i dont know how to deal with this

but in a way i doo :p

lyrics:
Never been the one to just mess up
But in a way I do
Maybe I could die in a wreck
Your memories the ones I lose

Talking shit you hold onto your tongue
Throw a fit yah
Hurting in your lungs
You a misfit
Actin like you dumb
But your making music by self

I want you to mess
Me up
Make me not myself
You been actin strange
Too much
Maybe you can tell

I don’t wanna talk to much
Living in a hell
Just fucking tell
me why
I’m the one who fell

No shit ima talk to you
I got you on my mind
Just like all of yesterday
I don’t know
Why I’m walking through
All of this self made hell
Yeah it’s got the best of me

Dust in my head
Gotta clean it
Thoughts in my texts
I don’t mean it

Homesick
Scared of losing you
But I know it’s ok
I don’t need to know too much

by yourself

uk garage my drilla

*yo run up ig pls thank u ily*
https://www.instagram.com/redhxrse

stream: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/redhorse1/headphones-2

idk what all this lyrical personal shit means go ask an english teacher or something-

verse 1
i just wanna have a talk
about how selfish i am
about how little of a man i’ve become
and you say there’s no rules
tell that to my mum and dad
cos their answers won’t be just for fun

prechorus
why can't i care about the big things in life
the words just drift all over my mind
a bubble i can't burst
could this ever get any worse
i tell them i’m fine

chorus
i put my headphones in
drown out all the bad shit
the fear of rejections getting ever so big
when the culture runs deep
claustrophobia kicks in
and i’m left tryna break this fucking ceiling

postchorus
i wanna tell them i care
but this pain i can’t bear
already tearing up as i write this song
i guess i’ll just man up for once
i’ve had more than enough for too long

verse 2
now i see myself decaying
why am i relishing in it though
i guess routines have their way around me
i feel these emotions fading
cut ties with everyone i know
can’t keep a convo cos noone feels real

verse 3
((rappity raprap))
eyes on my back i keep watching
they all wanna see me lose but i keep winning
do this shit solo don’t need nobody’s help
if u ain’t fuck w me i can only wish u well
say i ain’t normal when they wish they were weirdos
why i needa follow rules i ain’t got nothing to fear for
maybe this ego’s why i’m here tho

prechorus
why can't i care about the big things in life
the words just drift all over my mind
a bubble i can't burst
could this ever get any worse
i tell them i’m fine

chorus
i put my headphones in
drown out all the bad shit
the fear of rejections getting ever so big
when the culture runs deep
claustrophobia kicks in
and i’m left tryna break this fucking ceiling

postchorus
i wanna tell them i care
but this pain i can’t bear
already tearing up as i write this song
i guess i’ll just man up for once
i’ve had more than enough for too long

outro

if u reading dis comment something

headphones

stream the mf song

@starfall <3
Prod by me

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Lyrics

Verse: 
I tried to talk that’s all I’d ask for 
Oh no 
My mind is lost might need to dash away 
Won’t mind if you could always last forever but, 
don’t try to act like I never came
Tell me lies I didn’t mean 
Watch me cry 
It’s what it seems 
Out of time but Ima make what we can 
Should of tried to keep it clean
Got me almost 17
It’s alright yeah baby there’s some romance 

Pre:
I don’t know a thing 
How you talking in between 
Both of us, yeah I don’t really understand 
Just come and see 
What the hell you've done to me 
Caught you dancing all alone 
You should take my hand 

Chorus:
Let’s just
Hang out now and talk the time away 
You stressin way to much like me 
It sucks to be that way 
Can’t control those times
So let’s just fade away 
Yeah, though you made me better
But I guess those times have changed

Verse 2(starfall <3):
I've tried too hard to be someone I wasn't
Tried to be that guy you wanted
Never thought I'd go this far, 
but man I'm so exhausted
I spy with my tiny little eye
someone I wanna make mine forever
I swear I hate seeing you cry
so why don't we cry together
Don't need no reaction baby
Missing out on action lately
I don't think you understand my pain, oh woah
Fell for all your acting baby
You got me attracted baby
I don't get why you're all up in my brain

