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artwork @astrosux
@sendflowrs 
lyrics:
(kanashi)
ive been
waiting...
things are never changing
my mental state is still degrading...
and they all wanna switch up
tryna fight? put ur fuckin fists up 
and they all wanna talk 
but they dont wanna get none
try to walk the walk
but when u see me u gon' run 

u cant hide behind your little screens for too long
for too long

and u know it kills me!
i just wanna try to get along!
but these idiots make it so damn hard
and im sorry if i come off like an asshole
its just that ive got a lot of scars from ppl just like you
fake ass bitches in plain view
yeah you cant fool me 
i see right through 

i see right through!
i see right through you  !!


(sendflowrs)
i see right thru u
i dont wanna talk i just wanna fucking get offline
the shit that you do 
stresses me out control alt delete my life
look at your posts
you say you hate drama but u doing the most
fuck that, ur toast
fuck all ur friends theyre fuckin jokes

lemme calm down

i try to get along with you 
u talkin shit on all i do
like what the fuck is wrong with you?

i try to get along with you,
discord soldiers, all of you
lile what the fuck is wrong with you?

Spotify

too long ! [+sendflowrs & xmichaelwarren]

prod deadfish 
love you all <3

featured artist: https://soundcloud.com/heylog
socials:
https://www.instagram.com/deadfishig/

lyrics:

(I've kept on fucking up
and that's why
I can't keep it up
But now
I'm left here with no one
I gotta manage here on my own)

it's been so cold now
that I've been on my own now
I never want to wake up
these thought in my mind forever

No, I don't wanna hang out now
cause, too busy hating on myself
Just digging my grave deeper
til I meet the reaper
death to me is peace

I hate myself, all my cuts to prove that
I need a break, isolate from all of that
damn, it causes my mind to break
can you say that you relate?

So I've been
tryna find
anything that could help me
and therapy
isn't really perfect
I'm so close to pull the plug
I'm on my own
I'm on the edge

I'm so scared
nowhere to run
But I'm still sitting on my own
well, that's how
my day goes

[heylog]
you don't know
how much u mean to me
i stumble up on my feet
text u and never sleep
i'm happy, this can't be me
cut
me
off
write a song about us
oh numb
i'm hoping ur gone
u caught me a break
recover from loss
but still feel the same

[deadfish]
So I've been
tryna find
anything that could help me
and therapy
isn't really perfect
I'm so close to pull the plug
I'm on my own
I'm on the edge

I'm so scared
nowhere to run
But I'm still sitting on my own
well, that's how
my day goes

on my own

on my own (feat. heylog)

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/0ZSKl5rjtjWLQ3HI1moWyf
YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F8BufMqlNQI

Artist:
@decksmusic

Produced by
@sadboiforever

Lyrics:
i've been waiting for something, then i found her
i'm accustomed to silence so thats a first
maybe its all in my head
but i fuck up, then make up, and do it again

i've been waiting for something, then i found her
i'm accustomed to silence so thats a first
maybe its all in my head
but i fuck up, then make up, and do it again

and we watched as the stars fell down to earth
weather warm and the breeze gave a sudden burst
of life
to you and i
i remember
we started again that night

and it's easy to say
that i miss yesterday
but its all in my head now
that you're in my head now

and i'm frightened for sure
but you know that i'm yours
baby grab my hand
we could have one last dance

take me home
i need to see myself in the mirror
myself in the mirror
wake me up
'cause i have to see a little bit clearer
a little bit clearer

i've been waiting for something, then i found her
i'm accustomed to silence so thats a first
maybe its all in my head
but i fuck up, then make up, and do it again

i've been waiting for something, then i found her
i'm accustomed to silence so thats a first
maybe its all in my head
but i fuck up, then make up, and do it again

and we watched as the stars fell down to earth
weather warm and the breeze gave a sudden burst
of life
to you and i
i remember
we started again that night

and it's easy to say
that i miss yesterday
but its all in my head now
that you're in my head now

decks - one last dance (2001)

co produced w @speedlmt

lyric

i don't wanna die but i don't wanna try
when your not here w me i get a teary eye
my dreams are lucid, they gonna get you 
how can i prove it, that your the issue 

i got these tissues, oh fuck i miss u
will you be here soon so i can kiss u
i can't stop shaking im forever breaking
i know you like that, its never changing::(

decomposing in the mirror posing 
spooky black my father:3 stop diagnosing 
why do i bother, im controlling, im the victim. forever rolling;

a sob sandwich its kinda adequate
let me swallow it, these my bandages
songs just foru cos i said it is !
of grams not sedatives, dont know what day it is:(
pop another sedative?

