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Wonder if I’m fucking up 
Back in this hole again 
K hole I’ve been diving in 
Drugged up I don’t need no friends 
Fucked up I don’t need no benz
Crashed the whip wonder where I went 
Fuck 
Fucked up in the road again 
Find me when the summer ends 

So if I fuck it up then 
And I’m just being dramatic 
I know it’s over I’ve been looking past it
I cover up these wounds with plastic 
Seal it shut I can’t have it 
Happiness, I run right past it 
I can’t hack it 
I’ve been feeling like I’m out of practice 
And i’ve been looking down again 
I can’t move past it
All these dramatics, I’m overdramatic 
Over and over I go into panics 
I’m losing myself
I don’t know how I will manage
To find my way back 
I’m lost and damaged 
I’m cold and wet
I’m like a dog on its last leg
Cat last life 
And what if I’m dead and this shits all just a past life 
I’m never the sad type 
I guess I’m the sad type
I ain’t trying to stay clean
I’m on my last life
I know I’ve always been mean
I ain’t the nice type
And I know it’s over
And I know what life‘s like I’ve seen enough
And I know it’s rough
It’s rough for you and me too
I don’t feel the same 
I’m not sure what I’m doing this time
I feel like I’m losing my mind
Going manic and it’s all the same
I know I am to blame
I’ll never change swear I’ll never change
And even when I try to, I stay the same
Even when I try to, I stay the same
And I think I’m to blame

theatrics (p. hollowprpl)

Stop changin, what love is
I feel it, these pieces
Missing some pieces
Missing
Stop changin, what love is
I feel it, I’m missin
These pieces
can’t tell me what I needed
can’t tell me If you feel it
What I’m feeling, is it a secret?
My love then, I’ll keep it secret
I don’t really mean it
I swear, I’ll never mean it
I can’t keep a secret
I can’t keep a secret

My love, gave it up for
Some drugs, what a fucking bore
I swore, I swore I loved you more
I swore I loved you more, I thought I loved you more

Gave it up for her
I feel like I’m losing myself
And I’m an addict all again
I don’t feel the same even with my friends
I don’t feel the same watch me do it all again
Fall in love again
And then lose some friends
Make a bad mistake and do it all again
History repeats every single fucking time
I wonder why I’m losing my mind this time

Stop changin, what love is
I feel it, I’m missin
These pieces
can’t tell me what I needed
can’t tell me If you feel it
What I’m feeling, is it a secret?
My love then, I’ll keep it secret
I don’t really mean it
I swear, I’ll never mean it

I’ll skip 1000 steps just to be with you
Too early to tell if this loves true
Too early to tell if this loves true
But I know I believe in you
Yeah, I know I believe in you
Yeah, I know I believe in you
Yeah, I know I know I know
I just hope it’s true
Just hope it’s true
Hope it’s true,believe in you
Hope it’s true, that’s what I do
Hope it’s true, believe in you
I just wanna see it through

secret (prod. babieyummo x cl6udy)

doors W/MisFiiT (prod. web)

another unmixed mess incoming<3
                      lyrics 
Shoot me up with Novocain tell me if you feel it when I’m talking I don’t hear it
I don’t wanna tell the difference I’ve been

I’ve been living like I’m livid
I can’t shoot the shots I’m missin
I can’t tell you what I’m feelin I’ve been
Super numb with Novacaine
Tell me if you feel it when I tell you that I’m missin it

Tell you that I’m missin it
I can’t tell the difference then
I’ve been trying to fix shit. I don’t really think I can

Numbed down, dumbed down I don’t wanna feel
Stressed out, strung out I don’t wanna heal
N I know it’s not the same n I can’t say your name
I know that it’s all the blame, I know that I’m all the blame

Shoot me up with Novocain tell me if you feel it when I’m talking I don’t hear it
I don’t wanna tell the difference
I’ve been losing I can feel it

numb me(tiedforsilver)

better ending W MisFiiT(web)

Tolerance. W MisFiiT(bornhero)

leaves (shiiranoh x vallich)

See you W wraith (emory)

never tell W GrimmGem (cl6udy)

nooneleft W mistral (NE’ERDOWELL)

move.. no stay. W GrimmGem (emory)

just noise..that’s it(secre x irby)

Going through motions, I know it’s over
Not sober but certain tell me it’s working

