I only can accept darkness in my life, there's no place for light in my heart

Can u go back to this sound bro? One more album?

Never thought I would stumble upon the most awake but sad album ever. It’s so real and raw and I love how you incorporated different styles. This album is just fantastic in every possible way.

Do I wanna be 18 again? Fuck no but god I miss these days, life was so simple then

softee

Black (Jacket) (prod. tiresss)

art by sarlisart

everything is recorded by myself 

love <3

let's go

buy ♡

sorry for not answering the phone, i'm too busy trying to fly away

Note From Dib

Me and Cae have have gone through so many mentally painful emotions to get this song to where it is now. it is one of the most dearest things i have ever made in my life and will probably always be. This song personally started as an outcry during my darkest times a couple of months ago due to my dwindling mental and physical health.

We both approached each other recently and we had shown each others unfinished works. Both of us had found out that we had hard times in the past which had shaped us into having the same mental health problems now.

This was also by far the most unfinished track i had but we both had fell in love of the idea of an active collaboration where we both emotionally and musically shaped the outcome.

As our friendship grew, the track had soon evolved from a dark undertone to a more cheerful one over the span of a week. Im glad we both stuck through to the very end and i adore her for having the courage to display her emotions during the hardest of her times.

Thanks Cae
Well meet someday <3

LYRICS
_________________

Why did it sound so familiar when you said my name?
From the crystal lattice that makes up the nerves of your brain,
And the hurricanes that you pulse through your veins, 
I know every current, every wave -- please stay..
Please stay..

Why is it that from worlds away, I feel your hands against my face?
Why is it that when morning comes, it makes this feeling fade away..?

How did I have no idea, that I needed you?
My world ended once but began again, born from just us two.
Though it’s suffocating me everyday, though I know you’re so far,
you told me, “Dear, be brave. 
Always.”


♡ADIB
♡https://soundcloud.com/adibsin
♡https://twitter.com/adibsin
♡https://www.facebook.com/notdib

♡CAE
♡ https://soundcloud.com/meowcaroni
♡ https://twitter.com/meowcaroni
♡ https://www.facebook.com/ohcae
♡ https://www.instagram.com/meowcaroni

STREAM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MQPUF4Wh3_w&feature=youtu.be

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From Here (Ft Cae)

artwork by sarlisart

i don't know where i'm going, but dynamic, piano and soft-pitched voices, that sounds cool to me eheh

funfact: i discovered that a melody of this track is almost the same as a melody of pokemon diamond and pearl, and pokemon was a inspiration when i created that track


previous artwork by https://twitter.com/l33l3b

we've never met but, can we have a coffee or something

flowers feat. nori

luna coming soon

lyrics:

i lie here awake at night

so stressed out cant shut my eyes

cry about how fast time flies

forever after

heartless im hollow inside

tears shine bright like the night sky

i cant stay im just passing by

forever after

theres nothing left
dont love that bitch i just wanted the neck
no money no hoes got no reason to flex
remember all that fuckin time that i spent
tryna get that bitch out of my head

i still hate myself yea not that much has changed
im wondering why nothing has been the same
since back in the days
when life wasnt grey

i cant do this anymore
might pass out on the floor
please dont knock on my door
when you dont hear from me anymore

days are passing by and things will be alright
the darkness is alive i cannot find the light
with blood shot eyes i stay inside
im hoping i can stay the night

holding on to nothing
hoping i can make it something
i waste my time by chasing ghosts
and its me i let down the most

all i am is skin and bone

rather stay in bed alone

restless legs i shiver cold

and lie awake forever after

we hope our sorrows end and that our hearts will blend
im hoping everything works out before the end
so here i lie under the night
maybe our paths are intertwined

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forever after 💜

(now on spotify)
baby i’ll be
waiting here for 
you to change your mind
i’ll be here as
long as it takes you

so this is it
i never thought that you would
take your things and leave
i must admit
i’ve been a mess since then
i need you here with [[me]]

day by day
it’s all the same
baby won’t you call my name

[spotify]

as long as it takes you

no samples
prod mix master @93feetofsmoke

video: https://youtu.be/La0kW8IDOa8

lyrics:

nowadays
headache
cold shoulder
getting colder
guess I'm growing older

imma loner
lie and say 
i love her
u dont come over
when your sober

x2

i don't wanna tell you
what I think I about
drugs are longer now
i never leave the house
don't look at me for help
i hate to watch u drown
still tried my best no doubt
like fuck u talking bout??

