NOT SAD BUT NOT SURE

lyrics:

Our Safe guards Couldnt pull me in
The beams rot And I let them cave in
A fortnight Spent Behind these weathered gates
Worn hands slip the door and permeate the house
In my world its easier to suffocate
My eyes glaze my tired form emaciates
The warm dark birthed me to these cold parts
The birth marks Cover me on both arms 
If the horse dies then the foal does too
I don’t wanna ever live my life without you
Independence begs me to overlook truth so I do
Myself is a word I use around u
I just gotta a lot of pain in my chest woah woah
I cannot be like him but ill do my best woah woah
Lately I think I lost the fear of death woah woah
Baby I can’t be saved just save ur breath oh no

Don’t let them see u cry is what u said oh oh
I know that they’ll love me when im dead oh oh
Ion even wanna talk about the bad no oh
I like how it fuck me in my head oh oh
Blood drips from my nose
Stains bleed thru the snow
Its these nights they will never know

Take my body and feed it to the typhoon
Better than having say that strange goodbye soon
Baby I would never treat u same as u treated urself
I admire ur soul cause it is see thru
 late at night I drink and i fill myself up
Poison pours into my open mouth and I
Mean it when I say I miss how we was
This the game we chose to play with our love and I know
But Where’s your honour
I can see pain flow fast into her mold
So She left me cornered
But suffering like this bring me home that’s all that I know
As Toronto gets warmer 
I can come alive in a way that I never knew
Pour it up into my soda 
I started rolling up purple every time im feeling blue
Our Safe guards Couldnt pull me in
The beams rot And I let them cave in
A fortnight Spent Behind these weathered gates
Worn hands slip the door and permeate the house
and In my world its easier to suffocate
My eyes glaze the sweat on me evaporates
The warm dark birthed me to these cold parts
The birth marks Cover me on both arms 

Don’t let them see u cry is what u said oh oh
I know that they’ll love me when im dead oh oh
Ion even wanna talk about the bad no oh
I like how it fuck me in my head oh oh
Blood drips from my nose
Stains bleed thru the snow
Its these nights they will never know

these nights are urs (splashgvng)

release date January 27 2019
official file <3  found by me
lyrics:

Well would you look at all this shit that I been doing for you
Love, it had me really goin' through it for you
Anything to do, you know I'd do it for you
Ha-Had me on a trip for this shit
I been losing the love, yeah
I been losing the love, woah

Yeah, by myself
I got through it by myself, need no help
I been killing shit regardless of the wealth
Hate a belt, all that Louis, Gucci buckle, it don't help
In my hell, I been had to kill the reup by myself, yeah
Empty bottles, empty baggies on the shelf, yeah
Empty heart, got no soul to make it melt, yeah
In the dark, kill the lights inside the house, yеah
False start, I kept on going by myself, yеah
Aimin' low, bro, you just in need of wealth
Come that winter, you were asking me for me help
If I had known it was like that I wouldn't have come around
If I had known it was like that I wouldn't have helped
Drug, it had me nauseous
Love, it had me cautious
Playin' with my feelings, had to leave to fuckin' stop it
Play me like it's matter, had me feeling like an object
How you feeling sad when you're the one who fuckin' caused it?

Look at all this shit that I been doing for you
Love, it had me really goin' through it for you
Anything to do, you know I'd do it for you
Had me on a trip for this shit
I been losing the love, yeah
I been losing the love, woah

Silence rings, ultraviolent
Eyelids covered in glitter
Buzzin' on my phone, so I got rid of the ringer
I called in a flood, seen them cry at the jeweler
Jetlag from the jetfuel packed, packing glad bag sacks
Man, I feel like a shooter, but I'm not touching the Ruger
Bad bitch on my shit, feel like I've seen it improving
Damn, it's smooth, I got important shit to do
IVN supply me and I eat it like it's food
Stuff two in the leaf and then I lick it for the glue
Sippin' Disaronno and I passenger the coupe
Whip look like a Autobot, crew look like Decepticon
All that shit you wish that you could do, we got it goin' on
Never shoulda dropped me for the petty shit you hangin' on
Girl, you know I know that these the beats you love me singin' on

Look at all this shit that I been doing for you
Love, it had me really goin' through it for you
Anything to do, you know I'd do it for you
Had me on a trip for this shit
I been losing the love, yeah
I been losing the love, woah

losing the love (prod. IVN)

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witch hotel & sewerperson - sirens w/ kennedyxoxo & killmesumday (prod. noahmadethiss x jolst)

Infinite Names

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fiveofive (prod. excedi)

lyrics:

(scum)
can you tell me where the time went
cause i feel like it wasn't well spent at all
i've been staring at the clock 
screaming why don't you stop
you're moving way too fast now 
and i don't think i could ever catch you
cause you move way too fast and i know i won't last
you move way too fast and i know i won't last 

can you please slow down?
can you please slow down?