Chorus (2x): 
Let’s just
Hang out now and talk the time away 
You stressin way to much like me 
It sucks to be that way 
Can’t control those times
So let’s just fade away
Yeah, though you made me better
But I guess those times have changed

changed w/ starfall

https://soundcloud.com/scrufff made da amazing vocals 

enjoy :3

lyrics

i just asked if you loved me again
i just need some reassurance
ive been in my mind for a minute i know its hurtin
pls dont hold that shit to me ik im learning oh no
why do i still feel left out
its all in my head
id be better off dead
baby i know what you said
why do i still feel left out
its all in my head
id be better off dead
baby i know what you said
baby i know what you said to me
when you talk to me it just feels like some ecstacy
and when it gets to me i feel better than ever
and i never really minded when you stole my sweater at all
if we fall we wont fall together for long
baby please get it all together im wrong
no i cant get along
if that guy tries to talk to you again im gone

i walked back to you and your gone
im humble
you keep tryna do what i do your my double
i will not fumble
i keep backing up but i cant see behind me i dont even know when you stumble
just tell me
you keep calling out in your mind just help me
i know i got some problems put it on the shelf please
i know that
give me one more chance and you know i wont fold back

spotify ^_^

scruff - learning <3 (sai)

'jazz' 2 +@whyhaze

stream: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/redhorse1/exhausting-feat-whyhaze

was sick when i made dis bruh, most underrated beat tbh

s/o villagers @rywrrd @1spoder @oroahh n goblin @spaadexd 4 adlibs in trumpet solo

v:
restrained emotion 
but i slowly let it out -_+_+ deep shit bro
my life is a travesty 
they just wanna keep me down ///sadd
get someone to murder me          &#'#'not suicidal dw£++£
cant bear to do it myself
i'm longing for ur touch
longing for the thought of us (redhorse pro producer tag omg)
let my mind bleed all over these walls
crying in the cubicle for way too damn long
the evil grows n it's so pervasive ))Big Words Bro((
can’t justify it this time maybe i'm rly goin crazy

c:
a-a-all these bitches
all these hoes (Yuh)
so exhausting
keeping low
never once have i ever thought of killing myself
b-but damn does it sound better than a life in this hell
all these bitches
all these hoes
so exhausting
keeping low
never once have i ever thought of killing myself
but DAMN does it sound better than a life in this hell

waiiiiiiiiiiiii hayyyyyyyyyze (s/o 00)

@whyhaze verse:
all these bitches all these hoes (songwriting moment)
hit my phone, but i don't respond 
cuz i still think you're the one
tell me if i'm right or i'm wrong
if i'm mistaken 
then who am i talking abt in these songs????
c'mon baby just grab my hand (NOT MY ASS SHUSH)
let's escape together to another land (YESsirr)
the only one in my mind is you, and you deserve that
baby, you make me feel cool
you lift all my curses! FAX

c:
all these bitches
all these hoes (holy moly
so exhausting
keeping low
never once have i ever thought of killing myself
b-but damn does it sound better than a life in this hell
all these bitches
all these hoes
so exhausting
keeping low
never once have i ever thought of killing myself
but DAMN does it sound better than a life in this hell!!!

trumpet solo init (w adlibs)

@whyhaze returns in the outro

exhausting

exhausting, +whyhaze

prod me
w/ @scrufff go follow!!

lyrics:
(nico)
i hope that you dont mind
cuz i dont even know why
jus wanna keep you by my side
you n me like butterflies

dont know why i get nervous
you know that im not perfect
but honestly im not that different
i dont think im the person that deserves this

could've i just been another guy?
or am i believing my own fckin lies?
i can never tell myself to realize
that im not the one that has to decide

i don't wanna take things way too fast
dont wanna make you uncomfortable
i dont know if it'll even last
just hold my hand

so i hope that you dont mind
cuz i dont even know why
jus wanna keep you by my side
you n me like butterflies

