Hard to press Try Again

photography by chi (:
https://www.instagram.com/apieceofchis/
https://twitter.com/chehthechuy

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/3XygqM6yYtHQGMm3EMjmm8

your smile

when i'm alone
i'd rather be with you.

something different :)

spotify

i'd rather be with you

i dont wanna wander anymore

your warmth w/ yung thom

crime tech.

joji - midsummer madness  [eisu & crime tech remix]

our first tape
enjoy!

music by all the members of garden avenue
art by https://twitter.com/minoracts

4evr & killedmyself - don't give up on me

THE STORY SO FAR - TAKE ME AS YOU PLEASE (BL1THE REMIX)

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ＧＯＯＤ　ＦＯＲ　ＭＥ

//あなたのために欲望//

lyrics
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lust always a problem
you could never solve it
i can never get the fuck away from what i think 
if she tryna come though
i could make her cum so
baby is it him you really want or is it me? 
this ain't ever work nah
this'll never work out
don't you know that you are way too fucking good for me?
if she ever calls back
i hope that she knows that
i could never see all of the good she sees in me (x2)
you're too fuckin' good for me (x3)

let's kiss up on eachother 
biting on your neck while you're thinking about another
love is lost in lust and girl you know we crave eachother
when the time we have is gone the memories will cluster 

lust always a problem
you could never solve it
i can never get the fuck away from what i think 
if she tryna come though
i could make her cum so
baby is it him you really want or is it me? 
this ain't ever work nah
this'll never work out
don't you know that you are way too fucking good for me?
if she ever calls back
i hope that she knows that
i could never see all of the good she sees in me (x2)
you're too fuckin' good for me (x3)

follow tothegood

lust (prod. tothegood)

bee (on spotify and apple music)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hwvkD8epm_Q

freeze w/ yung shame [VISUAL IN DESCRIPTION] (prod. shame)

lyrics:

nothing is staying the same
why do i feel this way
i just wanna say what i think
but ur gonna think im insane 
u know ive been smoking a lot
u know im in love with the change
u dont ever leave from my mind
under a spell like a mage

girl u keep me in a lock box
always make the time stop
wish u needed me but u dont
cuz ur hearts locked
i guess that im good on my own
cuz baby u dont hit my phone 
but u know ur keeping me up at night
need u in my bed and ill be alright

fill my lungs makin sure i feel alright
want ur love since i saw u in the starlight
chasin bands cuz i know im livin right
im still waiting for u cuz i know that u might
come around u know u can spend the night
want ur love since i saw u in the starlight
takin drugs makin sure i feel alright 
im still waiting for u cuz i know that u might

and the moonlight seeping in my bedroom 
wont let me forget u
tell me is the nighttime getting to ur head too
i just need a minute cuz i dont wanna regret u

and ur only in my head but i miss u
baby i just wish u 
knew what i was feeling so i dont have to admit to
being scared of finding someone this soon

fill my lungs makin sure i feel alright
want ur love since i saw u in the starlight
chasin bands cuz i know im livin right
im still waiting for u cuz i know that u might
come around u know u can spend the night
want ur love since i saw u in the starlight
takin drugs makin sure i feel alright 
im still waiting for u cuz i know that u might

starlight

day 38 cant make it
counting scars like marks in the pavement
all the love in me turned to hatred
and beautiful things bring pain when
they're gone like we all will be
wish I could kill my fucking feelings
stuck in this hell scratched your name in the ceiling
starting to think that this is really how it ends
been 6 months since I've seen you
hope you're doing good yea me too
things have changed so much and I've seen a new life
it all fell into place without you by my side
then 10 years came and went so quick
your first love's gone and got 3 kids
it took so long but there's so much I've missed
I've learned life hurts but I love this

And all I ever really wanted was you in it
Maybe I'm meant to spend forever as a masochist

all I have left is in my head
a blank space with your name in it
wish you would have stayed but I understand
went too deep and drowned again
I think the pain made me love instead
pulled out the oages inside my head
felt what it means to see everything and
every being for what it is
I still miss you so much
but everythings hopeless and its not so bad
add another slash and run it back screaming

Day 38 cant make it
counting scars like marks in the pavement
all the love in me turned to hatred
and beautiful things bring pain when
they're gone like we all will be
wish I could kill my fucking feelings
stuck in this hell scratched your name in the ceiling
starting to think that this is really how it ends
been 6 months since I've seen you
hope you're doing good yea me too
things have changed so much and I've seen a new life
It all fell into place without you by my side
then 10 years came and went so quick
your first love's gone and got 3 kids
it took so long but there's so much I've missed
I've learned life hurts but I love this

