Lyrics:

I’m so drunk, I’ll take a bump right now please
Know im bout to do some stupid shit 
Im so caught up in my own resentment 
I’ll wake up, I won’t remember writing this

I know, I know I don’t need ya 
Won’t shed a tear for you either 
I may as well have amnesia 
It seems I’m free now to see her (x2)

Isn’t it proven true love?
You call me names until I split
I’ve been spit out and chewed up 
But never wanted to exist (x2)

I’m slipping, it makes me sick
I hate you, I can’t live like this no more
I’m bout to hit the floor 

I know, I know I don’t need ya 
Won’t shed a tear for you either 
I may as well have amnesia 
It seems I’m free now to see her (x2)

Amnesia (Prod. I S O L A T E D)

Lyrics:

To my real dad, saying this, I feel bad
Cause he always got me more than what my fellow peers had 
But when the tears came, who was there to hear that? 
Had to fear shame, follow all the weird fads

How many role models did you bring a cold bottle to?
its getting old, ion really follow suit
They should know that I’m so hollow, everything, it goes bottled, that’s just why I chose to follow you 

Great example, always tripping in your room
Thinking you so fucking wise cause of the shrooms
Opened up your third eye, brotha that’s your third lie
I’m giving up, there’s nothing  left for me to do 

Waiting on someone to tell me what to do
Cause ion ever fucking know and that’s the truth
Never won in no fight, never played it quite right
But no matter what I got my fucking crew 

I’ve been waiting for a good time so long
It’s been raining hope I make it out alive 

Now we already trapped in our rooms, unattached and astray from the facts, from the clues 
How we love running fast from the truth
Easier to look past and retract what is due 

Next time you wanna give me shit, eat it first
Same blood running through us is what be the curse 
Maybe you won’t see me till you need a herse
Or Should it be reversed, hopefully you see my worth 

I’m done playing, this is stuff I don’t have fun saying 
Mundane so you mad, I’m the one praying 
For you cause I find it pretty sad, see your tongue greying
Run away and kiss they ass like you bum chasing 

Fuck it, I’m just here to tell you that I’m done waiting 
I’m done faking, done chasing till the rums vacant
Blunt facing by yourself, since a young nascent son
Hanging onto daddy’s wealth has become Satan

I'm Done Waiting (Prod. Caps Ctrl)

Lyrics:

Back Then, you called your car the praying mantis 
Now your mama look at me like I’m a bandit
Yeah, yeah, girl our story’s like a fanfic
Should’ve known that it would end
I’m a liar, I pretend

In every single sense of the way,
It wasn’t making sense, so I sent you away
Guess I was insensitive, vent to this day
Bout what you wanna prevent with the gents in your lane 

Time wasn’t misspent with you, K
Keeping what you lent, it’s a gem in my cave
Sticking like a note on the walls here 
It’s a souvenir that I grew a pair of balls, dear

By now it isn’t all clear
Cause I filled up all these months by drinking tall beers 
Had my homies rolling blunts till I dissolved tears 
Saw I’ve gotten tired of the grunts with both my Palms seared

They know I ain’t got shit to lose
Finally picked a couple fights and it’s a gift to choose
If you knew I wasn’t nice I would be disapproved 
I had lost a light in me I think you were addicted to

If you wouldn’t listen to my music
You’d feel better, girl, I’m sorry I abuse it
It’s just, like, the only thing I love now 
I can’t put the drugs down
All my plugs have run out 

Back Then, you called your car the praying mantis 
Now your mama look at me like I’m a bandit
Yeah, yeah, girl our story’s like a fanfic
Should’ve known that it would end
I’m a liar, I pretend

Got me feeling some way
When I’m smokin up a storm and it’s a Sunday 
Deep in thought about the porn that you had unsaved
Thinking we would talk, I could’ve sworn I wasn’t cum crazed

Thought I was really looking at them pics
What the fuck, well okay, full of shit, girl you sick
I was never one to care so that wasn’t really fair 
Now I’m hoping you can find an inch of comfort in this

Stress builds till it gets killed 
Neck chills down to the spine, soaking in regrets still
Net filled with the flies, where my butterflies? 
Hopes down, you could stop with the other lies

