Cover art by Omar Din
I told Omar one day, maybe around 3 years ago, "if you draw something for me, I'll write music for it." And so he did, and he provided an earlier version of the current cover art. I archived it immediately, cause an idea did not come to me immediately, but 2 years later, I had written parts of where you been and white lighter, and I felt there might be something there. I reached back into my archives to pull this piece out, and Omar updated it to match the music better. I held these 2 songs for 2 years and originally planned to release them alone together. I wrote sincere as a throwaway, and then later wrote the interlude in a fit of sheer sadness. they sounded good together and captured what I wanted so we ended up with a 4 song ep

Is it all falling apart, or am I?

aphercotropism -(obsolete, biology) The movement or growth of an organism away from an obstruction

Aphercotropism

my room is a mess

Of Me & For You

Pre-Chorus:
Where you been? Where you been at?
I been at home, brewin tea to relax
My patience is thin, It wears on me when 
I been looking out for you babe
Come home if you need a hand

Chorus:
The water is hot, I got bags for days
Emotional ones that I stashed away
Who could you be? A soul undefined
I got space for you here in this heart of mine
I got peace to share, pieces to wear
Because I know you gon look sublime
Smile back at me with tears in your eyes
With words on your lips, tell me you’re mine

Pre-Verse:
Where you been, Where you been at? 
I been at home, blowin trees to relax
No I won’t pick up the phone
Unless its you that I call
Cause I been waiting for you call for a minute girl
I wonder where you been 

Verse:
You bring order to my chaos
You bring light to my days
But I've never seen your face
and I've never heard your name
Can you whispered mine sweetly, softly kiss my pain away
While I find the words to say, how I want you to stay
Have I ever met you yet? I really couldn’t know
But I been waiting patiently for certain sign to show
I been working diligently, I been really tryna grow
Tryna shed the pain, the baggage, that drained the love I had on hold

But it's you I’d like to give the world, that’s something I have just decided
The simple things I’ve earned
Like dreams and peace, my faith ignited
To share a life I’m sure, it's not easy but we’ll choose to fight it
The pressure’s on you girl, lean on me if you feel contrite &
I got extra love to give, I been holding on I’m pious
This loneliness is bliss, but only since my heart is tired
I wonder if I missed, my chance with you since I been hiding
It's not easy just to live, I wonder if you smile in the silence

Chorus:
Where you been? Where you been at?
I been at home, brewin tea to relax
My patience is thin, It wears on me when 
I been looking out for you girl
Come home if you need a hand

Where you been, Where you been at? 
I been at home, blowin trees to relax
No I won’t pick up the phone
Unless its you that I call
Cause I been waiting for you call for a minute girl
I wonder where you been

Outro:
Just light a fire in my chest
I just laid my heart rest
A peaceful slumber til the end of time

I leave it buried leagues below
Maybe then our minutes will slow
The leaves are turning colors, so divine

The seasons cycle, so does life
Breezes blow me right on by
The silence beckons me to wave goodbye

The clock ticks and the watch slips but
Who’s really keeping time
The seconds weeping as they die 
No longer subject to these lies
The scene behind these bloodshot eyes
My visions catch me by surprise
A little movie for the night
Maybe shrooms will get me right
A decent high and I take flight
You didn’t choose me that’s alright
I keep on chugging forward blind
I don’t need to see the sights
I feel them deeply, that’s my plight
A year or two I spent alive 
Didn’t feel that way sometimes 

My skin I wear it like a suit
My thoughts are manufactured too
The genius will keep shining through 
I'm breaking out my damn cocoon

where you been

Intro: 
Its like i been dreaming
I’ll wake up in time 
Sleeping on me
I been down since 09
Born with some talent 
But I knew I'd barely manage
bust my ass to plan it
But the dreams are real
Fly around the planet
Sip on sweeter things
As I understand it 
Live by lesser means
But have greater standards
Take on new beginnings
Reaping all the benefit
Of a life that's been lived and a hearts that's been worn 
By promises kept, by those who had sworn 
I'm keeping a rep, a bad one I'm sure
The damage is dealt, the demons have scored
I picked up and left til I’m right I’ll be gone
I'll light up a j and I'm lost I'm exploring

