you were by my side and now we are worlds away from each other

SadBoyVibes

guitar by: ryini beats

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And i still remember 
Your hands in my hair
And the fireplace in December
And time's forever changing
But i still feel the same for you
I just wish you felt the same way too

I don't wanna waste you time 
And i know you have a better life
But it's stuck inside my head 
And i don't wanna leave my bed

So just tell me you want me 
Tell me you need me
Tell me you'll come back
And you're never leaving

I was eighteen when you loved me
And now i know I'm twenty-something
But I'm still hoping that you'd come home
And tell me everywhere that you've gone

eighteen (prod. 93FEETOFSMOKE)

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butterfly kisses [w/ teenpregnancy + yungjzaisdead]

production by jay vee
vocals by shinigami

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grew up too fast
like a bullet breaking thru the glass
remember that
fell asleep in every single class
i hate the fact
that ive become an insomniac
i hate the fact
that im never ever going back

cant even say that im feeling sad
i cant help but dwell on everything i had back when i was a kid
all those emotions they cease to exist

the world was so new woke up bright every day
now im just jaded its faded to grey
and i lay in a coffin that i helped create
facing the fact that ill never feel great again

shinigami - grew up 2 fast (prod. jay vee)

Sometimes it's hard to focus
I don't feel no motives
I just feel so hopeless
I know that they notice
Don't know where I'm going
Full of bad emotion
I feel like I'm no one
I feel like I'm broken

But I ain't no loner
My team full of soldiers
Smoking till it's over
I swear we never sober
Try to keep my eyes low
Ducking from the 5-0
Fuck the fucking 5-0
Let all my fucking guys go

I don't fit the system
I know that I'm different
Swear they never listen
That's why I'm staying distant
Leave em in my past life
They don't got their act right
Don't know what to act like
I leave em on the outside

Leave em on the outside
Leave em on the outside

Don't know what to act like
Don't know how to act right
I leave em on the outside

Sipping on my potion
Keep them blunts in motion
I been way too loaded
Sometimes it's hard to focus
These niggas keep on switching sides they think I ain't noticed
Imma keep on livin life till it's my time to go then
I been out my mind and I been trynna find it
Demons want me so bad I'm still trynna fight it
At the same time they not that bad they give me guidance
Maybe I should give in and ask for an alliance
All my teeth are golden
Smile just to show it
Don't look to long
It get way too hard to Focus

Sometimes it's hard to focus
I don't feel no motives
I just feel so hopeless
I know that they notice
Don't know where I'm going
Full of bad emotion
I feel like I'm no one
I feel like I'm broken

But I ain't no loner
My team full of soldiers
Smoking till it's over
I swear we never sober

hard to focus ft. pillxxx (prod. kidkeva)

shinigami x lil lotus - drown together

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video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i7hWQzHhOY8

lyrics: can you feel me
ill be in your dreams when youre asleep tonight
i didnt even want to say goodbye
i know tears came falling out of those green eyes
we both know its not the right time
i wake up and youve been missing from me
you were by my side
now were worlds away from eachother
i cant sleep i cant eat i feel like im dying
run the cold steel on my skin
ill never feel your kiss again
can you feel me
ill be in your dreams when youre asleep tonight
i didnt even want to say goodbye
i know tears came falling out of those green eyes
we both know its not the right time (x2)
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music video

as long as we remember each other, we'll never be apart

walk away and lock the door again
hold my breath and wait for death

i hope tonight that you regret
fucking with my head again i know
its all part of history
i know that youll be missing me

i dont need
to hold your hand
to save my life

ill rest my head
and close my eyes
and hope to die

all thats left are fragments of my heart inside

ive never felt this alone
in my life

im sick and tired of the lies just get away
get away from me
im sick and tired of this world i need to get away
get away from here
my dear its not very clear

like a needle in my veins
you take the pain away
escape from me
before its too late my dear

cut me open
watch me bleed
watch me suffer on my knees
this is just a sacrifice
lust is all i need
pour your salt into my wounds

grimworld

veins (feat. from first to last)

i can see your face in my dreams
beggin me to stay
feel your heart beating faster
finally fell in love

silent voices screaming at me
telling me to change
i grow cold by the hour
i think that im going insane

its hard to trust
its hard to care
when i feel things that arent there

i really miss how it used to be
feel like im missing a part of me

the world will turn
ill crash and burn
im starting to think that ill never learn

how to breathe
i wont survive
the thought of you will just fade in time


i can see your face in my dreams
beggin me to stay
feel your heart beating faster
finally fell in love

silent voices screaming at me
telling me to change
i grow cold by the hour
i think that im going insane

silent voices

let it burn
strike a match and watch it light
its a curse
in a hearse that leaves tonight

u keep on running away
u dont know to say to me
it makes me feel like im the one
whos been stuck in the rain
ive been drowining in pain u see
feels like im choking on these words i cant say to u

and i regret all the time that i spent
wishing for a way out
hope you remember the words that i said
wish you could figure it out

u keep on running away
u dont know to say to me
it makes me feel like im the one
whos been stuck in the rain
ive been drowining in pain u see
feels like im choking on these words i cant say to u

runaway

this is just a way for me to say
cus sometimes i cant speak at all
ill forget the memories and grit my teeth
i promise that ill prove you wrong
im sorry that we cant see eye to eye
but sometimes it makes me feel blind
i hope that this storm will just blow over
maybe im wasting my time

maybe i
can walk this road alone
maybe im
not worthless after all x2

this is all i have
this is all i need
and i wanna take u with me
ive got the world
inside my hands
but the weight is too heavy

maybe i
can walk this road alone
maybe im
not worthless after all x2

i'm not worthless

she said slow it down i said wait wait wait wait
i been sparkin gas to take the pain away
if u tryna slow it down get the fuck out my face
stay out my way

i be kickin it back while everybody sit back and hate
smokin digital blunts every memory that i erase
is a reminder im grateful for the way i live every day
i level up on the daily i always knew this was my fate

u never gave me a chance
to explain the reason why i gave it up
over and over i gave u chances but u fucked it up
never again will i make the same mistake twice
open your eyes
say your goodbyes

im awake at night again
i feel like this fight will never end
i been fighting all these battles inside of my head
back wood ash all over my bed

she said slow it down i said wait wait wait wait
i been sparkin gas to take the pain away
if u tryna slow it down get the fuck out my face
stay out my way

i be kickin it back while everybody sit back and hate
smokin digital blunts every memory that i erase
is a reminder im grateful for the way i live every day
i level up on the daily i always knew this was my fate

im up in the clouds today
i jus wanna fly away
every night
i turn down the lights
and waste my life away

no suicide
i dont wanna die
i think ill be fine today

she riding high
see it in her eyes
she wanna be mine today

i lay awake and i think about how all this time passed
decaying at 19 got open wounds all over my back
im lookin for love but dont kno where the fuck i could find that
im sick of the bullshit and fakes u kno i had to fight back

she said slow it down i said wait wait wait wait
i been sparkin gas to take the pain away
if u tryna slow it down get the fuck out my face
stay out my way

i be kickin it back while everybody sit back and hate
smokin digital blunts every memory that i erase
is a reminder im grateful for the way i live every day
i level up on the daily i always knew this was my fate

as long as we remember each other, we'll never be apart

shinigami

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