Utopia

All of my free days, all my right ways
And all of my REM sleep nights
You got inside, and made me try
I stood beside and simply watched how
quickly time flies with life

New month and new room
New sun and new moon
New year, truth and dare
New me without you

You are there, being where
I would only hope to be
I Don’t care, don’t care
I’m not lost or confused, but free

We are letting us be
I promise to leave
so that you won’t need me
You were nice to see
But I am crossing a new sea
To be




And this time I
am greeting autumn
The warmth
Was left behind

I took your light
And let it lead my way
But I will fight myself to find
The blue, the grey, and not just black and white

Time spent, and life dreamt
But in the end, I cannot end it
So, the fall is here, new year is near
And you, and me, and all that was not real
Is trading spots with pain that I must feel

Utopia

Wasn’t it great? The way the trees are throwing deep shade
But you fade, 

and you tell me you are empty inside
But see, I don’t have an image in mind
We laugh and shake it off, and then you leave, and I back off

I’ve been through the night myself, yes, it’s true, and see I made it out well
You’ll pull through too, oh the things you’ll do, I believe in you

You are sad, but who wouldn’t be, the  world is so mad
Spite them out, bite it down, as long as you won’t take the bait
We’ll leave these ruins and build our own state, or own happy fate, 
So no rush, it’ll be great, just you wait

Happy to see, 
The sky as always is so very blue, the summer is talking to you, 
Rings through cracks, but there was nothing but wrecks
Said I’m coming again, I’ll be back, we’ll see each other when my work is done
We’ll have fun 

We’ll find a place, where I’ll have my order and you’ll have your mess
I don’t think we need a new page, we’ll be okay in this day and age
And if you don’t change your date, I’ll take the calendar away, and 
Build a stage, for you to shine today, is tomorrow too late, 
Please wait

Beat: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mArmqAXLo7Y

Please wait

Can I ask if I may
Get struck by your light beam?
Is it okay 
That I really want to live in this dream?

To which army should I enlist
For a chance to be in your league
It’s the muse that I try to resist
But the fight ends with battle fatigue

Why all the strings that I pulled myself for
Suddenly became a metal chain
Years of work and internal war
Would never be needed if you came

I can say now, this is honestly so funny
That today, when I don’t dare to think ahead
I can’t help it that the sky is sunny
You are the only thing I can get out on paper from my head

I was never dreaming of expectations to crush
Just as I’m prepared to feel amiss
Instead of a sand planet, I entered a gold rush
Life must be unpredictable, if mine became this

I feel that this road can take me far
Does it have to be covered in mist?
I like to guide my way with navigators, not a very distant star
So I resist, resist, resist

Beat

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hg68-rFU-vw

Distant star

Can I one day, just out of the blue
Become the moon that’s reflecting the moon
I keep thinking, as exams fall though
Thinking too much is a doom

Here’s to dreams that a ray of light
That alone could suffice to make me bright
Watching others line up, is that right?
There’s no plan, but I don’t want to fight

Congrats, I somewhat managed to become
Like those whom I judged to be no fun
Just how can I keep living and breathing
When every shadow suddenly shows reason?

You know, it’s not that easy to go on
when I can’t find something to condone
The smiles, the nodes, those “I understand”
Are now ground for me to stand

What other faces did I see upside down?
What other flaws I made up to keep the frown?
Did I build my home in your made-up town
I wonder, as I get to the bottom, and I drown

Live and let live, and leave, and lie
It’s eye-opening to turn a blind eye
What if it’s a fact that no one’s a bad guy
But a question mark could quickly reach your sky

What do I know, and how to know I know it?
What a boring mind, and what a lack of grit
Oh do you pride yourself on being real?
That’s why you’ll never change the way they feel

The building fell apart, and it fell flat
It was also real - but could you like that? 
Popping pills to level the field
Boring, boring, what’s the big deal?

What words did I ever read from right to left?
What other letters did I circle on the test?
That angle, and this angle, who cares what’s best?
I am simply at rest

Boring

Was it really all I had to say?
Asking was always more fun
Why today is really today?
And why today does it hurt to run?

What’s the point of looking through glass?
Things are slipping away, and it’s life
I can’t see anything in advance
Hoping to touch the bottom, I dive

But you know, the circle was torn
And your name now to me sounds broken
And it’s like it was never before
Our helios are forever unspoken

Will you ever know, what a joke
And the fingertips are feeling the void
But you know what you doing, I hope
And the sparks were for me to avoid

Where you once sparked, nothing shined
I hope you know, you left streets in the dark
The roads that once were so refined
Are crumbling below the arc

When you will leave, I will be okay
It’s not like anything ever went wrong
But do you know that you closed the way
For something realer to come along

And there are no words and no melody
Just like there was ever no hope
I don’t think I’ll ever find a remedy
And I can’t step up and find a stop

Things were going rather along
And my heart was never broken up
But how can eyes see so far and so wrong
I truly don’t know, but I hope you do.

Beat: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MkU9oKL_tik

All I have to say

Keeping my indie experiments
Don't have the lyrics because I don't remember them

Beat: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fO1VPVVbkfc

left behind

Beat: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wTfUaXa84yU

I'm sorry

Beat: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s9y6_ClE5YM

I hope

Beat: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g2HFp5wrONU

They know

The words I said, the  thoughts I shared back then
I only hope that you don’t care
What I feel is just no deal, at all
Are you aware?

I’m passing time
Confessing future crimes
But that alone 
cant make you cry?

Life is boring, 
And I’m not scoring
Highly anywhere really, so I complain

Say I’m in pain, sending your love down the drain
So could you come back, to glue a wreck and save this day?

I will keep calling
And you keep falling
For the words I say when I’m insane

I am so sorry
For this sad story
For adding load to your heavy day

Not hiding tears, and painting fears for all to know
I could get out, but I’m in doubt, it’s all so useless without you by my side

All the empty haste, the health I waste
Soon, I’ll need people to help me stand
Yet I’m not scared, yet I keep moving
Because I can feel that you are holding my hand

The sun is up, and I am down
Hours are hollow, not worth a dime
I’m here waiting for you to allow me
To fill my empty day with your time

Will you forgive me when I get better
When I won’t stutter, will you hear me talk?

When I move forward, will you spare me a moment?
Will we find roads that we can walk

Jennie Do