Day 38

day 38 (prod. shon lindauer)

lyrics

in my place
smoking weed till we levitate 
won’t show my face
talk to me another day
take it to the face
gucci on her waist
now she on my waist
hope it’s not a waste 

but it’s okay
i see u everyday
wanna ice u out
no i’ll never let u pay
oh, i miss ur face
and the things that u say to me
without u i’m empty 

yeah i’m riding round the city in the night
i can see u in the sky
how u give me different sight
need a chance
wanna keep u in my life 

baby keep me held up
all the time
when the waters rough
pulling at ur hair
but i’m scared that i’m not enough
shots of robitussin
fade into the night
i’m fucked up but i bathe in ur light
like i can’t see straight
way out in CA
yeah i’m riding with lil shawty on the freeway
keep me close when u say that u need me
keep me close i’m losing u these days 

lonely in my room
there’s no sign of u
wish that i could see what’s inside of u
i’m walking on the sky
what i like to do
i wish that i were here tho
i need u too

in my place
smoking weed till we levitate 
won’t show my face
talk to me another day
take it to the face
gucci on her waist
now she on my waist
hope it’s not a waste 

but it’s okay
i see u everyday
wanna ice u out
no i’ll never let u pay
oh, i miss ur face
and the things that u say to me
without u i’m empty

SPOTIFY

SEE U IN THE SKY

@yungdoza

lyrics:

[chorus: gothurted]
Crying every night
Cuz I'm not with you
Cuz your fucking lies
Cuz your fucking mind games
Calling me crying
What the fuck is wrong with you
What the fuck is wrong with me
Picking up the call again
x2

[verse: gothurted]
Picking up the call
Drunk like every single time
I don't want to hear u saying you love me 
cuz the alcohol in your blood
cuz the one u feel for me is not love
is not love
I know its a trap
I know u will switch side
when I'll be counting racks
crying on my phone
but what am I supposed to do?
what am I supposed to say?
The only thing I want is u
And u know that
I would give everything to be there with u
Cuz I'm crying, dying
Trying to get u lying inside my arms again     

[chorus: gothurted]
Crying every night
Cuz I'm not with you
Cuz your fucking lies
Cuz your fucking mind games
Calling me crying
What the fuck is wrong with you
What the fuck is wrong with me
Picking up the call again
x2

[verse: Yung doza]
why u crying girl 
lying and the fighting girl 
with the trying girl
u make me want sigh like girl
I take a blunt to the face
I do not care what she says 
she wanna fuck for the cake
she 20 she catching a case
catching cases all these girls yea they faking
and I’m counting the rackies
all these risks that I’m taking for the bag
always wanted her but then she threw me in the trash
now I'm stuck alone all in my room and smoking thrax
and she knows these gemstones on my coat shit
on my dope shit
smoking till I float shit
I don’t care no
I don’t play fair
threw me in her lair
she so see through she so clear

[chorus: gothurted]
Crying every night
Cuz I'm not with you
Cuz your fucking lies
Cuz your fucking mind games
Calling me crying
What the fuck is wrong with you
What the fuck is wrong with me
Picking up the call again
x2

STREAM

Crying feat. yung doza [prod. gothurted]

lyrics:

and now she's grabbing at my thighs
can we stay inside
i think i'm falling for u baby
i can't tell u why
when i wanted to die
i couldn't see u right
but now i'm here with u
baby what's the move tonight

like when we done she put my shirt on
we're turned on
ask me if it's just tonight baby
that's wrong 
getting up to turn the lights back on
she know's that she's in all my best songs

mouthwash dripping on my shirt
u try to kiss me but my mouth still fucking hurts
posting pictures of me
now he wants u back
making money now
imma spend a rack

i've been tryna find my way
like can i make it through another day
you've been all up in my face
i just need some fucking space
i'm like please can i levitate

like when we done she put my shirt on
we're turned on
ask me if it's just tonight baby
that's wrong 
getting up to turn the lights back on
she know's that she's in all my best songs

i can' lose u again
burning holes in my skin
i just wanna forget
everything that i did
x2

mouthwash dripping on my shirt
u try to kiss me but my mouth still fucking hurts

mouthwash

prod. @sanriorose

drawing by 9ball
https://twitter.com/ok9ballgogo

don’t know why I just feel this way 
hide my face I know I can’t change
blow my brains cuz you think I’m strange
run away, I don’t wanna change 

disconnect me from my pain now  
but I don’t know how 
I just wanna lay low 
don’t wanna see you gotta stay down 

taught myself I don’t need you 
all ur lies are so see thru 
taught myself I don’t need you 
all ur lies are so see thru

I don't wanna change「prod. dolly」

🖤🖤🖤
prod. metlast

Lyrics: 
When I'm alone I start to scream 
Please doctor is it grim for me 
These girls will shoot me dead 
But fuck it come and get me hoe 