i got these tissues, oh fuck i miss u
will you be here soon so i can kiss u
i can't stop shaking im forever breaking
i know you like that, its never changing::(

I DON'T WANNA DIE BUT I DON'T WANNA TRY
WHEN YOUR NOT HERE W ME I GET A TEARY EYE
MY DREAMS ARE LUCID, THEY GONNA GET YOU 
HOW CAN I PROVE IT, THAT YOUR THE ISSUE 
I GOT THESE TISSUES, OH FUCK I MISS U
WILL YOU BE HERE SOON SO I CAN KISS U
I CAN'T STOP SHAKING IM FOREVER BREAKING
I KNOW YOU LIKE THAT, ITS NEVER CHANGING

pine

in collaboration with @ytstatic

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lyrics -
push your mind use your head lift your eyelids 
go away’s what u said but i don’t mind it 
heard you tell your friends u slipped me medication 
struggle walking this all feels so simulated

oh my god 
‘just loosen up my friend’
‘you’re getting closer to the edge’
i but what if that’s what i want?
cut our ties we’ll meet again 
mental imprint of your name 
cos you’ll always be number one 

bruise around my neck 
i’m never ever comfortable 
don’t tell my im the best
when the best is so impossible 
mental suicide 
when i dream for unattainable 
tell me that u want it all

oh 
it won’t take long 
oh
you’re so cold 

just leave me here to die 
don’t lie to me be honest 
never ask why 
just smile and be a princess 
cant leave my state of mind 
but i’ll overcome i promise 
stay here by my side 
and you’ll never feel unwanted 

just leave me here to die 
don’t lie to me be honest 
never ask why 
just smile and be a princess 
cant leave my state of mind 
but i’ll overcome i promise 
stay here by my side 
and you’ll never feel unwanted 

just say 
what wrong with me 
i hate 
apologies 
but you can’t clearly see
the way we’re supposed to be 

no

following my heart 
but where does it go now 
left me in the dark 
with the memories and photos 
i don’t understand 
gotta walk a path solo 
i don’t wanna die 
but the thought is so

good for me?
that’s what u said 
honestly 
im not impressed 
pressure on my chest 
but i don’t mind no 

just leave me here to die 
don’t lie to me be honest 
never ask why 
just smile and be a princess 
cant leave my state of mind 
but i’ll overcome i promise 
stay here by my side 
and you’ll never feel unwanted 

just leave me here to die 
don’t lie to me be honest 
never ask why 
just smile and be a princess 
cant leave my state of mind 
but i’ll overcome i promise 
stay here by my side 
and you’ll never feel unwanted

unwanted

produced by hiraeth and heylog <3

You’ve got nothing to say to me
I’m drowning in the ocean
Always complain to me
I’m dealing with my own shit
Filling my vacancy
(Just breathe)
If I died tomorow I bet nobody’d even notice

harder to breathe
when ur around I’m losing focus
Trying to speak, the words can’t seem to leave my vocal
Getting likes on ig
cause ur half naked in the photos
I’m dying to sleep, if I wake up im meeting god bro

Stay closer to me
I swear that nobody can touch you
if they tried
I’d grit my teeth and fight them all for you
I’m tryna hide, stop tryna reason what I been thru
It’s not my time, I’d kill anyone laying next to you

never should've went for u
and i ain't know your friend exists
if that was the case i would restart and go for her instead
what a shame
u let your life to pieces
who's to blame
(you)
you're the only reason i can't focus
got me losing sleep
and shit oh how i own it
tell that b-
she can drink bleach
you let it out there in the open
u show yourself no respect
and i wonder if u know this

i'm tired of preaching cus babe it really-
babe it hurts from underneath
all the wasted memories
don't go down, get off your knees
it's not the time for any pleasing

bleach ft. heylog

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lyrics - 
i've been feeling low, MIA
i didn't wanna feel anyways
and i can see concern on your face
you never showed any lately

what the fuck is up?
yeah you're feeling left out?
and i ain't gonna lie that's the point
what i want now

i'm not okay
you heard me say

oh it's fine
don't you worry
cos i don't mind a little excess
lately i've been thinking that i'm just not in the best place
left me here alone so i texted 'coming back yet?'
couldn't bear to cry
cos i don't have any tears left

oh no, where you going? where you at now?
it's a shame that you don't like who i am now
too much for your love you just wanna be friends
i ain't here for this shit so let's run it again

