You’re music makes me feel like I suck, but I love that shit tho

Listen to “desire outlives decay” everywhere https://li.sten.to/tbpd-dod
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produced by me
mastered by pdktp
feat @9blare @pdktp
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Lyrics

I wish you would stay with me
Where was all your faith in me?
It was hard to imagine
At the most confusing times
The rip off plastic
The tear right at my soul

(my soul, my soul oh)

(my soul, my soul oh)

(my soul, my soul oh)

(my soul, my soul oh)

Got me falling to pieces
I know you don’t mean it
I’m trying so hard to get away
But I’m fiending

I’m falling to pieces
Your love got me sinking
I’m in the back while I’m already bleeding
While im already bleeding

(fuck)

Fuck me up (fuck me up)
Put me in my place (in my place)
Cut me up (cut me up)
Like a razorblade

Don’t let me bleed (let me bleed)
Take control of me
Don’t let me go
Let me go
Let me go

It gets so hard to look you in your face
Tryna get away from you’s like burning embers
I don’t want to talk now but I’ve never felt more down when I was by your side
And im always sick of myself when you never asked if I was alright

You gave me the courtesy of an apology
What can I do to make this right?
I feel like im just going here to die (to die)
Die (die)

I wish you would stay with me
Where was all your faith in me?
It was hard to imagine
At the most confusing times
The rip off plastic
The tear right at my soul

(my soul, my soul oh)

(my soul, my soul oh)

(my soul, my soul oh)

(my soul, my soul oh)

tear at my soul

[@nokerbforever] (prod kerb)
we get in the whip and i go 160
i don't wanna die, i just don't know what i'm thinking
i'm tryna erase all the past shit that lives in me
asking u to try but no u just never listen
smokin riding low
backseat where i cope
rollin up some more
now i'm bleeding ever slow
can't see thru the smoke
to much just to go
no you'd never know
now you barely even call

and yeah she's heartless
stab me with the knife in my back then she wiped it spotless
used me like a puppet yeah she does some kind of stalking
and now i start to question why u always act obnoxious
yeah, act like u know nothing
so done, fucked up
now u wanna see me go
to much, i'm numb
this to much for me to cope
roll up some more
now i can't see thru the smoke
you'd never know
no you never even called

[@arasmoon] (prod aras moon)
been thinking of ways that
i can end it all lately
to weak for the horrors
i wish someone could sedate me
the curse of remembrance is a burden to bare
and when i tell em my lore ill prolly end up escaping
and its so hard to believe that i would be saving myself
cause some how they abandon me when i need a hero the most
(hey)
my life has been a huge outro
(watch em)
exit it seems so natural
(okay hey)
just saw the man of my dreams he'll turn into a nightmare

how can i stop all this suffering
can i retain my humanity
melancholy hearts
watch it all fall apart
this weight that i'm bearing
will never remove the fool
in my cards
it took a toll
it took a toll
it took a toll

[@808aesir] (prod aesir)
and when i look at u
i see it
i see it
i see it

well if this is how it ends
then i dont wanna talk about it
i want to remember everything just like this
and its hard
when youre feeling like you need it
i was picking up the pieces of my
chrome heart

(2x)
i cant do this on my own
when im losing my control
this is everything i know
this is everything i know

and when i look at you
i see colors changing
i needed something new
but you were fine remaining
and when i look at you
i see colors changing
and when i look at you

[@dwardo-isreal] (prod aesir)
so baby please
dont become a tragedy
and if i cover my face
please don't get mad at me
i got a lot of shit going on
lot of shit going wrong
and you could be the one to take it all away

so take it all away
im needin you to stay
and never go away
and never go away

cause ur gonna see a body floating down the river
if you wanna be my chrome heart killer

[@ar15wthebeam] (prod spawn)
can anybody tell me what's been going on in my head
i been tryna work it out it doesnt really make sense
talk to god, help me now, do we all feel pain?
talk to you, in my mind, say you always felt the same
all this liqour in my liver, maybe i'm the one to blame
i just wonder what you say when you leave my room
if it doesnt make sense it'll make sense soon
yeah but really i been wondering what's going on with you

can you make me feel it
think i lost my feeling
i just never knew i painted you a mural on the wall
you give me oxycotton pills i know u wanna see me fall
well played shawty you just got me feeling so strange
and when i talk to you it feel like we aint on the same page

you know what they say what goes up always comes down
play my heart, like a drum, i can hear it so loud
all these voices in my head feel like im singing to a crowd

run your fingers through my skin it feels like bugs crawlin
i cant help it im a runner babe im so sorry
tie the noose and ima rock it like a wing collar

