More Than Ever

Back It Up

- With Track (2) being named "Outta Love and Patience" I begin to talk about how I've been running out of love and patience for waiting to see if she'll ever get back to me. With that being said, I start stressing about how "She's been way to quiet" and how my "hearts been racing" since I've haven't heard/seen anything since our rift. So than I start describing how "I've been falling and smacking pavements" from dealing with all this mental stress. But after realizing that I was stressing to much about what-had-happen, I start describing on how I've been trying to proceed forward within my life. I even got the angel numbers (555) tatted onto my left wrist to remind myself every time that I went down and how changes will always occur. My attitude is effected from what happened resulting into my family noticing changes within my behavior. They now see how determined I am to succeed within my own goals. But yet, with all the pain the remains inside, is what fuels me to become a better person.

Lyrics:

Woah, woah
Hmm, yeah
Woah, woah

I’ve been running outta love and patience 
Baby where you’ve been my heart is racing
You’ve been way to quiet who’s chasing
Lately I’ve been fucking falling smacking pavements
It’s okay now I’m up, up, up
Lately I’ve been giving no fuck, fuck, fucks
I’ve been really tryna fucking run it up, up
But every time when I feel stuck, stuck
It be getting me mad
I be so in my bag
My family sees me upset and they try to make me glad
But I don’t give no fucks now
I just quit smoking loud
Because I’ve been in my head yeah, I’ve been so down
I just got triple five tatted on my wrist now
Because it reminds me every time that I went down
Change is for the better and they happen every season
I’ve been on my own and I’ve been slaying demons

Yeah, I’ve been fucking slaying all these demons
I’ve been fucking praying to god I’ve been preaching
Triple five on my wrist now I’m changing
I just wanna know why you faking

I’ve been running outta love and patience 
Baby where you’ve been my heart is racing
You’ve been way to quiet who’s chasing
Lately I’ve been fucking falling smacking pavements
It’s okay now I’m up, up, up
Lately I’ve been giving no fuck, fuck, fucks
I’ve been really tryna fucking run it up, up
I don’t really got no time for no slut, slut

Like what?
Why are you confused
I’ve been moving forward yeah i felt abused
I’ve been on my lonely shit I’ve been used
I gotta keep on making music until I feel mused

Like what, I’ve been running it up
I’ve been stacking it up
I’ve been grinding, working so damn hard I got no time for no slut
You can back it up
Ima rack it up
I’ve been through so much shit you can’t never change me up

You can never fucking change me
No you can never phase me
My vision clear just like HD
Gotta keep on moving yeah, so steady 

I’ve been running outta love and patience 
Baby where you’ve been my heart is racing
You’ve been way to quiet who’s chasing
Lately I’ve been fucking falling smacking pavements
It’s okay now I’m up, up, up
Lately I’ve been giving no fuck, fuck, fucks
I’ve been really tryna fucking run it up, up
I don’t really got no time for no slut, slut

Outta Love And Patience

-With Track (4) being named "Hold Up" I begin to talk about how I'm trying to get my mind to focus because of how after being in a relationship, it caused me to become more self-aware of myself leading into how I want better things for my life. But the feeling of loneliness really got to me because I've really indulged myself into my ex, thinking that she was the one for me and how I didn't need to worrying about nothing in the world. But trying to mask the pain with external things like drugs and surrounding myself with other people only made my mental worse. So in my verse you can hear when I mentioned how "You gonna catch me at the top" stating how, I will continue to put in the effort to make progression throughout my life. I currently quit all the bad habits that was holding me back so I can replace them with healthier ones.

