Pain - Josh A

Yesterday

Waves

The Death of Slim Shady (Coup De Grâce)

Fuel

runs deep

This Shit Boutta Go Hard, Heh)

AY, it's nine in the morning, it's raining and pouring
The old man is snoring, and I'm still in bed
Shit can't get out of my head, damn
Keep thinking about all the things that I've said, yeah
I don't know how to get the fuck out of all this dre-

All of the times that I bled
All of the times that I fled
I'm still filled with lead
I don't know how to get out of my head
Paranoia it spread, I'm outta this bitch sayonara
But I'm up in this bitch, like Mariah
They don't fuck with the kid, they don't gotta
They don't fuck with the clique, that's a problem
Unload the clip, not talking metal
If I fuck with you all of it's gonna be mental
Don't fuck with my gas, don't fuck with my pedal
Or the next time they see you, you'll be in a rental
Yeah, fucking with your dental, yeah those grills are hollow
Like that soul you borrowed

AY, it's nine in the mornin', it's raining and pourin
The old man is snoring, and I'm still in bed
Shit, can't get out of my head, damn
Keep thinking about all the things that I've said, yeah
I don't know how the fuck to get out of all this dread

Tossin' and turnin' in bed
So I take these meds, to cope with this spiral in my head
These waters I tread, my life raft is sinking
There's a hole in my head, spent all this time thinking
It still left me dead

It still left me dead, it still left me dead, man, why the fuck it still left me dead
I wanna be alive, I wanna feel the light
I wanna feel alright? no. I wanna feel the vibe
I wanna feel my high, I wanna live my live
I wanna see through my eyes, don't wanna be behind the mirror in my mind

I look at the clock I aint telling the time, ticking down seconds im wasting my life, woah
I don't understand why I cry, like holy shit man I fucking tried
It's been like 10 years, I still don't understand why my brains fucking fried
Don't know my lows, don't know my highs, it's like up and down roller coaster ride
I don't know the fucking end of this shit, it's like I'm fuckin' dead in it

Damn this shit's just too much deal with, might just pop a clip and unload this shit
Like when the kraken hit the ship and we got no more boards to deal with it
Or when your bitch talk too much shit, and I busted her fuckin' lip
What can I say that's just how it is, when this generation is a bunch of fucking kids

oldManSnoring

I cant feel no love no more
opened one too many doors
when my eyes rain it pours
hectic thoughts lightning storm
travel my mind with an oar
trust me that you wont get bored
been hiding shit since I was 4
in this head these demons snore
sand to blade they're waging war
against my heart they want my core

When I listen to my demons
they grant me many reasons
on why the devil is teasing
pills give you freewill, and that could be treason
for the holy hearted, for me that ship departed
too much talent im a target
I'd get shot down before I started
so I stop and act retarded
hoping they wont catch me
I know they have an army
of wannabe slim shadys
shit ill gun em down like hades
cuz man theres too many me's
I dont know if I'm H or E
so I settle for Jaded MRE
I'm too high mixed up my abcs
stopped count after 123
bottle in hand 
"wait have I already ate these"

I cant feel no love no more
opened one too many doors
when my eyes rain it pours
hectic thoughts lightning storm
travel my mind with an oar
trust me that you wont get bored
been hiding shit since I was 4
in this head these demons snore
sand to blade they're waging war
against my heart they want my core

My Core

I found peace within the pills, lose myself when I lose my thrills, 
I don't know if I'll get killed, guess time will tell, 
It's only a meal away, death row is what awaits, 
In my brain I feel pain, cant escape these damn migraines,
Hang overs every time I drink, damn I'm finding it hard to think, 
Someone pass me another

I got so many issues in my head, sometimes it feel like I'd be better dead
at least then I wouldn't have the struggle, of tryin t' find everything through the rubble
I mumble, to myself saying I'll be alright, even though I can't sleep at night

I found peace within the pills, lose myself when I lose my thrills, 
I don't know if I'll get killed, guess time will tell, 
It's only a meal away, death row is what awaits, 
In my brain I feel pain, cant escape these damn migraines,
Hang overs every time I drink, 

It's my fate, to make mistakes
Look at myself all I feel is hate
I despise, my own eyes, all the lies
I've fucking tried to change myself
But it aint working out
Tried my best but I'm in a drought
Someone save me from this hell I'm in
Fuck it imma just go take more medicine 

I found peace within the pills, lose myself when I lose my thrills, 
I don't know if I'll get killed, guess time will tell, 
It's only a meal away, death row is what awaits, 
In my brain I feel pain, cant escape these damn migraines,
Hang overs every time I drink, 

Pass Me Another Freestyle

Look up to the sky, man the views amazing
I’ve been getting high, to cure all my ailments
Dont matter if I try, I run low on patience
Seeing other guys, then all the pain hit
Micro organize, all my fucking faces
Anytime I cry I Drown myself in pavement
Metaphorical mind, I cant fucking escape it 
Everytime my ego dies, its way too fucking blatant

Everytime I smile just know that i’m faking
Losing track of time stuck disassociating
Waiting for my time this heart is slowly breaking
Peace I cannot find in this sad hallucination
Why cant I unwind without my medication
Breaking through timelines then back to the aching
I see myself shine I just cant fucking obtain it
Dead up in the mind dont think im gonna make it

Look up to the sky, man the views amazing
I’ve been getting high, to cure all of my ailments
Dont matter if I try, I run low on patience
Seeing other guys, then all the pain hit
Micro organize, all my fucking faces
Anytime I cry I Drown myself in pavement
Metaphorical mind, I cant fucking escape it 
Everytime my ego dies, its way too fucking blatant

Blatant

01/19/05 All I can be is genuine.
Be who you are, not who you’re shown.

My Core

JadedREM

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