A Heartbreaking Perspective

My Undoing

Agony

Patience

Prod. Jammy Beatz & Taigen
This song was supposed to be about me shooting fireworks at my exs graduation to try and win her back. But unfortunately right before that could happen she texted me and told me to stay out of her life.

Fireworks

Stuck Here Again (Reimagined)

Trying too Much

Terrible

Take a tRiPpP

insecurity

Control

upintokyo - sober (Feat. !iEcl!pse)

upintokyo - I Don’t See The Problem (Feat. !iEcl!pse)

Prod. SOGIMURA

Lyrics:
I just wanna Die
All these Demons in my head
Run away from them
No Escape from Them

Ive been building up with stress
Lay me down to rest
My Anxiety brings me down it builds up with the Stress

And there’s No Escape, I must Confess
Yeah. I can’t Escape these Demons in my head, yeah yeah.

I’ve been tossing and turning in my sleep but I cant, get away from the thought of you taking my hand
And I’ve been shaking in Fear cause I know that I can’t, ever let go of you.. even though I know that I am
I want you to be happy, even if it’s without me
I’ve really been frowning now I feel like I’m pouting
All these Demons Surrounding
Feeling like I’ve been drowning
Now I can’t Escape Your Love, uh oh

I just wanna Die
All these Demons in my head
Run away from them
No Escape from Them

Ive been building up with stress
Lay me down to rest
My Anxiety brings me down it builds up with the Stress

And there’s No Escape, I must Confess
Yeah. I can’t Escape these Demons in my head, yeah yeah.

I’ve been Running far away from your love no I can’t find it
I’ve been feeling very Stressed wishing that I could just Hide It
And now there’s Demons in my face
Feeling like that I’ve been dying
If I tell you that I Hate You yeah I promise that id be lying

My Anxiety Takes Control yeah it Roar like a Lion
And if I take too many Pills yeah I feel like I’m flying
If I take too many of them yeah I feel like I’m dying
There ain’t no Escaping Your Love
There ain’t no Running or Hiding

The Memory Of You baby feels like I cannot take it
I Took my heart out my chest and chained it up in the basement
Now all these Demons Watching
They be plotting my Down Fall
And No I cannot Escape it
I won’t be Shaking It Off

Now I just wanna Die
All these Demons in my head
Run away from them
No Escape from Them

And I’ve been building with Stress
Lay me down to rest
My Anxiety brings me down it builds up with the Stress

No Escape

RockyGoneWild - Outside (Feat. !iEcl!pse)

Run Away

After Party (Feat. upintokyo)

Stressed Out

Bruised

Prod. Mellon999

Lyrics

Feels like shes been following
Feel it when i fall alseep
Her presence has been haunting me
Filled with this anxiety
And i, 
cant seem to breathe
These Demons tend to strangle me
I cant,
I cannot leave
Haunted by my past and this paranoia

Feel it fading fast i cant ignore her
I tried to change and i tried to show her
Now i wish that i could hold her
Demons sitting on my shoulder

Shake it
I cant take it
Ive been shakin
I cant shake it off
Feels like ive been taking xans and then i mixed it with some adoral
Fall deep into my own abyss
Filled with all my past regrets
Cant seem to get this fucking pain off my mothafucking chest

Feels like shes just gonna watch me fall
Im scared because im not enough
Stuck inside no where to run
Thought like a loaded gun

Its Like i hear her laughing down the hall
I wanna run but then i fall
Scared shes gonna cut me deep
I Take the knife and end it all

I cant brethe with all this feeling that I’ve wrapped around my fucking head
I swear to god it would have been so easy if i was fucking dead
Dealing with it to this day still piled up with stress
Eyes are sore
Cant take no more
Im paranoid to fucking death

Its like i feel her breathe running down my neck every time i try and fall asleep
Its been like 9 months her presence still following and haunting me
Cant deal with the damage i go manic and im on my knees
Im praying out to god like
(Please please please)

Feels like shes been following
Feel it when i fall alseep
Her presence has been haunting me
Filled with this anxiety
And i, 
cant seem to breathe
These Demons tend to strangle me
I cant,
I cannot leave
Haunted by my past and this paranoia

Paranoia

KILL’LA KILL 2

Where We Started

All 4 You!

