idk how much longer i can keep up music but thank u sm for the support recently and always it'll never not make me smile, im forever grateful

im struggling please help (444jet)

sorry for being emo i have turn up music soon

im going crazy and its not in a good way
im going crazy and its not in a good way
i just wanna make my music wanna get paid
im going crazy and its not in a good way
stay at my own pace dont do it the fast way
i wanna fly overseas and see my brothers
in my bed for 3 days stuck in the covers
i've got some uni friends and i've got some gun toters
she heard my music and she said that its fire
i've been fucking up i dont know where im going
i aint done shit theres nothing to admire
im losing all my threads i think i need some sewing
keep going i gotta keep going, keep going but i dont have the power
i cant sleep i cant sleep just for an hour
i wanna be on top up in a tower
turn me into ashes into powder
you would've though that i'd blossom like a flower
i cant control my vices so i cower
i wanna die when i look into the mirror

i'm honestly so lost and music doesnt help anymore (444jet)

up dat life

Nettspend - Up Dat Life (No Tag)

jaydes - rose (original)

s/o Florence And The Machine

(Still don’t know)
(Still fucking close)
The light
This could be over by tonight

(This new life)
It could be over if you ever say so
Blacked out early woke up in the same clothes X_x
(Its you alone)
You ask me why I do I don't know
I'll be leaving early just to see you get home
Always trying but I've never been close
I felt my heart dropping you weren't meant to see those
I know it killed you it went fine for me though
Number (n)ine size two I barely fit in these clothes
I barely fit in these clothes
On the red line BOOMING all the things I see go
Neglecting what I need most
And been known
It just went right through me in the black I see ghosts
Covered up in DRKSHDWs on my back like a cloak
And it fell right to me, all the things I need most
Tryna find a way out that I’ve already been shown
Tryna find a way out that I’ve already been shown
Already been shown
Neglecting what I need most
And been known
Covered up in DRKSHDWs on my back like a cloak
Blacked out early woke up in the same clothes
Had to hide away the damage couldn’t let it be known
Background murders, I’m the last to see home
Always trying but I've never been close
I felt my heart dropping you weren't meant to see those
I know it killed you it went fine for me though
Number (n)ine size two I barely fit in these clothes
I barely fit in these clothes
On the red line BOOMING all the things I see go
Neglecting what I need most
And been known

this new life prod me

acapella from Glokk40spaz-Backdoor
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TikTok @buijy

Glokk40spazz x fall in drugs(prod.bloomcr4zy)remix [buijy]

Acapella from Glokk40spaz- yung nigga shit
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Glokk40spaz x Duvet [buijy]

glokk40spaz yung nigga shit #hoodtrap remix

at home

photograph

Lyrics:
You're happier with anyone but me
Thats how you make it seem
I wish you wanted me 
dont tell me that its true
Cus i cant convince you to stay 
and i cant convince you to want me
so maybe ill push you away
its oh so lonely in the city at this time of year
why cant you take the next flight
the next flight over here

and im just a note in your song 
move me around as you please
and im just some words on your page
that everyone hears but they dont see
i let you play me so easily
i though that you felt the same
youre trying to let me down easy
but i cant get you out of my head

feel the same 

feel the same



push you away

crshed up dirty 30s in a straw 
i dont wana wake up

straws

never let me go prod me

You wanna call me but what is there to talk about?
I can feel it in the air when I walk around
You don’t like how I’m doing and it’s awkward now
Imma kill the whole game get it slaughtered down
You think I’m stressed out by you fucking corpses now?
By the end of the summer, imma walk this round
This was simple I didn’t have to thought about, I mean think about
I know you hear me now
And you can’t feel me now
Give a hundred thousand years you’d never figure this out
Yh you used to never hear, I know you’re listening now
I’ve been told you this for years I hope you’re listening now
So you can figure it out

You wanna call me but what is there to talk about?
I can feel it in the air when I walk around
You don’t like how I’m doing and it’s awkward now
Imma kill the whole game get it slaughtered down
You think I’m stressed out by you fucking corpses now?

me vs me prod me

in between the trees - @halfadedd

made me think of easter pink. suzy sheer type beat. See how it was made here: https://vm.tiktok.com/ZNd74r519/

wanna go

Spent a summer with you in a day
Gotta go a flight to LAX at 8am
Gotta go but I won’t get away
I don’t know how I can say it

You make me feel like someone else just say my name
Before I met you girl, I thought that I would never change
You showed me bout myself I could just be okay
Just be okay
I gotta leave LA

Cus I hate it,
Come and save me,
In expensive stores the clerks be fucking racist
I don’t wanna blink when I’m with you, don’t wanna waste it
I don’t want to talk about nothing but your day
California Wasted

Spent a summer with you in a day
Gotta go a flight to LAX at 8am
Gotta go but I won’t get away
I don’t know how I can say it

You make me feel like someone else just say my name
Before I met you girl, I thought that I would never change
You showed me bout myself I could just be okay
Just be okay
I gotta leave LA

LAX prod me

teeth - @halfadedd

mr insecure (interlude) - @halfadedd

it’s crazy to me 
how you look at me 
i see passion 
i see lust 
i see love and everything 

call me on my phone double 7 
baby when we die i hope we make it up to heaven 

its another day and i want you here 
you know i love you let me touch you baby you’re my dear 

all of this for you who you gonna chose 
tears in your eyes cause you know that i’m for you 

take me back to may decembers cold and i can’t stay  
you’re going soon and that’s okay the seasons change just stay the same 

see how we’re tethered this shield building pressure 

see how we’re tethered this shield building pressure 

Sunlight on her skin, isolation makes me thin 
i’m so sick i can’t pretend 
cracks and leaks inside my skin 
cracks and leaks inside my soul 
baby that’s why i ain’t whole 
oh, no

spark that shit for me, maybe i won’t feel no pain 
vivid dreams all in my sleep, maybe i should fade away 
away
today

jj

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