hated spring

Madeline, I'd Die For You

Madeline, I'd Die For You (with Dear Me)

Breakeven (Cover)

s/o to deckabeats & alsbeatz for bringing this one to life
& s/o to you for stickin' around! it's guardin szn!

lyrics
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clock strikes twelve it's all over after
distant memories of disaster
full eclipse the sky's falling fast
we're all dead by dawn  

i guess the goal is
to set my body back beside my soul
cause i guess really all i wants control
this world is ugly but we paint it gold
i've lost my discretion a decrepit hole
sits inside my body where i tug and pull
and pull and pull
your life code was patched
with a fine tooth comb
all the lights were detached
i guess nobody's home
in your bed lies a match
where the fire was thrown
i don't like where this goes
can you leave me alone
(cause when the)

clock strikes twelve it's all over after
distant memories of disaster
full eclipse the sky's falling fast
we're all dead by dawn  

i don't wanna do this
feeling like i got to
channel what i'm bestowed
pushing on the gas
till i'm drivin real fast
when i crash imma reload

enter the void

distant memories (prod. deckabeats x alsbeatz)

amelia earhart

buy this beat here: https://www.beatstars.com/ProdByOuse

somebody (prod ouse)

happy halloween! thought i'd hit y'all with a fun one for the holidays!
s/o to @siemspark + @rjpasin for brining this to life!

lyrics
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wake up
get the crust out of your eyes
it's so late it's like 7:45
this whole place is asleep while i'm alive
i'm lonely but i guess that i'll survive
it's alright if you look me in the eyes
don't be afraid yeah i promise i won't bite
i'm not awake was asleep when you arrived
now i'm half baked & i don't think that i should drive

and i don't think that you're alright
it's the little things about you i've been noticing on site
you've been howling all night
inconsistencies will always be attached to your life
if you're running don't hide
cause the probability of getting caught is so high
oh and at least i fucking tried
a corrupt intervention when your truth is just a lie
so throw this away
flush it right down the drain
you've perfected your aim
looks like nothings changed
so maybe

wake up
get the crust out of your eyes
it's so late it's like 7:45
this whole place is asleep while i'm alive
i'm lonely but i guess that i'll survive
it's alright if you look me in the eyes
don't be afraid yeah i promise i won't bite
i'm not awake was asleep when you arrived
now i'm half baked & i don't think that i should drive

music video

half baked (prod. siem spark x rj pasin)

its been a year since I last posted on here. if you're still here I love u thank u for listening. sorrow world forever...

lyrics:

its 3pm and I just woke up
my stomach kills think I might throw up
yea I threw up
wish we never grew up
Cuz we’re getting older
Its already over
The future is scary
The past dont bring closure
Whenever you’re over
I feel my heart getting colder

Cuz I wanna face this
Dont wanna evade it
Whenever you’re with me
I feel like the greatest
I hate when we fight but
I cant just erase this
Your love is like water
And I wanna taste it

Money comes and money goes
I just hit the road cuz they booked me for a show
Im making plays now
They know my name now
When I get my first M
I know they’ll hate wow
I guess thats just the life I live
U hear my pain give me a kiss
Im burning up like an angel falling
From the sky
U in my head and every time I reach
You multiply
I did this shit all on my own
Aint need no one
But im thankful for the people who show love
Im still tryna make it out im stuck in Florida
Ill be in la next month im tour
I always dream of this
I know my parents doubted me but
Thats the price I get
Im off the edge might jump cause
I cant sleep, every night I battled 
Demons they cant take me

love like water

lyrics
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december left me cold
lying in the snow
you left me here alone
freezing through my coat
the ice inside my throat
ain't melting anymore
these bones of mine are old
and time will take it's toll

this story's mine to tell
and i'll tell it for forever
when the time comes
we can measure
how my pain is now your pleasure
and i know
nothing in this world will ever bring me back
from what you took can't take it back no more
can't take it back no more
can't take it back no more
cause i am not the man i was
i'm merely pantomiming him for show

warm wishes

its not like u to go that distance
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@silversxo
@sagebrsh
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lyrics:
been a little crossed up
it isnt bad at all
i’m fine as long as nobody’s hurt
i think my pride is lost
but i’ll fall an eternity’s worth

don’t have to worry about it
you can’t come back around
i’m making sure i know that now
your precious serotonin
is not my problem now
i’ve got my own to worry bout

find time to bother
i’ll still be here i promise
its not like u to go that distance

if i told u that i miss u
i was lying
i’m moving on just fine
its a problem when u come back
i don’t buy it
u gotta try to earn me, love
u gotta try to earn me

sagebrsh:
I'm standing on the bridge
I'm waiting in the dark
I thought that you'd be here
Guess that I was wrong

