Song I wrote about dark side to fame
*Sung in female version* 
Lyrics:
(Hook):
Stop the press, everything's a mess
You can look alive but you are not at rest 
And ideas are flowin' through your head
A million miles an hour while lying in your bed
The lucid life you never thought you'd lead
Are you workin' every day, are you workin just to breath
I know (x4)

V1:
I look up to the Lord and ask him to help me please
Don't let them bring me down to my knees
But it seems like He keeps on losing me
Allowing the people to keep on abusing me
So I guess I'm on my own, ripped apart no seams are sewn
A broken heart that bleeds alone, walking with no means of going home
The people, the press, scrutinizing
All they do is scrutinize me
The sheeple, there's less with minds that lead, they all seem to join in the lying (x2)

Hook

V2:
These eyes are my only way, my only way to keep all of you at bay
So elegant when I walk in the room, it doesn't resonate I'm walking to my doom
The people, the press, scrutinizing
The sheeple, the mess, the lies that seem
To suddenly become my infamous truth
Suddenly beginning to trade in my youth
For the camera, the fame, the money, the game, it hurts us, we change, deserts us, in the rain, we can't let you see, it cuts us so deep, we smile, we laugh, for awhile, we ask, why me, why is she, better than me, what do we see, all the things wrong with me
A wormhole that destroys our dream little world
And now you know the struggles of being a little girl

Hook


Christy- I Know (Look Alive)(Prod. by Spence Mills)

Cullen- Save Me From Myself (Prod by Wodkah)

Lyrics:
The last thing that I need to say to you
Is that I miss you, is that I love  you
The last thing that I need to say to you
Is I wanna kiss you, I'm thinking of you
Never mind these tears that scurry down my cheeks
My eyes can't see that you're gone away from me
My heart, it bleeds, yeah bleeds for eternity
Discarded my fears, yet you still come haunting me

I'm lost, you're gone, oh we're one in the same
My past, it haunts, me relentlessly
So lonely, come hold me, come show me, you still know me

The past will never change it's for forever
All the pain, all of the misery
The past will never fade, it will linger
When it rains, there's still a mystery
The last time I looked at you you had to turn away
That time it was you who learned from my mistakes
I'm broken, shattered and I cut away
At the hopeless, running barefoot into their grave


Christy- Haunted (Prod. by Danny E.B Tracks)

One of the songs for an ideal demo album I'm thinking of doing entitled "Phobia". This isn't a hate song against religion nor promoting one, it's from the view of a confused person who doesn't know what the truth is about religion as a whole. The beat is produced by Relevant Beats while I added the sample dialogue using Anton Lavey's final interview and the end is a sample of Kirk Franklin's "He Reigns". Enjoy!

Lyrics:
V1: The Lord is thy shepherd, He'll infiltrate my brain/ According to His Word I shall not want others to do the same/ Breathless at the sight of His Light (heart) oh what to say?/ Methods trying to right all the lies told by others filled with hate/ Animosity slowly building within me until I flat line/ All of my beliefs willing to be compromised

Chorus: The Lord is thy shepherd/ How will I die/ Do I come to Your Helping Hand/ Or shall I burn alive (x2)

Outro: Save me, I'm breaking (x5)

Excerpts: 1st one: I love life...very much. And it's been said that I can't possibly love life. That I'm a very unhappy man, must be a very unhappy man. But I would say that I'm a very happy man, an extremely happy man in a compulsively unhappy world. Satan can take the form of a beautiful woman. Satan can take the form of a sleek animal. An automobile can be very satanic. These things can be anthropomorphied into Satan.

2nd: I believe that all churches of all denominations should be taxed to the hilts. If churches were taxed as any other business...because that's what they are. Simply businesses. If they were taxed, the national debt would be wiped out over night...all churches would be wiped out over night.

Ending: Our God is an awesome God he reigns from Heaven on earth with me...