I Just Love YOU

RockyGoneWild - My Love (Feat. !iEcl!pse)

Prod. GAXILLIC

Lyrics:

left, right, you make me feel right
left, right, left, you make me feel alive
I take a pill, no thrill. you need me alive
I don't need a pill to make me feel alright

you don't know what you mean to me.
your more than a friend to me
I fell in love with my fantasy girl
to me your more than my dream girl

when I took a left, you made me feel right
you never left me, you stayed by my side
I'm glad that your here with me, you make me feel alive again
I hope you hear me, I need you more than oxygen. 

sometimes its hard to breathe, you set me free
all this anxiety, you take from me
you take my hand, no zan, you make me feel somethin
you are my escape, when I don't feel nothin

left, right, you make me feel right
left, right, left, you make me feel alive
I take a pill, no thrill. you need me alive
I don't need a pill to make me feel alright

alright (X4) feel right, alright (X4) you make me feel something, I feel alive, right (X3)

wait, oh, wait. lost myself again
wait hold on wait, Im off my medicine
I took a left again but its alright
you here to stay, your gon stay by my side
through the dark days and dark nights, soda filled skies again
you make me feel right, no need to get high again

I Feel Right

Prod. GAXILLIC
Indie x Bedroom Pop x Alternative Rock

Lyrics:

I found you in a broken dream
I woke up, your my everything
is this for real?
is it fantasy?
you don't know what you mean to me

like ohh
I call you my home
right here I belong
never felt safer in my life
your my future wife
I will stay with you, I'll say it twice

your my home
right here is where I belong
for you I will write this song
I'll sing to you when were alone, ohh
when I come home
your so cute when your on the phone
sittin there, run my fingers through your hair
zone out, like I'm not really there, ohh

i can see it in her eyes
I can see our future right?
I can see her smile even when I'm far away
your in my mind always
baby I swear I'll keep you safe

in my heart you are protected
I want you, is that selfish
yeah, I keep your heart with me
your my home, your what I need
I need you when I fall asleep
I need you here when I eat
if your not then I wont be
where you go is where I be

your my home
right here is where I belong
for you I will write this song
I'll sing to you when were alone, ohh
when I come home
your so cute when your on the phone
sittin there, run my fingers through your hair
zone out, like I'm not really there, ohh

Home

I’ll Protect You / Falling

Midnight Wishes

Prod. Boyfifty

Lyrics:

One Day you’ll have to face me
Tell me that you Hate Me
Tell me that I’m Crazy
I’m Mentally Insane Boy
No we’re not the Same Boy
I’m in so much Pain Boy
I’ve been walking through the rain
Call Myself A Rain Boy
One Day you’ll have to face me
Tell me that you Hate Me
Tell me that I’m Crazy
I’m Mentally Insane Boy
No we’re not the Same Boy
I’m in so much Pain Boy
I’ve been walking through the rain
Call Myself A Rain Boy

Is it even worth it to be Open and Honest
Cause if we’re being Honest I wish that I could Off It
Wish I never told her that there’s no way to Stop It
Cause She Saved My Life now I’m wondering WHY

And now it’s just like Hey Boy
I know your in Pain Boy
And I know you feel Ashamed when your walking through the Rain Boy
Feels like your Insane Boy
I understand Your Pain Boy
So if your walking through the rain, Call Yourself a Rain Boy

Ain’t no Bright Skies, Butterflies, or Rainbows
Just Dark Skies, Suicide, and halos
And I know You and I aren’t together
So now I’m walking through the Rainy Weather

One Day you’ll have to face me
Tell me that you Hate Me
Tell me that I’m Crazy
I’m Mentally Insane Boy
No we’re not the Same Boy
I’m in so much Pain Boy
I’ve been walking through the rain
Call Myself A Rain Boy
One Day you’ll have to face me
Tell me that you Hate Me
Tell me that I’m Crazy
I’m Mentally Insane Boy
No we’re not the Same Boy
I’m in so much Pain Boy
I’ve been walking through the rain
Call Myself A Rain Boy

Just TELL ME THAT YOU HATE ME SO THAT I CAN MOVE ON
just LIE TO ME AND TELL ME YOU HATED ME FROM THE START
feels like Holding On is only breaking my Heart
And I KNOW IM FUCKING CRAZY
YEAH I TAKE IT TOO FAR

When I look up in the clouds yeah I wonder where you are
And I can’t help but to question if it’s raining where you are
We’re living different lives yeah we’re Worlds Apart
And i don’t blame you for breaking my heart

And I know that YOU HATE ME
I wish I WASNT CRAZY
I wish that I wasn’t so MENTALLY INSANE BOY
Now I’m dealing with all this Pain Boy
Walking through the Rain Boy
Call myself a Rain Boy

One Day you’ll have to face me
Tell me that you Hate Me
Tell me that I’m Crazy
I’m Mentally Insane Boy
No we’re not the Same Boy
I’m in so much Pain Boy
I’ve been walking through the rain
Call Myself A Rain Boy
One Day you’ll have to face me
Tell me that you Hate Me
Tell me that I’m Crazy
I’m Mentally Insane Boy
No we’re not the Same Boy
I’m in so much Pain Boy
I’ve been walking through the rain
Call Myself A Rain Boy

Rain Boy

Prod. SOGIMURA

Lyrics:
“I just cant do it. Forgetting about you is impossible. Get used to losing you? No way. Each time I repeat meeting and saying Goodbye to you, my love grows so strong i cant contain it. MY WRATH GROWS SO STRONG I CANT CONTAIN IT. For me. It’s impossible.”

