Its raining
I remember those days where i danced in the rain
Jumped in the pools, but now i watch with pain.

Pain in my heart
I am getting older, am i too old?
Where are those days where i used to be bold??

I miss my childhood..
Those days were so good
But deep in my heart im still that child
Deep in my heart im still wild
Yeah deep down i know, i'll always be that child

But is it wrong to embrace your innerchild?
Or is it part of the healing?
Because theres alot with what im dealing
Is it wrong to live in your own fantasy?
A fantasy i enjoy and only i can see?
Is it wrong? Or just part of me?

I miss my childhood..
Those days were so good
But deep in my heart im still that child
Deep in my heart im still wild
Yeah deep down i know, i'll always be that child

And i know that its okay
I shouldnt care about what other people say
I should live and enjoy every day

But is it wrong to embrace your innerchild?
Or is it part of the healing?
Because theres alot with what im dealing
Is it wrong to live in your own fantasy?
A fantasy i enjoy and only i can see?
Is it wrong? Or just part of me?

Just as how i am
I am good and enough
Sometimes people tell me difderently..
But then lets pretend we dont hear them, pretending we dont see--
See all mean things they say
Because i am cool and verry much okay

And i know that its okay
I shouldnt care about what other people say
I should live and enjoy every day

Childhood memories

my Lord, i wanna give you my heart
wanna give you my entire life
Because you are the living God
you can do anything, more than alot

you decided to live a life as a human,
u came to earth as a little baby
you gave your sun jesus Christ
yeah its Your son that got sacrificed

He paid the price
now im living, but thanks to Him i'll be living twice
here and now and in heaven again, if i'll follow your Advice

[refrain]
u made the people and the Angels from above
you are so amazing, yeah, a God of love
please come live into my heart
i dont ever wanna be away from you, no, never apart

God you're my number 1
cuz there is no one like you, not anyone
when i look at my dad i see a Father
just like that you wanna be my father

when im having a difficult moment
you're always there
when im crying, you count my tears
u wipe them carefully and know all my fears

u made the people and the Angels from above
you are so amazing, yeah, a God of love
please come live into my heart
i dont ever wanna be away from you, no, never apart

God, im thankfull for having you in my life
please let your spirit give me wisdom
God, thank you for all the beautifull things in this world, that i can see and feel
when i look at your creation there are broken parts of me that i feel heal 

my Lord, i wanna give you my heart
wanna give you my entire life
Because you are the living God
you can do anything, more than alot

u made the people and the Angels from above
you are so amazing, yeah, a God of love
please come live into my heart
i dont ever wanna be away from you, no, never apart

Give You my heart

I depend on You, Lord, my Savior,
In the chaos, You're my peace, my favor.
When the world falls down in disbelief,
You bring relief, You’re my hope, my belief.

In the stillness, I hear Your voice,
Calling me to trust, to make a choice.

When my heart begins to freeze,
And the shadows try to steal my peace,
I’ll stand firm, for I know You’re near,
Your love, it casts out every fear.
In the grave, You rose again,
Defeating death, You made a way, Amen.

In moments of shock, when I can’t see,
You remind me of the victory.
Dramatic is the cross You bore,
But it’s Your grace that I adore.

In the stillness, I hear Your voice,
Calling me to trust, to make a choice.

When my heart begins to freeze,
And the shadows try to steal my peace,
I’ll stand firm, for I know You’re near,
Your love, it casts out every fear.
In the grave, You rose again,
Defeating death, You made a way, Amen.

You took my pain, my broken soul,
In Your arms, You make me whole.
I’ll depend on You, You are my light,
You turned the darkest night so bright.


When my heart begins to freeze,
And the shadows try to steal my peace,
I’ll stand firm, for I know You’re near,
Your love, it casts out every fear.
In the grave, You rose again,
Defeating death, You made a way, Amen.


I depend on You, always, always…
In You, I find relief, always, always…
I’ll trust in You forever,
With You, I’ll rise forevermore.

I depend on You

Silent ember, tatakai e
守るべきもの, never let it fade
Yami no naka, I hold the light
燃える心, guiding through the night

Kaze ga sasayaku, carrying my flame
夜のささやき, calling out my name

Burning soul, kagayake
守るべきもの, I won’t break
Yami no naka, hear my cry
燃える心, reaching for the sky

Burning soul, kagayake
守るべきもの, I won’t break
Yami no naka, hear my cry
燃える心, reaching for the sky

Through shattered paths, I walk alone
暗闇の中で, yet courage has grown
With every step, I face the fear
Kimi no tame ni, I am always near

Flames arise where shadows bend
心の奥で, my strength will never end
Through the forest, past the darkest glen
Kaze ni nosete, I rise again


