I Don't Really Get it [p.mssnger]

i don’t know if i’m ready
but you’re acting so petty
she said what’s the problem i said there’s too fucking many
i don’t know if i regret it
i wish i could forget it
but if i said i love you then you know i fucking meant it

still beats another night alone in silence 
if i could change myself i’d tell myself to try and hide it
this type of feeling got me feeling like i cannot fight it
make our time together last as we both keep on lying

why am i chasing a feeling i just do not need

catch me if i fall when i’m out of rope
hear me when i talk but you fucking don’t
it’s hard to receive any of my attention
but you’re so god damn lovely i’m distracted

why am i chasing a feeling i just do not need

don’t know why i’ve been so bitter so long after the fact

your memory dug my emotions up they just keep flooding back
and every time im in bed alone i’m running back again

i'm running back again

not looking for guidance alone on the road i still put on the mileage
looking for peace but don't see it inside when i’m closing my eyelids
remember been searching forever so long and i still cannot find it
taking a break cannot make me feel better believe me i’ve tried it

always have issues with not being satisfied i am my father's son
i tried to keep it together but i guess she’s not the one

i am so sorry for the way that i reacted
it takes practice

regret

Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KolZJ7TPfFY
ss03
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song with @1glaive : _)
lyrics:
---what was the last thing you said?
i took like over a year to get you out my head
and now i can’t sleep 
thinking bout everything and all the things we did
and i don’t think i miss you
i don’t miss the shit that we been through
but now i’m stuck with this
try not to reminisce 
or i think i’ll start to miss you

i don’t know how to explain it
a year of racking my brain and i hated it 
it’s like i’m holding onto something that you never did
it’s like i’ll never have something just like we did
it’s like i’ll never hold hands with someone again
it’s like i’ll never introduce them to my friends
i guess it’s the end 

just fucking look at you 
you moved on so fast like did you want me in the first place 
i wish you the best but only mean that in the worse way 
took you only a month to act like everything
was ok
you fell right in love with him like i was just a half-way
now i’m all on my own need someone to talk to
my friends all abandoned me cause they’d rather choose you 
this shit is so draining need to do something brand new
i get tossed up and used then thrown away like some old shoes
like fucking look at you 
i think that you’re right i’m not the person that i used to be
i can’t even hide that fact that this was all because of me
i made my mistakes i let my head get straight to jealousy 
all cause i thought i'd be the only one u  ever see
but you have to remind me 
you have to remind me
cause i know you said something
something with meaning
it was as i was leaving i could’ve been dreaming
you have to remind me remind me of one thing

what was the last thing you said?
i swear i didn’t mean to leave you on read
but now it’s morning
everyone’s sleeping 
and i can’t decide if i should get out of bed
like i don’t wanna miss you 
i don’t miss the shit that we been through 
but now i’m stuck with this 
try not to reminisce or i think i’ll start to miss you
it seems like everyday i look at the pictures
a couple years of my life in a camera roll 
i’m thinking maybe i really miss it
reliving memories as i start to scroll
it feels like lately i’ve been stuck and i can’t reach my goals 
and i can’t get myself out ive been stuck in a hole
i’m really starting to believe it’s the end

GLAIVE:
dude that this point it doesn’t even matter like fuck

every time they talk about us they say we went hollywood but 
if there ever was a spot to take i think they probably would cause 
every single zoloft that i take don’t do me any good but 
black hair black nails she thinks she’s misunderstood but
she don’t know me like she think she does
and i’ll be lying if said i gave a single fuck
and then you push me down and then you pick me up i’m like
one fight away from getting tired and giving up

just fucking look at you 
you moved on so fast like did you want me in the first place 
i wish you the best but only mean that in the worse way 
took you only a month to act like everything
was ok
you fell right in love with him like i was just a half-way
now i’m all on my own need someone to talk to
my friends all abandoned me cause they’d rather choose you 
this shit is so draining need to do something brand new
but after all that was said i don’t regret that i knew you

what was the last thing u said w/ glaive

selfish(v1)

