on the 12'th of December 2020 my mother passed away in a, for me, traumatic manner... this is her last days aswell as the situation that unfolded, through her eyes. This was the hardest song I've written, as well as the hardest one to record

[LYRICS]
11th of December was a cold night but
I told him that I'll be alright but
double blankets and I'm still freezing
poison in my blood heartbeat increasing
kiss 
on my forehead as he said goodnight
as he walks away I feel that something isn't right but
I can't scare him I can't do it I just need to push trough it
as he walks upstairs I can feel a shift
at least I got to give him his early birthday gift
and
his laughter heals my pain
something at least to keep me sane but
next day come I'm not feeling alright
his birthday is tomorrow just got to hold on tight
and pray that I can see my boy
but as it is now I wont leave him joy I

walked to the room but then i slipped
now on my forehead is a big slit
I can't get up on my own and
on me i don't have my phone I
need to call him call his name
get some help it's such a shame
I won't get to see his birthday coming tomorrow
his day is just gonna be filled with sorrow 
as I hear his footsteps coming down the stairs
my eyes starts filling up with tears
as he looks to me and helps me up but
that's the time when it all struck         
heartbeat racing
I won't make it
dying in his arms
he's calling an ambulance but it's too late
I told him I'll be okay but this is my fate
tears flowing down his cheek as he tries to save my life
compression compression after compression
but my heart won't beat
I can feel I'm loosing heat
I submit defeat but
as I close my eyes and let my life go
seeing my son's tears that flow 
down his check and on to me
why did this all, have to be and
why did it have to end like this
seeing my kids grow up, I'll miss

Don't Leave

STEADFAST

BARON SMEGMA - BUBONKA

*ROUGH AZZ LYRICS BELOW*

delirious the fuckin minds we done led ourselves straight to demise
the movies show our lives it’s exactly what it all just implies
these fuckin creatures start to drop they whole disguise
& now they spread across the skies like black clouds lined in gold

somethin like the nimbus with akatsuki
down the rotten flaming mountain watch me ski
this shit is gettin devastating
as these fuckas celebrating
ain much longer till we penatrating
so it’s time to pipe down like they don’t wanna roll

feelin like disk trynna find da way
fa feelin like trx I’m crashin out
fa feelin like james filth, below the surface
I’m feelin like darko, I’m the lich
fa feelin like igor mortis, bitch I’m gettin jiggy anyway
I’m not finna sit & let them drag me to the bottom of the bay
rather work with the matrix, make it glitch
you not gainin anything that’s towards yo purpose
closed mouths gon stick it out inside this drought
never workin with the shits so I just watch that boy decay yuh de fuckin cay yuh

always chasin sick, always chasin fuckin sick x5
always chasin filth, always chasin fuckin filth x3
always chasin filth, 808 up in this fucking bitch

LET ME SPILL THIS CUP I FUCKIN RUB THE BULLSHIT OFF MY SKIN, THAT DIRT JUST MAKE ME FUCKIN SPIN AS IF I POPPED A EIGTH & STOOD MY ASS UP WAY TOO QUICK, I’M BOUTTA PASS OUT AS I SEE THE BLUE LIGHTS THEY CLOSING IN THE TUNNEL CALLIN TROUBLE, YOU AIN GOT NO LENGTH LIKE STUBBLE

BOUTTA LEAVE A EGO HIDIN DEEP INSIDE DA RUBBLE, NIGGA NEVA HUMBLE SO I WATCH EM FUMBLE, LEMME WATCH THE STATIC AS IM WAITIN FOR THE CHANNEL, CATCH ME IN DA KA THE DRAL, KICKED UP, LOOKIN AT MY QUEEN AS SHE JUST SIT UP IN MY LAP, I GO BRAP BRAP BRAP UP IN THEM GUTS, MY NAME NEVA BEEN THAT FOR NO REASON

delirious the fuckin minds we done led ourselves straight to demise
the movies show our lives it’s exactly what it all just implies
these fuckin creatures start to drop they whole disguise
& now they spread across the skies like black clouds lined in gold

BLIX$EM - DaKathedral / Black Akatsuki Clouds (Prod. NIGHTMVRE)

lxstkami: 
https://soundcloud.com/lxstkami

song cover by me

Black Sun ft. LXSTKAMI (Prod. Dead Retire)

PROD. @GHOSTGINGA
FEAT. @AKBANKZ

GHOST LYRICS

WALKING AROUND WITH THESE FAKE FRIENDS
IM LOSING MY PATIENCE I DONT GIVE A FUCK ANYMORE
BUST DOWN THE DOOR
SEE ME ON THE FLOOR
BITCH IM SO DEAD 
DEAD TO THE CORE

IM FORCING MYSELF TO LIVE
THROWING UP WALLS
ASKING FOR SOMETHING
YOU KNOW I WONT GIVE
HEARING THESE LIES
I DONT THINK ILL FORGIVE
LIVING TO 18
I WILL NOT OUTLIVE