I’m not sober right try to fix shit, but it leads to another fight
I don’t think I’ll sleep tonight. 
I don’t wanna sleep tonight.
Tell me why 
tell me why I can’t tell you what I want to

I’m going through motions 
I know it’s all over I’m not sober but I want to 
I feel complete when I’m with you

I know it’s done right
I don’t wanna see you now you were like my kryptonite
I don’t wanna feel all right I don’t wanna feel all right
I don’t wanna have you here at my crib tonight 
leave right
I don’t think I’ll sleep right

goin (Jang0 x LickOwens)

I drink too much when I’m feeling empty 
I do too much is this weight is heavy
And on my psyche, there’s too much envy
There’s too much hate, I think I’m going crazy

So what if it just ends in a blur and I don’t find enough words to fix this curse 
it’s done
My time on this earth? 
I think I had my fun
I had my fix. 
I think it’s time I’m done.
Been falling going too fast
I’m in a car with no brakes. 
It’s hard to relax.
I don’t wanna relapse everything is too fast
Tell me why
I can’t stay behind

Fuck

I drink too much when I’m feeling empty 
I do too much is this weight is heavy
And on my psyche, there’s too much envy
There’s too much hate, I think I’m going crazy

I do too much 
I tell you I don’t miss love
One more sniff my nose gives up
I don’t wanna feel this love
Fuck, I think I’m giving up
I could never get enough
Had my fix now I’m done
I don’t think this is the love you said it was

you said it was (NE'ERDOWELL)

choices freestyle (web)

Think I’m good now
Try to pass up on anyone else 
I don’t want that love but I know this one
This one means much n I can’t tell you why I can’t change what
My past is fucked n I can’t fix that 
I’d rather watch as it all just fades to black
I don’t wanna take your time away
But please sit with me while I turn grey and fade away
So is this love or am I hopeless 
When you’re with me I just can’t focus on anything else 
Wanna keep this love all to myself 
I know it’s wasted
I’ve already tasted everything this world can never give me
That’s why I feel so much envy
Maybe that just means I’m guilty 
Guilty of giving to much 
Of lovin to much
Of hearing to much
Of doing this much I can’t 
Keep this up I just want your love

Think I’m good now
Try to pass up on anyone else 
I don’t want that love but I know this one
This one means much try to tell you what I feel but
I just give up
Go on tangents that never mean much 
I don’t know why I never mean much 
I know you hate when I self-deprecate 
I’m tryin to fix the words that I say
It’s easy when you’re with me 
Feeling less empty 
Feeling like my souls just a little heavy 
N those 3 words are a little heavy 
But when you’re with me I feel less hollow 
I feel like I have more time to borrow 
Never let down to see tomorrow 
I don’t wanna stay
I don’t wanna stay this way

time to borrow (flower x ‪‪‪babieyummo )

Wraith told me to do this and gem made me add the lyrics 

Keep it up I’ve been missing
This thing that I feel is drowning out
Try to keep myself afloat I can’t keep up. I’m losing steam I know that I might regret this thing I’ve done. 
I know I can’t keep secrets from anyone.
So if I peaked your interest and I don’t see it , means I don’t need it so pass it on

It’s just all been in our offset
So tell me what comes next
I’m losing hope that I’ll ever find love yet, I keep to myself and 
I think it’s upset. 
I think it’s upset.
This ghost is upset 
it follows the sunset
I keep to myself because I know what comes next
And wait for the sunrise to feel that regret
I don’t want to regret the things I protect
To keep it safe and I know it’s not 
real

Talking to myself, I think it’s real
think it’s real
I’ve been writing this note and I think it’s real
Really wish it wasn’t real

Still by the coast while I write this note
A note to a ghost that I’ll never grow
All for a girl that will never show
Up at the spots, we love the most
I can’t let it go
Just wanna know why try to hold on to things that closed
The door is closed
Just let it go 
they always tell me just to let it go but they’ll never know
How I felt when she held me close and told me she’ll be here for the worst of it
She’ll hold me when I need it. 
She’ll give me my fix like I’ve been feinin 
But I’ve been bleeding
Why the fuck did she never tell me she was leaving?
I came home to a door that was leaning
A chair knocked over
A throat no longer breathing

Pt.2

Keep giving away what my mind can’t comprehend, stop tryna fix what my heart can’t mend
What broke in my thoughts I know it won’t pass
Might as well leave it in the past
I really hope it doesn’t last 