[@spawnvii]
surrounded by the spirits of the ones i hold close
never look beside me, never go ghost
running from my past, shouldn't old news be old?
crestfallen in the woods
my blood rots to mold

(my stomach churns inside a cave)
rocks falling through the seams, the footing's to steep for me now
what did you expect? there's only so much that i get
cause you said yourself, im only just a kid

(now im left to die here, drowned out by ghosts)

look back

consumed by earth

your body's consumed by earth

look back

chromehearts

im back

https://www.instagram.com/aftrr
Prod Me

U cannot find no one better than
Whole fit black with the vetement
Keep my circle small like the president
Tryna cop the recipe
Cant keep u around u so dead to me
Ridin round town with my twinnem
Yeah thats kin to me
Drop a bag make it flip
Hunnid mag aint no clip
Swear these hoes want tip
No surprise wrote the script
Run a bag then i dip
Got my flask ima sip
Copy the swag they gon slip
Never fold shut my lips

Fully automatic
Ima cash addict
Spending its a bad habit
Know they mad at it
Cause a scene i tell her slow down
Cuttin thru traffic
Amg i never slow down
Woah
Never broke thats sin to me
Pockets sing a symphony
Got money why they mess with me
I see it all vividly
At the top look at me
Im the epitome
Aye
Hibachi hibachi im choppin it up
Ride kawasaki she toppin me up
Way that im talking cant make this shit up
Cant walk round without saying wassup
Body on body like one aint enough oh

U cannot find no one better than
Whole fit black with the vetement
Keep my circle small like the president
Tryna cop the recipe
Cant keep u around u so dead to me
Ridin round town with my twinnem
Yeah thats kin to me
Drop a bag make it flip
Hunnid mag aint no clip
Swear these hoes want tip
No surprise wrote the script
Run a bag then i dip
Got my flask ima sip
Copy the swag they gon slip
Never fold shut my lips

SPOTIFY !

the script

back
produced by me ._.
mastered by @dawsin
featuring @daywxtch
thank you both dawsin for mastering and daywatch for featuring <3
hope you enjoy 🤍
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Lyrics

{RiRi}
tell me how you lose control
tell me how do you what you do
tell me, tell me, do you know, 
all the hell that i've been thru?

oh no,
i guess i got no good friends
everybody just pretends
thats why i cut out off the outside
this week i cut again
last month i cut off friends
last year i tried to cut it all 
'n put my life to end
        (UGH)
OKAY OKAY OKAY
HAVE YOU EVER FUCKING PLAYED?
NO!
OKAY OKAY OKAY
THEN HOW 'BOUT WE FUCKIN' PLAY? 
hahahahahahaha
that was funny,
i was laughing
now its back to what im doing;
did you hear that?
js the wind
i dont know him,
i dont know him.

{daywatch}
jesus christ, you're difficult
you want me to side with wherever you stand, force me to fit that mold
like, baby, we are not a cult
i'm not cutting off my friends 'cus they're the reason i'm still here
and even if you don't like them it's my choice
so, don't even start
i'm so tired of these people tryna rip me off
say some kind shit to my face then turn it to a shard
sudden fire in my back, i couldn't see the signs
don't you ever fucking ask me why i'm on guard

{RiRi}
tell me how you lose control
tell me how do you what you do
tell me, tell me, do you know, 
all the hell that i've been thru?

they call it ego,
but im just matching your energy
honestly,
imma treat these people how they treating me,
honestly.
imma keep it real, fuck if it hurts me
honesty,
imma stay this way no matter where it's landing me
TAKE IT AWAY,
ALL OF THIS HURT;
AND ALL OF THIS PAIN
GIVE ME MY ESCAPE,
I CANT HANDLE THIS BRAIN
CIRCLES UNDER EYES,
DO I SEEM OKAY?
whats that over there? 
polluting the air,
just some broken bones beyond all repair
its rude to stare,
rip out their hair,
gasoline feels nice when sparked by a flare
yeah, life isnt fair,
they learnt their way,
growing up taught them some new ways to hate
they wanna be safe;
running away,
when it is them that they want to escape

​🇹​​🇦​​🇰​​🇪​ ​🇮​​🇹​ ​🇦​​🇼​​🇦​​🇾​,
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​🇩​​🇴​ ​🇮​ ​🇸​​🇪​​🇪​​🇲​ ​🇴​​🇰​​🇦​​🇾​?
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...okay

ok ft. daywatch

okay ft. daywatch

Listen to “smileforthecamera” everywhere 
https://li.sten.to/tansea-s4tc

Produced by me
Mastered by vaun

Lyrics:
If you couldn’t tell, I’m broken
Think it’s kinda odd you didn’t notice
Why you think I’m never really joking?
Cus’ I could never really stay focused

