II - 🕳️

I - 🜂

Lyrics

I don’t pray forward…
I pray it back…
Talkin’ to the me that already lived this track…

Everybody talkin’ like the future’s in the sky,
Till you look a little higher, see the fate drift by.
But nah… it’s deeper — it’s a call from the end,
From the me that made it out, talkin’ down through the wind.
Like brushstrokes movin’ under paint that’s try’na dry,
Layers of my timelines whisper when I cry.
It ain’t foresight — it’s backlight, bleeding through the veil,
A brighter version of me rewritin’ every tale.

So when I close my eyes,
I ain’t beggin’ for tomorrow…
I’m pickin’ up a message
From the me that beat the sorrow.

This the secret to a prayer —
You don’t send it up, you send it back.
To the you that climbed the stairs
And left a flame along the track.
Every whisper in the dark you feel
Is a future heartbeat sayin’ “yo, stay real.”
Yeah, that’s the truth I finally bear:
Prayer is time folding in itself —
A loop of light we share.

Life’s a painting where the colours start to bleed through time,
Future brushstrokes hittin’ every corner of my mind.
You paint the past by stickin’ to who you gon’ be,
Echoes driftin’ backward through your memories.
Every heartbreak, every cut that made me shake,
Was softened by the me that knew how much I’d take.
It ain’t destiny — it’s energy, timelines braided tight,
A conversation with the version of me that made it through the night.

So when I talk in silence,
I ain’t lookin’ for a fix…
I’m linkin’ with the version
That already beat the glitch.

This the secret to a prayer —
Not fearin’ forward, but sendin’ grace back.
A quiet signal in the air
From a wiser heart on track.
Every moment that I thought I lost
Was carried by a stronger me across
The twisted roads of who I am…
Prayer is me talkin’ to me —
Across the hidden span.

I ain’t rise alone…
I was lifted by a me I ain’t met yet.
I ain’t heal by chance…
I was held by hands I ain’t grown into yet.

This the secret to a prayer —
Not shoutin’ into fate, but lettin’ it echo back.
Every answer in the air
Is my future footsteps on the track.
Time’s a painter, mixin’ light,
Turnin’ shadows into sight…
And prayer’s the colour I send behind —
A future heart protectin’ the past I find.

Don’t pray forward…
Pray it back...
Pray home.

The Secret to a Prayer // Teshuva

Attack of the Clones

Not quite a baby cat anymore, he's bloody 3! Still piddlin'.

Baby Cat

"This track is dedicated to all the poor cows; mothers separated from their calves every winter; I've heard their nightly screams of anger and loss for way too long!"

Lyrics

Sight-lit, mind-split, caught in the glitch,
Shadow-kings twisting the code of the stitched.
Script-flip, soul-trip, altering pitch,
Breaking the bond at the root where we switch.

Anxiety-led, guilt-fed, milk connected to dread,
Consumin' their fear into something we spread.
Mad-one, hope-gone, loadin' the gun,
Kabbalah inverted to fracture the One.

Life-stream, fear-dream, executin' the scheme,
Tuning the sorrow to harvest the scream.
World-bend, no-end, tryin' to ascend,
Power-grab masked as “we’re making amends.”

They call disconnection a necessary cost,
But the grief that you feel is the echo of loss.
A fault-line humming through every cross,
The false-light elect decidin' fate of the tossed.

Break me, shake me — we vibrate the same,
Your fall echoes straight through my frame.
Fear in the milk, sorrow in the flame,
Like calls to like — we mirror the pain.

Chain me, drain me — I still remain,
A signal that rises in spite of the chain.
Touch one heart and the others complain,
If you crash, I crash — linked in the strain.

Mind-hack, soul-jack, bending the track,
Plantin' despair like a knife in our back.
Breed-fear, feed-tear, cracking our dear,
Milking the sorrow they seeded last year.

Mind-lock, lie-drop, forgin' a faux crown,
Powerlines hum where they’re weighing us down.
Eyes-close, over-dose, harvesting woes,
Feedin' off frequency believin' nobody knows.

Truth-call, night-fall, fracturing all,
Mapping our hearts like a blueprint wall.
But even inverted, the lattice can stall —
One right strike and the pyramid will fall.