Lyrics:

Hold up, hold up
can i get my mind to focus
Hold up, hold up
can i get my mind to focus
Lately i’ve been feeling so stranded 
Lately i’ve been feeling so lost

(1TWes)
Aye
Yeah I’m feeling so lost
Lost in this bag nigga chase it like it’s floss
Sike nigga I don’t run, nigga I impress
Niggas talking with chains nigga I don’t flex
Running up a bag
Niggas talking like they gang, nigga I got bags
Niggas running checks, nigga why you looking sad
Yeah I’m on the gram nigga, running up a bag
Yeah I’m texting famous, nigga yeah I’m on this cash
Woah, nigga on a bag
Woah, niggas looking mad
Woah, Running up a bag
Running up a bag
Yeah, I’m running up a bag

Hold up, hold up
can i get my mind to focus
Hold up, hold up
can i get my mind to focus
Lately i’ve been feeling so stranded 
Lately i’ve been feeling so lost

(Skiiii)
Yeah, pick up gotta go 
got no where to go 
tryna make that dough
baby gotta go
let me get some more 
get down on the floor 
baby shake some more 
Show me yeah, who you adore

Hold up, hold up
can i get my mind to focus
Hold up, hold up
can i get my mind to focus
Lately i’ve been feeling so stranded 
Lately i’ve been feeling so lost

everyday when i wake up i be on my own
everyday when i wake up i be on  my phone  
i be making music yeah, i be in my zone 
i just wanna make it out sit on my throne
just one day you gon catch me at the top
just one day ima never fucking stop 
ima keep on grinding ima make em fucking watch 
grinding so damn hard ima never fucking stop

Hold up, hold up
can i get my mind to focus
Hold up, hold up
can i get my mind to focus
Lately i’ve been feeling so stranded 
Lately i’ve been feeling so lost

Hold Up (Feat. 1TWes, Skiiii)

- With Track (1) being named "Another Heartbreak Song" I begin to talk about how I've been "in my head" because of the stress of overthinking that I was the problem that ended us. The guilt feeling of being strapped down by chains makes me feel limited to my capability to proceed forward due to the fact how I feel stranded/lost because I never "found" myself. Than I begin overthinking of how she could've moved on already, filling that void with another person that's providing her love that I once supplied for her. So with that in mind, I started with-drawling the left over love I had for her because I don't wanna place myself in a situation where, she already moved-on while I'm still dealing with the aftermath.

Lyrics:

Lately i’ve been stuck in my head and i’m playing games
im tryna proceed but im strapped down by these chains
im caught in a fire 
got caught by crossfire
and i don’t know who to blame
i’ve been upset 
the things that unsaid
it’s in my head, damn
but look what’s ahead
all the regret 
Through the contacts, damn
 
i’ve been in my head
i’ve been fucking praying to god again
That you will regret 
All the fucking times that we used to spend

We used to spend
now we outside
separate ways
never said a goodbye 
in my head
thinking about the night
that you left 
me, yeah in spite

despite the pain
despite the truth
i just wanna know who’s out there yeah, loving you
when im gone i just wanna know what you gonna do
Because i remember when i was out there loving on you
but now your gone
and now im withdrawn
all my love is gone 
baby i can’t hold on
now you got me out here singing all these heartbrake songs
i just wanna know if you really loved me all along

oh my god (yeah,yeah,yeah)
now i gotta keep on moving forward gotta stay strong
oh my god (yeah,yeah,yeah)
i know that you didn’t really love me all along

Another Heartbreak Song

Living life like a movie
Shoulder roll just like uzi
Show me all of your beauty 

Come and get a little spooky
Shawty showing off her booty
Now she get a lil moody

Misses Casanova i’ve been going up
i’ve been sipping on the drink i’ve been pouring up
up
up
up
up
up
up
up
up
Living life like a movie
Shoulder roll just like uzi
Show me all of your beauty 

Come and get a little spooky
Shawty showing off her booty
Now she get a lil moody

Misses Casanova i’ve been going up
i’ve been sipping on the drink i’ve been pouring up
up
up
up
up
up
up
up
up 



now we going up 
gettin lit in this bitch 
then we pour it up 
with gang and we lit 
then we pull off real quick
uh, uh
make a wish 
all my niggas never stoppin  and we got the rocket and im gonna hit
what you saying what you doing 
come over yeah im screwin
yeah im smoking on that black
give me that bitch 
yeah she trynna be attached
yeah im smoking spliffs 
in this bitch
yeah im with my team 
making music 
yeah im smoking on that dream
yeah im smoking on that dream 
whoa whoa whoa