Can’t fix what’s been broken
So tell me why it’s certain 
That everything will end
Everything will always end
Maybe on the best days i can find a new wave
Only on the worst days growing more n more grey
Only on the worst days I feel like the worst pain
Ever coursing through my veins
I need this shit in my vein
Tell me why there’s no other way
Tell me why there’s no other way 
Tell me why there’s no other way 
Tell me why there’s no other way 
I don’t wanna change but I can’t keep living this way
Gotta change my face before I go out and start a new day
I don’t wanna start a new day 
another day, living this fake
Another day,I’m making mistakes
Another day, I’m pushing these brakes

Keep giving away what my mind can’t comprehend, stop tryna fix what my heart can’t mend

Another day of feeling this way
while I write these words on a page
before I tear it out and throw it away
Fuck I wish I could treat this shit like my life and just throw it all away
But I still got too much shit to say 
too many words on my brain
Cannot change, just throw it away
Think that I might be insane I can’t change, just throw it away
I don’t wanna stay this way I’ve been trying to fix this pain
I can’t get no pay
I need to change my way

What broke in my thoughts I know it won’t pass
Might as well leave it in the past
I really hope it doesn’t last

Just throw it away, I keep on growing more gray
Just throw it away, I’m growing older every day
Just throw it away, and maybe I made mistake mistakes
Just throw it away, turning old and gray
I will throw it away
Just throw it away
get the fuck off my case I won’t throw it away
Stay the fuck out of my way 
got too much time to pay
Just throw it away, just throw it away

notes to your ghost,  throw it away(secre)

Keep giving away what my mind can’t comprehend, stop tryna fix what my heart can’t mend
What broke in my thoughts I know it won’t pass
Might as well leave it in the past
I really hope it doesn’t last 

Can’t fix what’s been broken
So tell me why it’s certain 
That everything will end
Everything will always end
Maybe on the best days i can find a new wave
Only on the worst days growing more n more grey
Only on the worst days I feel like the worst pain
Ever coursing through my veins
I need this shit in my vein
Tell me why there’s no other way
Tell me why there’s no other way 
Tell me why there’s no other way 
Tell me why there’s no other way 
I don’t wanna change but I can’t keep living this way
Gotta change my face before I go out and start a new day
I don’t wanna start a new day 
another day, living this fake
Another day,I’m making mistakes
Another day, I’m pushing these brakes

Keep giving away what my mind can’t comprehend, stop tryna fix what my heart can’t mend

Another day of feeling this way
while I write these words on a page
before I tear it out and throw it away
Fuck I wish I could treat this shit like my life and just throw it all away
But I still got too much shit to say 
too many words on my brain
Cannot change, just throw it away
Think that I might be insane I can’t change, just throw it away
I don’t wanna stay this way I’ve been trying to fix this pain
I can’t get no pay
I need to change my way

What broke in my thoughts I know it won’t pass
Might as well leave it in the past
I really hope it doesn’t last

Just throw it away, I keep on growing more gray
Just throw it away, I’m growing older every day
Just throw it away, and maybe I made mistake mistakes
Just throw it away, turning old and gray
I will throw it away
Just throw it away
get the fuck off my case I won’t throw it away
Stay the fuck out of my way 
got too much time to pay
Just throw it away, just throw it away

throw it away (secre x sorrowbringer)

Keep it up I’ve been missing
This thing that I feel is drowning out
Try to keep myself afloat I can’t keep up. I’m losing steam I know that I might regret this thing I’ve done. 
I know I can’t keep secrets from anyone.
So if I peaked your interest and I don’t see it , means I don’t need it so pass it on

It’s just all been in our offset
So tell me what comes next
I’m losing hope that I’ll ever find love yet, I keep to myself and 
I think it’s upset. 
I think it’s upset.
This ghost is upset 
it follows the sunset
I keep to myself because I know what comes next
And wait for the sunrise to feel that regret
I don’t want to regret the things I protect
To keep it safe and I know it’s not 
real

Talking to myself, I think it’s real
think it’s real
I’ve been writing this note and I think it’s real
Really wish it wasn’t real

Still by the coast while I write this note
A note to a ghost that I’ll never grow
All for a girl that will never show
Up at the spots, we love the most
I can’t let it go
Just wanna know why try to hold on to things that closed
The door is closed
Just let it go 
they always tell me just to let it go but they’ll never know
How I felt when she held me close and told me she’ll be here for the worst of it
She’ll hold me when I need it. 
She’ll give me my fix like I’ve been feinin 
But I’ve been bleeding
Why the fuck did she never tell me she was leaving?
I came home to a door that was leaning
A chair knocked over
A throat no longer breathing

notes to your ghost  (secre x babieyummo)

tell me why freestyle(shinju x taylor morgan)

remorse (tiedforsilver x AVXiD)

conversations at the end (soprettyanxiety)