(93FEETOFSMOKE)
i'm not sure what to believe 
sometimes i'm not sure you even know me 
i won't pretend to know how you feel
just try to say exactly what you mean

i'm not sure where i've been
you're permanently on my skin
i'm not perfect, never been
least i'm trying to do this
least i'm trying to do this 

cause you move way too fast 
i just wish this could last 
cause you move way too fast 
i just wish this could last

too fast w/ 93FEETOFSMOKE (prod. fats'e)

lyrics:

summertime, orange skies lead me home
i been feeling like myself when im alone
i been working in my room with the lights down
oh my god 
oh my god

summertime, orange skies lead me home
i been feeling like myself when im alone
i been working in my room with the lights down
oh my god 
i been busy scheming every night now

tainted lips 
never helps when i speak out
release my hips
all i wanna do is sleep now
feel the drug 
slowly spill into my braincells
oh my god
i been busy smoking every night now

i try try try
with you i tried
but i will die
hollowed out inside

i try try try
with you i tried
but i will die
hollowed out inside

winters in my bones
hatred in my brain
i will show no signs
i will show no pain

i lie lie lie
god its such a shame
everything has changed
i dont look the same

awake at 3am 
phone glow on my face
god its such a shame
everything has changed

arctic eyes (prod. nciku)

produced by @chivnti

lyrics:

nose lame as fuck get it peirced like a bull
i live and i die to be different
if we fuck just know that my hearts not involved
i learned i could numb my emotions

think my body dont make tears no more
couldnt give a fuck about the feelings
fuck a plan last thing im gonna do is pull through
too busy sharing thoughts with the ceiling

mid september ill be fucking crazy
swear to god im ugly no one wanna date me
i been so fucked up i want it please dont save me
whenever im stuck like this all my dreams amazing

when i make plans respond within the fuckin minute
im not busy but i hate it
10 minutes tops and im not waiting

like what the fuck u comtemplating 
for so long
u wouldnt do this if i made it
and blew up

i always hated being sheltered
im not urs just give it up
i go to parties full of strangers
just to come thru and fuck it up

at least my music going good
but knowing me ill prolly fuck it up
tonight my head is feeling good
but of course i always drug it up

i went from always being late
to pretty much never showing up
i went from i dont have a plug
to damn my plug is coming clutch

think my body dont make tears no more
couldnt give a fuck about the feelings
fuck a plan last thing im gonna do is pull through
too busy sharing thoughts with the ceiling

art found at http://johnnysboots.tumblr.com/post/76103773768

scissor hands (prod. chivnti)

Faced should be finished and out by the end of the month!
prod. rodger @lilrodger
9tails @i_x_t_a_i_l_s

call me loveless, i don't wanna fuck this
up for the two of us, don't you know it'd ruin us,
nothing to discuss, who's really to trust,
staring at me with that feeling of disgust,

tried to warn you, bitch i get toxic,
it starts out perfect, maybe i'm not fit,
to have a girlfriend, someone to hold at night,
cus when the world ends, you know i won't put up a fight.

could we sail away at the end of the day,
might be the only way you'll get me to stay,
out in the pouring rain, home to all this pain,
throw your troubles away, bitch, just get faced.
x2

catch me laughing, between these verses,
levity never really hurt this,
thing i called a heart, like did you even notice,
me screaming at the top of my lungs, shoutouts to lotus,

call me loveless
faded like the sunset
weak chest
red eyes
but no emotions make me upset
im not coming down
cause this is not an ego death
ill placebo you
and show you just how real it gets
you could feel the stress
thoughts that strip your happiness
strike your mind down to the core
and force a hard reset
ive entered the deep end
you not in the stream yet
im not in the industry
but workin like a branch head

could we sail away at the end of the day?
might be the only way you'll get me to stay,
out in the pouring rain, home to all this pain,
throw your troubles away, bitch, just get faced.

never felt so alone and I don't pray anymore,
I havent felt more at home since we layed on the floor,
you kept your own pace, just to save face,
honey, did you win the race, did you reach that place,

and are you living well, I know this life, it gave you hell,
but when you're never heard, you feel you always gotta yell.
but keep your distance, i don't coexist bitch,
call me loveless, i won't really miss this.

Loveless (feat. 9tails) [prod. rodger]

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production

idealism: @idealismus

25: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCms7nTRhJWPcwFtd4AYWzXg/featured

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nayz: @nayztheone

ʎpoqou: @anobodyreally

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brokebwoy: @brokeassniiigga

floating away (prod. killedmyself)

thats my brother jay (solow)

lyrics: 

you were sitting next to me
with ash blond hair
and its distant but i know the feelings still there
and im sick of fucking filtering
i barely breath air
when its lights out
but i know that the fear is still there
i kept a quarter on the centrepiece for u to destress
3 in the morning and 4 at sunset
u know
everything is make believe inside of your chest
i got pieces i lost i can never get back

swim through the dark and i made it right back
nights on the porch smoking on some blue pack
31st to the 4th i could never change that
cough sounding horse felt my lungs turn black

turn from the door stepping on the fall leaves
everythings forever if u make urself believe
from the bong huolon blowing out a blueberry
every time im too gone it seem ur always calling me

come slow down its alright now
silent sounds baby quiet down
i told u its alright now
shame it broke down u cant hide now

tall green grass i need to lie down
days that stretch on past sundown
off of my chest i cant find out
if what we promised would still apply now

you were sitting next to me
with ash blond hair
and its distant but i know the feelings still there
and im sick of fucking filtering
i barely breath air
when its lights out
but i know that the fear is still there
i kept a quarter on the centrepiece for u to destress
3 in the morning and 4 at sunset
u know
everything is make believe inside of your chest
i got pieces i lost i can never get back

make believe (nevrfall)

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