I’m lost I’m exploring

I look down at the flame that I've kept
I watched as it swayed, it crept, and it lept
It lights up the dark in the palm of my hand 
White lighters are heavier for some it depends 
What's burning in there
It's heavy
It stinks
The weight of the hatred that sits on your skin
The pain of the wounds on your soul from your kin
The hurt of your thoughts as you bathe in your sin

Verse 1: 
I got this cold, blank stare on my face, 
Will I ever make it through the day?
Soley subsisting on faith
I been day dreaming of peace
Night dreaming of death
I been waking up only
to lay down again 
I been walking more slowly
to take it all in 
Breathing more deeply
Embracing my friends
Empty hours pass, cloak of darkness exhumed
white lighter burning only on fumes
Fighting fires just to see it all through
I'll be blooming like the roses in June
Finding time but I been losing it too

Chorus:
Lighter heavy in my pocket 
Goin crazy writing sonnets
What's meaning of this problem
I been honest I been on it
With this lighter in my pocket
Burning holes through my pocket 
With this lighter in my pocket
White lighter in my pocket
Burn a hole through my pocket 

Verse 2:
Time when she flies
Leaves the living a ghost
At the same time 
She's more forgiving than most 
She'll forget you
She would leave you
Leave you stood like a post
You can live
You can die
But you'll never get close
If you're not looking forward
Then I'm sure you'll get lost 
Keep your eye on the prize
Turn the least to the most 
I survived never thrived 
At the time I did coast 
Sometimes you can fly but
Then others you float

But I been feeling well, I done grown up a lot 
I would share my wealth but it's deep in my heart 
I been feeling swell like I almost forgot 
The weight of the lighter in my pocket that I dropped
The flame flickers on everytime I light up 
Smoke on that pack made of pain as I run
Praying that the reign puts an end to my fun 
Maybe then I'll move on and wake up to the sun

Outro:
I thought if I could figure out how I wanted to die, I could figure out how I wanted to live.
Aren't they the same? 
Are they not the same? 
When you greet me at the doorstep 
I am invited in with a kiss and a smile by the angel who ushers me into heaven
She sleeps in your bed
Breathes with your lungs
Speaks to me with your tongue 
Because it's you 
It's always been you, even before we met
Even before my cells coalesced, 
Even before breath filled my chest
A moment with you was worth a thousand years alone but I didn't know until I said goodbye
I value solitude but each passing wrinkle you earn through the years is the only way I can measure time 
My voice is timeless but my heart is not 
The feelings I harbor make me great, but those are yours to keep and all those ears hearing me right now are blessed beyond belief 
I want to spend my life etching laugh lines into your soul
I want to spend my life watching yours unfold 
I want to build your dreams because I left mine where I sleep
I don't do that anymore because reality reigns supreme 
Keep me grounded, keep me conscious, of this blessing that I keep
She stands here by my side, she offers shade in this heat
Just your presence is enough for me to feel complete

white lighter

Prod by Ian & Rkstar p.
Engineered by Rkstar p.

girl move it slow when you come round here
we takin our time, leave it in first gear
we keeping it true, make it feel sincere
whisper all your lies with your lips in my ear
swear I know you from a past life dear
recognize the soul in your hips, bring them near
back to the wall with your gaze as you stare
cold to the bone as your eyes pin me here

sincere

if my  life was a game, this would be the music

Anxious (Feat. TooFknLoud)

will you be there? (Feat. Blase)

July 1 In Boston 108bpm

These Days

These Days w/ JP Prentiss

is it all falling apart, or am I?