[Refrein (repeated)]
Burning soul, kagayake
守るべきもの, I won’t break
Yami no naka, hear my cry
燃える心, reaching for the sky

Burning soul, kagayake
守るべきもの, I won’t break
Yami no naka, hear my cry
燃える心, reaching for the sky


Hikari sashite, through the fight
Kimi to boku, hold on tight
Fading shadows, drifting free
星屑の道, follow me

Moonlit rivers, flowing pure and wide
月の涙, reflecting by my side
I fight for hope, with every strike I give
Kimi to boku, for as long as I live


Silent ember, tatakai e
守るべきもの, shining endlessly
Yami no naka, I walk the line
燃える心, forever you are mine

Breath of Dawn — Tanjiro

I feel the hunger crawling up my spine
A little poison in my breath, but I’m still fine
The moon is laughing at the mess I left behind
Don’t try to save me, I was never yours to find

I taste the heartbeat under fragile skin
The way you tremble pulls me deeper in
A little closer and the nightmare will begin
You want the danger, I can see it in your grin

You keep running but you’re begging me to stay
You keep screaming but you love it when I play
You keep bleeding like you want to fade away
So take my hand, I’ll drag you into my decay

Bite down, lock your fears in the dark
I’m a shadow with a flame for a heart
Bite down, let me tear you apart
You’re the victim and I’m calling it art
Bite down, feel the pull of the spark
You’re the candle and I’m lighting the dark
Bite down, baby don’t make it hard
Let the night come in and swallow the scars

Your holy water never burned me right
Your silver weapons only made me bite
You prayed for angels but I killed the light
And whispered softly: “You were built for the night”

I see the madness hiding in your stare
You want the evil, but you say beware
I drag my claws across your skin like I don’t care
But you keep begging for the thrill of the despair

You keep running but you’re begging me to stay
You keep screaming but you love it when I play
You keep bleeding like you want to fade away
So take my hand, I’ll drag you into my decay

Bite down, lock your fears in the dark
I’m a shadow with a flame for a heart
Bite down, let me tear you apart
You’re the victim and I’m calling it art
Bite down, feel the pull of the spark
You’re the candle and I’m lighting the dark
Bite down, baby don’t make it hard
Let the night come in and swallow the scars

Yeah, I’m the creature that you swore you’d fight
But you love the danger when I hold you tight
You want the chaos that destroys your life
So come a little closer, let me end your light

Bite down, lock your fears in the dark
I’m a shadow with a flame for a heart
Bite down, let me tear you apart
You’re the victim and I’m calling it art
Bite down, feel the pull of the spark
You’re the candle and I’m lighting the dark
Bite down, baby don’t make it hard
Let the night come in and swallow the scars

Bite Down

All hands on deck,
Get your lazy asses up and quickly,
There’s a strange noise on the horizon.

Aye aye, Captain!

The talkative winds are whispering curses through the sails,
A disco of ghostly lights flickers far across the sea,
Our boat shivers like it knows what’s watching from down below,
Silver shadows glide underneath, too silent to be free,

The sea hums a lullaby that’s colder than the looming doom,
Lights bend and twist like they’re dancing out of tune,
And something calls our names, promising nothing but doom soon.

There’s a heap of bone and blood,
Crash your ship and hear the thud,
Come a little closer and we will treat you with love with our “razor-sharp teeth”
So delicious, haha, you’re meat!

Shut your ears and kill your fears,
Don’t let their whispers drag you near,
Hoist yourselves up, lay to the mast,
Steel your nerves for this voyage is long and the ocean vast,
Steel your nerves for we might not leave free,
So don’t listen and get dragged into the deep.
(Deep, deep)

We try our best, we try to hold on tight,
But we’re scared we won’t make it through the night!!
Ayayayay, oh my oh my,
Whispers in the sea, but they’re all a lie
Ayayayay, oh my oh my,

Licking our lips
Shaking our hips
We are telling beautiful lies—
Making sure everyone dies
We are hungry, gotta eat,
Anyway, to us you’re just meat.

Shut your ears and kill your fears,
Don’t let their whispers drag you near,
Hoist yourselves up, lay to the mast,
Steel your nerves for this voyage is long and the ocean vast,
Steel your nerves for we might not leave free,
So don’t listen and get dragged into the deep.
(Deep, deep, deep)

We try our best, we try to hold on tight,
But we’re scared we won’t make it through the night!!
Ayayayay, oh my oh my,
Whispers in the sea, but they’re all a lie
Ayayayay, oh my oh my,

But then the Captain’s eyes opened
He had fallen for the whispers that lied
Until now he still had hope and—
Thought they’d make it through
But now he sees he had already lost his crew…
Sad and scared he looks in the siren’s eyes,
Screaming, yelling, how could I fall for their—lies.

And so he sails alone,
Carrying his crew of bone,
Steel your nerves as his mind numbs and turns to stone.