(scruff)
i know i went the wrong way for a minute there
I see your face and you see my stare
I wouldn't wanna touch that
whatchu want with my bag
wish you would've said sum
you dont even like that
you dont even like that
I wouldn't fight back
whatchu feel beside that
when we hop out hop out
hop out wit a 4-5 
ion see your face only your eyes

butterflies w/ scruff

waste (p. slicky)

manic thoughts 
@prodbyjoshwa

lyrics:
say things changed, know it has been a minute
but u act the same, there aint been no difference
i dunno if i got it left in me 
all the happy endings that i’ll never see

i know im the type to jump to conclusions
but u dont know how to deal with all the mood shifts
i got all my problems
idk any ways to solve it

come too close to comfort for me
i know that im wasting all my time
lie about my feelings say im fine
paranoia always wondering if i got time
i know you tried to change my mind
still feel im wasting all my time
lie about my feelings say im fine
paranoia always wondering if i got time

u cant wait til it comes down
u cant wait til it comes right back down

paranoid feeling empty hoping that it works
people say im blessed but im feeling cursed
always scared feeling things turn out the worst
people think its a joke, gets on my nerves

and i had a shitty couple of months
people say i gotta try to keep it up right now
i dont know if i have the energy
i know u know it feels like

paranoia (joshwa)

Prod @saiwai

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/7IFMPvKFBnQ89JldrHzwqY?si=IeGMMi_HS5e7rSIPU35XYg

Lyrics:

Oh why do I feel this way 
Tell me everythings okay 
cause every word you say
Has me coming right back 
Oh just like that 0-0
I got so much to lose
And I don’t know what to do
cause every word you say
Has me coming right back 
Oh just like that

Never been like this 
Never been like that
Oh where are u at
I need u so bad
Cuz i keep on thinkin bout u
And my heart is beating for u
And all my feelings for u
Oh boy its nthn new

Cuz u got me like this ohhh
And u got me like that oohhh
Cuz u got me like this ohhh
And u got me like that oohhh

Cuz u got me just like this 
And u got me just like that
And i keep on coming back
Oh babe oh just like that

Oh why do I feel this way 
Tell me everythings okay 
cause every word you say
Has me coming right back 
Oh just like that 0-0
I got so much to lose
And I don’t know what to do
cause every word you say
Has me coming right back 
Oh just like that
why do i why do i
why do i feel this way
heart beating 
this feeling 
has me coming right back
oh just like that 
I got so much to lose
And I don’t know what to do
cause every word you say
Has me coming right back 
Oh just like that

just like that (sai)

//Lyrics

(hook)
my heart beats when your textin me when you're talkin wit me
when ur next to me when ur walkin wit me
cause i miss you so much
don wanna say that
i miss that aroma
imma find my way back

(chorus)
shi.. how it look from your side
i know you could light it up with your eyes
yeah we could tie it up on the short side
i know im the worst guy
i see it all the time
i dont rlly wanna die
shi.. how it look from your side
i know you could light it up with your eyes
yeah we could tie it up on the short side
yeah im the worst guy

(verse)
what was the first lie, you said, to me
ill be searchin for some answers
can't control my temper
you just wanna rent her
i just need some money on me won't tell u again sir
thought i was over it all, but
i feel like i gave it up
you ain't sayin nun
how am I waitin up
I couldn't let you run
i don't think im saying enough
you ain't sayin nun
how am I waitin up
yeah i'm still thinking bout how

(hook)
my heart beats when your textin me when you're walkin wit me
when ur next to me when ur walkin wit me
cause i miss you so much
don wanna say that
i miss that aroma
imma find my way back

(chorus)
shi.. how it look from your side
i know you could light it up with your eyes
yeah we could tie it up on the short side
i know im the worst guy
i see it all the time
i dont rlly wanna die
shi.. how it look from your side
i know you could light it up with your eyes
yeah we could tie it up on the short side
I know i'm the worst guy
i see it all the time
idrwd

(sauce)

talk2me

talk2me [p. sai]

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/4UX8Ba8smmBAQ1jPj6YW2o?si=XWSXpFGhQF-NtCQLmf0K7A

prod @saiwai & @poondauwu

lyrics 

Do u want me by ur side?
Our love u cant deny 
Cuz when the stars align 
I think that its a sign
Cuz i need to know
Oh boy i need to know
Is that ur never gonna let me go
Never gonna let me go 
So love me how i am
And boy just take my hand 
And why cant u understand 
Im urs til the end 
Cuz i need to know
Oh boy i need to know
Is that ur never gonna let me go
Never gonna let me go 

