losing it

What If(prod Hoepless X Bended)

Toxins(prod.Soprettyanxiety)

Fuck Drunk(prod. CRCL)

Cold Open(prod. irby x Jolst)

Insist X GK Remix

Even When(prod. Emory X Whylonyy)

One Last Beer(prod. Hoepless)

Stay Put (Prod.By King Theta)

Low Again (dash X Tiedforsilver)

damn (Prod. dercept x jolst)

nauseous in the third person (prod. dash)

take a break

trust  (prod hollowprpl x 93feetofsmoke)

And when I move on, tell me 
If you still love me,
if it’s free 
If my heart’s free 
Or will you just let it be? 
Will you just let me breathe? 
I can’t breathe 
Hold my breath to my lungs collapse 
My next breath might make me 
May make me
Might make me 
Might be my last 
So tell me if I move all way too fast 
So tell me if you love me, will it last 
So tell me if I love you, will it last 
It won’t last 
I want it back 
I want it back 
Please just give me my heart back 
Fuck asking, I just want it back 
I swore I’ll take it back. 
I swear I’ll take it back. 

Will you still love me,
When it’s free 
When my heart’s free 
When my heart’s free
Or will you just let it be? 
Will you just let me breathe? 
I can’t breathe 
Hold my breath to my lungs collapse 
My next breaths might be my last
These next breaths might be my last
I hope they last
So tell me if they’ll last that long
I know
And all the ones I hold too close
All the people that I hold close
Most of them all just went ghost
Most of them all just went ghost
Tell me if I really don’t know
What is love if I don’t know
If I never knew it, how can I tell?
Yeah, how can I tell?
don’t wanna tell
You got secrets I can’t tell
You got secrets I can’t tell
And I got secrets you know well
You know well
You Noel

Breathe (prod. breeze)

shout out kay for the artwork <3 
will add lyrics later...
 
Wonder bout my past lives

Wonder what I slept like 

Wonder if I loved right 

Must've been good just to earn your light

You're everything I needed, everything I pleaded for You've given me and more. 
I'm that again, I'm back again. Feeling like myself, I'm not sad again.
I'm not mad again. 
Moving on from some shit that had me twisted. 
So please don't rock the boat, you might make me seasick. 
Last one I was on went down with a weird wind. I don't feel the same now, this is not a fair wind. 
I was forewarned of a sea that was covered in wars, like you. 
You were covered in thorns and I felt like the warning wasn't needed before. 
And I still feel like I don't need it. 
Cause I don't want my love to be a secret. 
Cause I couldn't keep it, our love a secret. 
I know you really mean it, I know you really mean it. 
When you say you love me, I can fucking feel it. 
I really hope your love can't be depleted.

I wonder about my past lives.

I wonder if I slept right.

I wonder if I loved just right. 

I must've been good to deserve your light.

In the end this ship was just the fodder.
I still have time before it sinks underwater. 
I still have time to raise a son or daughter. 
That's a lie, I don't have that time left. Like a good captain I'll go down with my ship. 
Even in the end I don't wanna leave you with this.
This guilt, this trip. 
You pulled me in and I thought I could win but I guess not. 
and these thorns I've been pulling on my chest a lot. 
In these memories I've been trying to guess a lot. 
In these words I wonder if they were mine or not. 
Your life I wonder if it was mine or not. 

I wonder about my past lives.

wonder if I slept right.

wonder if I loved right.

 must've been good to get this light.

wonder about my past lives.
wonder about my past lives.

seasick (prod. secre x jolst)

If I tell you something else, I will do you wrong
Tell me less never equaled the same weight
I kept on my back
Never even changed my ways
I can’t sleep the same now
I know everybody else wants to dream now
Give me my time to speak my peace now
I don’t want to dream now
I just wanna do without
Tell me less equals the same weight
I kept up on my shoulders
I’ve been seeing new dates new dates I need
New hate new hate I need something else to deliver me
I know that I need clarity
I can’t find my clarity now,
I’ve been doing without
Any of the voices in my head now

If I tell you something else, I will do you wrong
Tell me less never equal the same weight
I kept on my back
Never even changed my ways
I can’t sleep the same now
I know everybody else wants to dream now
Give me time to speak my peace now
I don’t want to dream now
I just wanna do without

All of these hurdles
they’re coming too quickly
It’s hard for me to see clear
All I see is blurry
Everything you see dear
never need to worry