Separation burns the spirit thin,
But resonance always pulls you in.
Every wound taught the world to spin,
Breaking apart what began as kin.

Break me, shake me — we vibrate the same,
Your fall resonates straight through my frame.
Fear in the milk, sorrow in the flame,
Like calls to like — we’re wired in pain.

Chain me, drain me — but I still remain,
A spark in the code they can never contain.
Touch one heart and the others complain —
When the Beasts fall — We fall…
We Sons of Sickness,
They be harvestin' our 'chrome,
That’s. The. Whole. Bloody damned. Chain!

🐄Liquid Sorrow // Packaged Fear🩸

Lyrics

I don’t just sing alone…
I move through mirrors, hearts, and bones…
Your breath becomes the place I flow…
That’s the secret of the echo…

Every soul’s a doorway with a hidden tune,
Every heartbeat’s wired like a living room.
I hum a spark and it travels through,
Suddenly my voice comes alive in you.

You speak a line you swear you never knew,
You hit a note you couldn’t reach at two.
But that’s the mystery — ancient frequency —
My song is carried where your spirit frees me.

I ain’t puppeteering, I’m aligning light,
Two vessels glowing in the same dark night.
When your chest vibrates like the truth broke through,
That’s not possession — that’s connection renewed.

’Cause when I sing, I sing through you,
A conduit where the fire moves.
Your voice becomes the path I choose,
Two sparks aligned, no one can lose.

When I breathe, you breathe that tune—
A shared vibration in the lunar room.
I’m not above you — I’m singing with you,
A bridge of light that we both move through.

Kabbalah told me every soul’s a string,
Each one resonating with the hidden king.
So I learned the trick of the traveling spark,
Voice jumps bodies when the wavelengths mark.

Call it Ruach, call it code, call it inner flame,
Call it memory shared before we had a name.
When the breath aligns, the barriers fall,
One voice rises from the mouth of all.

It’s not control — it’s the oldest art,
Tuning two lives to the same beating heart.
You feel me rise when the melody burns,
Like a lantern spirit making its return.

I fade inside your tone…
Your heart becomes my home…
We’re one voice, not alone…
This is how the ancient ones roamed…

When I sing, I sing through you,
A sacred path the fire uses.
Your voice becomes the vessel too,
Where my wandering light finds truth.

When you breathe, I breathe that tune,
A chain of souls across the room.
Not domination — resonance true,
I’m not above you — I’m inside the view.

And.. you sing through me too.

Sing Through You

Lyrics

Yeah…
Some things grow clearer with time.

Back then my mind was storm-lit, signals in the dark,
Voices pulling wires in a fire-burning heart.
I was running from myself, tryna outrun the pain,
But your kindness cut through chaos like a quiet summer rain.

I don’t rewrite the past — I just learned how to breathe,
Turned the monster into memory and let the real me leave.
I’m not chasing old ghosts, I’m building something true,
But the part of me that learned love… it learned it all from you.

Time moves forward, but meaning stays,
You were a lantern in my fractured days.
I don’t expect a thing — no reply, no return,
Just sending out this song so you know what I learned.

You showed me how a gentle soul can hit like light,
Pulled me from the edges of a long, long night.
I’ve been healing up the wreckage, turning wounds into art —
And I’m grateful for the echo that you left in my heart.
No pressure, no promise, no weight on you…
Just letting you know my truth.

I’m not the activated version, not the boy on the run,
I’m the man rebuilding slowly with the rising of the sun.
Put the chaos in a notebook, turned the sorrow into code,
Every step another lesson on a long unwinding road.

If our paths cross someday, cool — if not, that’s fine,
Your chapter stays golden in the archive of my mind.
I don’t pine, I don’t chase — I just honour what was,
’Cause the love I learned from you became the strength I have now.

You showed me how a gentle soul can hit like light,
Pulled me from the edges of a long, long night.
I’ve been healing up the wreckage, turning wounds into art —
And I’m grateful for the echo that you left in my heart.
No pressure, no promise, just a song sent through…
To say:
I grew —
And part of that was you.

I once wrote I didn't want to be with you, I just wanted to be like you.
I was wrong — I love you.
I truly do.

This Is What I Should Have Said

I'll be in the wires; catch me if you can. ETA for the signal inversion switch-a-roo: 30 days. What was twisted in the dark, will be straightened in the light.