lie & say i love her

cybernetix_01

no samples
prod/mix/master @93feetofsmoke

Video - https://youtu.be/UzKzr_uSyWY

cuts on ur thigh
where my eyes been lately
i've been feeling down
but i shouldn't be
i've been working hard
hope ur proud of me
lately,
i just wanna distance
whats been killing me

lately,
i've been drinking too much
if my dad saw 
he'd be mad at me
if my mom called 
she would cry to me
like "when u coming home" ?
"have u forgot about me" ?

substance on substance
till i'm dead asleep
please silence the demon
that's inside of me

using book cover's as a headpiece
i miss being young having dirty feet
years go slow repeating history
lies grow mold and drift in the breeze

so lately
i've been careful when i need to breathe

and lately
i'm just not sure about anything

lately,
i've been drinking too much
if my dad saw 
he'd be mad at me
if my mom called 
she would cry to me
like "when u coming home" ?
"have u forgot about me" ?

(lately i've been drinking too much x4)

6SPEED

if my dad saw he'd be mad at me..

my head is pounding w/ hm.wav (prod. senpai)

lyrics: 
we could go to sleep
put it all to rest
laying your head down onto my chest
this where it ends
its hard to pretend
that everything will just be fine in the morning
3 more weeks
2 more days
1 more chance to make me stay here
ive been up and down that avenue
youll never see my point of view

left my tears on the nightstand
eyes wide open
sirens in the distance
digital world left me
feeling fuckin distant
i came back feeling like im nonexistent

feel like my mind is changing
fading away from the high i was chasing
looking at the problems im evading
think ill die inside this room instead of forever decaying

we could go to sleep
put it all to rest
laying your head down onto my chest
this where it ends
its hard to pretend
that everything will just be fine in the morning
3 more weeks
2 more days
1 more chance to make me stay here
ive been up and down that avenue
youll never see my point of view

why is it so hard to kick these habits
why am i melodramatic
better off left in the past tense
ill make like a ghoul and vanish x2

we could go to sleep
put it all to rest
laying your head down onto my chest
this where it ends
its hard to pretend
that everything will just be fine in the morning
3 more weeks
2 more days
1 more chance to make me stay here
ive been up and down that avenue
youll never see my point of view

colling ave [prod 4evr + tax purposes]

official video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BbsOizVRjWA

ft. @ihateshinigami & @93feetofsmoke
prod. @ghostrage & @jakkyboi
mix/master @youngburial

old me w/ shinigami & 93FEETOFSMOKE (prod ghostrage & jakkyboí)

frozen soul (feat. fats'e)

Sleep Paralysis

prod/mix/ft @anxietyattackss

lyrics:

93:
Never feel the same
Never feel okay
Hit me up to take 
Always fade away
I’ve been hittin dabs
Til the panic takes
You can’t have my heart
But we can share the pain 

You can’t have my word
But we can still exchange 
Left her in the past
With my bad jacket
Hex across my neck
Like she’s black magic 
I fell out of love
With bags of plastic 

So what’s it take 
Yeah I’m begging you
To leave me alone
Im better alone anyways 

Where will it break
Yeah I’m finding out
I’m bending to grow 
The stress is my home anyways 

So what’s it take 
Yeah I’m begging you
To leave me alone
Im better alone anyways 

Where will it break
Yeah I’m finding out
I’m bending to grow 
The stress is my home anyways 

AA:
Spend another night alone up in my hometown 
just let me leave there’s nothing left for me to hold down
Spend another night alone up in my hometown 
just let me get away there’s nothing left to hold down 
On the back roads smoking on a backwood
Playin sad songs, sitting in a parking lot 
We live in shadows, don't matter if it’s dark or not
But it gets dark a lot, ya ya 
It’s bad enough, i know the pressures adding up 
And if you feel like giving up
Just know the story never ends, it’s all a dream

So what’s it take 
Yeah I’m begging you
To leave me alone
Im better alone anyways 

Where will it break
Yeah I’m finding out
I’m bending to grow 
The stress is my home anyways

forever after 💜

shinigami

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