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Collab w/ @yurmsauce & @rouri404
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(Yurms)
Sometimes I wonder if you're bored yet
Something's telling me that I should pull the chord now
I'm having trouble expressing myself I'm upset
To do the math millimeters to my forehead
Only time I'm ever clean is in the morning
It's like every time I'm clean I can't ignore it
I wanna talk and it's okay if you ignore it
Cus' honestly I'm like the easiest to forget
Don't say you love me I can feel I'm unimportant
Open my mouth and i feel like I'm a burden
Just say you hate me Doesn't matter how you word it
I've been screaming out for help and you don't hear it
This little voice inside my head said go to war yet
I see the light but I'm not feeling better
Said that we would be together
Had no money to my name
Used to have to eat together
Hated being poor but I adored it
I gave you a warning
I don't wanna wake up in the morning
I can't sleep it's so annoying
Tell me you don't believe me I was dying
Stuck in these walls maybe I'm the burden
Hate myself so much I'm worried
That if I leave no one would mourn me
I can't stop the world from turning
(rouri404)
I don't really wanna know the shit that you do
Play me for a bitch yeah you act like I'm a fool
Treat me like the dirt we'll be under pretty soon
It's cruel yeah just use me as a tool
Meet my doom with a smile on
Crying hallelujah we both know that I was wrong
I don't know if I focus too much on the small things
Every time we speak you be tearing at my heart strings
Rip it all up and throw away
Ask if I'm good like go away
I don't really wanna talk today
Feelings changed when you walked away
Knowing things will never be the same
Who the fuck is there to blame
(Yurms)
I gave you a warning
I don't wanna wake up in the morning
I can't sleep it's so annoying
Tell me you don't believe me I was dying
Stuck in these walls maybe I'm the burden
Hate myself so much I'm worried
That if I leave no one would mourn me
I can't stop the world from turning

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blame (Yurms x rouri404)

real life shit u wouldnt get it 
ft. @original-god
prod. @deadyami

ly:
(intro: iris day)
if i dont wanna crawl back to you
what do you think that i should do?
cause everybody wnats me to to leave
but i dont really wanna see you bleed, tonight

(verse 1: iris day)
i never wanna come back to you
got blood on my hands and blood on my shoes
and everybody wants me to leave
but they dont see that i grieve in my own way
no shame, liquor in my blood and in the hallways
where cigarette smoke hangs clearly
and memories come back early
i know that you’ll miss me dearly

(chorus: iris day)
i wont die tonight
wipe that sweat from my eyes
you won’t cry tonight
i’ll wipe those tears from your eyes
and i kinda miss the old me
when i would cry and breathe slowly
how did you make it so complicated?
all of the time that i wasted

(verse 2: iris day)
thinking of you and i,
it was so easy in my mind
heart breaks when you’re in sight
dawn breaks ever so clearly
the night ends and everything’s misty
you’re gone and you’re never gonna miss me
am i wrong is there something that i had missed
it’s all done and you’re never gonna touch me again

(verse 3: original god) 
cause if you touch me
i might scream
 i might just beg for some more 
im fucked up, always 
eating away at my core 
is this how you always pictured itd end 
oh 
is this how 
i promise we cant be friends 

(chorus: iris day)
i wont die tonight
wipe that sweat from my eyes
you won’t cry tonight
i’ll wipe those tears from your eyes
and i kinda miss the old me
when i would cry and breathe slowly
how did you make it so complicated?
all of the time that i wasted

(outro: iris day)
every summer time you’re here
i will think of you my love
and every time that you’re alone
i hope you think of me above
and below
theres a place for you to call home
and you know
theres a place inside my heart for you, too

crawl

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lyrics:
i dont think i can get over this..
shes holding me down while theres guns to my head..
i jus wish she loved me like she loved him..

but truly we never get what we want
every time we talk its always breaking my heart
i know you say you love him but i treat you better
i wont tell you what to do
but i think thats the wrong move
i think that i lost it
my minds a moshpit
i think that im sick in the head
n i cant get past this
i got over stimulated aimin for the bathroom
i got lost along the way now im stuck in the backrooms
you say that ur just friends w him but ion know what that includes
im havin a panic attack
n ion know what to do
just point me in the right direction
we fell off like a disconnection
i guess that i dont get to say anything its case closed

i hope that ur happier
i hope that u start smilin
x3

ion understand why you always win the arguments
i have things to say and ion think u comprehend them
why is it jus such an issue jus to let me talk
ill jus shut up
ill just stop
please dont tell me that your coming back for me
i think that i told you that he didnt really love you
you want me back but i dont think i trust you
im sorry baby i think that were threw..

but truly we never get what we want
every time we talk its always breaking my heart
i know you say you love him but i treat you better
i wont tell you what to do
but i think thats the wrong move
i think that i lost it
my minds a moshpit
i think that im sick in the head
n i cant get past this
i got over stimulated aimin for the bathroom
i got lost along the way now im stuck in the backrooms
x2

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backrooms (ria)

produced by skress, ssort, dazegxd and myself

see me (skress, ssort, dazegxd, mochila)

screams by @johnnascus 
produced by me! first in a long time haha
new version of an old one
co-written by @samthraxx
art by 8485
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