Featuring @ihateshinigami
Produced by @horoshavibes
Art by Kat (artstation.com/katieimbro)

LYRICS
I've been living in a dream for far too long
Desperately in need of
Someone to wake me up
Stuck in a state of
Suspended animation
Can't escape this simulation
And it's getting harder just to fake it

Nothing seems to stimulate me
And all the while I'm deteriorating
Feel like everybody hates me
Can't get out of my head
 
I've seen the world for what it is and I'm not convinced
There's gotta be something more to all of this
If ignorance is bliss than I
Am living in a paradise

(Horosha)
If all of this is just a dream
Then what visions will we see
When we wake up
Do I even want to know

(shinigami)
I’ve been living in a dream
Everything feels so far from me
I can’t tell if I’m asleep
I just really need you here next to me

And I just wanna give you the best of me
Butterflies every time that you’re texting me
Sick and tired of turning in my sheets
Lately it’s been really hard to breathe

I can’t take this anymore
Hands to my chest I’m on the floor
Wanna live a good life ‘cause this shit’s short
That’s one thing I know for sure

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Suspended Animation w/ shinigami (Prod. Horosha)

Mastered by Hector Vega

I bite down and bite hard
Wake up at the crack of dawn
Don't notice, must've beat it over your head
Chew me up, spit me out before you can swallow
I peel my eyes open
Everyone knows and nobody cares
I know it's you, cause I know how it feels
When your hands' in my hair
I peel my eyes open
Everyone knows and nobody cares
I'm all dolled up for you, I'm not stupid
If you're not the hawk like you said
Say it again... just for me
And it always ends the same, I'm in your mouth again
I'll ride your coattails if I can't reach the rest of you
I know it's you, cause I know how it feels
When your hands' in my hair
I peel my eyes open
Everyone knows and nobody cares
Chew me up, spit me out before you can swallow
I peel my eyes open
Everyone knows and nobody cares
I peel my eyes open
Everyone knows and nobody cares
I peel my eyes open
Everyone knows and nobody cares

Cage Girl

cage girl (single ver)

~2300~

Lyrics:
[HOOK]
Fuck it I'm sick I'm bad at responding
Losing my grip what I had wasn't constant 
Watching your lips but I don't hear you talking 
Taking more risk 'cause I'm all out of options 
I can't fall for you right now
I don't mean that
Actually I get real scared you believe that 
Falling in love treat a girl like a relapse 
Breaking my trust like I don't really need that

[VERSE]
Finally feel something
I thought it all hurt
Where is the real substance
I felt like all her
Personality was just a fabrication
Out of desperation for validation
So don't walk in my shoes
I don't feel the same I am nothing like you 
There's nobody to blame for your lack of IQ 
You never feel shame when they talk about you 
You know what you do

[HOOK]
Fuck it I'm sick I'm bad at responding
Losing my grip what I had wasn't constant 
Watching your lips but I don't hear you talking 
Taking more risk 'cause I'm all out of options 
I can't fall for you right now
I don't mean that
Actually I get real scared you believe that 
Falling in love treat a girl like a relapse 
Breaking my trust like I don't really need that

Constant (prod. King Theta)

Dust bowl [ethel cain cover]

@prod-plxce

// lyrics 
don’t speak to me in tongues
and smiles so counterfeit
you think we’ve just begun
but love i’m over it
time has passed and i can’t take more damage
leave me alone i want to call it quits

took a punch to the face??
and now i’m bleeding on the dance floor
fuck! i’m sorta overthinking screaming bout your manwhores :D
knew the feeling would devour everything i’ve fought for
so go on and tell all your lies
you better sleep with your lights ;)

hate me, hate me
guess i saw it coming
but don’t shame me, baby
all i ever gave was my love
crazy lately
i just want to fucking give up :/
but everybody’s screaming my name
i cannot let them down :)
x2

put the knife in my hand and you’re gaslighting the whole room now
don’t you wait for a sign, promise that it’s already ruined love
i tried my best to salvage what had remained
cracked my skull against the pavement, pulling worms out of my brain

i’m getting lost with these feelings inside
made me feel stupid for living a lie
covered in blood but you know that i tried
to leave it behind
but we watched it die

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HATE ME! [PLXCE]