Cullen- Theo(Phobia)(Prod. by Relevant Beats)

This is my cover of the new Rihanna song "Sledgehammer" from the upcoming Star Trek film. I did the vocals, but the piano is done by MegaKaraokeSongs, whose YouTube channel will be linked below. Enjoy :)
Link to MegaKaraokeSongs channel: https://www.youtube.com/user/JamTracksGuitar

Lyrics: 
[Verse 1]
I hit a wall, I never felt so low, so low
Like a waterfall, my tears dropped to the floor, the floor
They left a swimming pool of salted crimes, crimes
Oh, what could I do to change your mind?
Nothing

[Pre-Chorus 1]
I'm bracing for the pain and I am letting go
I'm using all my strength to get out of this hole
[Chorus]
I hit a wall, I thought that I would hurt myself
Oh I was sure, your words would leave me unconscious
And on the floor I'd be lying cold, lifeless
But I hit a wall, I hit 'em all, watch the fall
You're just another brick and I'm a sledgehammer
You're just another brick and I'm a sledgehammer

[Verse 2]
Yeah I hit a wall, I prayed that I would make it through, make it through
I can survive a life that's without you, that's without you, yeah
And I will rise up from the ashes now, the ashes now
Oh, the sparrow flies with just the crumbs of loving spilled, yeah

[Pre-Chorus 2]
I was bracing for the pain and then I let it go
I gathered all my strength and I found myself whole

[Chorus]
I hit a wall, I thought that I would hurt myself
Oh I was sure, your words would leave me unconscious
And on the floor I'd be lying cold, lifeless
But I hit a wall, I hit 'em all, watch the fall
You're just another brick and I'm a sledgehammer
You're just another brick and I'm a sledgehammer
You're just another brick and I'm a sledgehammer
You're just another brick and I'm a sledgehammer


Cullen- Sledgehammer (Rihanna Male Piano Cover)

This song is about being more confident in yourself and not allowing any one person to discredit or tell you you are not good enough to prevail. Produced by SpArObeAtZ (link to YouTube channel here: www.youtube.com/user/SpArObeAtZ )

Lyrics:
Your eyes, so empty they cannot cry
Your lies, so many they can't concide
Your life, embodies all hopes that die
Your ties, constrict me so I cant hide

(Hook) I look up as I run, missed my jump, bet Im done
No Im not afraid
Im in a rut, so distraught, all is lost, all this cost 
No Im not afraid
All Ive done, is give up, let you come, and burn my love
But Im not afraid
I will go on, I will grow strong, I'll overcome what you've brought
No Im not afraid

I've let you come and steal away my joy
I've let you treat my love like a toy
But my day has come where I'll find my voice
And you'll be the one who's stuck in this void

Hook 2x

Cullen- Not Afraid (Prod. bySpArObeAtZ)

This is a remastered female vocal version of my first uploaded song, "Misery Loves Company". I figured I'd upload how it was originally supposed to sound and made it easier to hear the lyrics. May do this for many of my older songs so expect some more "throwbacks" lol.

Christy- Misery Loves Company (Remastered Version)

Remastered version of one of my fave songs, "Broken". Hopefully it sounds clearer this time :)

Christy- Broken (Remastered)(Prod. by Digital Flashback)

Lyrics:
(V1):
I told a lie again
I told them that I was winnin
This battle against myself
They asked if there are problems
I said I would solve them
I don't need none of their help
Meanwhile there's still a war
This pain is taking its toll on
Me and my fragile health
But this is my normal life
Nothing seems to go right
I'm such a coincidental mess

I don't wanna be a burden 
Can't let them see me hurtin
So I'll fight through and say this

Hook/Chorus:
Oh I'm fine 
Oh I'm doin' alright

(V2)
Having fun at least I think
I pulled tricks out my sleeves
Yet there's still nobody else in sight
I thought that there'd be people
But everyone's deceitful
So being alone I know is right
I saw the sun today 
And it burned my skin away
So I think I'll just stay inside
I'm locked inside a room
Fearing  my impending doom
Yet I can still laugh when I cry (before I die)

