I BEEN LEARNIN SHI THAT U CANT EVEN TEACH

@xternalz
@awwy2k
@akayaiog (mastered)
"im trying, so wait for me"
what i said back then it doesnt mean a thing
stop your crying, I dont want to see you bleed
you're making me
yeah you're making me not want to breathe
yeah you're making me not want to breathe
when i see you you make it too hard for me
(for me)
i know you wont let me be
i know you wont let me leave

its like its been repeating in my head
all the cruel things that you said
lately ive been hanging by a thread
if i lose it think ill end up dead
im sorry i hurt you
but im not the only one
for this to happen it takes two
you know what you put me through
we gotta deal with what we've been through
(im sorry this has to end)
we gotta deal with what we've been through
(cant put me through this again)
through this again

i cant deal with this no more in my head
could never lie to myself
and take you back
if i try i'd lose my health
and ill start to crack
ill leave it all behind
will you stay out of my mind
i just wish you would let me go

i know you wont let me be
i know you wont let me leave

its like its been repeating in my head
all the cruel things that you said
lately ive been hanging by a thread
if i lose it think ill end up dead
im sorry i hurt you
but im not the only one
for this to happen it takes two
you know what you put me through
we gotta deal with what we've been through
(im sorry this has to end)
we gotta deal with what we've been through
(cant put me through this again)
through this again

xternalz - reminiscing (kidu)

jan/oct2023 solo clips

https://open.spotify.com/track/1mevq4WBt5emTobjnaoVHc?si=1a9690b3312b4b7d
@shorudakun
@prodjayysoul

Spotify Link

1 of 1 ft. shoruda (Jayysoul)

https://open.spotify.com/track/4Ev3mG67Ou4kocopjaJb5R?si=d22bd64a93634ede
[Chorus]
I'm only winnin I don't know defeat,
Runnin yo mouth you aint talkin to me,
You gettin money but you can't compete,
I keep a blicky right under my seat,
I been learnin shit that you can't even teach,
I'm off these drugs and they makin me sleep,
Tryna quit but I'm in too deep,
Chillin with a bad bitch on a beach,
Yea he getting money but he can't compete,
Gotta watch my step cause I can't move wrong,
Came in this bitch and I'm too calm,
No I ain't been at this for too long,
Leavin shit in the past gotta move on,
Rockin Rick owne see what I put on,
You just mad cause you don't know whats goin on,
Yea it's hard but I gotta keep holdin on,

[Verse]
Throw a red beam on a tech nine,
I ain't feelin her I had to decline,
Say we cool but he ain't a friend a mine,
Iced out watch and it can't even tell time,
Bring it here ima take whats mine,
Bad bitch tryna hit my line,
Ima just take my time,

Up that choppa and you don't know what to do,
If you say fuck me you know it's fuck you too,
If you holdin that gun then you better shoot,
Hope you know I could neva compete with you,
Hard times I hate when rains,
Think he hard put fire to the flame,
I put 20 racks on a chain,
Man just look how far we came,

Ride in a rose royce in a cullinan

I'm gettin new money yea it's commin in,
Had to call Jayy and tell em we locked in,
Know I'm drivin to fast in this new benz,
Life of sin gotta clense my soul,
Back against the wall I still wont fold,
So much shit that I can't control,
Can't believe she broke my heart,
Can't believe she hurt my soul,
But i got brand new bitch,
Gott stay on my toes,
I guess you know how it goes,
Bullets hot just like they came off the stove,
Ain't crazy how I switch up the flows,
Had some highs and I had some lows,

[Chorus]
I'm only winnin I don't know defeat,
Runnin yo mouth you aint talkin to me,
You gettin money but you can't compete,
I keep a blicky right under my seat,
I been learnin shit that you can't even teach,
I'm off these drugs and they makin me sleep,
Tryna quit but I'm in too deep,
Chillin with a bad bitch on a beach,
Yea he getting money but he can't compete,
Gotta watch my step cause I can't move wrong,
Came in this bitch and I'm too calm,
No I ain't been at this for too long,
Leavin shit in the past gotta move on,
Rockin Rick owne see what I put on,
You just mad cause you don't know whats goin on,
Yea it's hard but I gotta keep holdin on

Compete (Jayysoul & Zenshee)

prod @kuriyai443

lyrics:
i wouldve done anything to stop it
kinda glad i broke down and i lost it
tryna fix my own heart its not mending
think i need you right now to stop the bleeding

but you caress my cheek girl im under your spell
break me to pieces but im wishing you well

i dont wanna break us
tell me what to do to fix us?

shit i knew it wouldnt last from the start
i cant take no damage to my heart
its so fragile from the years i was shielded
was it love or a weapon that you wielded?
soft kiss on my lips and you healed it
took advantage of my trust and you broke it
i cant love no more yeah you tore it
shed a tear for my soul ill keep breaking

wish u well (kuriyai)

[vilse]
why he talkin tough?
yeh, im up w the squad u want him dead leave it to us
uh, if he keep on talkin up the 40 let it bust ah, ah
i cant get enough ah, ah
come with me and live it up, ah

yh, im up w the gang like we nsync or smth
yeh, if we pull up to the club then we gon leave it jumpin
yeah, pourin toxic in my cup so all my feelings numbin
im glad i got rich but swear to god that i had seen it comin

