this is what a conversation with myself sounds like
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LYRICS:-
Tell me as i sit here that its gon be alright 
Tell me that i'm not a waste of my time 
Tell me that in the long run its gon be alright 
Tell me that i'm gonna get what i want now 
Tell me that i haven’t sold my soul just yet 
Tell me that i’m just being stupid and it's not real 
Tell me as i sit here thats it gon be alright 
Tell me that i’ve got a grip and i'll be just fine 

Being alone is a feeling i wanna get used too 
I invite you round to get wasted and we make out
Ik you don’t like me like that and i don't blame you 
you're giving me mixed signals 
Slit my wrists and kill me off now
I just wish you could see how bullshit human life is 
It’s so clear and obvious to me 
Why aren’t you getting it 
We’re born to live and die
Like what's the fucking point in it 
Idk i just feel like its a waste of time for me

Tell me as i sit here that its gon be alright 
Tell me that i'm not a waste of my time 
Tell me that in the long run its gon be alright 
Tell me that i'm gonna get what i want now 
Tell me that i haven’t sold my soul just yet 
Tell me that i’m just being stupid and it's not real 
Tell me as i sit here thats it gon be alright 
Tell me that i’ve got a grip and i'll be just fine 

I feel i'm still wasting my time tryna like myself 
See how the bullshit world really fucking works now
Makes you feel insecure and small until ya kys 
Throws you into an abusive family environment
makes you hate yourself
Takes away all your favourite people you took up to
Find it on your own its all you really got now 
Can’t rely on no one else coz they all fake now 
Omfg i wanna blow my fucking brains out

sitting at the edge of a cliff thinking about life (kaydo)

rip jw🕊
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LYRICS: 
All girls are the same 
Their rotting my brain, love 
Think i need a change 
Before i go insane yeahhhhh 

Let's admit that we did it all wrong now 
I just wish you could understand it was you as well 
I’m sorry that came into your life when i was like that  
I know i was a mess 
And I'm not fucking proud of it 

All our stars were aligned so perfect 
It was too good to fuck up but we did it 
I know you’re not as hurt as I am 
You only ever liked me never even loved me 
4 months on and i’m still fucking hurting 
Im still tryna drown you out of my soul 
You wont fucking leave me alone 
I feel your spirit everywhere I fucking go 

I feel your spirit everywhere i go now 
I wonder if you feel mine too somehow 

Let's admit that we did it all wrong now 
I just wish you could understand it was you as well 
I’m sorry that came into your life when i was like that  
I know i was a mess 
And I'm not fucking proud of it

all boys are the same <\3 (Jame$ x Just RT)

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let me be your little slut 
Cut me up in the tub 
Gimme something to cry about 
coz don’t feel a fucking thing 
Keep me in your draws and kick my head against the fucking wall 
I’m just tryna die tonight 
I don’t care about a fucking thing 

I just wanna kms 
Take this razor and cut me up 
Do your fucking worse now 
I like it when it hits the floor
Blow my brains out on the walls 
You know how I like it now
I don't even cut deep but it still hits the floor 

I’ll strangle you as you sleep 
Don’t ever test me 
Baby just know I need you to love me 
You can never change on me 
I’ll leave you wanting fucking more 
I keep my guard up now 
Don’t need any more to leave

Help me get outta this mess that i’ve found myself in 
I don’t wanna see tomorrow thats how its really been 
Haven’t been sober for weeks
Now i’m really feeling it 
Slit my throat and put me to rest please

I don’t how I still exist 
Someone should explain that 
I want more cuts and bruises 
Can you really do that? 
Put me out of my misery 
Thats what im asking for 
Can we skip the sex and get to fucking killing me

LOVE ME I'M LONELY (SINGLEWAY!)

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Tell me when will I succeed?
Im drowning in my fucking feelings 
Everyone around me is fake 
I really feel like i’m losing it 
I don’t wanna see tomorrow 
Don't know why it's so hard 
Tell me why nobody around me really fucking understands? 
Killing myself with the shit I keep on the inside 
Kinda crazy how I’m crying every other fucking night 
All i have is myself and the alcohol to hold me tight 
I refuse to lose this fight 
I needa know how to make it right 
Feeling really stuck in my ways 
Yeah i wont fucking lie 
Solving through my problems on my own in the dead of night 
This shit got me feeling so alone 
I can’t tell you why 
I can’t seem to be truly happy or at peace with myself 
I might try and take my own life I can’t get out of this 
And if i do i know how disappointing it’ll fucking feel 
Not too far away from everything i ever fucking want 
Maybe that's why I’m still driven 
You won’t see me fall 
I still have this feeling that it’ll never be enough  
Maybe i should fuck it all and finally give it up