Hook

(V3):
Do you believe the smile
It's been on for a while
I think I should repaint it now
Ignore those empty bottles
I was just drowning sorrows
I think that I should be good now
Ignore these tears of mine
They will all soon be dry 
And I can go back to being the clown
(Help!)
 Hook

Cullen- I'm Fine (Prod. by JAM Beats)

Lyrics:

First time, last time that you take
Away everything I've made
First time, last time that you'll break
Everything and leave me to blame
First time last time that you fake 
Your way as if you make no mistakes
First time last time that we play
This twisted rollercoaster game

Round, round round
Got me spinnin round round round
Gotta make my choice right now
And I know what I know now

(I) I ain't got time (laa laaa lA la) x4

FIrst time last time that I'll stay
Around just to fill up empty space
First time last time that I say
Maybe everything will be okay
First time last time that I pray
Hopin that one day you'll change
First time last time that I make
This work the hurt is too much, Im about to break

Down down down
Got me spinnin round round round
Gotta make my choice right now 
And I know what I know now

hook

Cullen- Ain't Got Time (Prod. by Sero Produktions)

Lyrics:
Savin' this letter
That I wrote for you
To make me feel better
But what's the use
You'll never come around
To hear the news
Of how my life's down
By the thread of the noose

I'm chokin' and broken
Strugglin' for air, guess my life's got a motive
But I don't know what it is
You left me, you kept me
On the edge of the ledge 
My foot almost slipped
I should've just let it slip

Who said that we needed love
Who said this what we've all dreamed of

Animals, animals, we're all just animals
Lookin for edible souls, oh we're cannibals
Hide behind affable smiles and laughs we will
Try to just sell our soul, freely give up our soul
To keep peace of mine, and you've stolen mine
And all of this time, I was so blind
Just to let go, and to let you 
Into my world and you morphed it is this what you do?
Is this what you'll do?
Pretend that you care when you know it's not true
Hug me while slowly the knife's goin right through
My body it's hurting but I know to you
You'll just delude, yourself and fool
Me to believe I should untie this noose
Then you'll look back and say what's the use
I'll say it's cuz of you

Instrumental by: micco. 
Link to producer channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCRWMWk-xx67nsacXORn2Aiw

Cullen- Letter For You (Prod. by micco.)

Here's my cover for Billie Eilish's new song for the new James Bond film, "No Time to Die". The instrumental was done by the amazing Star Acoustic Chill channel so a link to their channel will be provided and thank you! Hope you enjoy my version!

Link to instrumental creator's channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC9z13FT6TlfAKjd1SDEQFtA

Cover Image Original Image (without edit): https://gritdaily.com/billie-eilish-james-bond-theme/

Lyrics:
I should've known
I'd leave alone
Just goes to show
That the blood you bleed is just the blood you owe

We were a pair
But I saw you there
Too much to bear
You were my life, but life is far away from fair

Was I stupid to love you?
Was I reckless to help?
Was it obvious to everybody else

That I'd fallen for a lie?
You were never on my side
Fool me once, fool me twice
Are you death or paradise?
Now you'll never see me cry
There's just no time to die

I let it burn
You're no longer my concern
Faces from my past return
Another lesson yet to learn

That I'd fallen for a lie
You were never on my side
Fool me once, fool me twice
Are you death or paradise?
Now you'll never see me cry
There's just no time to die

No time to die
No time to die

Fool me once, fool me twice
Are you death or paradise?
Now you'll never see me cry
There's just no time to die

Cullen- No Time To Die (Acoustic Cover)

I write songs and it's one of my dreams to be able to write for artists other than myself! My main inspirations are singers like Mariah Carey, Sia, Adele, Amy Lee, Melanie Martinez and so many others who are talented singer-songwriters I look up to. Hope you enjoy the music!

Business email: corkyb35@yahoo.com

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