w @xona

produced by sleepwater speedlmt leftquiet and xona

lyrics

i needed some revenge
but i dont wanna vent
can you hear me now
its hurting my head
stop shutting me down
you were half of me wow
but now your not here
i need a way out
u were liquid to me
maybe mixed w some sea
but now she is flying
i wanna retreat
guard my heart
while u stand
from the mill
its feeling far
when u tell me its real
how could i move on when
i dont even want to
ill let this go on
cos i dont know how to
miss you
another song where
i vent bout my issues
waitings long come rip
out my tissues
im so selfish
everyones got traumas
im not speaking can u let me follow her
do i need therapy or pills in my fucking head
my life expectancy
cheers for all this fucking stress

im escaping every night my fucking hed
pls dont aim in
counting on my fucking hed
collecting all my fucking debt
pounding hard right out my chest
guess im sleeping thats a flex
lets skip eating and have sex
what are you eating guess thats bread
what are you doing no no
who are you with now
its how it spread
would u even like me
cant u tell that im trying
oh pls just like me
i swear that im crying

xona
i thought i need to go and let loose of me
but I’m stuck inside where the sun don’t seep
so i just watch along as the days runs deep
and i got my tea in hand so I’m calm for the least
and i don’t know, who i could be
i feel alone, when there’s others around me
i can’t cope, you know it better than me
to let it go but I’m the worst you could be
to go back home
where I could find a home cause I feel alone
falling, dying right here for you

oh i dont wanna talk
im ruined

ruined w/xona

volume 1 on spotify, feb 3rd 

i don’t care if it’s lonely
i’m so sick of you just talking like you know me
and you could or you would if you didn’t go starting fires in this basement

oh…
hope you got everything you needed now
cause i’m burning every garden where we fell in love
and i’m killin’ every peasant that walks in this town
you know i’m painting the walls red till they scream for help

and i can bury every feeling that i’m feeling but i know that it’s just moments before i put the fucking gun in my mouth
you cut my heart and now it’s bleeding and i’m staring at the ceiling but the fuck do i expect when this is how it turns out?

oh why’d you go and make geist red
now he’s full of hate
i can’t stand to look at myself
not a fan of him
bodies scattered all across the hall
baby i don’t miss
so why’d go and makes me red
but i’m loving this...
i’ll fight an ego with a bigger one
i’ll hit another million
geistcord till the day i fucking die
but swear we’ve just begun
don’t care for anybody else
or anyone’s opinion
so go ahead and make geist red
red
red
red

i promise our love is dead [drma x lockhome]

@sadboykana
@tnvr555

// geist
said it wasn’t meant to be
i crossed a line
a line that you know you shouldn’t have drawn :/
i guess it was the ecstasy
the happiness
a time that u knew wouldn’t last long…

baby you were everything
and i mean everything that i had to call a home
so why’d you make me build these walls around me love
now honestly i feel like such a joke :(

so how to open up to a liar?
you know i’d hold your hand so close even if it’s over fires
and i can hate you all i want but you’re the one i admire
a dire feeling strikes my heart in ways i never desired
i’m tired
staying sober but my brain won’t rewire
and i‘ll never text you back so keep me blocked it won’t matter
and i swear my heart’s been hurting, it won’t stop, it’s been shattered
oh maybe in a different life you would have loved me like i loved you

like i loved you

// kana
catch me im falling
falling again
rain has come over
says that we're friends...
i feel so dead again
lay in my bed
wonder what’s left for me
wonder again
you were not good for me
i have regrets
wish that i needed you
less than i did...
holes in my chest
scars i cant fix...
i’m just like glass
broken again...

spotify

wish that i needed u, less than i did w/ kana [tnvr]

bubbles /
depends, can you go fuck yourself

hira /
i can see a lot of shit coming out of you 
throwing hands until my face turns a darker blue
the evil in your eyes is pouring out of you
i still wonder why, im never mad at you

you could have some decency 
left me vacant while youre down on your knees
i should be more patient 
but its hard to be
when youre out fucking anybody that

breathes

is it too much to ask for your time
love my patience is walking the line
save me
its not like youd try
fell too close
breaking my spine

too close i feel like an option
i keep tryna run girl 
run into the forest
i could use some safety
are you tryna hold me?
stop shaking
eyes are getting blurry

i dont trust nobody
but i saw you as family
its getting too warm im struggling to breathe
its blatant im nothing to see

i can see a lot of shit coming out of you 
throwing hands until my face turns a darker blue
the evil in your eyes is pouring out of you
i still wonder why, im never mad at you

you could have some decency 
left me vacant while youre down on your knees
i should be more patient 
but its hard to be
when youre out fucking anybody that

breathes

breathe

stay awake
stay awake with me
i can’t fall back asleep
stay awake
stay awake with me
insomnia is haunting all week
insomnia

stay awake
stay awake with me
i don’t want to die inside my dreams
lay here all night with me
i need you here to feel at ease

stay awake with me // insomnia [lil biscuit]

your eyes are so pretty
oh, i cant walk away
noooo
you turn my stone 
one word and ill break
so perfectly far
cause me to shake
try to be the best
no less then you deserve
but honestly im a mess
i feel like the worst