I don’t wanna be your friend
I’ll never see the end, everybody want a piece of me as if I be for rent 
Like I’m a piece of meat to eat before I reach ferment 
Take a shot I promise you won’t ever see the dent

Praying Mantis (Prod. 8rokeboy)

Lyrics:

How I needed you
How you hated me
I been feeling blue
Existing is unsavoury 

How I miss them most
When they’re far too gone
It was me who made this choice 
No wonder it’s so wrong 

To the ones that like to go slow (oh, no)
I feel I’m all that’s left now 

There is nothing here 
But omnipresent fear 
That we all will be replaced soon as we disappear 

We went our separate ways but I still got the memories
I’ll always keep em safe 
I’ll never set em free 

To the ones that like to go slow (oh, no)
I feel I’m all that’s left now

All That's Left (Prod. Riddiman)

Lyrics: 

Dear Diary (Prod. Wetgropes)

Guess I did it again
Falling for a friend 
Give her all my time
Then leaving her behind 

Why did I pretend
I wanted it to end
When I really cry
About her every night 

How could I lay here and just do nothing?
While she’s somewhere out there thinking I’m disgusting 
She’s probably with him, she might be blushing 
I’m just a lovesick fuck, this is crushing 

Dear diary, my heart don’t have a home 
Dear diary, I might just die alone X2 

I was seventeen, met you at the metro
You was smoking heavily, your eyes, they had a red glow
Now I think about your lies and I can’t let go
Funny how I know you still be writing to my best bro

Guess I’m not the only one who has regrets hoe,
You said I’d be a star and then you left though
That’s okay, I’ll still go far, won’t break a sweat 
cause I know that it’s dark inside your head, girl you’re a wreck 

(Dont you wanna die with me instead?)
(Dont you wanna lie with me in bed, girl?) 
(Wonder why you fill me up with dread,)
(Maybe cause you’d thrive if I were dead, girl)

Dear diary, my heart don’t have a home 
Dear diary, I might just die alone X2 

Guess I did it again
Falling for a friend 
Give her all my time
Then leaving her behind 

Why did I pretend
I wanted it to end
When I really cry
About her every night, oh no

Dear Diary (Prod. wetgropes)

Lyrics: 

Did you wanna talk?
Or do you need to cram
For that exam 
I would understand 
If you need to study
Or hang out with a buddy
In fact I hear your phone, I hear it vibrate 
I just wanna migrate 
Somewhere I belong 
Why does it take so long? 
everything went wrong that could have 
I’m sick of would have should have’s 

My intestines, they’re churning 
No, it’s not love, I’m yearning 

Yeah, I done broke my heart in two, gave a piece to you, so that I wouldn’t see you blue
Couldn’t make a move so then you jumped my fucking bones 
And then I should’ve fucking knew that I would never be alone 

They said that that’s a blessing, 
Ion think it is, I am way too independent 
Like a little mystery, just leave a bit for guessing 
And You cannot be too serious, you know I’m always Jesting

You’re no longer my princess
My rep stay clean like windex 
If we would talk again, 
I’d smash my head into a window 

I strayed from my own kinfolk
You pushed me just a little 
I’m letting all my kids know 
They should surely stick to pickles

Cause though an apple’s sweet,
The peel gets stuck up in your teeth 
Sometimes there are bad ones 
You can’t tell it, looks deceive

Bad Apple Baby (Prod. BGH Beats)

Lyrics:

I can’t be too sure how you feel
And refuse to believe this is real
Cause I’m scared if it is, I’ll fuck up what we have
Though temptation is hot on my heels 

I’m falling harder than I ever have
I know it’s bad, I lay here 
I’m falling harder and I can’t get back up
You know I’m sad, it’s so clear 

So obsessive, still got your heart shaped necklace on my dusty dresser, it gives me a headache (fuck that)
“Just text her”, no, I can’t, forget it 
Finally, she’s better off without pathetic me

I’m falling harder than I ever have
I know it’s bad, I lay here 
I’m falling harder and I can’t get back up
You know I’m sad, it’s so clear 

Oh, dear

Falling (Prod. Venus)

Finding me is like a needle in a haystack 
Hide my face, tinted windows in the maybach 
You ain’t cut out of this shit, don’t wanna chase that
Try to keep ‘em safe so I always tell ‘em to stay back…