Yeah no one's gonna save your life 
And no you'll never sleep at night 
I sin because I need to 
Your fears will slowly start to change you 

Oh alright maybe I'm just afraid to be alive 
Go and tell me that my life is out of line, don't lie 
You're the best I wonder why don't you hear me 
Don't fear me cause I'm weak
You're the chain and I'm the missing link 
Yeah my friends lay underground with me  
And the truth is I don't wanna leave 

I don't wanna leave 
I never liked normal bitch I'm tripped out like I'm Alice 
I'll never leave  
I think I'm finally home 
(I'm home yeah) 

When I'm alone I start to scream 
Please doctor is it grim for me 
These girls will shoot me dead 
But fuck it come and get me hoe 

Yeah no one's gonna save your life 
And no you'll never sleep at night 
I sin because I need to 
(Just know that) 
There's no one to save you 
There's no one to save you

Listen on Spotify

no one's gonna save you

[produced by yago beats]
[mixed and mastered by convolk]

lyrics: 

If i died tomorrow
Would you cry for me 
would you hide the sorrow
Dont you lie to me

Trapped inside the car
Watch me idly
As the world lives
But it died for me

If i died tomorrow
Would you cry for me 
would you lay your head down
Dont you lie to me

Never been the man
That i strive to be
As the world lives
But it died for me

you cure me when
im near the end
my medicine x2

When i was a kid i was broke
Never had hope
Thinking of sink, never float

Thinking how thick of a rope i would need to keep my feet from touching the floor 

Bitch now i know
River card made me a boat
Done without selling a soul
you love me more than I know
And i love you more than i show 
Heart made of gold

Wait 

nanana x2
ooh

If i died tomorrow
Would you cry for me 
would you hide the sorrow
Dont you lie to me

Trapped inside the car
Watch me idly
As the world lives
But it died for me

If i died tomorrow
Would you cry for me 
would you lay your head down
Dont you lie to me

Never been the man
That i strive to be
As the world lives
But it died for me

everything hurts when she love me its the worst
when she love me its the worst 
x2

you cure me when
im near the end
my medicine x2

medicine

lyrics:

is that ur new man looking like a lineback (er)
i don’t really know how i feel n i don’t like that 
i just post in the crib blowing smoke fat
i just rather kick it w my cat 

baby imma get my racks up 
walk fast roll my rafs up 
give a fuck what u think 
n i laugh huh 
u know i don’t wanna link 
it’s a fact yuh
i just don’t care 
u don’t care what i’m saying

it gets dark in the basement 
i just wanna get away from u 
but i became it 
falling face first on the pavement 
i don’t even know if i can take it 
take it 

u just mad we ain’t fucking 
i know that i’m nothing
but how i makin racks on this shit while u judging 
i been on this new shit bussin
i feel like a heron russian 

i just want love i can’t have it
imma smoke till i drop
it’s a bad habit
pull up in my city w a bad bitch
now she pulling on the moncler jacket 

tell me why
u gon make me cry
i don’t wanna fight
imma lose myself in the night
need a new life
u don’t like
looking at my eyes 
yeah it’s fucking fine 
why’d i ever tell u ur divine
it’s a fucking lie 

all i ever got from u were lessons 
how to deal with my depression 
how to find someone who wants my love and not possessions 

ya what’s up with that 
ya what’s up with that 
ya what’s up with that 
what the fuck is up with that 
always got ur name in a bad tat 
wow i’m dumb kid
imma chase a dumb bag 

it gets dark in the basement 
i just wanna get away from u 
but i became it 
falling face first on the pavement 
i don’t even know if i can take it 
take it 

u just mad we ain’t fucking 
i know that i’m nothing
but how i makin racks on this shit while u judging 
i been on this new shit 
bussin
i feel like a heron 
russian

bad habits

Go follow Daystowaste his music is amazing!
Prod. Metlast

Lyrics: 
Small world, dream girl I'll never get to you I know 
Lost words poor girl you'll never find your way back home 
Chasing sirens, Knives of diamond
These pretty nightmares pull me close 
Falling victim to a vision 
I'll never get to you I know 
(I'll never get to you I know) 

The space between our fingers fits so perfect 
But your scent lingers 
In my bedsheets after these years 
I gotta find a place where I can sleep okay 
Burn out the nightlight, wait for the night time 
Stay up till midnight, sleep till the sunshine 
I will never be, no I will never be the one 

(I will never be the one) 
(And I'll never be) 
(I will never be the one) 

Small world, dream girl I'll never get to you I know 
Lost words poor girl you'll never find your way back home 
Chasing sirens, Knives of diamond
These pretty nightmares pull me close 
Falling victim to a vision 
I'll never get to you I know 
I'll never get to you I know

Hard to press Try Again

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