[sora]
yea, shawty bad
it's tempting, but i just can't fold
don't know when i'm coming home
she know i've been on the road
ahhhhh
like, i don't wanna link & go
so i think we should chill & wait
before i fucking lose control
wait- i gotta stay calm & just move at my pace
smoking Green Gardens, this shit is not laced
i push up to Philly, i'm chillin with stay!
ahhhhh
hittin the city, i roll with FK (fa$hion killa)
it's not just alright, bitch it's been a great day
so i like to get down & pray

[vilse]
uh-huh
i fucked up my system with a pill now i can't feel my face
that boy wanna talk i up the pistol i'm not one to play
i know that he mad that i got rich and it's going my way
i had shit friends eatin off my plate

iNSYNC w/ sora (tores)

https://open.spotify.com/track/2n2LfbSoNJrZ2rpQp03etq?si=7e6b465795864ffe
I been busy but I got some time today,
Say I am but i'm not ok,
Ain't no sleepin i'm wide awake,
I can't even tell the real from fake,
I ain't really got no time to play,
You don't get it we see different ways,
You don't understand the time it takes,
Busy but I got some time today,
Baby if i'm gone can you hold it down,
Choppa on me hold a couple hundred rounds,
Swear I feel like times always runnin out,
Chillin with my feet up layin on the couch,
If they know the play run a different route,
Shooters in the North shooters in the south,
I been smokin gas I been smokin loud,
Girl when I was lost you the one I found,

I just hope that I'm doin the right things,
Hope that I'm livin the right way,
Can you just tell me it's ok,

I been busy but I got some time today,
Say I am but i'm not ok,
Ain't no sleepin i'm wide awake,
I can't even tell the real from fake,
I ain't really got no time to play,
You don't get it we see different ways,
You don't understand the time it takes,
Busy but I got some time today,
Baby if i'm gone can you hold it down,
Choppa on me hold a couple hundred rounds,
Swear I feel like times always runnin out,
Chillin with my feet up layin on the couch,
If they know the play run a different route,
Shooters in the North shooters in the south,
I been smokin gas I been smokin loud,
Girl when I was lost you the one I found

Time Today (Jayysoul x Rioxion x dami4k)

@i437 @hatevital

xx

@zurahh
when i go
i dont wanna stay long
make me bleedout
make sure that its fatal
 
i dont know
why they love to go
left me lone
left me in a coma

i geek just like its dota
i cant feel i just go numb
im up just like sum mocha
kill myself, persona

@mental
could you make sure that i die
i cant live like this for the rest of my life
not an angel you cant teach me how to fly
taught me how to love and taught me how to cry
know im guilty, ill let you kill me
im filthy, save me with a kiss please
since 16 ive hoped you that you'd miss me
can you really break me to build me

fatal + mental (lurv vital)

@akasukii @kuriyai443

all that you said to me you left me hurt
why did you throw all of this in the dirt
girl you just left me sitting on the curb
with a cigarette and a hole in my shirt

now i don't know what to do about it 
how should i felt should have i doubted
maybe i should have thought about it 
baby i shouldn't have shouted

all that you said to me you left me hurt
why did you throw all of this in the dirt
girl you just left me sitting on the curb
with a cigarette and a hole in my shirt

@akasukii
you left me with nothing and now i'm hurt
i didnt think it could've gotten worse
but you proved me wrong over and over
yeah, yeah, we're so over
i thought you would be my four-leaf clover
but now i'm here begging for closure
i thought that i could trust her 

@akari47
all that you said to me you left me hurt
why did you throw all of this in the dirt
girl you just left me sitting on the curb
with a cigarette and a hole in my shirt

left me hurt + akasuki (kuriyai)

from 11 March 2022, performed and composed by me

"can ----xcsd tell me if i did something wrong?
im so tired bottling this emotion,
i feel like we0--xdxxfxx tarted to change
and idk why, maybe im just overthinked it
but please just tell me if i did something that annoy -xxde- please,
i will change i just dont wanna losexxd--w smeone ever again. 
my heartbeat cant stop beating, im so tired n--x anxious
i keep overthinking li-sdsgcfffdi-d u hate me, or did u find me annoying
idk why i feel this way
so tired and anxious"ssccxx
dd :<<<DWJOIOsksaa

sorry, i just overthinkd it, maybe its all right afterall
maybe its just on my mind afterall.
in the edzdxxxdvbnd i still have people twwx supports me
in the end its just my mind afterall--xxsf
maybe i should stop worrying about this, if only i could.

"a goodbye too soon"

so tired

prod.
@rewind214
@yashio20k

notes:
i cant recover
but its the best i can do...

//

[shiro]
i cant shake this feeling anymore
yh i feel like closing all my doors
shakin, u left me on the floor yh
broken, my lifes such a bore yh
walk out, in the rain, n its pourin
tried to see the point but im ignorin
all the things that uve done
throw my feelings in the dirt, n im left in the mud

yh left it in the past
yh im over that
u dnt wna play these games yh i get that
u'd promised me that this would be the last
but u didnt kno that it would come crawlin back
kno that i cant keep things intact
yh i wnt ur love, but i cant get that
so im always tryna fix things but i know that ur not coming back

[hook]

//

Compete (Jayysoul & Zenshee)

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