I deserve better than this (melone)

rubbing alcohol - sewerperson (unreleased) ♡
https://on.soundcloud.com/9Jjp4
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lyrics
Wipe the tears from your face
'Cause we’re gonna be okay
It's been so long since we parted ways
Now, I'm attached to the pain 
I still miss what we fucking had 
And now it’ll never be the same 
I just wish you'd take me back 
Baby let's start this all over again 

I’m the fallen angel that's lost their fucking halo 
They can see i’m Lying everytime i say i'm fine now 
I ain't even got any way outta of this place 
I feel like suicide is my fucking escape now 
I said i wouldn’t do it but I fucking lied now 
Fuck it I might go do it  fucking right now 
I ain’t got no one around me fucking guarding me 
I'm lying through my teeth every time I say i’m fine now 
I don’t know how I keep fucking going now 
I might just go try  fucking end myself 
Musics not enough and the alcohol is done now
Shit i'm tryna change I can’t find my way out now 

rubbing alcohol sewerperson (cover) ♡

Wipe the tears from ur face
Cause Baby we’ll be ok
Its been so long since we parted ways
Now Im attached to the pain
Better off I could see ur better off
But Stay with me and help me soak this rubbing alcohol
Sure we all die in the end but were alive right now
She told me its little things I do that always break her down

This pressure in my chest tend to push too hard
Its always fun and games until it goes too far
I kiss her on the neck inside her beat up car
I love u to death no matter where we are
She is a fallen angel
I think she lost her halo
Could u tell me ur name again
Ill keep it confidential
I could see the patterns in her lies I work it out
It won’t work the second time around

help me // rubbing alcohol **cover** (kaydo)

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I’m sat inside my head
Written note by my bed
Empty bottles on the floor 
I wish i was dead 
You can’t see the pain anymore on my face 
My eyes all cried out 
Mascara down my face 
Wrists slit there's blood all on the floor 
I can’t feel the pain
Don’t let them in the bathroom 
That’ll just scar their brain 
I can’t take it anymore 
I need to let me go 
Pill bottles once filled with dread 
Lay empty on the shelf
I tie the noose around my neck
I’m ready to finally go 
I climb up the ladder 
And take a leap of faith
As i take my final breath 
My eyes roll back to my brain
They won’t ever know 
What this night entailed 
The sky rains for 3 days 
As the world mourns my death
The crows has gone silent
You never read my note 
I ripped my heart out my chest 
All you did was right it off
Your name is written in blood 
Up on the bathroom wall 
I really struggled to live
Knowing you wasn’t there
On that peaceful night
You were my final thought 
I still love you so
Even tho I am no more
I just wished you'd hear me out
With everything I had to say 
Well I guess this is it 
I don’t wanna say bye 
Until we meet again 
I’m the star shining bright

the crows have landed ready to deliver some bad news (melone)

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Tell me i can live without you 
don't believe it 
I feel like i'm gonna die all the time now 
I'm close to tears everytime that i speak now 
Tell me i'm gonna be alright 
Can’t believe it 
tell me that you love me baby 
I know that you don't tho 
Tell me that you love me 
I know that you don't tho 
I’m just gonna pretend i can deal with it 
I’m just gonna pretend I can deal with it 

I’m so tired with shit in my head 
It keeps up all night 
Just staring at the black sky
They tell me it's all gonna change 
Where's the progress?
All i feel is disappear without the fucking drink tho
Tell me it's gonna be okay
They keep saying 
My friends don't really understand what i'm saying 
Drinking til I black out just because I can tho 
Drinking til I black out just because I can tho

Feeling more vulnerable all the fucking time now 
Its really gonna take over my fucking brain now 
Might as well just hang myself and slit my fucking wrists 
Its all for the show don’t really fucking care now 
Call me an attention seeker when you’re just a fucking cunt 
He says he loves me but he don’t really tho 
I love him so much I don’t care tho
I love him so much like I don’t even care tho

LOVE ME I'M LONELY2 (KAI BOO)

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ISXXXC 
https://soundcloud.com/blake-tolley-632709954 
YRK_GhostFace 
https://soundcloud.com/yrkghostface666

[brontosaurus]
i’m wasted at the party
i’m not even sorry
shawty wanna wife me
i don’t even want it
no I’m not sorry
i’m here to fucking party
all I wanna do is get fucking naughty x2

[isxxxc]
girl im not sorry i ain't picking phones up okay 
i'm too lit imma fucking throw up okay
your girl all on me telling me i'll blow up 
while you hate behind the scenes 
why is shawty going dumb okay
she gone suck that shit til her eyes roll back on god
bitch I do not play no games (????)
(????) 
(???) 

[ghostface]
ghost face back again 
ghost face returns again 
the king 
the king 
the king again 
my heart beats again 
waking up to parties 
baby do you love me? 
do you really want me?
or you wanna party? 
finally at the stage show 
molly mixed with queso 
going through that phase tho 
drug addiction they know

brontosaurus \ü/

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