So here’s the story, my guys,
Never believe anyone’s lies.



Beautiful Lies but Deadly Tides

I waited for love, but you weren't there
Cold walls answered with empty air
You never gave what I kept needing
I'm done with all the lies, but I keep bleeding

I called your name, but no one came
Silence hit harder than any blame
I held on tight, but hope fell through
Now I see the truth that lives in you

They call it a family affair
But don't call it blood affair
Because there is no love affair
You don't pray for love
Command for love
You don't expect love
Thats why you're still waiting for love
You didn't care
Cuz you didn't receive love from your family affair

You broke me down, but I still stood
Tried to love you more than I ever could
You taught my heart what pain can do
It hit me hard and left my days all blue

I tried to forgive, but scars remain
I built my walls to shelter my pain
Now I choose the love I want to keep
No more waiting in the dark and deep

They call it a family affair
But don't call it blood affair
Because there is no love affair
You don't pray for love
Command for love
You don't expect love
Thats why you're still waiting for love
You didn't care
Cuz you didn't receive love from your family affair

They call it a family affair
But that's not fair
Who are they to judge and talk?
I've walked my path, I'll choose my walk

I'm walking free, no chains remain
I found my voice, I own my pain
The past is gone, but I've grown strong
This is my life, my heart, my song

Family affair

In the silent night, Your glory lit the sky so bright,
A humble King born low, yet full of holy light.
Angels filled the sky with their beautiful wings,
Singing the most beautiful song for the King of kings.


Glory! Glory!
Hallelujah, to the king of light!
Holy! holy!
Hallelujah, this is a holy night!


Shepherds in the fields looked up and saw the light,
A promise from above breaking through the night.
They heard angels sing,
Glory, glory to the newborn King!


Holy is the night we sing.
Glory to the newborn King.
Hallelujah Hallelujah
Glory to the newborn King.
Peace is born on this holy night.
Joy and love are shining bright.
Hallelujah Hallelujah
Praise the Lord, the gift of light.

Glory! Glory!
Hallelujah, to the king of light!
Holy! holy!
Hallelujah, this is a holy night!

Three wise men traveled far to see the holy light,
Following the star that shone so clear and bright.
With gifts of gold, myrrh, and frankincense they bring,
Glory, glory to the newborn King!

The world rejoices now, the Savior has come near,
Hearts are filled with hope, casting out all fear.
Every heart on earth now lifts its voice and sings,
Glory, glory to the King of kings!

Holy is the night we sing.
Glory to the newborn King.
Hallelujah Hallelujah
Glory to the newborn King.
Peace is born on this holy night.
Joy and love are shining bright.
Hallelujah Hallelujah
Praise the Lord, the gift of light.

Glory! Glory!
Hallelujah, to the king of light!
Holy! holy!
Hallelujah, this is a holy night!

Holy night, we lift our hearts in praise,
Glory to the King who lights our days.
Hallelujah Hallelujah, forever we will sing,
Glory, glory to our newborn King.


Glory! Glory!
Hallelujah, to the king of light!
Holy! holy!
Hallelujah, this is a holy night!


Glory! Glory!
Hallelujah, to the king of light!
Holy! holy!
Hallelujah, this is a holy night!

A song to the King of kings

Gele bloemen voor mijn deur
k pak ze op en ruik de geur
Daarna gooi ik ze ik de prul
Wat moet ik met dat spul?

Ik ben niet geïnteresseerd
Maarja, wel leuk geprobeerd!
Ik waardeer de inzet
Maar bloemen geven mij geen pret

Harten breken is een kunst, en ik speel het spel,
Wil je indruk maken, dan moet je betalen, en snel,
Wil je bij me zijn, dan moet je alles geven,
Anders lach ik alleen en laat je leven beven.

Ik wil chocolade,
Ringen, armbanden, ja de duurste sieraden
Geef mij kleding
Schoenen, jurken, alles, bling bling!
Geef me al je geld
Misschien ben je dan mijn held
Zeg dat je van me houd
Dan scheur ik je hart in tweeën, Maar het laat me koud

Je denkt dat jij mij kan verleiden
Maar ik laat me echt niet leiden
Als je mij wilt imponeren
Zal je toch wat meer moeten proberen.

Liefde is saai, ik wil cash,
Geef mij alles wat blinkt, anders ben je trash.

Harten breken is een kunst, en ik speel het spel,
Wil je indruk maken, dan moet je betalen, en snel,
Wil je bij me zijn, dan moet je alles geven,
Anders lach ik alleen en laat je leven beven.