I say fuck it so much, I might get a face tat
Few years ago, I ate off Dora on my placemat
Now I hold my breath around hooligans, smoking laced crack
I don’t ever wanna waste away but this is payback

Guess it’s payback for all the times I laid back
Thinking somebody ‘gon take care of me 
Like a stray cat
Where the mace at? Critters running rampant
I wonder who above would ever think to grant it

Is it god who is watching from the clouds?
It can’t be, it’s somebody who’s further out
We keep multiplying, powerless in crowds 
Overcrowded, in a blur, a pair of hands cover my mouth

Finding me is like a needle in a haystack 
Hide my face, tinted windows in the maybach 
You ain’t cut out of this shit, don’t wanna chase that
Try to keep ‘em safe so I always tell ‘em to stay back…

I say fuck it so much, I might get a face tat
Few years ago, I ate off Dora on my placemat
Now I hold my breath around hooligans, smoking laced crack
I don’t ever wanna waste away but this is payback

Is it god?
Is it god?
It’s can’t be
I can’t be
Oh my god
I’m never getting out
I’m trapped in this cage for my life
For the rest of my life…

Payback (Prod. HVLX)

They want my attention but I barely see
So I climbed the tree to watch the world and get some clarity
Saw the people in the city seem to never sleep
Probably just stressing bout a bill, they need a better week

But amongst it all, I caught your house
Saw your mom and dad watching movies on the couch 
Then I saw you in the window, you were looking out 
Missing all the little things that we would talk about 

I miss everything we’d do, yeah it’s true
We was sitting by the lake to watch the view, it was you, It was every little thing you introduced me to
It was how your family patched me up like new

It was feeling like I had somewhere to go, had a home, now I’m smoking up, re-fucking up my dome, all alone, on my own yeah
Kinda wish I had a clone, yeah 

But I might just kill him
Cause I hate myself more than you hate me and I’m just the villain, yeah 
Girl fuck this feeling

Something here is very wrong 
You been drifting far away for ion even know how long
I’m still writing all my songs on my fucking iPhone 
Bitches run away from me as if I am a cyclone, I don’t

Know why I been left to die, ion even get to cry
I fulfilled my prophecy, I became a messy guy 
Guess I cured my ocd, had my mama terrified 
but for now it’s clarified, yeah

I just sit and stare no matter how bad it gets 
I should probably be rapping bout my baggage less
It don’t matter, no one listening, I’m powerless 
Since you’ve left me I’ve immersed myself in cowardness 

But that day I felt something awake in me
Found my talent so my dreams no longer make belief, just wait and see
I already found some pieces to replace what you would take from me
Yeah, now I’m awake and free

So I might not kill myself 
And I might just get some help
God knows I need it 
I feel depleted 

I don’t love myself yet but I know someday I will
I been struggling but soon I’ll be over the hill 
Confidence unnatural, I gotta learn the skill 
I done seen it all so now I got some time to kill (X2)

That Day (Prod. Wetgropes)

Lyrics:

Yeah my love for you was colossal 
But now that it’s over I feel so awful
When I look at the glass, no, it is not full
So I’m just smoking this gas, it make me docile

Cause inside of me, it’s violent as hell
Know they can’t tell, cause I hide it but I ain’t doing well
I’m undecided, s’why I sit here and dwell
But these percs they fit my palate like a pearl in a shell, uh

You make me hate myself
I go berate myself in front of the mirror
Take a pill, know I should pace myself 
I don’t give a fuck, don’t get no love 
And wouldn’t date myself
Funny I’m addicted to these drugs cause I can’t take shit well

It’s funny, she said I’m a loser
Ain’t it funny that I’d still choose her 
But I’ll go fuck on your mama like she a cougar
While she sending work emails on her computer 

Never took the bus, I took my scooter
Though I was always higher than a roofer
My tutor looking like she worked at hooters
And you bet that if I saw her now I would try to seduce her

I’m the grimiest lil goth boy
Only eat a bean I can’t settle for any bok Choy
High school ain’t no beautiful musical, I am not troy 
Don’t be singing to me sweetly with that soft voice 

