why does no one talk about this. THIS would be it if he made it into a full release 😭

unreleased

paralysed (live)- counterfeit.

pictured is me being taught how to take the one and only shot I've ever taken … party boy era

**demo with no vocal retouching done** 

written by paypay
produced by niko FAT rain

Under The Influence (DEMO)

Just Saying - 5SOS (Layered)

Amberlicious - Terrorfied (Demo 1)

//Penelope// Drive Like I Do

In a quiet apartment scattered with the remnants of a long night, empty glasses, fragments of music, and reflections from a cold window, a man sits alone replaying memories of someone who’s gone. The world outside still moves, parties continue, laughter echoes through thin walls, but inside, everything has stopped.

Each verse paints the still life of heartbreak: old songs, photographs, and promises that never came true. The piano and guitar trace the fragile rhythm of memory, while the clock keeps spinning, indifferent. He moves through the same rituals of living, putting on his jacket, walking through rain-soaked streets, pretending that he’s fine, even as the fire of loss keeps burning in his chest.

The pre-choruses are moments of surrender, a candle lit against the wind, a smile he can’t remember, the soft collapse of acceptance. The bridge whispers an even deeper truth: maybe the love he mourns was built on illusion, maybe the loneliness was always there, waiting. The music swells as he faces this realization, the full band crashing like the heart’s final protest before silence.

By the end, the sound fades, just piano and a delayed guitar echoing into the night. He plays the same record again, hoping that maybe sleep or a dream will bring her back for just a moment. But when the dawn comes and the light goes out, he’s left in the only place that still feels real: the room where her absence has become his home.

A story of grief disguised as routine, where the world dances on and one soul quietly learns how to live inside the fire.

Hope you enjoy it.... ❤️

Lyrics:

The night leaves its remains glass on the floor, silent song 
I go through track by track, searching for your name all along 
The window’s light is cold like silence, the clock keeps spinning without me 
I pick up an old loose thread of memories that won’t set me free 

Pre-Chorus
A photograph in my hand the smile I can’t recall 
I lay it down upon the table
let sorrow be my friend tonight after all 

Chorus
Everyone keeps on partying though you left this town 
I hear the laughter through the walls but no one sees me breaking down 
I pull my jacket on, step out into the rain, pretend that I can 
do all the usual things but my heart is in flames again 

Verse 2
You promised you’d come home
but the door remained closed 
I stumble through your words in the room where they never arose 
Every time I pretend that I’m okay it feels like a crime 
I dig up all our summers, but everything turns cold with time 

Pre-Chorus
I light another candle though the wind blows it away 
I sit and wait for an echo of your voice that never came my way 

Chorus 
Everyone keeps on partying though you left this town 
I hear the laughter through the walls but no one sees me breaking down 
I pull my jacket on, step out into the rain, pretend that I can do all the usual things 
but my heart is in flames again 

Bridge
Maybe you were just the shadow of a lie I needed to believe 
Maybe there was never room for two in a life already on its knees 
I count the empty chairs around a table where no one sits anymore 
And in the mirror I see someone who tries to stand but 
falls once more 

Chorus
Everyone keeps on partying though you left this town 
I hear the laughter through the walls but no one sees me breaking down 
I pull my jacket on, step out into the rain, pretend that I can do all the usual things
but my heart is in flames again 

Outro
So I put the same record on once more
play it till the night is gone 
Maybe I’ll sleep
maybe I’ll dream that you’re standing at my door at dawn 
But in the silence, when the light goes out, the longing turns sharp and clear 
And I learn to live inside the room where your absence made its sphere
,,,

The Afterparty That Never Ended

The End

Bebe Rexha - Over This Love

Florrible and Misrabella - Small Hands

poppies//

this world has been too kind !
i’ve almost lost my mind
i’ve seen his clouds, i’ve seen his sky
it’s time to say goodbye

throw poppies beneath my name when the sun comes
will u promise to hold me in the moonlight?
throw poppies beneath my name when the sun comes
will u promise to show me the light?

o

I’ve seen some things
gone through wedding rings
i’ve cried at night over you
but i’m over it now
i’m over u now
i’m over us now
goodbye 


i’ve seen the stars aligned
i’ve sewn my scars too tight
i’ve been bitter
but i want u still now
but i want  u still now
i want us now 
hello

coffins in the air - isaac dunbar

ika ♡

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