~ i hope wishes come true ~

i had thought these feelings were gone 
i guess i was wrong, and i won't stay in place
i've gotta try and be strong
the summer's gonna be long 
without your face
tiptoe around my heart in your heels
i hate when you're not around
i love how you make me feel 
and i just thought i'd put it in song 
hope you're singing along 
whenever i say 

you're living like you're a dandelion 
yeah you ease the pain when the stress is high 
yeah you bring the things that i missed in life 
with your country twang and your dreamy eyes 
your spirits like a whirling fire 
i'm a moth in flight, and i'm drawn to your light 
i don't care if i have no songs to write
everything's just fine when your by my side
dandelion

dandelion

@prodjpjp

sorry 

// lyrics 
pretty eyes
but we’re holding on to what love?
you know that i tried
but it never was enough oh
tell me all your lies
how am i supposed to trust now
i’ll sing another song
how i always watched it die

oh oh oh
i don’t want to fight
i just want to go home
i’m so scared i’ll die
in my bedroom all alone
looking for my heart
but i’m finding only bones
is it lost for good?

oh oh oh
i don’t want to cry
but my tears flooding the floor
drove 100 miles
but i think it’s time i go
and when we said goodbye
i could feel it in my bones
this time it’s for good 

oh oh oh 
i feel it in my bones 
goodbye

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goodbye [jpjp]

people always talk like they know me 
no one sees the knife inside my heart as i slowly die 
feelings come alive and they’re burning  
i had all the patience in the world but now i don’t try 
it’s a waste of time 
everyone walks out my life 
i say goodbye 
you’ve heard that line 
but i remember every night 
 
hey 
i’m afraid love 
lately it’s more than i just can’t wake up 
stay? 
cause i need you 
but you don’t feel the same and it’s so see through 
 
(oh i just want to go home) 

try to act like i’m tough 
cant even stomach the thought of my blood 
i want to paint walls red when i’m in love 
i want to paint walls red 
i want to paint walls red oh 
try to act like enough 
can’t even stomach the thought of you now  
i want to paint walls red when i’m in love 
i want to paint walls red 
i want to paint walls red oh...

i want to paint walls red [drma x michael harrison]

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lyrics - 

give the kinda love that i need right back
kinda on the fence but i'll take my chance
tired of the mistakes making me sad
can't get the thought of you outta my head

where do i go?
who can i trust to leave me alone
put on a show then go home
dying to know
i hate and i loathe
written in stone the words saying
'love you'

i'm missing all the memories
i can feel your soul slowly making less of me
safe to say it hurt to watch you leave
now there's no one left to help me here

you're feeling alone on a friday evening
try to hold on love i'm trying to see you
i know you're hurting, you stumble bleeding
i'll keep you whole
you're scared 
you can hold my hand
we'll walk alone, no light to guide
but i know where your heart is
and i know how you're feeling now

let go don't cry just

you're sick to death of me
you hoped i feel the same but it's
just too much to leave here
i'm dealing with the shame of it
thinking that you loved me
i cry and medicate
it's just too much to intake
i'll try my fucking best i
didn't wanna calm down
i'm tryna come to terms with it
molded my emotion
to feel like you're controlling it
so what's it gonna take right now?
gotta keep my feet on the ground

now that love has washed away
contemplating life and i’m sure you can relate
and i’ve seen better days
recently been bitter what’s the point if i ain’t gonna make it in life
i’m always stuck by your side
and can you do me the same
and stay close to mine

don’t leave now i still haven’t kissed you
when you walk out my house i already miss you
let’s snuggle here in the back of my car
our eyes meet the galaxy, we’re counting the stars
my dad says i need to be home before eleven
but she does not want me leave, “logan stay a second” 
a couple hours isn’t very long to spend that time with you
and i finally got the gut to lean in and kiss you

mistake w/heylog

@lilskeleskrrt
@prodjpjp

// geist
don’t look at me and tell me no hard feelings
blood was lost, it’s dripping through the ceiling
i saw this coming from a mile away
the knife was left in my chest for a reason
but i wish you the best forever, you win
i don’t want to fall in love with hate

i just wanted to dance
when your hand’s in my hand i feel my heart is racing
lost in a trance
but now i’m alone and i rot in this basement
there’s blood on my hands
and i paint the walls red when given a chance
oh don’t give me that glance
your eyes tell me secrets my heart cannot stand

oh
the knife was left for a reason :/
oh
wish you the best forever you win...