Ik wil chocolade,
Ringen, armbanden, ja de duurste sieraden
Geef mij kleding
Schoenen, jurken, alles, bling bling!
Geef me al je geld
Misschien ben je dan mijn held
Zeg dat je van me houd
Dan scheur ik je hart in tweeën, Maar het laat me koud

Dus kom maar op, verras me dan,
Laat zien hoeveel je werkelijk kan.
Maar verwacht geen warmte of een zoen,
Ik ben hier alleen om te doen wat ik wil doen.

Ik wil chocolade,
Ringen, armbanden, ja de duurste sieraden
Geef mij kleding
Schoenen, jurken, alles, bling bling!
Geef me al je geld
Misschien ben je dan mijn held
Zeg dat je van me houdt
Dan scheur ik je hart in tweeën, Maar het laat me koud

Dus zet die bloemen maar weer neer,
Ik gooi ze weg, keer op keer.
Ik kies voor glitter, goud en pracht,
Liefde? Nee hoor — niet vannacht.

Geen Liefdes Interesse

In de stille nacht, Uw glorie straalt zo zacht, zo licht,
Een Koning nederig geboren, in een eenvoudig gezicht.
Eng’len vulden ’t hemeldek met vleugels wijd,
Zongen hun loflied voor de Koning der eeuwigheid.

Herders op het veld, zij zagen plots het schijnend licht,
Een hemels grote belofte brak door de duisternis in ’t zicht.
Zij hoorden eng’len zingen in één harmonie:
“Ere, ere aan de nieuwgeboren Koning, Halleluja, Halleluja, glorie, glorie!

Heilig is de nacht van zang,
Ere aan de Koning, nieuw maar voor eeuwig lang.
Halleluja, Halleluja,
Ere aan de nieuwgeboren Koning, een koning voor jou en mij
Een koning ook voor iedereen hier op de kinderboerderij 

Vrede kwam in deze heil’ge nacht,
Vreugd’ en liefde stralen zacht.
Halleluja, Halleluja,
Prijs de Heer, het licht dat leven bracht.

Drie wijzen trokken ver, geleid door heil’ge pracht,
Ze volgden trouw de ster die helder straalde in de nacht.
Met goud, mirre en wierook kwamen zij in aanbidding:
“Ere, ere aan de nieuwgeboren Koning!”

De wereld juicht nu mee, de Redder is nabij,
Hoop vult onze harten, angst is voorgoed voorbij.
Elke stem die klinkt, verheft zich als één ding:
“Ere, ere aan de Koning der koningen!”

Heilig is de nacht van zang,
Ere aan de Koning, nieuw maar voor eeuwig lang.
Halleluja, Halleluja,
Ere aan de nieuwgeboren Koning, een koning voor jou en mij
Een koning ook voor iedereen hier op de kinderboerderij 

Vrede kwam in deze heil’ge nacht,
Vreugd’ en liefde stralen zacht.
Halleluja, Halleluja,
Prijs de Heer, het licht dat leven bracht.

Heil’ge nacht, wij heffen nu ons hart omhoog,
Ere aan de Koning die ons leidt door elke boog.
Halleluja, Halleluja, voor eeuwig zingen wij:
“Ere, ere aan de Koning, hij maakt ons voor altijd vrij.”

Kerst op de kinderboerderij (Kerst 2025 special event)

Shattered signals 
The skyline bends in colors I can’t comprehend
Footsteps echo softly where the circuits twist and bend
A shadow moves beside me, silent but alive
暗闇の中で, I feel the city breathe and sigh

Every flicker, every pulse, reminds me of your name
I chase the phantom signals, playing this endless game

Ashes fall, I heed the call
Wires break, I face it all
Yami no naka, hikari ga saku
Kimi to boku, zutto tsuzuku taku

Ashes fall, I heed the call
Wires break, I face it all
Yami no naka, hikari ga saku
Kimi to boku, zutto tsuzuku taku

Wires hum a warning, yet I step into the fray
The night devours the corners where the powerless sway
A fleeting voice calls softly, fading in the glow
星屑の雨, I follow where the currents flow

Every heartbeat strikes a code I cannot break
I trace the fleeting moments that the shadows make

Ashes fall, I heed the call
Wires break, I face it all
Yami no naka, hikari ga saku
Kimi to boku, zutto tsuzuku taku

Ashes fall, I heed the call
Wires break, I face it all
Yami no naka, hikari ga saku
Kimi to boku, zutto tsuzuku taku

If the wires fracture and the worlds collapse on me
心の奥で, I fight to still be free
Through echoes, through corruption, through the endless night
遠い光まで, I’ll reach the fading light

Ashes fall, I heed the call
Wires break, I face it all
Yami no naka, hikari ga saku
Kimi to boku, zutto tsuzuku taku

Ashes fall, I heed the call
Wires break, I face it all
Yami no naka, hikari ga saku
Kimi to boku, zutto tsuzuku taku


Shattered Signals (inspired by the anime “Charlotte”)

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