Oh i
Know that its over
And i
Ion get to see you again again again
My love has just turned to a sin

Your words are deadly
Lay me down gently
I have to forget, even if I wasn’t ready
your love your voice your face
All of my favorite things

Im so cautious and nauseous when I speak about you all my friends they hate you I wish that they did it cause I’m still in love with you
torment internally. This is eternal love. I can not break it. No i cannot take it God why

Why did you curse me with love that I can’t say it aside
Now I’m in the way and I just wanna die
but this look in my eye It’s like I’m dead inside. 

“Once in a while it crosses my mind. That if i had never met you these completely ordinary days we share would never make me feel so happy. It wouldnt be the same..”
“I feel exactly the same way.. that’s why. I never wanna see this sight again. I cant take it..”

I can’t take this. I don’t wanna do it
and I know that is stupid but..
I don’t wanna be here without you, my love 
So I can’t let go cause you’re all I know
So I guess I’ll be here without you, my love 
Cause you were the only one I could trust 
And I could never force you to love 
So i guess that my love is a sin

Now I can never be a part of your plan.
I just wanna take my heart and make it end.
That is the only way to make amends for all these sins inside my life and now I know why.

Why you let me down slowly
why you don’t wanna hold me
I know you don’t wanna know me 
For all the things that I’ve done.

“I dont wanna repeat it. Never again. No matter what”

Deadly Sins

Prod. Jammy Beatz

Lyrics:

Ive Changed but im Still Not Enough
I feel the Pain overwhelmed inside my gut
I feel Ashamed
Ion even really wanna go and talk about it no more
Im Not The Same
You dont even really know a single thing about me no more

Yeah ive changed so much i dont know where to start
I ripped my heart out and i tore it apart
Remember all them days we used to stroll in the park?
Back when we had a Spark
And Now Im Falling Apart

Now time flies by feels like everything is changing
I remember how your love felt
It felt so amazing
And even after all this time yeah my love is never fading
And my love is never changing
Itll Stay The Same

Itll Stay The Same until they Put Me In The Grave (yeah)
Every Single day i feel my heart get ripped away (yeah)
No matter what you say
My love will never fade
My heart is Always Yours
No matter how it breaks

Look me in the eyes and say i havent changed
You know that youd be lying you can see it in my face
The time we shared was heaven now im walking through the flames
One day ill be okay as i watch you walk away

Yeah im trying so hard i need to learn to Let You Go
Because im not the one that you love anymore
All this Pain im going through got me down on the floor
Should i keep on Holding On?
I DONT KNOW ANYMORE

And I’ve decided im not holding onto my past mistakes
Yeah it isnt who i am it aint gon decide my Fate
Yeah and all these different people tell me that i have changed
So who am i to tell them that they wrong anyways?

Ive been looking in the mirror i don’t recognize
I look dead inside
Hollow in my eyes
Ive been feeling like im living in a different life
In a different world
Like im coraline

Ive Changed but im Still Not Enough
I feel the Pain overwhelmed inside my gut
I feel Ashamed
Ion even really wanna go and talk about it no more
Im Not The Same
You dont even really know a single thing about me no more

Changes

Prod. SOGIMURA

Lyrics:

Ive been drowning in my head
I wonder what you want from me
Now ive been praying out to God to bring me back up on my feet
Now i dont know who i am
Look at what you did to me
Yeah I changed myself for you
Still not enough apparently

So Maybe in another life
It was only you and i
Maybe in a different time
Different reality
You dont know what you mean to me
I gave you up, my everything
I would have bought a wedding ring
But Maybe in another life

Maybe could have done it better
Maybe save you from the weather
Maybe could have been a father
Had a son or a daughter
whats the point in even tryin
Yeah i know that id be lyin
If i said i didnt wanna try again

Knockin off
Liqour bottles
Nodding off
Drown in sorrow
Maybe i
See tomorrow
Waste of time
Feelin hollow
You were right
I am aweful
Hide away
All my sin
Run away
Medicine
Never gonna try again.