// skele
cut me right thru
baby you don’t need a panic
watch it pour out
darling isn’t it romantic
it’s like paradise
fading out
only you and i
somebody call the surgeon
tell him that it’s urgent
on the table stained red
i told you
i think that it was worth it
this is perfect
if you hold me as i go
i’ll wait up there for certain

and you
are
the reason
that i lay awake
staying up
i’ve been stuck here for days
hold my heart
in ur hand till breaks

don’t keep telling me to let go
screaming out
i stop to listen to the echo
not enough
fucking tearing up my throat
i’ll keep going
till the blood
makes me choke
what you know
baby tell me where you go at night
empty out this bed
i’m still not feeling right
staring at my meds
i’m on the borderline
walk along the edge
i don’t feel alive

paradise w/ skele [jpjp]

You should kill me, kill me, kill me
Not the real me, real me, real me
I don’t see him
Breathing, breathing
You don’t need him, need him, need him oh
And I always think about you when im sitting in the dark
Swear I feel your breath putting pressure on my arm
But what the fuck do I know
Im sat here waiting for some truth to be told

Better, know you could be wetter
Pussy so bad he pulled a weapon
My love I don’t know what you’re selling
Too bad im bought in descension

Oh god I don’t know what to get
Two minds im not losing again
What the fuck you think you’re doing in bed
I look away and now you’re fucking again

bought in descension 

This must be the end of everything that I know
Her nails are cutting marks into the back of my throat
No matter how much I clean it won’t go
Fuck you never call me your bro

You don’t give a fuck, you don’t give a fuck
I thought you had a question
Am I not good enough?
Given up now, given up
I let my guard down
Ive had enough

youre moving backwards 
give me some time, 
gimme me some space to relax love
You don’t want that
Feeling pressure around my neck love
im going fast
Imma turn my car right 
just to call it a crash
I can see you going down 
but you didnt ask
You don’t wanna try 
bitch you never have
Ruining a life that you never had
let him knock you up just to get me back
Fucking tapped

Descension

should have 
should have been my body
should have 
should have been my body

ill never get another chance now
and i dont want it, i just want you back now
i cannot deal with all these faces looking at me
i really think it should have been my body

ive been lost now for a while and i need some help
but none of my friends even seem to care
throw me on the ground while youre walking out
say its all because of me you know its not fair

have so much to tell you bout my come down
its not funny its not funny im still bleeding
how much do i need for me to pass out
if im gone before the morning then i need it

i really thought i tried my best
im putting all my scent across your messsages
just to ruin it again
youre my love and all my medicine

whats stopping me
nobody can stop me now
what is happening 
words barely leaving my mouth
but im lost again
gaps of air barely creep out
im asleep again
i dont mean to let you down

ive been lost now for a while and i need some help
but none of my friends even seem to care
throw me on the ground while youre walking out
say its all because of me you know its not fair

have so much to tell you bout my come down
its not funny its not funny im still bleeding
how much do i need for me to pass out
if im gone before the morning then i need it

should have
should have been my body...

body

@prod-oc

oh
so what’s left here to see
cause it’s never just me
and i’ll never move past all the feelings

oh what it is you’ll be?
when it comes crumbling
will you leave and forget me all once again?

well the danger it comes
rips inside like it always does
take what you want
and you’ll take it all
then ask me it is i feel so alone
oh oh oh
ask you why it is u scrape up my bones
oh oh oh
the light inside your eyes has gone cold
it’s gone cold

so go on walk away
but i won’t take the blame
cause love is all i had to give to you
and i’ll stay wide awake
as the devils advocate
to tell you that this shit
won’t last forever

go back to sleep
savor your dreams
where you can still hold my hand
and when it all bleeds
you’ll see it’s not real
will you wish that i was there

don't be fooled

…
drop dead gorgeous
to the bone
to the scars
oh she’s an actress
top cropped
right below of her heart
and oh her eye’s red
asked me
why i’m alone in the dark
oh my :/
god damn
i just lost all of the stars again..

i can’t tell who’s really a friend of me
couldn’t stop giving love to all my enemies
then i crawl back to you whenever i freeze
cause i don’t know warmth anywhere else

devil's advocate

devil's advocate [oc]

oh
you’ve got everyone here fooled
it’s all an act
and you’ll use us like tools
i don’t have much left that i’d say to you
so i’ll take the fall
but i can’t play it cool

i watched the blood dripped till nothing was left
i pulled you in for a kiss then you laid me to rest
but those nights were my comfort
oh they were the best
what i would do to feel you on my chest

but the serpents got his tongue
inside of your mouth
i’m a devil of my word
mean what i say love
i can’t let you back in
cause you’d cut yourself out
and bring all of my insides
with you to the south
oh no

valentine?

oh oh me oh oh my
i can see in your eyes
all the blood on your face
used to paint on a smile
when i grip on your waist
and i feel your insides
yeah i’m back at your place
cause i’ve given up pride

oh oh me oh oh my
you know i don’t tell lies
cause when you told yours love
how it ruined my life
won’t let anyone feel
how i felt that night
so trust me or just don’t
i swear i don’t tell lies

HATE ME! [PLXCE]

I'm Geist

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