Tragedy or Comedy

take care, I love you

I've been feeling anxious
cause of all those chances I've been taking 
I been aching
why've I been forsaken

Loosen your grasp, I'm taking it back
The life that I have, I'm living it fast
I'm tired of you, of struggling and
It's the end of the road and I'm burying that

I've been feeling stranded
All those seeds I've planted
they will never grow
taking me for granted
my mind is running rampant

Please let me go

Stranded

You've been so far gone for a while now
I'm strong but my light's out
you disappeared somewhere along the way
Told me you'd be back by sundown
forgot me while you run around
If freedom's calling you can't stay away
Am I a cage to you
I pray it's not true
I love you so I watched you walk away
hope you spare a glance or two
that you'd see me prove
the way I yearn to feel your visage here

Oh will you spare me a second of your time
as lovers I thought we were sublime
while you got sand in your toes I'm sitting here
wondering if you'll come back this year
I just need a message
I just need a word
Remember what you said, I swear I heard
Tell me that my fears are unfounded
that I'm wrong
or tell me that you're Long Gone

Long Gone

broken mirror

I present to you the Karisma Mixtape!
Mixing this was a ton of fun! 
Shout out to Jai matt & Srimix for the previews at the end

As I promised, 
Here's the ticket link:
https://kupferbergcenter.showare.com/eventperformances.asp?evt=231

and you can find more information at: 
Karismanyc.com

KARISMA MIXTAPE ft. Jai Matt, Dr. Srimix & More

Was feelin' down about life. Looked back, and its been a difficult year for me, emotionally. Everything else couldn't be better. Love is hard. 

I took the rose pic in Prague.

Chopped n' Screwed

Joji vocals from slow dancing in the dark

My boi NineOwl came thru with this sample, so we sat down and laid down some drums, and fk'd up some vocals and some guitar. ended up with some good vibez. 

his page here: https://soundcloud.com/nineowl


enjoy

I don't wanna slow dance w/ NineOwl

Josh - E - Naach

February 16, 2019

It was a pleasure making this mixtape for ya'll. See you at the comp! Enjoy

Peep the last song, its a full remix by TooFknLoud x Sam Meyer to have a complete and full release on its own in February ;)
Moorni (Panjabi MC) x Pa Q Sude (Purowan&m83)
Taki Taki - TooFknLoud's MoombahDhol Edit
Birthday Cake (Mickey Singh Remix) - TooFknLoud's PARTY edit
MIA - TooFknLoud's MoombahDhol Edit
Tran Taali Mashup (original production)
	Mare Aangde Amba Aaya x fagan formato aayo
Divido (backing - original production)
Naina x Shut it down (stucca remix)
Bumbaro x Movie (Habstrakt)
Rajudi No Melo Lagyo - Get it all (GTA x Wax Motif)
Chammunda - Pearl (Cashmere Cat)
Mane Ambe - Pull up
Mane Ambe - Work Hard Play Hard (David Guetta)
Drew Barrymore - TooFknLoud x SamMeyers REMIX

Josh E Naach Mixtape

All original everything!

Big shoutout to DDN Sound for hosting our Track!

Vocals & Lyrics:
Ian Persaud (@toofknloud)
Divya Mary James (@dmjavaz)
Colin Kopram (@VAVUVAV)

Guitar Composition: 
Tahsin Chowdhury (@tahsinthoughts)

Production, Mix, Master:
Ian Persaud (@toofknloud)

Let's Go To Mars ft. TahsinThoughts, dmjavaz, & VAVU

05 Still Fighting (feat. RKStar P & VAVU)

04 I Loved You Before I Loved Me

03 Basking In The Moment // Find Me On An Island

02 Not Today

01 Sorry I Have To Go

MaMa - Killkid & M3B (TooFknLoud Edit)

I started with acapellas from dope songs that I found online, and I built beats around them starting from scratch, experimenting the whole way.

LOOK AT ME NOW

THE DON

SYSTEM OVERLOAD

TERRIFIED

Tfloudmusic@gmail.com
I write music for me and for u

ian p

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