And its fine
So I’ll just turn off my phone
You can’t fix me, many tried
Guess I’ll end up alone

It’s okay
I don’t know where I will go
Cause lately I been thinking
That it’s the end of the road

Someday you will wonder where I’m at now
You can’t really say I’ve never tried to
Get better, feel okay with who I am, how
Are you pinning all the blame on me, it’s who I am now

And now I can’t feel a thing
Went way too deep in this
The point of no return
And I’m just gone

You just never understood 
Why I am always feeling down
That’s why I never say it out loud
No point in sharing with no one

oh it's fine
don't you worry
cos i don't mind a little excess
lately i've been thinking that i'm just not in the best place
left me here alone so i texted 'coming back yet?'
couldn't bear to cry
cos i don't have any tears left

oh no, where you going? where you at now?
it's a shame that you don't like who i am now
too much for your love you just wanna be friends
i ain't here for this shit so let's run it again

excess (feat. deadfish)

people always talk like they know me 
no one sees the knife inside my heart as i slowly die 
feelings come alive and they’re burning  
i had all the patience in the world but now i don’t try 
it’s a waste of time 
everyone walks out my life 
i say goodbye 
you’ve heard that line 
but i remember every night 
 
hey 
i’m afraid love 
lately it’s more than i just can’t wake up 
stay? 
cause i need you 
but you don’t feel the same and it’s so see through 
 
(oh i just want to go home) 

try to act like i’m tough 
cant even stomach the thought of my blood 
i want to paint walls red when i’m in love 
i want to paint walls red 
i want to paint walls red oh 
try to act like enough 
can’t even stomach the thought of you now  
i want to paint walls red when i’m in love 
i want to paint walls red 
i want to paint walls red oh...

i want to paint walls red [drma x michael harrison]

good night
enjoy

lyrics:
tell me how to feel
tell me how to live
clearly i dont know
cuz now i rly cant forgive
put ur heart in a keepsake 
tellin him shit that we’d say
i smoke up for the relay
used to think that every
thing i’d say was backwards
shit i didnt matter
hard to cope at all
when i hear is all the chatter
my mind is fixed on my passion
i struggle with takin action

how can i forget?
easily in fact
u make it so hard to love u
& god i’d love to
but fuck no after that

how can i forget?
everything we had
clearly its not a struggle
if u can figure it
out then its not bad

tell me how to cope
late december snow
blurry photographs
its chilly in the autumn cold
u know i miss u, farther
than we’ve been before
i know it got too hard
thats why im gone for good

how can i forget?
easily in fact
u make it so hard to love u
& god i’d love to
but fuck no after that

how can i forget?
everything we had
clearly its not a struggle
if u can figure it
out then its not bad

easily, in fact [autrioly]

@victmolina 
@prodjpjp

// lyrics
across the ocean
there was nothing left
well left unspoken
body’s trembling
but i won’t show it
through oversized clothing
body’s broken
yeah there’s nothing left

what did you try to find?
deep inside it’s all just black and white
i won’t try to hide
but i can’t seem to get my story right

so open your eyes
tell me goodbye
it’s not worth to fight
a thousand times
so leave me behind
don’t say that we’re fine
cause it still hurts me
every single night

how could i have known
that you felt this way
you never spoke out
i could barely hear
you when you broke down
we’re both trembling
our bones are sore now
there’s no way to hold you up and

can we even try
just to close our eyes
imagine a world where we don’t collide
think of a reason to stay alive

think of a reason to stay alive
oh woah
think of a reason to stay alive
oh woah

what did you try to find?
deep inside it’s all just black and white
i won’t try to hide
but i can’t seem to get my story right

so open your eyes
tell me goodbye
it’s not worth to fight
a thousand times
so leave me behind
don’t say that we’re fine
cause it still hurts me
every single night

collide w/ vict molina [jpjp]

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