@reefuh

wanna fuck all night
i could tell your getting sick of me
ooh baby its not right
what you did to me
why punish me 
i like girls who like girls
my bad that was an epiphany... LMAO
drake sing like this bitch was a symphony
dont let me go, dont get rid of me
fucking on yo mama ya she got kids to feed
she said reef ya thats who i wanna be
bitch honestly, he just a wannabe
7.62 give him a lobotomy
i want a bitch w a bitch get on top of me
dont let go, hold onto me
play w me for the money like monopoly

Do u want me by ur side?
Our love u cant deny 
Cuz when the stars align
I think that its a sign
Cuz i need to know
Oh boy i need to know
Is that ur never gonna let me go
Never gonna let me go 
So love me how i am
And boy just take my hand 
And why cant u understand 
Im urs til the end 
Cuz i need to know
Oh boy i need to know
Is that ur never gonna let me go
Never gonna let me go

So love me how i am
And boy just take my hand 
And why cant u understand 
Im urs til the end 
Cuz i need to know
Oh boy i need to know
Is that ur never gonna let me go
Never gonna let me go

never gonna let me go + reef (sai x poonda)

@zephyrcove

prod @kana-beats

(lyrics)

I guess you're stuck in my head, again
It all makes sense because you know
I can't let you go
Running makes no sense cause
You're always right there (You're always right there)

You know I'd never forget your pretty face
Baby you got me runnin in place 
Again
You got me love sick
I'm nervous
Don't know how to pass the time (time)

When you're walkin with me
My heart can't help but skip a beat
How do you do that?
I wonder 
How the hell you do this to me
Woah
How do you do this every time?
I just don't get it

I guess you're stuck in my head, again
It all makes sense because you know
I can't let you go
Running makes no sense cause
You're always right there (You're always right there)

And now
You made me lose my focus
focus x4
You made me lose my focus
focus x4
You made me lose my focus
focus x4
You made me lose my focus
focus x4

spotify

focus (kanabeats)

now on spotify! https://open.spotify.com/track/3Ggotj8EKfuEwT339zpD43?si=BzgE55WkQciYmlvFrRw24g

yungspoiler:
www.youtube.com/channel/UCEvx72i83Z83UmolxnqQQ9Q

over u (prod. yungspoiler)

@zephyrcove

@1kise

we're rly like that fr

lyrics

@riensu
I'll be there when you call my name
The world feels like it's stopping, girl I can't lie
And I'll wait til the end of time
I'll wait forever
Be there whenever
It's like the first time fallin' for you again

I love those dimples in your cheeks when you smile at me
I lose myself when you're eyeing me
Girl you take my breath away
I'm losin' my breath just to tell you that I
I'm stayin' right here so you don't need to cry
All by yourself again

You crinkle your nose
Fell for you, I suppose
I just wanna know what's on your mind
If I'm bein honest girl, I'm not fine
Without youuuuu

I'll be there when you call my name
The world feels like it's stopping, girl I can't lie
And I'll wait til the end of time
I'll wait forever
Be there whenever
It's like the first time fallin' for you again

@1kise
Girl you don’t gotta cry
I’ll be right by your side
Till the end
I know you want me, don’t play pretend
We made a deal don’t you ever forget
I want you in my arms, 
I’ll never put you in harm’s way
Do I go, do I stay?