sie ist meine frau, meine liebe
says she hates the way i talk myself down
tells me im enough i dont believe her
filling my head with my own doubt
maa baayad baa ham baashim
and i believe it honestly
your eyes when i fall asleep
so close youre apart of me

trust no one like i trust you
none of my friends know what ive been through
maybe 2, ask how ive been lately
i dont expect them to save me
youre all i have
i run 
deep in the forest while you grasp my hand
turn back
i know hes out there waiting im back

im all over you 
back, say it back
oh i need you bad
youre my plus, im a negative
you sorta show me what its like to feel anything
and even though im so embarrasing
i feel like nothing really matters when youre next to me

oh my lord how the fuck did you save me
holding on to you, my blanket of safety
oh my love, now my body is aching
a thousand miles and an ocean, between my home
home
let me bring you home
home

(hand)

grasp my hand

No way you’ve run
No way you’d harvest 
All of my bones
All of the forest
Grass isn’t green 
I need to plant it
No room for seed 
Nowhere to hold it 

Im not your king 
Don’t let me breathe
Pull down my crown 
Get hold of me 
For all I’ve done 
This can’t be happening 
Reside my throne
A thousand miles away 

I don’t
I don’t really even need much
Just a little conversation and comfort and love 
You 
You don’t even care to explain
Ask for my advice I’ll leave you sitting on the pavement 
You look so basic when you walk around
Why you stringing him to get it you can get it now
Cause I don’t give a fuck if you desert me
But why you in a rush to downgrade, not learning 

Must not know how to treat someone adequate 
I’d love to see your broke self work outta this
There’s no way I’m in a rush to hear you calling
And thank god I won’t see you in the morning 
Yeah
Pissed off I make two fists
Knuckle broke in my hand but you knew this
He’s got one black eye, make it two
I’m not the type of person that you ever knew
It’s far from the end it’s not over yet
I’ve got four more bars written out for you
Little fuck face you’re a parasite 
Get down on your knees, not uncommon for you

Anxiety’s killing me
What’s left of my wrist starts to bleed
I walked through the forest 
and found someone who looks like you
These plants die around me
I’m in this hole deserted
I found myself hiding 
From anyone like you

It’s so late out here
All I can tell
Is that you’re better here 
and happier without me now
I’m such a hypocrite 
In all these songs I give
I keep complaining just to get off
And make myself worse

like you

prod. @tnvr555 & i'm geist 

let me guess
you'll bury me in the garden

you brought this on yourself klaus
remember that

i never forget betrayal, marcel
remember that

the blood is all over the covers
so wrap up my body and
say that you only meant well
if this isn’t torture enough
let the ocd kill me
cause the thoughts are driving me out

i’ve got a lot left to say
but well i’ll bite my tongue
cause i cannot speak up when you yell
feels like the pains always lasting forever
so i drink my sorrows
and sleep by myself

and i’ve learnt that poison
is hatred
the more that you have
oh the more that you’re killing yourself
and love is no cure
cause you cannot fix somebody
who doesn't want to be fixed for themselves

i’m sorry it’s my way
or the highway
and i don’t know what else
could i say
so i leave the words
left for the stage
cause i don’t know how
how else could i’d stay

when i’m bleeding you dry
and you open up my wounds
pouring your salt telling lies
and i
i don’t feel good tonight
and if i take another shot
i swear i might take my life

cause i’m no good at apologies
but i gave you my honesty
and honestly that’s all i would liked
and if i drop dead on this hill
i bet no one would be surprised

bite my tongue

bite my tongue [tnvr]

@prod-oc

i can’t fall asleep
when you’re not here with me
so promise that you’ll pay a visit in my dreams
my eyes they start to bleed
but please do not worry
i rather wipe the blood than what’s left of my tears

oh oh oh

saw my angel’s wings tore apart again
now i’m gone adrift no guardian
so ive lost some friends
it’s all part of it
but when i’m on top
don’t say my name

there’s that girl in red…
everybody seems to adore
got blood on my fit
now im starting to get real annoyed
and when winter’s gone
you’ll wonder why it’s still getting cold
with severed wings
you’re all sanctioned here
left to be doomed

doomed

doomed [oc]

oh
you’ve got everyone here fooled
it’s all an act
and you’ll use us like tools
i don’t have much left that i’d say to you
so i’ll take the fall
but i can’t play it cool

i watched the blood dripped till nothing was left
i pulled you in for a kiss then you laid me to rest
but those nights were my comfort
oh they were the best
what i would do to feel you on my chest

but the serpents got his tongue
inside of your mouth
i’m a devil of my word
mean what i say love
i can’t let you back in
cause you’d cut yourself out
and bring all of my insides
with you to the south
oh no

valentine?

oh oh me oh oh my
i can see in your eyes
all the blood on your face
used to paint on a smile
when i grip on your waist
and i feel your insides
yeah i’m back at your place
cause i’ve given up pride

oh oh me oh oh my
you know i don’t tell lies
cause when you told yours love
how it ruined my life
won’t let anyone feel
how i felt that night
so trust me or just don’t
i swear i don’t tell lies

bite my tongue [tnvr]

I'm Geist

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