Gotta tell myself “onto the next one”
If you ever asked I’d never tell ya
Life is like a movie, I’m an extra
And yet I never smiled for the camera

Gotta tell myself “onto the next one”
If you ever asked I’d never tell ya
Life is like a movie, I’m an extra
And yet I never smiled for the camera

Would you really do me like that?
Would you really spit on my name?
I don’t really want to fight back
But I’d do it to just keep you safe

Just know that I’m a call away
It never hurts to speak
But I can’t let you go, yeah

I can’t let you go
I can’t let you go
I can’t let you go
I can’t let you go

I can’t let you go
I can’t let you go
I can’t let you go
I can’t let you go

I can’t let you go
I can’t let you go
I can’t let you go
I can’t let you go

I can’t let you go
I can’t let you go
I can’t let you go
I can’t let you go

If you couldn’t tell, I’m broken
Think it’s kinda odd you didn’t notice
Why you think I’m never really joking?
Cus’ I could never really stay focused

Gotta tell myself “onto the next one”
If you ever asked I’d never tell ya
Life is like a movie, I’m an extra
And yet I never smiled for the camera

Gotta tell myself “onto the next one”
If you ever asked I’d never tell ya
Life is like a movie, I’m an extra
And yet I never smiled for the camera

smileforthecamera

ALL PLATFORMS

p. die for you

lyrics:
hold, my, hand,
tell me i own your eyes
please warn me in advance 
if there’s another guy
i wanna call you mine
i wanna share a mind
i wanna say your name
i wanna chase your fame
pull me in oh so close
you’re the one i want most
write your name in love notes
even this song just gloats
how much i want your heart 
but it just tears mine apart
i know i’ll fuck it up
at least a hundred times
i wear your heart on my sleeve 
like a sailor tattoo
and i know what you mean
when you said “i love you”
but your actions they hurt 
like a bitch i can’t lie
i’ll be gone for a month
i can’t even say bye
i just said “nevermind”
and i left on “goodnight”
but i wish that you stayed
and just put up a fight
but its fine that you didn’t 
can’t put the blame on you
you said that i was "everything" 
babe whats everything without you?

Everything Without You.

more

prod me

lyrics:

if i wasn’t pickin at it would ya
put a stop n let it heal in silence
girl ur looking too good in my absence
searched the signs for scars knew this was happenin

br- breathe out
br- breathe out n ease
so don’t go hiding away my love
br- breathe out
br- breathe out n ease
i planned on picking away my love

threw on my jacket
put the keys in
started igniting the spark
throw on ur favourite dress
cuz i can’t guarantee we’ll make it far
take away ur wings
guess you’re stuck beneath below everything you know
should i play it safe
i could risk my life, bite the bullet for a change

stream c:

breathe (scab)

count it up - glaive (snippet)

big shout to cedar man @cedarredd-mgmt

lyrics:

baby don't waste my time 

cuz im about to change my life

we only get one try  

you said you only gonna stay one night 

quite familiar no

i can't even close my eyes

train crashin out and

you've been wastin all your time 

but it's instrumental 

such a silly little life

when you think about it 



but baby when it's 


lights out

i swear you only wanna see me when it's lights out 

baby this ain't no make 

belive me til i found out 

i couldn't stomach what you mean

when it's lights out 

lights out 

no 

when it's lights out 

i think it's pretty clear to see

another lie now

baby i'm begging on my knees 

when it's lights out 

lights out no

*cedar*

i know im the right guy

for you

baby i could make the time fly

with you 

ill be the life line 

and we can do it all again another night 

it's past the point

but in a vacuum 

i really thought i had it

wouldn't put it past you

she hit the matador 

and know i'm that fool

but baby all im askin for is that you



 don't

waste my time 

cuz i can change your life

baby you know we only get one try 

you know you could always stay the night 

quite familiar no

i can't even close my eyes

train crashin out and

you've been wastin all your time 

but it's instrumental 

such a silly little life

when you think about it 



but baby when it's 


lights out

i swear you only wanna see me when it's lights out 

baby this ain't no make 

belive me til i found out 

i couldn't stomach what you mean

when it's lights out 

lights out 

no 

when it's lights out 

i think it's pretty clear to see

another lie now

baby i'm begging on my knees 

when it's lights out 

lights out no

im back

hxmesick

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