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And i waste all my time with thoughts of 
Memories I find repulsive 
Waiting for a life that makes me 
Look at who I was and smile

Wasted off paintings they
Make me feel diZy 
I waited and waited 
For hatred and hatred 

Facing the painful truth 
I can't look I'm scared.
Of who I was foolish acts 
Fuck me I'm stupid 


Why am I living I 
Can't breath I'm drowning 
This suffering I've endured 
Wait for me I'm injured 

Laundry like turning goes 
Round and round in my head 
Thought cycles repeating 
In my head I'm crying

what happens when i turn my thoughts into sounds

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Whys life so shitty sometimes 
I don't feel good at all
Man all this talking 
Is making me dizzy 

Man I need some water

Sometimes don't I wanna be here
It's just to damn sad
I wish I could 
See a better me

And I think about it a lot
The mistakes and pain
It tears me up inside 
I hate the feeling but it's what keeps me going 

So I walk down to a place 
Where I can think about my issues 
Yea I got many 

Fortunatate enough to not worry about the money 
Only about what I've done and what I do

its only about what ive done and what i do

then it started to rain, and it was ok

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Wake up and feel like shit again 
I don't where it began 
I just want to feel alright 
Most of the time I dont feel right 

Visions lacking clarity 
I find out that I cannot see 
All the faces of the people talking 
My thoughts are racing but my mind is walking 

All the places I can't see
I think my head might burst 
All the feelings that I've kept inside 
They are braking out of where they reside 
 
thoughts that I've collected can't be
Taken to a place for me
I keep them close so I can see the 
Demon I was when 11

When will the pain just end

the demon when i was eleven

no friend of mine w/ bon bonz (demo)

The first single off my upcoming album <3
Out on all streaming platforms!!

Waking every day and its the same feelin
I cant get out of my head
Anxious when i wake nobody can
Help me when im too scared to see

The truth it just divides me within my head
I cant tell you where im at
The process it consumes me and soon ill break confuse me
Confuse my brain and all my thoughts the same

Wait on me, i feel like i could change
I feel like we could be something together 
Stay with me, dont slip away
I wish that you could stay a while longer

Woah all im feeling is nothing 
This feeling im not feelin inside
Now i see how im changing
And i just can’t seem to change

And every time i confess to myself
Im testing myself with my inner self and its taxing
Feels like im takin acid and going backwards and acting

Acting my feelings and feeling like im just pretending and acting on all of my feelings
This feeling im getting its making me mental but nothing is changing 

Wait on me, i feel like i could change
I feel like we could be something together 
Stay with me, dont slip away
I wish that you would stay a while longer

Say for me, that you would never leave
That everything we feel is real yea 
Hold on to me, I know that you are true
I worry whats the use if everythings fine

making me mental

The second single off my upcoming album <3
Out on all streaming platforms as well!!

Waiting on someone to carry me on
I listen to you your my comfort song

Thinkin im nothing by your side
This is the feeling i try to hide

Can you feel the way i look at you
Can i be content with what i do

Sometimes it feels like i cant breath
Fearing for something i cant see

And sometimes it feels like im a king
Elated for some sorta feelin that you bring
You bring for me

my comfort song

distorted paintings (demo)

i am an idiot child making music for the soul...



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