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This song is about being scared. I hope you can resonate with it

Art: https://x.com/naokowatanabe_

Lyrics

I won't lie, I'm kinda scared
Scared you won't remember me
I wish you were here just to calm me down
But you are nowhere around 
 
If only there's someone, who would
Tell me it's okay, to
Cry 

Please tell me its okay
To be so afraid
Afraid of that what haunts my mind
Colors that fade in two

Stuck within in my head 
Just getting up out of bed
Seems like the worst thing in the world
Why can't I just get up?

I lay here paralyzed while 
The rain falls from my eyes

I won't lie, I'm kinda scared
Scared of what you'll think of me
It's been kinda rough and I wish it would stop
But deep down I know that it won't 

 I won't lie, I'm kinda scared
Scared that I won't get listened to
Its always the same, am I the one the blame?
Cuz thats how it truly feels

So I'll sit here by myself, wondering
Where it all went wrong with,
Me

Overwhelming thoughts,
I wish I could connect the dots.
Because nothing makes sense and I dont know why,
Why do I have to be?

Id tell you how I'd feel
But the voices are too real
Destined to wander this world alone
Not a voice to call my own

No hand to hold on as I'm
Barely hanging on

I won't lie, I'm kinda scared
Scared that I'm so unprepared  
I dont know what I'm doing but I gotta keep moving, without 
Knowing if anything is right

I won't lie, I'm kinda scared
I really wish I wouldn't be, but I
Overfeel and overthink and I dont know how to stop it
I wont lie I'm kinda scared

So I sit here with no one asking
"Is it truly me?"

Scared (Live Ukulele Take)

Wouldnt it be cool if on the instrumental parts of the song, there was like a solo? Anyway, this song about feeling like a ghost wherever you go, despite everything you say or do

Art: https://x.com/naokowatanabe_

Lyrics:

anywhere i go, no matter what i say     
always be alone, just another day
walking through the snow, i wish i'd feel the cold
i'm just a ghost at most

every step that i follow, feels empty and hollow
no place to call my own
haunting this space that i try to erase but
it's all that i've ever known

i cant find my place and it isn't a fase
trust me, i've been here before
in the night i'm lost, no stars to see up high
sheeps inside my head but i think i might just cry

i'll reap what i have sown	
i wish you wouldve shown me-

anywhere i go, no matter what i do
this feeling I'll never get through
through to you i wish, for attention i would fish
but you never saw the bait
anywhere i go, no matter what i say
i'll always be alone, there is no other way
walking through the snow, i dont feel any cold like a
ghost at most, the stories left untold

i fear that I'm invisible, it feels so unforgivable
just a cynical, atypical mess
nowhere with a broken stare, no one shares a glare or care
beyond disrepair in despair but

if it wasnt for me
i dont know where i would be, i dont know where i would be and
i want you to see
see what i'd achieve, see what i'd achieve but

i'll reap what i have sown
i wish i couldve shown you-

anywhere i go, no matter what i do
this feeling I'll never get through
through to you i wish, for attention i would fish
but you never saw the bait
anywhere i go, no matter what i say
i'll always be alone, there is no other way
walking through the snow, i dont feel any cold like a
ghost at most, the stories left untold

anywhere i go, no matter what i say
will i always be alone like another day?
walking through the rain, i wish i'd feel the pain
but i think that i'm just a ghost for most

Ghost (One Take Recording)

This song is about fake friends

Art: https://x.com/naokowatanabe_

Lyrics:

I thought that you'd improvise some random lies, designed to be blind
When you look at me, I realize it messes with my mind, mind, mind
It messes with my mind

I can read your face, find my way out of this maze of lies 
Can you tell the truth or should I call in the crime?
Saying sorry do not worry, everything will be fine
I dont think it will 'cause it has been like this for a while

You're such a liar, I dont know why you would set everything on fire
I see it in your eyes, all they do is tell me la-la-la-lies
Everytime that you say, that 'you wanna change' but you stay the same
Please tell me la-la-la-lies, or tell me why
Tell me why

You thought that I'd would never ever see the signs of your lies
If I'm honest, when I hear your voice it doesn't make me smile, smile, smile
It doesn't make me smile

I'm the one who should say sorry, writing stories, you're on your knees
Black hole of denial, every lie recycled, you know damn well
Really I'm aware, I wont be there, 'cause this feels like hell
Share your secrets, do it fair and square, thats my dare

You're such a liar, I dont know why you would set everything on fire
I see it in your eyes, all they do is tell me la-la-la-lies
Everytime that you say, that 'you wanna change' but you stay the same
Please tell me la-la-la-lies, or tell me

You're such a liar,  everything's on fire
I see it in your eyes, tell me why can't I
Know the secrets from your silence? You always hide and
Tell me that I should believe you, it's never the truth

LIES (One Take Recording)

I wrote this song because I felt alone and wanted someone to say these things to me i guess lol

Art: https://x.com/naokowatanabe_

Lyrics:

I'd give you all my heart, you can give me half of yours
From the start we'll make it I am sure
Everything is alright, trust me its gonna be okay
'Cause tonight we are side by side
I'll be your twinflame, I'll be your twinflame

You caught me when I was drifting and you taught me how to sail
So I won't drown in any storms that I'll see
We can cross the seas beyond every night into brighter days
With your guiding light, we will find our way

Though I'm not here, I'm always near
Whispering softly and hoping that you'll hear
My voice everytime that you can't sleep at night
You're not alone, 'cause I am by your side

I'd give you all my heart, you can give me half of yours
From the start we'll make it I ensure
Everything is alright, trust me its gonna be okay
'Cause tonight we are side by side
I'll be your twinflame, I'll be your twinflame

You reached into my shadows when I couldn't find my way
Showed me how to rise and fight every day
No matter whats on your mind, I promise you that we'll be fine
Together there's nothing that we can't face

Though I'm not here, I'm always near
Whispering softly and hoping that you'll hear
My voice everytime that you can't sleep at night
You're not alone, 'cause I am by your side

I'd give you all my heart, you can give me half of yours
From the start we'll make it I ensure
Everything is alright, trust me its gonna be okay
'Cause tonight we are side by side
I'll be your twinflame, I'll be your twinflame

So here I am in spirit so bright
Loving you through every day and night
Though you feel lost and all so alone
Remember my dear, you're never on your own

twinflame (One Take Recording)

The World Ends With Me



Lyrics: 
But God does it feel so good
To stand in front this bridge yet again
I didn't think I'd be here so soon
It's like it was yesterday's afternoon

Should I grab the mask out of the box? Its been so long 
Since I wore it and just pretended to be strong. If what I'm
Feeling is so wrong, why does it feel like I belong. Would it be
Better if I were just gone

Voices scream I can't help but believe 
That is better for me to jump in the deep where no one sees 
See the person who I really seem to be
Not sure if I'll ever be found

I don't know how much longer I can hold on
I don't know how much longer I can stay 
Take that leap, you'll be free, i promise you, just listen to me
The thought that Always sneaks up

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