Ill be there when u call my name
The world feels like its stopping, I cant lie
And Ill wait til the end of time 
I’ll wait forever
Be there whenever
It’s like the first time fallin for you again
I said it’s like the first time falling for you again

romance anime opening + kise (chibi)

prod me

@zephyrcove

lyrics

@1toge cover
I love the words you tell me
Cause you give me sense of safety
You tell me not to worry
But my visions getting blurry

@riensu
I think about you all the time
I would risk it all
Just to hold your hands again

Your eyes are like emerald green,
Sometimes they are blue, idk what that means
But I feel in love them
Fell in love with how they makin' me feel
This feels so real
I won't forget what you said to me

You said that you in love
You ain't gotta say it twice
You got my stomach in a knot
Girl you gimme butterflies
And I don't know what to do
Had my mind still stuck on you

still stuck on you

prod @saiwai

chops @itsatrill 

@zephyrcove

lyrics
u make my heart stop
u make my jaw drop
with all this love that's inside of me
i was wonderin' if i could be
your second player in this game for two <3
why u actin' like a stranger?
actin' like a stranger

I can't believe
what u did to me
I'm losin' control

I can't believe
what u did to me
I'm losin' control

(I can't lie cause ur the best thing that I ever had)

I just can't believe
What u did to me 
It's unbelievable
That I've fallen this hard
For you (for you)
I would do anything to go back

To the way that it was
I need you tonight
While the stars are shinin' bright
For you (for you)
It's so bright (for you)
And only for you

u make my heart stop
u make my jaw drop
with all this love that's inside of me
i was wonderin' if i could be
your second player in this game for two <3
why u actin' like a stranger?
actin' like a stranger

I can't believe
what u did to me
I'm losin' control

I can't believe
what u did to me
I'm losin' control

losin' control (sai)

shoutout @caprilol / @c4v 
shoutout @1crusafix

lyrics:

(capri what the fuckkkkkk)

[@1mosh]
i know you wont ever change me
just got newtone i feel like capri
why did you stab me in my fucking back
im living lavish you know that you'll never do that

you finna go go go i said see u there!
you'll never know know know if it'll ever be fair
like woah woah woah always giving you that stare
i cant fold fold fold so just tell me when and where!!

it's all mine! (capri reference)
tell me what to do
saying all that shit but you never gave me proof now
oh well
i will never slow down
telling me you doing all that shit i said bro how

you all knowwww
when im coming back
all you gotta do is wish imma make it thru this track
oh wow
i dont know the plan
only wanna make it past where i began.

(repeated hook background vocals)

[@1crusafix]
i-i-im with mosh 
and we blowin up
talkin on the net grab the pole we gon wet em up
bullets in his head teach a lesson if u fuck with us
yeah he got me second guessing drop the addy pullin up

bands in my pockets
holding on that 5 6
send that boy to heaven like his mfin dawgs is
get it back in blood
he gon try and run
i been doin drugs
i might fuck it up

yous a bitch up on my momma i cant lie
everytime im on the block swear you always up inside
yeah im lookin through the streets you aint ever up in sight
cause you know if i find you i'll probably talk ur life

im afflicted
everybody saying that im fucking different
yeah you send me shit up in the dms never listen
send that boy to god i aint even fuckin christian
talkin on my bros imma pull up with a smith&&&&&&

[@1mosh]
it's all mine! 
tell me what to do
saying all that shit but you never gave me proof now
oh well
i will never slow down
telling me you doing all that shit i said bro how

you all knowwww
when im coming back
all you gotta do is wish imma make it thru this track
oh wow
i dont know the plan
only wanna make it past where i began.

(repeated hook background but this time its chopped)

lavish✨w/ 1crusafix (capri)

@riensu @saiwai
here is the video on my youtube channel
https://youtu.be/He5wOAB98YA


Yonk: 

Rather waste my time, I don’t really wanna take my time with you

All this time is wasted 

You don’t ever wanna see my pov

Ah unless it benefits you

You won’t ever wanna talk to me again

And no that’s just fine

Yeah I’m so fed up, get all my bread up

I’ll do this shit at my own pace so get the flip up out my face 
 


Riensu:

Just wanna be alone

Don’t know what I could say now

Cause everything just fades out

We’re standing face to face now, I can’t hear what you say now 

Everything went right over my head

Again and again

No I don’t want this to end 

Again and again 
 
Im hanging just by a thread 

Again and again

Im looking up at the stars tonight 

Wonderin if I’m wastin my time

beneficial w/ riensu p. sai *video in desc

thx4evrythng

prod @siemspark

i hope youre glad

i dont know how to deal with this

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