I GUESS WE ALL LIVE FOR COMPANIONSHIP 
WHY THE FUCK DO WE ALL HAVE MASKS THAT WE EQUIP
CONTROLLING EMOTIONS THE MASTERSHIP
IM PULLING OUT THE 9 TO WATCH THIS PISTOL GRIP

BREAKING BONES
TO SET THE TONE
IM IN THIS PIT
IM ALL ALONE
IM POPPING PILLS
NOW WATCH ME FOAM
IM IN THE SKY
IM IN THE ZONE 
I KILL MYSELF
WITH MY BLOODY CHROME
CALL ME UNKNOWN
WITH THIS EMPTY PHONE
FUNNY I GOT CLONES

FAKE FRIENDS (FEAT. akbankz)

Lyrics by: King iLL
Beat produced by: mhls
Mix and Mastered by: King iLL
Cover Art by: King iLL

Please bring awareness to borderline personality disorder and to those who suffer from the effects of a loved one who has this gift. 🙏

Across The Borderline (prod. mhls)

NEW ERA

YouTube Version:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UfxPzRWZj9M

Colorado Indica Forest

*ROUGH AZZ LYRICS BELOW*

comin to slice some shit, my anbu black ops blade is freshly sharpened ready to split the egos into 72 the sections or 72 the inches deep into the ground, I look at you rag like a doll you drug by black threads covered in the dark flame
I whisper deep in the drums, my voice get to thumpin like woofers they buss out the trunk, while the vibes in the air get me crunk, I done found me a time where I don’t have the thoughts of the feelings of being attached to the fact that I’m forever stuck in a place I have sunk, but you call me a punk that is black because all of this shit in my face I am tired I must put a pause – all up on this shit & spit that I am claimin that this is all bullshit, it’s all filled to tha top boutta pop wit a bunch a lies, i say that it’s all fake, & you just peepin the blix where you see that I stand on the road that is stamped with the words & they reading that we all just re-fucking-bel bitch

like bitch we been declared the bullshit that we is callin war, chasin sick is on they tour, this ain’t neva been the show you got in mind

BLIX$EM - WINGS OF DARKNESS (Prod. Rocco Roy) *SINGLE BEFO THA ALBUM*

GoodSleeper:

Burden; should've bit
My tongue. Poison in the spit
That I spray out when I'm speakin,
Gargle death, I take a sip.
I be runnin em to pits,
Drop em dead to get a lift;
No more broken little bitch
Behind my back that's talkin shit.

Oh no, how dehumanising,
The way I get in your psyche.
Lookin like he sorta might be
Crumblin to pieces; I believe
He nutty in the mind because
Of my deep hold on thy insight,
Behind me I lead mighty fighting 
Demons lighting highly

Flammable liquids 
on the path of my past.  
No followers
Thinkin they can pass, we the last
Nightmare. No sleep till I crash.
Who cares if we lash out
On the ones who pass out?

Hollow rounds for mass clout;
Shootin, massacre, Massacre.
Fuckin dirt turnt to mud,
body served on the curb!
No choke hold, pin em,
Make em hurt, till it work!
Stone cold bloody body
Returned to the earth!


EXTINCT:

Choke hold round my throat
Barely staying afloat
They've got tight grip
That I'm smoking heavy to cope
The way that I be usin'
Lead confusion into my head
Subliminal messaging undressing me
To thinking I'm dead

They re-wired my brain 
Into thinking I'm subhuman
Think I found the truth out 
Tried to convince me I'm deluding
Never been so much clearer on a thought
This ain't delusion 
Maybe I'm just too geeked out 
And I don't know what I'm doing

Don't you take my mind away
Got these motherfuckers naggin 
Every single day
Screamin' at me inside my head 
And I don't know what to say
You think imma give in
No no, no way!

I wont, reciprocate
I'm full of hate 
Right now
I can't relate
Touche my fate
Stone cold in the river 
Face down, I'm a sinner
With a fucked up liver
Ain't no way that I'm a winner bitch

Throne Ov Rot

Throne Ov Rot ft. EXTINCT (Prod. NXM1NAL)

--------------[墓の中で私は嘘をつく]--------------
➢ 𝗔𝗹𝘁𝗲𝗿𝗻𝗮𝘁𝗶𝘃𝗲 𝗿𝗮𝗽𝗽𝗲𝗿 𝗳𝗿𝗼𝗺 𝗻𝗼𝗿𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿𝗻 𝗦𝘄𝗲𝗱𝗲𝗻.
➤ 𝗨𝘀𝗲 𝗜𝗻𝘀𝘁𝗮𝗴𝗿𝗮𝗺 𝗼𝗿 𝗘-𝗠𝗮𝗶𝗹 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝗶𝗻𝗾𝘂𝗲𝗿𝗶𝗲𝘀
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Don't Leave

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