Ive been drowning in my head
I wonder what you want from me
Now ive been praying out to God to bring me back up on my feet
Now i dont know who i am
Look at what you did to me
Yeah I changed myself for you
Still not enough apparently

So Maybe in another life
It was only you and i
Maybe in a different time
Different reality
You dont know what you mean to me
I gave you up, my everything
I would have bought a wedding ring
But Maybe in another life

Love just isnt meant for me
How could i blame you if you leave
This is so embarrassing
All this time and i cant seem-
Holding onto fleeting dreams
Why can i not let you go
Your so happy
Im alone
Wish i was the one you hold

Now your gone
Now its old
All these games and no control
Honestly
Ive lost hope
Lost my mind
Inside i roam
Looking for a place called home
Lookig for a hand to hold
Maybe in another life
Your hands are still in mine

And your love was all i needed
Now im screaming out to jesus
Wont you please just take the wheel
I just really wanna heal
And i dont know what im doin
Everyday feels like im losin
Now my dreams are getting lucid
And that’s because i see you in them

I Feel You Right Next To Me
Anxiety Inside Of me
Its Hard To Breathe
I Cannot Seem To Shake It Off
Oh Not At All

I Feel My Soul Tightening
When Your Near
Its Like Your Here
And Im In Fear
Because That If I See You Ill Just Fall Again

So Maybe in another life
It was only you and i
Maybe in a different time
Different reality
You dont know what you mean to me
I gave you up, my everything
I would have bought a wedding ring
But Maybe in another life

So Maybe in another life
It was only you and i
Maybe in a different time
Different reality
You dont know what you mean to me
I gave you up, my everything
I would have bought a wedding ring
But Maybe in another life

Maybe in Another Life

Prod. Taigen

Lyrics:

No i Cant Keep Holding On
On n On n On
So Goodbye, Love
Goodbye
Ill See you in Another Life
Yeah i Cant Keep Holding On
Gotta Learn to Let You Go
So Goodbye, Love
Goodbye
Ill See you in Another Life

This is Goodbye
Goodbye
I Wont Ever Forget You
This is Goodbye
Goodbye
Im So Glad That I Met You

Yeah im coming to terms
I know that your Not Coming Back
And yeah, i miss what we had
but i know that theres no turning back

Yeah im tryna move on
But I Cant Let You Go
Yeah i Keep Holding On to the Smallest Of Hope

And if your coming back
Ill Welcome You Home
Because your Amazing Love is all that I know

But i Cant Keep Holding On
On n On n On
So Goodbye, Love
Goodbye
Ill See you in Another Life
No i Cant Keep Holding On
So i gotta Let You Go
So Goodbye, Love
Goodbye
Ill See you in Another Life

Yeah you know this isnt what i really wanted from you
I thought wed grow old together
Id raise a family with you
And i know its so Embarrassing that im Not Over You
And so EVEN IF IT KILLS ME GOTTA LET GO OF YOU

I gotta Stop Holding On
On n On n On
Yeah i gotta let go
Oh u Oh u Oh

Yeah Oh u Oh u Oh u
Gotta Let Go
Yeah even if its hard
Gotta Move On

But im Stuck
I Dont Give A Fuck
I Just wanna Fall Back In Love With You
Like Fuck
Is this what you want?
do you really want me to give up on you?
Cause Ill Stay
If you want me to Stay ill sit here and Ill Wait For You
But if Not
tell me that im Insane and ill keep myself away from you

Cause i Cant Keep Holding On
On n On n On
So Goodbye, Love
Goodbye
Ill See you in Another Life
Yeah i Cant Keep Holding On
Gotta Learn to Let You Go
So Goodbye, Love
Goodbye
Ill See you in Another Life

Goodbye, Love

Levitating

Don't Let Anyone Tell YOU Who YOU Can or Can’t Be.
You only Live ONCE, Taking Chances and Making Mistakes is all part of Your Journey and Evolution.
Don’t let your Past Define what your Future will be.
Everyone Deserves a Second Chance.
Take a Chance to show them all How Far You've Come.
You don't have to Be Who They Say You Are
Everyone in this world is Different, don't set Your standards to become who They Are
You are better than what Your Mind tells you that you are.. if you truly believe that your weak, you've already LOST.
Your Life is Important.
Don't Let This World Influence You.. BE BETTER
You can Achieve ANYTHING You set Your Mind to - 999

!i - stands for, no matter how you see it, its the same. meaning: were all different but still the same. were all Equally important to this world
Ecl!pse - stands for, everything has a darker half, the ! is the separation of darkness and light

!iEcl!pse

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