I’ve been losing sight of what I’m feeling
I can’t feel it the same way as I did back when I was healing cause everybody else felt the same way as I did that was around me All of my friends that I hid with they never burned me
I feel the same way as I did back then
Back then I know
I know I feel the same way as I did back then
Back then I know

do u wrong (p. sorrow bringer)

Too high (shiiranoh x over)

Wonder if I’m fucking up 
Back in this hole again 
K hole I’ve been diving in 
Drugged up I don’t need no friends 
Fucked up I don’t need no benz
Crashed the whip wonder where I went 
Fuck 
Fucked up in the road again 
Find me when the summer ends 

So if I fuck it up then 
And I’m just being dramatic 
I know it’s over I’ve been looking past it
I cover up these wounds with plastic 
Seal it shut I can’t have it 
Happiness, I run right past it 
I can’t hack it 
I’ve been feeling like I’m out of practice 
And i’ve been looking down again 
I can’t move past it
All these dramatics, I’m overdramatic 
Over and over I go into panics 
I’m losing myself
I don’t know how I will manage
To find my way back 
I’m lost and damaged 
I’m cold and wet
I’m like a dog on its last leg
Cat last life 
And what if I’m dead and this shits all just a past life 
I’m never the sad type 
I guess I’m the sad type
I ain’t trying to stay clean
I’m on my last life
I know I’ve always been mean
I ain’t the nice type
And I know it’s over
And I know what life‘s like I’ve seen enough
And I know it’s rough
It’s rough for you and me too
I don’t feel the same 
I’m not sure what I’m doing this time
I feel like I’m losing my mind
Going manic and it’s all the same
I know I am to blame
I’ll never change swear I’ll never change
And even when I try to, I stay the same
Even when I try to, I stay the same
And I think I’m to blame

theatrics (p. hollowprpl)

lyrics

So maybe if it
Maybe if it sets in
Maybe if I feel you on my skin
Maybe that'll help me 

So maybe when it sets in
And I can feel your skin on my skin
And I can tell what's really different 
Yeah I can tell what's really different 
It all depends on the mood this time
And I know I won't change my mind
And everything heals with time 
But
It's probably best if we cut ties 
Cause I don't think anything will really get better this time
So I guess this is one last goodbye 
To the times that I spent loving you 
And I look back in the hindsight 
And in the past time we were in the limelight 
You only came around in the nighttime 
And I only came around when my phone was dry
So let's take this one last night for one last goodbye 

Say goodbye 
Say goodbye while we get higher than we've ever been 
Than we've ever been cause maybe that'll fix shit

Think not
Pipe down 
I don't wanna hear you
Just let me drown 
Myself in the bottle again
Maybe then
I can move past all this fucking bullshit
And I won't have to hear shit
Hear your voice in my dreams
And I know I just wanna scream
I just wanna scream but I can't
These wall are to thin
And the ones I build up keep breaking down 

But only when you're around 
Only when
Only when you're around 
Only when you're around 
You're always around 
I keep your spirit with me
And I know that I’m quite empty 
I know that my chest is empty 
And I know cause your spirits heavy
And I know why it's so heavy 
When I'm with you n you're with me
When I'm with you n you're with me
When I'm with you you're with me
When I'm with you n I miss you
N I'm not with you but you're with me
Keep you with me
Cause that's where you're supposed to be
With me
Stay with me
Just stay with me
Wonder why did you leave

Time (prod. cxrter x flesh)

Stop changin, what love is
I feel it, I’m missin
These pieces
can’t tell me what I needed
can’t tell me If you feel it
What I’m feeling, is it a secret?
My love then, I’ll keep it secret
I don’t really mean it
I swear, I’ll never mean it
I can’t keep a secret
I can’t keep a secret

My love, gave it up for
Some drugs, what a fucking bore
I swore, I swore I loved you more
I swore I loved you more, I thought I loved you more

Gave it up for her
I feel like I’m losing myself
And I’m an addict all again
I don’t feel the same even with my friends
I don’t feel the same watch me do it all again
Fall in love again
And then lose some friends
Make a bad mistake and do it all again
History repeats every single fucking time
I wonder why I’m losing my mind this time

Stop changin, what love is
I feel it, I’m missin
These pieces
can’t tell me what I needed
can’t tell me If you feel it
What I’m feeling, is it a secret?
My love then, I’ll keep it secret
I don’t really mean it
I swear, I’ll never mean it

