In surprised this was posted a year ago i remember when it came out 

anyone have the chords, or know where i can find them, asides from the incorrect ones on chordify and chordu?

BUT THE BACK SIT OF THE DRIVE IN IS SO LONELY WITHOUT YOUUUUU

we were runnin around and having a blast... 💔

i never asked for this at all

@93FEETOFSMOKE
https://twitter.com/93feetofsmoke
@tothegood
https://twitter.com/tothegoodx


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Closing My Eyes In The Dark w/ 93FEETOFSMOKE (Prod. tothegood)

things will never be the same.

<a href='https://theartistunion.com/tracks/2c0ba6'>download here</a>

lyrics:
if you could just

understand whats in my head
im lost forever ive been mislead
ive lived ive died and i have bled
for all the words ive left unsaid

memories they cloud my mind
all of the people i left behind
at least i can say that i tried
its not my fault now let it die

if i left this place without a trace
no one could even recognize my face
why do i feel like a fucking disgrace
lay me to rest and cover my grave
 
i cannot feel
im only good at hiding and im
glad that you remind me of the
things i left behind me

this bed
that i lay in
only holds me back
and these walls just cant protect me
youre not the only one who left me 
[all alone]

why do i push away the 
people who stood by me
things are different now im better
at least thats what i like to tell myself

take my word
i know it hurts
forgive yourself
let it go



fade to black

Shinigami - I Miss U (ft. YungJZAisDead)

@familypet

shinigami: you said thisll never last so now im falling apart
my face is feeling numb again 
a shattered soul
dont let me go
you killed me first
im sure you know

she said thisll never last now im left in the dark
you saved me from myself again 
after the fall
i knew it all along
i never asked for this at all

you shouldve never let me in at all
now all you can do is watch me crawl
away
isolate myself
and i still can feel it all

and you can see the devil in my gaze
i think its best you stay away from me
im weak why cant you see this

familypet: thinkin back i fucked it up
my brothers just don't give a fuck
we skate until it's dark enough
to smoke and drink
we act don't think
don't think we act our age with it
i know i always ruin shit
i hope i never ruin this
i hope we'll always stay like this
putting each other in hospital beds
remember last summer when i broke my leg
doing a jump at the gap at 18th
remember the time that i knocked out your teeth
i'm glad that you always forgave me
these are the stories and memories that made me
i know i wasn't worth saving
i was just crazy
can't help the fact that i love misbehaving

i never asked for this [feat. familypet]

Lil Boo Weep - I Wrote This Song 4 U

Just a little something we were working on and never released :)

Cover of "If It Means A Lot To You" by A Day To Remember 
Guitar and Mixing by Shinigami
Recorded in 2017

shinigami + shy - If It Means A Lot To You (Acoustic Cover)

where did we go wrong

spotify

im good at being lonely cant u tell

no samples
prod/mix/master @93feetofsmoke

Video - https://youtu.be/UzKzr_uSyWY

cuts on ur thigh
where my eyes been lately
i've been feeling down
but i shouldn't be
i've been working hard
hope ur proud of me
lately,
i just wanna distance
whats been killing me

lately,
i've been drinking too much
if my dad saw 
he'd be mad at me
if my mom called 
she would cry to me
like "when u coming home" ?
"have u forgot about me" ?

substance on substance
till i'm dead asleep
please silence the demon
that's inside of me

using book cover's as a headpiece
i miss being young having dirty feet
years go slow repeating history
lies grow mold and drift in the breeze

so lately
i've been careful when i need to breathe

and lately
i'm just not sure about anything

lately,
i've been drinking too much
if my dad saw 
he'd be mad at me
if my mom called 
she would cry to me
like "when u coming home" ?
"have u forgot about me" ?

(lately i've been drinking too much x4)

6SPEED

if my dad saw he'd be mad at me..

cyberbully mom club - i'm tired and i hate this song

i spoke to the demon that lives in my nightmares
he told me that life wasnt fair

he taught me how to hate myself and hide it
he showed me how to die behind my eyelids

im pretty sure he doesnt have the best intentions
and i think i really need an intervention

ill go out
all alone
with a smile on my face
and i promise
im not scared of you
im not scared of you

i spoke to an angel that blesses my conscience
she told me i shouldnt have fear

she taught me how to love myself
but i didnt listen
now ive become too self aware

ill go out
all alone
with a smile on my face
and i promise
im not scared of you
im not scared of you

say bye to all my friends
waiting for the end
this is the path ive chosen
i cant pretend
that everything is fine
my lifes a fucking lie
the demon on my shoulder
has one this time

i spoke to the demon
he murdered the angel
and now ive got blood on my hands

demons & angels

why the fuck u gotta be like this
talk like this
act like you know me
you dont know shit
you dont know the half of it
just fucking quit

dont hit up my phone cus i dont feel like talking
sorry if i leave u in the dark its nothing
personal im having trouble keeping up with
how ive been feeling lately

i dont care if you think im obnoxious
im aware that ive got fuckin problems
im running out of ways that i can solve them
and its all keeps coming back

clouds in the sky
with the stars is where i lie
i see fear between your eyes
everytime i say goodbye

dont waste my time with the bullshit and the lies
i see thru it everytime
i wont let u dim my shine

ya im over this
i glo like an angel trapped in the mist
feel like i dont exist
look at the blood flowing down my wrist
down my wrist
make a wish
that it all will get better
the tides will twist
im sick of this ion give a shit
wrap this chain round my neck
ya i fucking quit

grimworld

obnoxious

vocals in order of appearance
93feetofsmoke
fats'e
cøzybøy

produced by jay vee
coproduced by fats'e & 93

@youngburial
@93feetofsmoke
@cozyboycries

bleed for no reason w/ 93feetofsmoke, fats'e, & cøzybøy

Official Video: https://youtu.be/n8XmlBr60Fc

round the valleys we roll
TV blasting out the static 
making peace with my soul
calabash was way too far
so i skate smoking a bone
the hazy sun blessed me with wind
and now the ocean's my home
lately all i do is drift
collect the bag and phone home
hit my pops up, know he's sad
cuz life always takes its toll
but I'm certain all the pieces 
that i need will still fall
from the sky and i smile
been a while since we talked

flushed my xannies down the sink
about like four months ago
im so grateful waking up
times ticking over my dome
never know where I'll end up
keep my pockets lined with gold
no one's ever told me wrong
i blame myself for the most
got a shot up on my ass
cuz she stayed sleeping around
now my wallet doesn't fold
shoes dirty working till close

flushed my xannies down the sink 
about like four months ago
im so grateful waking up
times ticking over my dome

guitars/prod/mix/master by @93feetofsmoke

this song is the antithesis of "if my dad saw he'd me mad at me" which explored the consequences of poor decision making and the overall negativity that used to completely encapsulate my life. Hope it means something to you. Take care <3 love ya pops

if my dad saw he'd be proud of me (video in desc)

LAST RANDOM SINGLE BEFORE ALBUM 

prod/guitar/mix/master - @youngburial

saturday night

shinigami

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