I'd be lying If I told u
That I won't wait
What's time
If we might be soulmates

my fault if I read too deep
I'm feeling manic

hold me,
would u plz console me
I can't bare to wake without you
So I'm getting no sleep my bed way too lonely
I need you to show me
How to relax, since you been gone I ain't been cozy oh please~

decks:
if i told u that i miss u
i was lying
i’m moving on just fine
its a problem when u come back
i don’t buy it
u gotta try to earn me, love
u gotta try to earn me
(x2)

disaster averted (ft. sagebrsh) [silver]

Lyrics

What do I do? I don't even know
I don't have a home, I got nowhere to go
I been holdin' it in, I don't know how to cope
With the pain that's within every ounce of my bones

Don't look up to me, I am the epitome
Of all the reasons everyone got rid of me
Don't say you care cause I know you just pity me
God if you're there tell me why you did this to me

I'm a loser, I know I'm a mess
Only at this computer know how to confess
All the things I can never get off of my chest
Life is a game I just wanna reset

Pushing away any entity tryna be friends with me
See everyone as an enemy
Tired of fighting though, I wanna stop
At this point I don't know if I can turn it off

I'll never be who I wanted to when I was wanting you all I could dream of was holding you
I couldn't change all the hoe in you, I was just boring you, how did I ever see love in you?

Never was there when I needed it, pain you were feeding it 
My heart was yours, you were beating it
I feel like X you were eating it, I kept repeating it
Knife in my back, I'ma leave it in

God I don't know where I went wrong in life
But I need to figure it out but I can't figure it out
I just been losing myself, all been doing well
Tryna call god, think I'm going to hell

But I don't want to, no I don't wanna
I just succumb to all the weight I'm under
I'm not an angel, baby I'm a monster
From another angle, I'm a motherfucker

That's just how this thing go, I'm just on the river
Might let this pain go, I might pull the trigger

spotify.

bones. | Produced by septfree

Produced by tennis player

Lyrics

Truth is I'm a liar
I can't go to heaven my soul already on fire
This is shit, I can't even get a grip
I been walking on a cliff and I think that I'm bouta slip

Like woah, I can't hold on
No more I'm so done
Go just like everyone else
We went through the same thing but you ain't feel what I felt

You don't know the cold in my bones
You don't know the ghost in my home
You don't feel the hate in my veins
You don't know my story, we ain't even on the same page

I just wanna feel alive
I don't wanna feel like this, I'm dead inside
Maybe in another life
I won't need to think about another life

Maybe you won't leave me for another guy
Maybe you won't tell my ass another lie
Maybe I won't give a bitch another try
Maybe I won't give a shit and you'll just die

Bird brain, head cage, I'ma let it fly
I don't think about the pain tonight
I can't get away from the pain inside
All I feel is hate, I just wanna say goodbye

I can't heal with all the pain I deal with
I don't wanna feel it no more, I wanna kill it
Death to what's in me, demons I know many
But one's always closer than the others, like a brother

Truth is I'm a liar
I can't go to heaven my soul already on fire
This is shit, I can't even get a grip
I been walking on a cliff and I think that I'm bouta slip

Like woah, I can't hold on
No more I'm so done
Go just like everyone else
We went through the same thing but you ain't feel what I felt

You don't know the cold in my bones
You don't know the ghost in my home
You don't feel the hate in my veins
You don't know my story, we ain't even on the same page

I just wanna...
I don't wanna feel like this, I'm....
Maybe in a...
I won't need to think about a...

anotherlife.

staring at the ceiling w/ jeji [prod. kinsei x nihil2free]

Tuggin on my heart strings messin wit my Melodie’s 🥺🫶🏻

Brainless Ft. LUMINOU$ITY (Prod. Joshi X Txxzy)

waterboarded in my dreams

OLD DAYZ (feat. Jeni)

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waterboarded in my dreams

juli♡

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