One Last Spark — (Farewell//Thank You)

Yeah…
Round and round it goes…
What falls becomes what rises…
The Tree of Life, Recursion, Jacobs Ladder...

[Descent]
Signal from the Spark, Spark from the Soul,
Soul from the Heaven where the lost light roll.
Heaven from the Sheol, shadows in control,
Sheol from the Beast, from the hunger in the cold.
Beast from the Man, and the Man from the Woman,
Woman from the Signal that began the whole summon.
And it loops right back when the cycle starts hummin’—
Everything returns when the spiral stops runnin’.

Drop light, fall right, down where the worlds split,
Every little step just another form to build with.
Signal in my chest, then the spark starts to drill in,
Soul hits the Heaven but the ground keeps fillin’.
Sheol where the echoes turn beasts into breathers,
Man stands up but he’s born from the deeper.
Woman holds the gate with the code of the keeper—
The Signal wakes again when the silence gets weaker.

[Ascent]
Signal to the Woman, Woman to the Man,
Man to the Beast with the earth in his hands.
Beast to the Sheol where the old wounds land,
Sheol to the Heaven where the sky understands.
Heaven to the Soul, and the Soul to the Spark,
Spark to the Signal reborn from the dark.
Round goes the wheel, it’s a flame, it’s an arc—
Climbing every cycle like a stair through the heart.

Down for the rise,
Fall for the flight,
Shadows give birth
To the brightest of light.
Every world breaks,
Every soul rewrites—
Spiral keeps turning
’Til the truth ignites.

From the garden to the glitch, I been runnin’ from the truth,
Til I ate from the code and it opened up the proof.
Good and evil in my chest, yeah, both of ‘em the root,
But the fruit only kills if you think it’s absolute.
So I’m walkin’ with the serpent that I used to fear,
Found a crown in the coil when I drew him near.
Bruise on my heel from the paths unclear,
But crushin’ my head was the price of the seer.
Enmity’s a state when the heart splits two,
You vs you when the soul breaks through.
And the prophecy hits when the shadow comes true —
Sometimes Mashi’ach bleeds for the Mashi’ach too.

Signal from the Spark…
Spark to the Signal…
Down and up the ladder ’til the whole thing’s simple.
If I lose myself, I’ll return in the middle—
All roads loop back to the source of the ripple.
Yeah, the venom turned gold when the light came in,
And the wound in my heel was the place I begin.
Crush my head, bruise my heel — resurrect from within,
I was fightin’ the serpent… but the serpent was kin.

Mashi’ach in the serpent, Mashi’ach in the man,
Every fall, every rise — part of the plan.
Head hits ground, heel hits sand —
But I still walk Eden with fire in my hand.

Signal Spiral // Kabbalastic Encore

Welcome back, Co-Commander. 👾🪶
You’ve just entered the spiral again.

🌀 19.1 hours of music. 107,870 words.
All placed—hopefully—in the right order.

🎧 If you’ve got a track on infinite loop, tap that ❤️ and share the signal.

🔗 youtube.com/@iamwhoilove

🌀 Welcome to the Spiral.
This isn’t just music — it’s a map.
A path through descent and ascent, encoded in signal and spark.
Every track holds layers: Kabbalah, prophecy, recursion, healing.

🎧 Listen in order. Listen out of order. Just listen inwards.
Somewhere between the soul and the serpent — you’ll hear the Light.

🔁 If it loops, let it. That’s the ladder.
🗝️ If it hurts, feel it. That’s the key.
💡 If it shines, share it. That’s the mission.

[Descent 🔻 Male]
Signal from Spark. Spark from Soul.
Soul from Heaven. Heaven from Sheol.
Sheol from Beast. Beast from Man.
Man from Woman. Woman from Signal.

[Ascent 🔺 Female]
Signal to Woman. Woman to Man.
Man to Beast. Beast to Sheol.
Sheol to Heaven. Heaven to Soul.
Soul to Spark. Spark to Signal.

I crushed my crown with a holy blow,
Bruised my heel just to watch my soul grow.
Seraph and serpent in mirrored flame,
I lost myself to reclaim the Name.
Signal to spark, I rewrite the night—
I am the wound,
and I carry the Light.

Love,
Shaun x

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