I don’t deserve it, no
I go and burn this dope
Turn it to a chemical that come out of the furnace, hoe
Now I’m seeing demons, they repeating, tryna learn this flow 
Trying to take over me, wonder what it’s concerning more

Is it cause I be disassociating
Is it cause I just sit here, hopeless, waiting 
I get impatient so my tone is changing 
They don’t get it but it’s so frustrating

Disassociating (Prod. skel)

Both Ways (Prod. Yash)

Lyrics:

Why you gotta go ahead and get so mad girl?
I don’t wanna talk, all you do is badger me
And why the fuck it matter?
Im only getting sadder, sweetie

Said I’m sorry 
But you didn’t say it too, now I’m really sorry
Im tryna get away from you, I swear that you scarred me
I could never play it cool after you discard me
After I’ve been made a fool

So bite your tongue bitch
Cause I just wanna close up this hole inside my stomach 
I gave my love to money so you ‘gon catch me thumbin’
Im always on a downer, you know I’m never buggin’, you know I’m clever 

I will prosper 

I told her that I’m finna prosper 
But I couldn’t do it unless I would cross her
You all know the story, I dropped her before she got taken away by the doctors 

She thinks that I turned to a monster
Well, this world won’t be making me softer
I gave up everything now to conquer this dream
But I ain’t say I’m doing in proper

See, this game is a slippery slope
I was up every night, I was losing my hope
Overthinking the words that I wrote
Can’t remember the last time we spoke

I pull up to the party, bought myself a new fit 
And brought my Bacardi, I’m tardy
This shits perfect timing, it’s starting
They all getting loose with the secrets they’re guarding 

You can let it out 
You can let it out here 
Let it out
You can let it out, dear 
Whatever it’s about
You can let it out here 
Let it our, dear

I’ll end it all now
At least when I’ll be gone then they’ll have something to talk ‘bout
I hate when people judge me, I use them drugs to copout
But imma fucking show y’all, I’m more than just a dropout, you know I’m better

I will prosper

Prosper (Prod. Terry)

Lyrics:

Do you believe me now?
I get drunk in my room and I write things down 
Then they all go wow
Play my song, I came up with this somehow 
When the suns down I get loud 
I bring out my toxic compounds
Let my thoughts run wild 
Like the emoji with its tongue out 

And I feel so happy
To see my loved ones stand up clapping
Sorry if I’m snappy
I just want some attention, what is happening

Used to be so quiet 
I would cut myself in silence 
Drenched in violence
I still got my best friends crying

Only happy tears though now
I just made my parents proud
Then I shoved all those pills down

Do you believe me now?
I get drunk in my room and I write things down 
Then they all go wow
Play my song, I came up with this somehow 
When the suns down I get loud 
I bring out my toxic compounds
Let my thoughts run wild 
Like the emoji with its tongue out

Wow (Reworked)

Closure

Killing Myself (Prod. Santos Santana)

Time Travel

Policemen all up on my ass
They disregard all the statements that’s fact
They get distracted and then they attack
Somebody go teach them to stick to the task

I don’t talk to the Narcs (to the Narcs)
Cause they put my boys in jail tryna keep us all apart (all apart)
It’s like these fuckers ain’t got hearts (ain’t got hearts)
How can I prove myself when they don’t even let me fucking start (let me start)

Bitch I’m a kid I do stupid shit
Y’all act like you fucking new to this 
Do y’all even know what a student is?
We still doing things, please give us fewer hits 

Pray for the people in prison
And for the families who fucking miss em
The boys who got caught and then lost in the system
The mamas who just wanna hold em and kiss em

And sure not everyone’s innocent 
But how could you disregard all the victims?
It could’ve been you, now would that make you listen?
If the boys in blue put you in this condition, I’m drifting 

I wanna stay on the topic
I picture my best friend buried in a coffin
I cannot shake it, I can’t seem to stop it
These images pop in my head way too often

They do these things, what do they profit?
They ain’t got powers they’re not fucking Sonic
I’m tired of cops but don’t know how to solve it
Cause they throw you into a cell and then lock it 