Yeah we smoking on that dream
Niggas talking crazy ima hit em up with a beam
Coming in crazy got me feeling groovy bitch
I just popped a perky, Nigga feeling really lit uh
Yeah im talking all this shit yeah im flexing in this bitch
I just got a rock nigga sell it really quick uh
pouring up a shot got me feeling really lit uh
Fucking on yo bitch uh
Yeah I chase the dash hit this bitch with a whip uh
I just wanna sell another brick feeling lit uh
Pouring up that green oh
Yeah we pouring up that green yeah

Living life like a movie
Shoulder roll just like uzi
Show me all of your beauty 

Come and get a little spooky
Shawty showing off her booty
Now she get a lil moody

Misses Casanova i’ve been going up
i’ve been sipping on the drink i’ve been pouring up
up
up
up
up
up
up
up
up
Living life like a movie
Shoulder roll just like uzi
Show me all of your beauty 

Come and get a little spooky
Shawty showing off her booty
Now she get a lil moody

Misses Casanova i’ve been going up
i’ve been sipping on the drink i’ve been pouring up
up
up
up
up
up
up
up
up

Ms. Casanova (Feat. Skiiii, 1Twes)

More Than Ever (sped Up)

Created: Tuesday, October 31, 2023, 5:19Am

The meaning to the song is all about life getting harder and harder while the pressure of obtaining your dream feels like it’s getting further and further.

For ilyjxson’s case, he’s about to turn 20 years old on December 27th and in result, life is getting more difficult due to responsibilities piling up.

ilyjxson is currently dealing with life problems which is forcing him to step up to the plate not only for himself, but for his family. As you see in the cover there are 3 people. Those 3 people are his father, his sister, and lastly him in the middle. 

Currently as of December 12th 2023, his father is Experiencing health issues which is a major threat towards his life. And as a result, this is producing major stress onto ilyjxson’s shoulder due to his dream career becoming a musician. Life situations are slowly piling up against Jason which is forcing him to remove his full attention towards his career of making music to prioritize his family’s health. Because as of recently Jason has been having conversations with his family members on how life would be like without him and how they would survive. So this is leading Jason to step up to the plate if shit hits the fan.

As a result in having those conversations with his family members, lately ilyjxson has been dealing with a lot of mental struggles. His positive outlook to life is the only thing that keeps him moving throughout his day. With Jason’s angel number being “555” is to accept change and to make the best of it by becoming the best version of himself. 

ilyjxson makes music to hopefully one day motivate and inspire an entire generation by providing motivational and inspirational music by becoming as vulnerable as possible to allow others to relate to him on a serious note. Because in life we all want the best things and the best achievements, but with this being said, not a lot of light is being shined upon mental illness. Everyday somebody you know is going through it and that same person will tell you that they’re doing fine, when in reality they’re seeking for help. We caved in as a society when it comes to mental health. It got to the point where if somebody is expressing there pain onto social media, others will look at that person as if they’re “weak”. All it takes is one person to genuinely check in with one another to allow them to know that they’re not alone.

Life is simply not easy. So it’s important to keep your loved ones close and to remain the best version of yourself so you can be prepared within any situation life throws at you. Continue striving for greatness no matter what circumstances you face in life. You got to believe in yourself before others can believe in you.

So with that being said, Always keep it a 555.

Pressure

In the creation of this song, there weren’t any lyrics written, any thought behind it, or any structure that helped build this song and the music video. It was just created. But as I listen to this song I can view it from many angles. I can view as a Christmas song, a heart-break type-of song, a get together type-of song, and many more. There's no box where this song fits into. It's just a work of art that was generated from within.

Time Of The Season

Life without changes is like pineapple on pizza…


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