Try to take my life back, I keep running
I know that’s not fair, watch me burn it
Every bridge I’ve kept here, I can’t find it
Any new reasons to try to fit in

So tear me out the box then
When you find me and we can burn together, but just keep it low-key
Cause I don’t want anybody else to know me
I’ll give you the key just keep it safe for me
Just keep it safe for me
So I can find my piece just keep it safe for me
Just keep it safe for me
I’ll be at peace

Just try to take my life back, I keep running
I know that’s not fair, watch me burn it
Every bridge I’ve kept here, I can’t find it
Any new reasons to try to fit in…

Bridges (web x ryan kelly)

drown in earth (secre x gusuck)

day 1 (greyrock)

SHOUT OUT THE GOAT AVXiD FOR THE BEAT AND THE PIC 🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼

worst is yet to come (AVXiD x sorrowbringer)

lungs(nope4u)

still beating(remghost)

end of me(remghost)

close up(remghost x jolst)

Should've learned to let go
Get kicked right back in the snow
Move on and live on my own

Can't stay here, I gotta go
I know I'm best on my own
Those days, I know they're long gone
My peak, I know that it's gone

So to speak, I know I was wrong
I'm always wrong when it comes to this
When it comes to love, it's always a miss
Can't get my fix and when I feel
Everything may descend
I watch it crumble to dust
I watched it fall apart

Should've learned to let go
Get kicked right back in the snow
Move on and live on my own
Can't stay here, I gotta go

Should've learned to let go
Get kicked right back in the snow
Move on and live on my own
Can't stay here, I gotta go

Pack up everything that I own
I know there's not much I own
this PC mic  and some clothes
No I ain't bringing my phone
I really wish I learned to let go

Before the time was all gone
Even when I'm right, I do wrong
Even when I'm right, I do wrong

Get kicked back in the snow
Wounds can't heal they're to cold

snow (wraithontheporch)

idek

Watch all the pieces as they just wither away
They turn old and gray while I’m still stuck in this place
Find all the pieces before I pick it apart again, try to relax again 
Confide in my only friends try..
try to pick apart the pieces on burdened with, This hatred is sinking in
Its seething, these burns
Try to keep close when I never learn
Try to keep close, but I never learned

I’ve been engulfed in flames as they whisper my name. I feel them hold me closely and I know mostly these burns won’t heal good when I’m this close to the open flame

Watch all the pieces as they just wither away
They turned old and gray while I’m stuck in place
I remember the days when I was loved by flames
When I was hugged by flames
It just felt the same
It always felt the same
When they burned your name
Got the scars on my body
And all they do is remind me
Of the days when I felt like I belong to you only
But now the flames just burn me
The memories sink in and I know that mostly I’m never gonna open up to anyone closely
Anyone close to me

burns(wraithontheporch)

I know it's done now, and that's just the facts
I won't change, or even look back
So the past is the past now, you’re in the background
Of every single picture I have, can't look back now

I hear the shutters close, every time that you leave
And I don't know what it means, I still wonder what it means
It means that I'm back now, I can't put these bags down
Fill up my nose, until I never come back down

If that's how it ends, don't ask me where I'm at now
I ain't coming back, I just wanted to lay down
I feel the withdrawals, I feel my heart rate slowing down
I'm trapped in my head, so just please leave me for dead

Let me just rest in your bed
Yeah, I know you're trapped in my head
Yeah, I know you're better off gone
Yeah, I know you left me for dead

Yeah, I know you hear all these songs
I know it's time to move on
I know it's time to move on
Yeah, I know it's time to move on

I know it's done now, and that's just a facts
Yeah, I tried to change, but I always look back
Yeah, the past is the past now, let it all die down
I don't have feelings, I don't even cry now

I've been at a low, I don't really feel hype now
It's the end of the year, and I just can't pipe down
I'm glad I'm here, where the fuck do I go now
I've been falling for years with no signs of slowing down

Guess that's where I'm at now

not this again (flux)

just a diary 
Healing... not really tho
Just trying to do better
still a mess
   Kinda over it all
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