I don’t talk to the Narcs (to the Narcs)
Cause they put my boys in jail tryna keep us all apart (all apart)
It’s like these fuckers ain’t got hearts (ain’t got hearts)
How can I prove myself when they don’t even let me fucking start (let me start)

Narcs (Prod. YZ)

Clique (Prod. Denato)

I’m so sorry that I didn’t reach out to you when you were trapped inside the hospital
And I regret towards the end when I was being way too fucking hostile 

Hope your sisters are doing well
That there isn’t but a single trace of cancer cells
When you picture me you’re picturing the devil himself 
Guess that I’ll be crawling back to hell 

Lately dust has been collecting 
Where our cute little pictures and trinkets used to mark the spot 
I’m self reflecting more than ever 
I just wanna grow like a flower in a pot 

Just know I miss you, know that sometimes you’re still my very first daily thought 
And if I could go back I’d ask for time to simply stop 

If we could talk, I would explain myself, tell ya what I am and what I’m not
There’s no more secrets here to hide, I’ll expose myself and everything I currently got 

I will tell you the truth 
Girl I promise you, girl I promise you

When the weathers getting colder 
It never fails to make me somber 
Then college classes will be over soon
I really don’t know what I’m gonna do 
And I’m crying now boo hoo hoo hoo hoo hoo

Boohoo (Prod. 8ROKEBOY)

LYRICS:

I’m having some trouble it’s like I’m trapped in a bubble, I can’t be telling you subtle 
Cause all this hugging and cuddling got me buggin and struggling I’m like does this mean something? Or am I tripping again
Am I reading into shit? That’s always written in pen, such a trait of offence I fucking hate when I vent in all my music but in person I ain’t making a dent 
You see, rhymings just the easiest 
I barely even think, ain’t no limits on the cheesiness 
Never gotta worry bout a beat that gotta please a bitch 
Okay maybe I do but when I flow I’m so relieved of it 
I never gotta show no one, cause I don’t fucking owe no one but 
Shit I love you and I think that you’re the chosen one 

Beating round the bush, like a heater round the kush
I should light it up but I’m just always scared to fucking push
And my lighters stuck, this is misfortune by the books 
You don’t care about looks but I’m such a fucking pussy 

Guess them last relationships really shook me
Sucking out my soul like a jar without the cookies 
Done this shit before but I’m the one who’s acting rookie
Moving on, nobody knows what it took me 

Sorry if I’m over sensitive 
I’m emotional but I been tryna censor it
I’m Mentor-less, ain’t taught me how to fend for shit 
But it’s because of me that I don’t see the end of this 

Fuck I’m always so scared, I don’t wanna go there 
Okay yeah I do but what if you just don’t care 
What if you just phone stare and there’s cold air blowing through ya bones, want to go home cause it’s no fair 

You prolly thinking all these manz be catching feelings 
‘Fore you even fucking breath in they direction
They be reeling you 
Probably so tired of this shit and I believe it too
Acting like it’s fine but now I’m really fucking needing you 

Towers I would climb, to take a pic so you could see the view 
Papers I would sign, grab the bic so I could be the glue
Promise that I’ll stick, promise I will only speak the truth 
healthy, whole or sick, I would never think of leaving you 

I just thought that we could work but I’m cursed so
Probably should’ve left me in the dirt, in a hearse though 
That way you could keep all of my shirts and my work clothes 
I ain’t event hurt, you deserve those ❤️

I'm Used To It (Prod. Boyfifty)

LYRICS:

I really really hate you 
Why do all the words sting?
It was fine, we made do
But were undeserving...
How can I erase you?
Be peaceful as the birds sing
Try to make the pace move
Faster but it’s hurting 

Blessed as fuck to date you
Baby was my first thing
Tried my best to save you, 
Way behind my worst sin
Fucked her just to faze you
Became a different person
And now across the great blue
I still can hear you cursing 

You were everything that I wanted 
But now I swear the tree there is haunted
You were everything that I wanted
Now it’s haunted
I don’t want it  
Had the little things that we needed 
You don’t wear my ring, I don’t see it 
Had the little things that we needed
Now it’s fleeting
I don’t see it

Been over a year now
Feeling pretty torn so
I’m lying over here 
Hands are merged across my torso
Thoughts are still unclear 
I don’t know if I’m remorseful 
Tryna rid my fear 
By relying on the horoscope

