.
Sweetheart, I hope to read myself in your memoirs someday,
though I'm afraid of what they might say.
You think that I don't cry but I cry for you.
You're mourning the time flying by but I want it to.
You think it's you alone who cries but I'm crying too.
I'm trying just to get by -- I know you're hurting too.
I'm trying to keep you alive but you never wanted to.
I'm trying my best to be wise but I don't know what to do
Shine a flashlight in my eyes --.
Count one, two
Make sure I'm straight-laced, straight girl, good girl
Make sure that I'm good for you.
And god, I hope that I have been good for you,
and god I know your heart is so heavy on me too,
god I hope that I have been good for you,
god I know your heart is so heavy on my lungs too.

Bittersweet

She's out looking for trouble
Yeah she's looking for trouble
Looking for trouble tonight
She's out looking for something 
Yeah she's searching for something
To make things alright

I'm caught in the crosswinds
In the crossfires crossing words and fingers into crosses trying to ward off devils
But they slip upside down so surreptitiously and they beckon him closer and closer to me
And he draws up inside me and he builds and builds until he sucks my succulent soul right out of its frame

When you leave your body behind,
Forget who you are
and expose your innermost essence to whatever force consumes you,
realize what you are
the bone and metal underneath
the painted on face and flesh by whatever god you've chosen

Trouble

Waiting

Sarah runs to feel the burning in her lungs,
to clear her head
Do you know what Sarah meant
when she said, 
you be my guest
to keep the pace
to save your face
you’ll never make the place,
but do you even run the race?

I can’t be what you need
I am stuck in a dream
I am stuck in a dream
Don’t you know
she’s been here all along 
in a dream?
She belongs in a dream

Every day
I’ll make promises that plague Sarah’s heart
so I can watch her fall apart
'Cause I know when I break her down
we’ll spit on all the happy clowns
that live around this sunny town
she loves me like a dog
and when we mess around
I’ll let her know the truth 
I can’t rely on hope with fate
and every time I wake
I second guess the game I play
Did I make a mistake


Sarah (Alex G cover)

Not my song. Check out the original by Alex G.

Break (Alex G cover)

Days To Come [jezmnd.]

Energy

Is it lust or just love?
Tell me dear, what are you thinking of?
Is it lust or just love?
Tell me dear, who are you dreaming of?
Give to me my heart immediately
Return it to me clean
I'm afraid you've spoiled me
With your treacherous ideology 
Is it lust or just love?
I never knew what you were speaking of
Is it lust or just love?

Lust Or Love

Dumb

Days To Come Acoustic

Lyrics:

Oh, what  a remarkable man
He is the scourge of this land
His heart is dark
His skin is white
Harvest the sun
Ignore the light
And watch it burning all their hands

The horrors, the horrors
Yet we choose to forget

The world, she wept like one Western widow
Even in the jungle of the Congo
They spat their lead into the trees
The mist obscured their ability to see
The horrors

Heart Of Darkness

Put one foot on the ground down in front of the other
Remembering I have no memories of my grandmother
Same street I was treading when I felt the tremor
Always thought I would've met her
Ma'a Salema.

My family is fractured like patchwork
Connecting the pieces is hard work
The image of my lineage 
Was split at birth
Tryna move in both directions
It still hurts

The marriage is 
was 
Not one heritage
cause
Love is non-specific
On both sides of the pacific

but

I'm an alien
Disembodied body
Floating through where and when
Collecting space junk to wear again
I made sense of my parent's end

It's got nothing to do with me
A river runs through me
Without me and within me
If I try to build a home here
I fear
A damn
The current will wipe it clear
Within a year

I figured it all out
The Rose, the Rise, the Fall Out
Got sick to my stomach but
I got it all out

I got it all out

I'm not lost
I just wasn't reading the signs
Finally learning the language
It's about time
I want to know my culture
To call it mine
Not for baba or grandma
But for my peace of mind

Funeral

BedTimeInSpace

Lowjoe

Octogonal

I am just a humble goblin trying to make some groovy tunes. Nonbinary Egyptian-American.

Just a Humble Goblin

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