I’ll skip 1000 steps just to be with you
Too early to tell if this loves true
Too early to tell if this loves true
But I know I believe in you
Yeah, I know I believe in you
Yeah, I know I believe in you
Yeah, I know I know I know
I just hope it’s true
Just hope it’s true
Hope it’s true,believe in you
Hope it’s true, that’s what I do
Hope it’s true, believe in you
I just wanna see it through

secret (prod. babieyummo x cl6udy)

K.I.A in my dreams(p. OutOfPlace)

something different again

I been looking past the lies you tell me
Looking through my memory again
I don’t wanna stand on my own

But I don’t wanna be around no hoe
I don’t wanna know which way to go 
N I don’t really know which way I’ll go
Be it up or down I don’t give a fuck now
coming back around watch me come back around 
Now I’m my own shit I ain’t really stop now
 Been on my own shit I ain’t never coming down 
What u want now tell me what you want now, I ain’t been using nothing I think I’m coming down
Take it back I swear I’ll take it back
N all my life has been off track
Derailed Derailed 
Tell me why everything u do fails
Tell me why im better off in hell
Tell me why I really fell
Tell me why these wings won’t hold up well
Tell me why these wings won’t hold up well

I been looking past the lies you tell me
Looking through my memory again
I may not wanna stand on my own
But I bet I’m the only one who can hold on
I only ever hold on
So tell me what could go wrong 
Just tell me what could go wrong

lies u tell

waste it (hollowprpl)

around me W.MisFiiT(flesh)

backwards (cobalt)

Idle hands W.MisFiiT(emory x stingerbeats)

Got bad dreams, make it go away
I’ve been doing nothing, I can’t see a new day
I ain’t taking pills no more
That shit just fried my brain
I think I’m insane
I don’t see a way, to clear my name
And make it go away, and save the day
I am no hero, I’m just a zero 
I’ll take my time back 
but I can’t fear you, No I can’t hear you
And I can’t see you, I’ll take it back and know that I’m not near you
No, I’m not near you and I can’t feel you
I wish I could, but time changed my value
I’ll stay in the basement, I can’t feel basic
I’ll take my time if I feel I’m changing
I’ll raise the bar if I feel I’m chasing
I’ll save myself. I’ll never tell.
I can’t change now. I’ll just be myself.
But all that changed when you said my name
Just stay the night girl I’ll say I miss you
I’ll hold you tight.
 I just wanna feel you.
And fill my mind 
with all the time 
that passed me by

pass me(BiscuitBoi)

                     {Icarus}
And when it’s said and done, I’ll heal
And wonder if this feelings even real
If this feelings even

When it’s said and done, I’ll heal
Wonder if these feelings are even real
Wonder if these thoughts inside my head are really my own
Or if it’s just the drugs leading me astray 
Maybe today’s the day I could put it all down
Remember, it only made you frown
And it only ever made me look down
I’m got a daydream and I don’t wanna wake up
And remember what I lost 
I got some stuff now and that’s fine but
Nothing to replace the thoughts of you when I’m hurting
And that’s a real shit
I’m burdened by the thoughts that stick around
I don’t wanna stick around
So tell me what you want for me now
Before I wake up
Before I wake up I want a paycut so I make less
Cause maybe then I won’t spend my money on bullshit just to keep myself from waking up

                     {MisFiiT}
waking up has been so hard lately
sorry i don’t mean to worry u so much baby
my thoughts burn me down inside it’s like hellfire
no i cannot cool down i cannot cool down

your trust in me is wavering 
you’re catering to me way too much 
my problems aren’t yours i been feeling like a chore
i been running from my head for like 5 years and counting 

sometimes i feel i don’t deserve to feel the way i feel
life right now got me feelin fake not real
we’re goin downhill we need some chill pills 
my clocks ticking soon i won’t really give a shit
waking up has been so hard lately
sorry i don’t mean to worry u so much baby
my thoughts burn me down inside it’s like hellfire
no i cannot cool down i cannot cool down
 
                      {Icarus}
the thoughts that stick around
I don’t wanna stick around
So tell me what you want for me now
Before I wake up
Before I wake up

long rest W/MisFiiT (cxrter x ryan kelly)

Healing 
 Just trying to do better
   Kinda over it all
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