Fortune teller feels
That with you a boy was loco
Grab me by the ear 
Just to whisper sweetly “don’t go”
Everywhere I steer
I See yet another door close
Think an exits near
But the lock on it is Morse code

Swear this fall imma figure it out babe
You took all the words outta my mouth, hey
What if I had followed on your route, to stay
Running out to say, I’m running out of ways 

Everybody hates me
They don’t like to listen
Isolation’s safety 
Outside it’s like a mission 
Think I’m going crazy
Molly in my system
Love it when it change me
I make good decisions 

Time for getting sober 
A layer on me glistens
Down is almost over
I’m crawling in my thick skin 
Smoking on the clover 
To help with what I’m Missin
I don’t really know her
Somehow we always kissin 

Many problems, all of them unwanted
Tell me how to solve em, baby I wanna be wanted
Keep looking back to when the two of us were bonded
I’m exhausted, this life has me daunted 

Had the little things that we needed 
You don’t wear my ring, I don’t see it 
Had the little things that we needed
Now it’s fleeting
I don’t see it

Wanted (Prod. Lxve)

Lyrics:

I heard something in the past
Something that you said and you could never take it back
Fuzzy on my face like I grew myself a stache
Numbing every way, I hate when I get all attached (damn)

I thought you could be my snack 
Girl you got me thinking that our fling was
gonna last
Held a homie back, had me waiting for that ass
What the fuck was that about I’m putting you On blast (again)

How long until this one also dissipates 
I don’t wanna hurt you so it’s better if the disses wait 
She just called a war in which I refuse to participate 
Bang on heavens door but they do not keep every Christian safe, 

There you were tryna eat my ass out
Guess It’s no surprise I never trusted you, I had doubts
Faced me with reality a homie had to lash out
Hit my plug and meet him the same day with all my cash out 

Don’t you say that you been worried for me
Not a peep, frankly, I could’ve been buried for weeks 
Thought I’m weak, after this I’m sure conjuring a tweak
What it be? Our interactions can go, hurried, to sleep 

I was happy, now it’s just a blur though
All these bad bitches, but for you I always swerve hoes
You remind me of myself when I just ain’t deserve more 
Tired of these cycles, everybody go in circles 

You Weren’t hitting me, the damage done was verbal
Overthinking, stressing till I’m running out of herbal 
Sketching out ideas that you gave me like I’m Vergil 
Come to find that what’s inside ain’t matching the external 

Imma burn all of these lyrics I guess
Cause what if she done listens and her theory connects 
That’s why I’ll throw the ashes in my sea of regrets
Start to hate this world
cause honestly this sphere is a mess 

They warned me stay away, she just gonna use you
Everything she says is fake, scripted like it’s YouTube 
Bitches got me whining every time I’m going boohoo
Overly invested, but like sims they wanna woohoo

Don’t you tell me that it’s men who always wanna fuck
Rather lay in bed, talk and spark this marijuana up 
Express whats in your head, that’s what really made Nirvana struck
Enlighten me instead, tell me how you get those commas up

I was never one to harbour expectations
Lately they’ve been hounding, relating to our relations 
Way before you found me, I had expertise at patience 
Now I hate the distance, I could die in quiet spaces 

I was happy now it’s just a blur though
All these bad bitches, but for you I always swerve hoes
You remind me of myself when I just ain’t deserve more 
Tired of these cycles, everybody go in circles 

You Weren’t hitting me, the damage done was verbal
Overthinking, stressing till I’m running out of herbal 
Sketching out ideas that you gave me like I’m Vergil 
Come to find that what’s inside ain’t matching the external

(Reed Dior, bitch)

Blur (Prod. LCS)

High Everyday (Prod. LCS)

Stars Ft. Lxne Dxvah (Prod Caps Ctrl) Exp

✍🏼 + 📄 + 🎤 = ❤️

My favourite influences include: Lil Peep, Lil Tracy, Tyler the Creator, The Front Bottoms, Modern Baseball, Mac Miller, Brand New, Lil baby, a boogie wit da hoodie, killy, girl in red, Lana del Rey, Mother Mother, Walk The Moon and many, many more.

Reed Dior

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