"ashes" originally made 2-22-21

im over my fears

I'm gonna start this very simple and with absolute truth - im not a pedophile. I barely knew the person who called me out, I didn't even know their name, I had no interest in pictures, no interest in finding out who they were irl, the conversations were short and I forgot about them barely a year later, like most conversations I had at that time with strangers. the second time around they reached out, I didn't even remember they were the same person let alone how old they were. the biggest mistake I made was putting myself in a space and community where there was no age control or consideration of anybody's background on a daily basis. i was maybe a year right out of high school, I am not perfect.

I've spent almost every week of the last year attending behavioral therapy, pushing myself through some very dark spaces addressing my own past traumas. I refuse to spill every detail about my life and childhood, but the biggest thing I've learned is that I'm not a self hating monster who purposefully seeks out hurting children. I refuse to be that image people think I am, I've worked so fucking hard this last year to figure myself out and I have no regrets about where I am now mentally. I made mistakes, I addressed them, I'm very proud of how far I've come. I don't care if anyone believes me or forgives me or whatever! have your own mindset, thats perfectly great. I think being tossed out of the communities I had been involved in like trash was infinitely for the better, looking back at how fucking nasty and awful some of those people are. I'm glad I didn't hurt myself and to be honest, I never will and it only gets better from here.

I'm not a monster, I'm going to continue making what I love, and I'll keep working to be a better person despite the ashes in my past. I probably won't continue omnipony other than small tidbits, but for those that know my truth, I'm happy to have you along the journey

god bless✌️

ashes 3.1

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elden ring - malenia's theme (telemist's bootleg) [free dl]

never did anything for a proper 4 year anniversary so here's the closest thing to a thank you letter for yall.

im working on actual stuff i promise. and even if i wasnt yall wouldnt care which is good.

not sure if im taking this too seriously seeing it takes me nowhere or if im not taking myself seriously enough to kickstart this.

i hate my day job. i love yall.

porter robinson - cheerleader (telemist's dnb mix) [free dl]

Ninoocore 2 is finally done and I'm very happy with the results!!!
it should appear on other platforms soon if it didn't already

special thx to @sagesagesagesagesage for the prod on "Désert Comme Tracadie"

I might open a discord server so if I do I'll put a link in my bio :p

Désert Comme Tracadie w/ sage

Spiral out

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*FREEDL | Marc Acardipane & G.I.T.M vs The Moon - Draw The Pitch-Hiker Circle (Demolished Live Edit)

sample : symmetry - tercian archive 

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derealization

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